A few posts ago I told the story of how I shifted some deep feelings that had been triggered in my yoga class (Goodbye Sweetheart: 21 Aug 2013), it was on this occasion a fairly quick process. This has not always been the case for me and even now I come up against resistance to letting go of my stuff, it isn’t the brick wall that it used to be but it can still be a challenge to move through. With the sorrow that I described that was in my heart, I did notice that there was a part of me that wanted to hold on to that feeling.
When dealing with unexpressed emotions from the past it is sometimes necessary to wallow a bit in that sea of grief or whatever it is that is coming up for you. Give the feeling its full expression and then let it go, that’s the theory but in practice it isn’t always quite so easy. I’ve known people who work on themselves constantly who become addicted to the process of bringing the feelings up but can never seem to actually release them. It’s as if these feelings and the story that they are attached to is so much a part of who they are, on some level they fear that by letting go they will lose their identity.
So the actual letting go part, how do you do it? As a kinesthetic person I feel it in my body, bring my awareness to wherever it is in my body, usually in the belly or the heart. Then I might breathe or tone into that part of my body, or I might use a visualisation as I did with the sorrow, seeing it as a mist and putting it into a sparkling bottle. Your imagination is an important tool in any kind of inner work, a key ingredient for creating change, Einstein said:
“Your imagination is a preview of life’s coming attractions.”
You do need to be committed (not to an asylum!) and to be prepared to give yourself focused time to drop into the parts of you that lie beneath the surface. I found it easier to create the time for that kind of thing after giving up television which I pretty much stopped watching twelve years ago. Try shifting your perception of what it is to spend time dropping within, don’t see it as work, it can be lots of fun even as it challenges and confronts. And the clarity and energy and joy that emerges the more that you heal that which is incomplete, the ecstasy of feeling whole and connected to all things, it’s better than any tv show I ever saw.
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I really do appreciate my good health, especially after my immune system has spent pretty much a whole week at the gym! The pleasure in being embodied is even sharper and everything seems to flow, just as well considering the busy week that I will be navigating in the river of my life. The sense of being tuned in to the flow of spirit is also feeling clearer and there is a sense of joy in being alive that comes from being connected to all things.
You know those moments when something pops out of your mouth unexpectedly, it isn’t an expression that you’ve ever used before and you don’t really know where it came from. But for the person you are speaking to it really hits the spot, that happened for me with someone I was counselling and it really made my night! I’d like to share it with you if I may:
Be clear about what you want to manifest.
Then give it over to a higher power and that’s what gives it WINGS!
It’s the bit about the wings that is a new expression for me, but I think it will now be something I use a lot, for myself and for others. Those moments when we are relaxed and open to possibility are when we truly allow ourselves to become a part of life’s flow, it’s a kind of channeling and often happens when we are focused on something other than ourselves. Or if you are very tired, it’s never a bad thing for my client if I am exhausted when giving a reading, the veils become even thinner then, although I don’t particularly recommend it as a technique for developing your psychic abilities!
The bottom line here is, relaxation is the key to so many things, you can build up to a climax through tension and it can be pretty amazing, but if you find the ecstatic flow in the valley your climax will go for much longer. And while this can obviously apply to sex, it has much broader applications in an inspired and creative life!
Ahhhhhhh………..don’t you just love life!!!!!
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I just watched the most inspirational film called “Monsanto: A Documentary on GMO”, we follow the journey of Percy Schmeiser, a Canadian farmer, as he battles this monolithic corporation. What they are doing in the world is wrong, in simple terms they are attempting to control the supply of seeds and therefore the food supply. They are not interested in feeding the world’s hungry or improving the quality of the food we eat, all they care about is power, and they have an enormous amount of influence in a world where money seems more important than justice.
There are many issues regarding GMO crops, probably the most important is that they were never fully tested in the first place, and so we actually have no idea of the consequences of having this unknown factor in the food chain. With research that has been done since then, it’s very clear that GMO crops are not the same or even similar to regular food, the claims that Monsanto have made for their products are out-and-out lies. They do not produce a higher yield and actually require much more in the way of pesticides and chemicals.
