I keep thinking about the house sit I did back in May/June, and how it felt to be living on land that I felt a deep connection with, it truly is the happiest that I’ve been in years. And it was also during a time when very difficult stuff was coming up for me, being in a place where I felt so held made a tough time easier to navigate. Reflecting back upon all the different places I’ve lived, I’m trying to recall if that feeling has been there at other times. I can only think of one other place that has felt like that to me, it was during a period when I was getting fit and exploring the spiritual and psychic realms thirteen years ago.
I was living in a tumbledown house on the river bank in an area that I had wanted to live in for a long time, before I actually moved there I would sometimes drive down to the river and sit there in my car, just feeling the energy of the place. I started off in a good place with my house mate, but it slowly deteriorated until things had become very challenging, and we ended up with another person in the house whose energy was very dark. It could have been a nightmare but I remember that time as incredibly productive, I was doing an hour of yoga a day, taking long walks, meditating and toning, exploring crystals and my psychic abilities.
Obviously I was doing a lot of positive activities which on their own could probably account for me being in a good space in spite of the growing tension at home. But when I consider the power and security that comes with a feeling of belonging to the land, I can see that this played a huge part in my journey. It meant I felt safe enough to venture out into unknown territory, the dark energy that kept trying to drain me was a challenge that I met joyfully and most successfully. The Aboriginal people have that deep connection to the land, these forest sculptures by William Ricketts capture a sense of this relationship.
I have the sense of belonging in my community with the people around me, and that has been incredibly sustaining as I’ve continued on my healing path. But it may well be time to start looking for that home where the land sings through my feet, it almost feels as though a particular place is calling out to me. Who knows how long it will take me to find it, but to manifest this into reality I need to let spirit know that I am ready.
Great Spirit, Gaia, Durga……………please support me as I search for the place where I can most clearly hear your voice, feel your presence, the place that I may call home. So be it, so be it, so be it.