Coming your way every Wednesday, join me on a whimsical, informative and at times profound journey into the depths of healing the soul………..mine……..yours………..the whole planet!
Coming your way every Wednesday, join me on a whimsical, informative and at times profound journey into the depths of healing the soul………..mine……..yours………..the whole planet!
I know I said I would write a post on dance this week, but there is too much going on that I would like to talk about. Last week I was exploring being triggered and challenging the programming that wanted to catastrophise the possible outcomes. It ended up being fine and now I just need to be ok with uncertainty and to keep doing things that I love and especially loving me. That doesn’t however stop me from being affected by the planets, or so it would seem! We just had a New Moon on the cusp of Aquarius and Pisces, it heralded the beginning of the Chinese New Year. Haven’t had a chance to check out what that is all about but I think it’s the year of the sheep or goat.
Mystic Mamma said that it meant true fundamental change , and I do know that Pisces is emotional and watery. Where I live we’ve had a cyclone and then a big storm bringing us tons of rain so it seemed very watery indeed, I got all excited tonight when I looked up into the sky and could see stars! It’s been quite a few days since we saw anything but clouds and I am in the hills so we got mist too. Very Mists of Avalon!
So there was the rain and that seemed a bit epic even though the cyclone kept being downgraded. But the real dramatic conclusion to the weekend came as my Beloved and I drove down the long steep driveway that leads down to our dance venue. It’s called Worldview and has views to the coast, it truly does feel as if you can see the world from that place. So here we are going down the driveway when my Beloved stops the car about a third of the way down. It took both of us a moment or two to process what was in front of us, the huge presence of earth and busted trees. All of a sudden our forward momentum was completely halted and it was very clear that we were not going to be running a dance that night after all.
The interesting thing is that on some level I wasn’t entirely surprised, our theme was “Songs for the Earth” and here we were faced literally with the element of Earth. Seems that the Mother didn’t want us to do our dance last Sunday, we did a journey ourselves instead and I received a big vision about taking our dance out into the wider community. Doesn’t mean we won’t keep dancing close to home but it is something we really enjoy and would like to share with as many people as possible. There is a part of me that is a bit confronted by this notion but I am determined to explore the possibilities that spring up in the wake of this vision. Or at least take the first exploratory step in the direction of this vision, if I focus on the steps one at a time I won’t get overwhelmed and the part of me that is a bit scared will cope much better.
There is massive change moving deeply within me and if I manage it well it may well bring some very positive shifts and changes into the life that my Beloved and I are creating together. So plan one step at a time, love myself and what I do, and remember to laugh as much as possible, a recipe for a happy and fulfilling life!
May all of you out there be happy and well, love and blissings to you all!
One thing is quite sure about this journey through a physical incarnation, as we expand into our fullness there are many opportunities to practice new understandings. That’s if you happen to be paying attention, and why wouldn’t you in this marvelous and magical creation that is the planet Gaia! As a matter of fact the next theme for our Ecstatic Dance is “Songs of the Earth”. so my Beloved and I are in the process of exploring this notion in the form of a sonic landscape. How people choose to move through it is their choice, a mirror of where they are in their journey. More on ecstatic dance next week but if you would like to check out details on our next dance here is the link to our Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/groups/malenydance/
I have been feeling strong energies since the summer solstice of 2014 and it just keeps getting stronger as we move through the early months of 2015. I’m no expert on astrology so when I want to know more about what I’m feeling I often have a look at Mystic Mamma: http://www.mysticmamma.com/wiping-the-slate-clean-astrology-for-february-2015-by-sarah-varcas/ We have two new moons in February and the one that is coming in on 18/19 is on the cusp of Aquarius and Pisces. I know a bit about Aquarius as it is my sun sign and this moon is all about commitment to fundamental change.
