Inspiration From The Vortex.

Coming your way every Wednesday, join me on a whimsical, informative and at times profound journey into the depths of healing the soul………..mine……..yours………..the whole planet!


Spring Cleaning: Creating New Life!

The Snowy Mountains.

Wildflowers in Spring!

My Beloved and I are looking after a beautiful place for a few weeks and it has come at rather a critical time in our mutual unfolding. It seems easier here somehow to put in the time to meditate, to dance and to reflect upon the vision which is growing like wildflowers in the Spring time. And lo and behold it is indeed Spring so we are in sync with the seasons! We are growing our vision and writing some of it down in a very special book with handmade paper and a purple jewel  on the cover, that was a gift for our commitment ceremony.

Our very special vision book!

Our very special vision book!

My intention to begin training in preparation for the 10 day Vipassana retreat next year is providing a great platform for exploring what is going on within myself. I sat in meditation for two lots of 20 minutes, the first one was sitting unsupported and simply watching the breath and the body. And of course coming back from the distractions, watching where my thoughts were going. In the second one I wanted to look at obstacles to receiving abundance which brought my awareness to my uneasy belly. I could feel the fear moving out of the cells of my body and it left me with the sense of being more present and available.

buddha impermanence

So it is not so much about ‘doing’ although of course action does need to follow intention, it is to do with ‘being’ whatever it is you are passionate about. Put that out into the world as clearly as I can and then let people find me. It felt like a warm and cosy space where I am comfortable being myself and where all my needs are met with ease and grace. And it does help enormously that I have a partner who is on the same page and who is working with similar or the same issues. We bring our similarities and our differences to the table and from that we have an incredibly rich resource from which to create.

spirit lovers chakras

We also live in an amazing community and I felt into that in my meditation even before I began focusing on what was leaving my body. There were lovely people building and painting outside and hearing the sounds and feeling the gorgeous energy of where we are living got me all warm and fuzzy in my heart space. Having supportive and open people around you is so important when you are wanting to grow and evolve upon the spiritual path. I think it is going to be a very powerful time here in paradise, I will keep you posted so until next week…… namaste!

Big Rainbow

Dancing And Writing The Fear Out Of My Body!

chocolateThis strange feeling in my uneasy belly as cravings rush to quench the fear of I know not what. So I follow the urge and I’m very precise in my choices. Then I consume slowly being as mindful as I can be, accepting that my thoughts will wander at times. Being grateful for the fact that I do come back to the fullest perception that I can manage of the moment I am in . Consuming a lot less and feeling a certain level of satisfaction as well as a recognition that as a strategy this isn’t really good for long-term alignment. But I’m not beating myself up, simply observing what is going on in my inner realm. As deeply and openly and honestly as I am able to be.

psychic ability

And then I danced and wrote, and wrote and danced, I moved………….and energies moved in me. Surrendering to what is true in this moment and being with that sense, whatever it may be. We are spirits having the material experience of being in a body on Mother Earth.


Dance yourself open, move into the softness of surrender and taste freedom from care. Let it all go……..whatever you may be carrying that feels too heav for you to hold. Feel into where your body is speaking to you through stiffness and pain, give it your full awareness and allow your body to respond. If you let it, it will find a way to move that brings your sore bits back into some flow. It may be quite subtle but if you bring to it the power of awareness it is unmistakable.


Might have to dance a bit more, Vas is playing and my body wants to move to those lush melodies and the voice hasn’t even come in yet! Talk to you next week my dancing friends, namaste.

Here is the Vas song I can’t resist:


From Despair To Delight: The Inner Tweak.

black hole despairEven when you are doing your level  best to be conscious about how you are responding to life’s ups and downs, there are sometimes days when you find that the rabbit hole seems to have become a black hole! I started off discombobulated yesterday and the swirling vortex of doom and despair just kept swirling down and down as the day wore on. We were supposed to move into a house sit but our friends are going to Bali and a volcano over there is playing havoc with plane schedules so it isn’t happening now until the end of the week. A relatively small thing really but something about it triggered me into an awkward space where it felt like everything was completely hopeless, especially me.

wallowing in despair

Oh I hear you say, but don’t you have all these wonderful tools that can shift you into a different frequency in mere moments? Well yes of course I bloody do but in that space of no hope the will to do anything positive and constructive is pretty difficult to locate. My resistance was so great I didn’t want to do anything but wallow and make pathetic sounds and get cuddles from my Beloved. At some point I surrendered to the fact that I wasn’t going to get much done and I read a book and watched episodes of Battlestar Galactica. When going to sleep I connected with my guides and helpers upstairs and asked them to help me move into a better space for the next day.