I’ve noticed old beliefs and patterns of behaviour being massively challenged already and as such they can be very uncomfortable indeed. This happened for me a week and a half ago and I had the opportunity to watch my reactions as I was very triggered by an incident that occurred. Then there was a waiting period where I didn’t know if I would have to deal with it the next week or not. I tuned in and was told that it wouldn’t happen again but I watched my mind doing its best to catastrophise possible outcomes. A book I’ve been reading about a near death experience was incredibly helpful as I was reminded to focus on loving myself and what I do. My mind would try to fall into the old pattern and each time I noticed this I replaced it with thoughts of how much I love what I do. It was particularly interesting to notice how attached I felt to the negative projections into the future.
So I’ve decided to really focus on this tendency for my mind to run into negative grooves, and when I notice that it’s happening, to switch gears into a more positive frame. Just been tested again actually, had an email to do with work that has set the fear in my belly moving once again. So I’m sitting here and focusing on loving myself as I encourage my mind to explore the positive outcomes, which are in fact much more likely to occur anyway! It would be easy to go into overwhelm at this point so I will give myself a bit of time with this issue and then let it go for the evening.
Ahhhh for a magic wand ! Mmmmmmmm………oh that’s right, I am the magic wand!! And so are you, and you and you………… lets all be the marvelous creatures that we truly are, much love and blissings to you all.
I generally begin a reading with the question, “Is there anything particular you would like to focus on? Some folks have very specific questions they want answered while others may simply be looking for a little direction or guidance. Curiosity or a sense that having a reading might be a good idea can also draw people to seek me out. If they don’t have a specific issue or question then I often say to them to, “Hold the question ‘what do I need to know'” in their mind’s eye, as they handle the cards. So having some kind of intention is a very good place to start, it’s something that is helpful in any process where you are exploring the inner realms.
The next step is for me to open myself up to spirit as I ask for how many cards are required in the spread. Then when they have been chosen I lay them out intuitively, the pattern is rarely exactly the same. If I am doing a reading online or by phone I am a little less formal with the cards and will often pull them out as I go, whichever the medium the message is the same. The cards are a focus but what you get is much more than simply an explanation of the meaning of a particular card. The same card can turn up in different people’s readings and even though it has a certain ‘feel’ to it, what I say to each person may be quite different. I don’t ‘think’ about it with my mind, I allow my intuitive self to open and allow the information to come rolling in. It is a capacity that we all have but like anything the more that you practice it the better you get.
From this point the reading will take shape according to many factors, in a way each reading I do has its own life and shape. I may do most or all of the talking, or my client may have lots of questions about what is coming up. Even if I am doing most of the talking it is very much an interactive process with a deeper exchange occurring below the surface level of words and the conscious mind. You can ask as many questions as you like, more and more I find strong and clear responses coming through and if there is any uncertainty about which way something might go that is usually clear as well. I always try to be as honest as I can about what I am saying, if it looks tough then I do call a spade a spade!
I’ve also done quite a few readings for couples, some newly weds and they always seem quite delighted with the process. Luckily I didn’t see any break ups for any of those couples, but if it was there I would find a way to convey the message. Even the challenges in my readings can be seen as opportunities to expand and grow, sometimes letting go can be a part of that. We might indeed need to consider ending a relationship or friendship, sometimes we are letting go of our own limiting beliefs. I am reminded of the chinese character for crisis, there are two symbols, one means danger and the other opportunity.
So if you are a seeker looking for guidance on your path, if you are simply curious, go to the contact page and either send me an email or a text with details of how you would like to connect with me for a reading.
I’d like to tell you a bit about how I got into doing psychic readings, an interesting direction for someone who as a teenager used to say, “Oh no I’m not psychic, that’s mum’s department.” It all began when my mother gave me the Mythic Tarot when I was 17 years old, a year or so after my father killed himself. I was pretty messed up as you can imagine and I spent many all nighters trying to make sense of all the confusion whirling around inside of me. The tarot cards quickly became an important tool for me and I did reading after reading for myself, in this way I came to know the cards.
In my early twenties I began doing readings for friends and over time I began to make more and more sense of what the cards were telling me. All of a sudden a pattern would reveal itself and I could see how the cards in a layout were connecting with each other. Eventually I became confident enough to start charging people for readings and judging by the responses I got the readings were pretty accurate. My mother always used to say that I gave an overview of the current situation in a nutshell, with the possibilities for the future radiating out from that place.
Over the years there has been a continuing evolution and expansion of my intuition that is directly related to my obsessive focus on self-healing. As I have healed layer upon layer of trauma I have become a much clearer channel for spirit to flow through. It’s a bit like cleaning a saucepan that you’ve burnt something in, at first it seems like it will never get clean no matter how long you spend scrubbing it. But if you persist and keep coming back to it there is a magical moment when you can see that it will come good, the darkness begins to disappear and the possibility of wholeness is all lit up.
A couple of years ago I got a kick up the bum from spirit in the form of a client who I connected with quite briefly, he encouraged me to get rid of the cards completely! But it wasn’t about me slavishly following his suggestions, his role was to shake me up and to get me thinking about the way I was doing my readings. Over thirty-three years of using the mythic tarot I had become so familiar with the cards that I had fallen into a bit of a rut. So I got a new pack of cards and I completely let go of the particular layout that I had been doing for so long. Now I channel through how many cards we need and the layout follows no set pattern, it’s interesting to see how the way the cards are placed adds extra meaning to it all.
At the same time I have been reaching that place where bits of me have become very clear and it’s so much easier for the information to come through, I simply step out of the way! It’s easier for me and generally makes for more accurate readings too. My studies in counselling and my work as a crisis counsellor have also helped enormously in the way that I communicate the information that comes through for my clients. In fact I am enjoying doing readings now more than ever and have decided to make it an even stronger focus in my working life.
So if a reading is something that you think might have benefit for you in your current journey please consider getting in touch with me. If you can’t see me in person then I am very happy to connect with you by phone or on Skype, payment is easily arranged by pay-pal or internet transfer.
And stay tuned for my next post where I will go into more depth on what a reading with me might look like and how it might be useful in a practical way in your everyday life.
Here is the final part of my snake story, as I read over what I wrote at the end of 2012 I can see with hindsight that I was pretty much spot on with the conclusions that I drew from my encounter with the reptilian realm.
With the chrissy whirl still going round and round I’ve had no time to research the significance of the snake, but it is a medicine that has come to me before and so I have some idea of its meaning for me. Snakes have the ability to unhinge their jaws and take in animals much larger than themselves, having taken this huge mouthful they then slowly but surely digest their food. I am learning a lot at the moment with this blog, for me getting started was the big mouthful and now as I am doing it I begin to make sense of what I am doing, understanding and integration slowly unfolding through the digestive juices of my mind and intuition.
This is also a time of transformation on a personal and global level, and this is probably the best known aspect of snake medicine. Letting go of the old is necessary in order to transform into new shapes just as the snake sheds its skin in order to be reborn. I am shifting from the old Kerry who was insecure, felt unworthy, and could not allow abundance to flow in her life, into a new improved model, like going from a broken down bomb to a sleek red Ferrari!
As I engage the gears of this new bio machine I feel the power within, and the life force flows through my being like sunshine glinting on the sea or a beautiful flower opening to the light. I feel enormous gratitude to the python for the message that it brought, it matters not that we are always this magnificent creature for we do forget how wondrous we are and need to be reminded over and over again, in a world that often tries to cover this burning truth.
And the reminders keep coming as I enter into the energy of 2015, the shadow will always be getting triggered if you are engaged with life. And there has been so much coming up for me, and I keep meeting it and clearing and my life continues to get better! I am really settling into my beautiful partnership with my gorgeous man, we have been in a love bubble for two but are beginning to expand that into something much larger. And part of that is me growing and evolving as an individual, we are spending a bit more time away from each other and that’s a good thing. It feels a bit strange at first when we have been together so very much, but I know that it will make our relationship even stronger in the long-term. And we are in for the long haul my Beloved and I.
And there is exciting new growth for me as a psychic reader which I will share with you next week. Time to put action to inspiration and see how spirit responds to my passion and focus! Sending you all BIG love and lashings of blissings…….