At some point in the night I woke myself up calling out in the midst of what I can only assume was a nightmare but I have no conscious memory of it. Maybe that helped to clear something because I woke up feeling a tad more positive about the possibilities of my day. I could feel myself still a bit on edge but after breakfast my Beloved and I went for a walk and then we came home and did some meditation. The resistance to being kind to me had dispersed and the simple act of walking and then sitting in stillness brought peace and calm to my body and mind. It also feels good to be following my intention to meditate more often, at least four times a week by the beginning of December.

meditation trees

So here I am at the computer getting things done and feeling much better about myself and my life. There has been no fundamental change to my circumstances since yesterday and yet I feel like a completely different person. So if you are having a bad day don’t spend too much time looking outside of yourself for a savior or some kind of change that will make everything better. Try being with the horrible feelings and letting it all be there as much as is practical. And don’t be afraid to ask for help from whatever you relate to as a higher power, you are worth it!

Here is a song about being awake that is on our next playlist, “Spirit in Earth: Celebration!” The song is “The Silent Awakening” by Tina Malia.

Beauty All Around Me And Quietness Within.

shrine-candelabra-AGAINThere is a feeling of great satisfaction to be found in finally getting on with tasks that you have been wanting to do for ages but can’t quite seem to find the time for. It is much easier to think and be creative in a space that has some order to it and having beautiful things to gaze upon has also become incredibly important to me over the years. Our physical environment is an important reflection of how we think about ourselves, even if someone else picked it all out that very fact says a lot about you.

candlelight dinner

At night my Beloved and I love to light candles all around the room and turn the lamps off, candlelight is not only more romantic than electric it is also softer. Of course you need good light to read by but how about scheduling in times where you have the softness of candles warming the space. Quiet time with no television or computers, time where you simply sit with your thoughts and feelings and allow yourself to be rather than do. I go on about this sort of thing a lot and yet even I notice resistance in myself when contemplating time spent in this fashion.

meditation sunset

We live in a culture where it is all about doing, not surprising when you consider the ways in which society is dominated by the masculine. As we come into balance as a civilisation it is important to learn how to value ‘being’ as much as we do action. The best way that I can do this is by embodying this principle in my own life, not just when I am with my Beloved, but when I am on my own. So I will consider how best I can achieve this, regular sitting meditation is probably a good place to start. I am booked in for a 10 day Vipassana at the end of January next year so getting into training is probably a good idea!


I will keep you posted on my progress, even as I am writing this I can feel resistance so it is going to take some focus and a strong intention. Perhaps I will actually make a statement here, to be doing at least four sessions of meditation a week by the beginning of December.

Mindfulness Meditation With Soft Hands And A Warm Heart.

meditationTonight is my Beloved’s first meditation class which I am very excited about and looking forward to immensely. Mindfulness is the main theme and a very useful concept for just about anything you could possibly think of. Particularly handy when doing things such as driving a car or operating heavy machinery but the applications don’t stop there! Washing dishes, talking to your boss, explaining to your kids where babies come from, all helped enormously when you are truly present to what is occurring. Being mindful in communicating with your lover may be what creates a long-lasting and satisfying relationship, and help you to avoid unneccessary conflict.


Simply noticing what you are habitually thinking and telling yourself about you and the world around you can be a life changing affair. Of course you will probably find that a lot of your self-talk is fairly negative and that can be a bit discouraging. Sometimes becoming more mindful can seem like not such a good thing when it takes you into such a negative space. But hang in there anyway if you possibly can because there is a light at the end of the tunnel. This negativity is inside you all the time so it is affecting you even when you aren’t aware of it. By bringing it into the light of awareness you are creating the potential for healing.Grumpy

And sitting with uncomfortable feelings is something that I talk about quite a bit on this blog because it is one of my main methods of shifting old patterns. Become mindful of what is going on inside of you and then sit with whatever comes up until it clears. And of course employ whatever methods or techniques that you may have discovered along the path as you transform old energies and beliefs into a wondrous new way of being in the world.