I woke the following morning with things to do and no sign of the python so I opened the front door and left the connecting door closed hoping that the snake would take the opportunity to escape. There was no sign of it that day or the next and I began to hope that it had indeed slithered its way out of the house because I still had no idea what to do with the darn thing. I wasn’t frightened of it but I had no idea what to do with it, I knew that pythons are not aggressive or venomous but I didn’t really know how it would react if I tried to pick it up.
On the sunday evening I had been out all day and when I turned the light on for the front room lo and behold, there was the python, curled up on a pot plant crushing the life out of the poor thing. This was the closest to the door it had been, surely there was some way I could get it to go out the front door. I got a broom and tried poking it but the snake merely raised its head and looked at me with its tiny eyes, what to do? Then I had a brain wave, the pot plant was on a small table and so I pushed the table over to the door. I had to push the table half way out the door but the snake eventually got the idea and slid its way down onto the verandah and slithered away into the night, thank the Goddess, I had managed to solve the problem all by myself.
A good story to dine out on, but of course there is a deeper understanding that may be gleaned from this tale, the snake is a symbol rich in meaning and it came into the house for the Solstice 2012, very powerful medicine indeed! To find out the meaning for me look for my next post, Slithering blissings to you all…………………
Slithering blissings indeed! I was about to embark upon a year of incredible learning ushered in by snake medicine, culminating at the Spring Equinox in September 2013. I did not know then that a part of my journey was truly coming to an end. But before I finally came together with my soul mate there was pain and heartache which would help to strip away the last of what was in the way of my being able to see my own true value. And I have this blog which I published every day for almost a year to document my journey, yet another blessing amongst so many wonders and joys.
See you next week!
I had to call on my powers of trust and flexibility today when all the power switches in my new house sit suddenly decided not to dispense power. My lap top has a battery that is so addicted to electrical power it barely condescends to perform on just the battery alone. In the middle of organising music for the next Ecstatic Dance I was frustrated and a curse or two may well have slipped from my lips as it rapidly became clear that something somewhere in this sweet dilapidated house had shorted out the system.
My Beloved was not at home and so I called on a friendly neighbour who upon investigation informed me that water had got into the pump that has been supplying us with lovely rain water. He turned it off and hallelujah, I had electrical current flowing through all the necessities of life, fridge, computer, kettle and toaster! But left with town water full of fluoride and chlorine as my drinking water it is just as well that we travel around with our own water supply. A quick trip to the shops this afternoon and we once again had water fit to drink! It still amazes me that we allow our governments to poison our water but that’s a topic for another post.
So here I am in the house I spent nine weeks in two years ago and how different my life has become since then. It was here that I began this blog and here that a huge python came to visit on the eve of the Summer Solstice 2012. It was the beginning of my journey towards my Beloved and so here is part one once again:
There is a sequel to my story of the Solstice night last Friday that I would like to share with you now, I felt it deserved a post all to itself. I should begin by telling you about the night before that, when I came home to find objects in the house slightly moved around, and in the bathroom some things had been knocked over and broken. I could not for the life of me work out what on earth could have done this, I had a sense that something had come in through the window but had no idea what it was.
So on the Solstice night I was in bed when I heard crashing sounds coming from the front room, I leaped out of bed and went rushing in to discover a huge python curling its way along the top of the shelves knocking things over as it went. The woman I am house sitting for does sandplay therapy and she had hundreds of little figures and objects which were now hurtling off the shelf in the wake of this slithering reptile, as a city girl I had never seen anything like it before in my life!
I had no idea what to do, the snake was obviously looking for a way out but it was heading away from the door and none of the windows in the room would open. There was also a smell of sewage and I cast around for the source of it only to find a huge pile of what I could only assume to be python poo, oh my goddess, letting go of the notion of sleep I set to and cleaned up the mess. The snake was still in the room and not looking like it had any intention of going out the door, in the end I had to go to bed with the connecting door to the rest of the house shut but I couldn’t leave the front door open so I had to let the whole thing go and hope that the morning would come with an answer to the question of what to do with the snake!
Still no camera but my python was very similar to this one, imagine having this slithering around your home!