Big Rainbow

Here is a link to my Beloved’s website and an article on meditating with soft hands and a warm heart:  And if you are lucky enough to live somewhere near the magical kingdom of Maleny here are the details of the class:

Farewell My Fabulous Furry Friend!

1 Cheryl's Cat PushkinLast week I went into the fire on the New Moon, later that night a dear friend began his journey into the great beyond. He was a fabulous communicator who was like Rudyard Kipling’s Kim, a friend to all the world. He was also a tantric master for my Beloved and I and taught my gorgeous man all about how to receive pleasure. See my post “From Tantric Cats To Wholeness In Love“.  He was good-looking and sure of himself and had all his ‘hooman’ minions perfectly trained to serve his every whim. His name was Pushkin and of all the cats I have known in my life he was the best!

When you lose a much beloved pet it is no different to the loss of a human being in my experience. You move through the pain more quickly but it is no less sharp, and for my mother it has left a huge hole in her life. Everywhere she goes in her house she is reminded of her black prince, she misses stroking that amazing soft fur and going to sleep with a purring weight on her legs. Pushkin is buried in the garden and we had a wonderful ceremony and wake for him with lots of lovely friends. As my Beloved was reading out the poem he wrote for Pushy an owl flew in and perched on a wire just above the grave, it gave me goose bumps!

Pushkin's Grave on the night of the ceremony and wake.

Pushkin’s Grave on the night of the ceremony and wake.

It feels like this event is a part of an amazing new beginning for mum but that doesn’t take away the pain. Just because you believe in there being a reason even for horrible life events doesn’t mean that you have to like it. The energetic pattern of shifting sands seems to just go on and on and on……I do so miss my furry brother and would turn the clock back to change the outcome if I could. But all I can do is surrender to what is and try to support my dear mother as best I can.

Vale Pushkin!

The Fire Of A New Beginning.

sacred fire dancerPurification by fire was my experience yesterday as I sat in the New Moon Women’s Sweat Lodge. I was on day 5 of my moon time which means that my body temperature was already higher than usual, so being in the lodge on a sunny morning meant extreme heat. Probably sounds horrible but going through an ordeal within a sacred framework can be enormously helpful in terms of spiritual growth and development. I got lots of confirmation that my recent choices in speaking up for myself and standing my ground were appropriate responses to the situations I found myself in. In fact I was told that Spirit had organised to eject me from a place of limitation that was no longer supporting my growth into a larger self.

spiritual awakening 2

I generally am very stubborn about sticking things out however uncomfortable they may be but on this occasion I had to leave the sweat before the end. I was just too hot and probably on the verge of making myself sick so it was actually a case of being compassionate to myself. And it carried its own message, being stubborn can be a useful quality but only if I choose the right things to be stubborn about. As I lay in the shade outside the lodge an aboriginal woman squatted down in front of me and took my hands. I realised that she was a giant and she said she came from the Dreamtime and was one of the first ones. We spoke of many things at the same time that I was aware of the other women inside the lodge. The aboriginal woman told me that I never really left the lodge and that she had come to help hold me in that sacred space.

Australian Forest Sculptures by William Ricketts. Photo Credit to jsarcadia

Australian Forest Sculptures by William Ricketts. Photo Credit to jsarcadia

I felt that I had left behind a whole lot of things that I no longer needed in that purifying space of heat and fire. It can be a bit like being reborn and probably even more so when it is aligned with the new moon. The new moon was in Libra so it was all about things(especially relationships) being in balance and equitable, extremely pertinent to the issues I have been facing in the last few weeks. Check out my last couple of posts if you don’t know what I’m talking about. So I had a productive day today finally getting on to tasks that will greatly assist in creating the abundant new life that my Beloved and I are determined to make into a reality.

abundant life

There will continue to be good days and bad days I am sure in this shifting constant sea of change that we are all swimming in. But I have taken the next step in becoming more of who I am and that feels like an enormous achievement!