Once GMO is in an area, it is impossible for farmers who don’t want it to avoid contamination, then Monsanto moves in and takes them to court because they have ‘stolen’ their plants! Monsanto encourages farmers to dob each other in, thus destroying trust amongst the farmers, and endangering the sense of community that has existed before they came along.
It’s so inspirational to hear Percy Schmeiser speak, he is motivated to fight his battle not only for himself and his children, but for the future of humanity on this planet. If a bio-tech company can put a gene in a life-giving form and then say that they own it, where does this stop, if they put a gene in a human being, do they then own that person? There are some big questions posed in this film, and it could be overwhelming to see the might of Monsanto doing as it pleases, but this is more than balanced by the inspiration you will feel at what people are doing to stand up for our basic rights.
This documentary shows that we can make a difference, let’s face it, most of the people in the world want good quality food on their plates, clean water to drink and clean air to breathe. I feel very hopeful about the future of humanity, we’ve made a terrible mess but we have the resources to do something about it, and we have people like Percy Schmeiser and his wife!
I hope you enjoy this film as much as I did!
My yoga class today took me very, very deeply into myself, and by the time I reached savasana at the end I was experiencing a huge shift of energy that was focused on my heart. It felt like sorrow, such sadness and I am not quite sure where I went, I know it took me a long time to come back into myself. I went into town and did the things that I had to do, but only part of me was present, somehow I managed to choose a birthday card for a friend, actually in that space it probably made the choosing easier, I just let my intuition have complete control!
When I finally got the chance to sit with the feelings in my own space the grief in my heart was so intense it was as if my heart was wailing in its sorrow. I used the heartfire gateway meditation (My Fiery Heart: 15 Aug 2013) and I saw the sadness as a grey mist swirling around, there was a blue bottle and I began to encourage the mist to enter into the bottle which was sparkling on the outside. The mist seemed endless but eventually it was all in the bottle which I took into the centre of my being. The mist inside began to sparkle and give off a golden light and then it burst out of the bottle and my heart felt open and expanded and free!
I followed that up with the Daily Activation of Light and the energy has completely shifted, there is a bit of uncertainty in my heart but it is excitement with perhaps just a dash of doubt. That was a very quick process! Oh and I forgot to mention, I toned as the sparkling mist shot out of the bottle, the sound really helped in the transformation from sorrow to joy. In fact it was rather like a champagne bottle being opened which I always associate with celebration.
And now as I sit here the knowing of what the grief is about is coming to me, echoes of loss down the eons and through time and space, a soul mate lost, back then and then here again in this life. Some things are simply not meant to be, and it is time to let go of the sadness over this, for every time I make the space, a new joy comes rushing in.
So be it, so be it, so be it…………………….
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Rising from sickness she marshalls her energy and prepares for the ceremony of healing, dressing with great care and attention to detail, her heart begins to soften and open. The scene is set and filled with the laughter of children and unseen sprites, dancing with joy through the sacred space, the sense of community, of belonging, fills her with the energy of love. Friendly faces abound and call out to our heroine, reminding her that she is never ever alone, the Goddess is within her, and in this place is seen and acknowledged.
The bad spirits are fleeing as she drinks the fiery brew that brings her to new levels of sensitivity, that opens up even more of the Goddess within, the hearth fire that lies at the centre of all of us. The energy of the masculine dances around her feeling the strength and delight of her fair form, desiring to connect with her deep femininity. Her softness responds and she enjoys the dance, but then ’tis time for the dance of the soul to begin, the alchemical transformation that will banish the sickness as if it had never been.
Me dancing with orbs!
Photo by Antara May.
Whirling and swirling, her body moves in a continuous flow as she becomes a channel for the energy of the sound, angel orbs play in the frequencies as she sends the light up through her crown. Ecstatic spaces within and without as the movement transmutes and transforms, the magicians holding the space in this cathedral finding ever more transcendent levels of prayer. The Goddess fills our heroine with her energy until the two are indistinguishable, the mystery is complete and somewhere in the levels of existence a candle is lit.
The Earth smiles…………..and so do I, for she is me and I am her, the heroine is my story, and I choose to be the Goddess in myself, in all things. Praise the Goddess for she is healed!
Here is a youtube clip of the magicians of sound who created the space for us to move in ecstasy through, Hayden Hack Infusion:
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The nights with this cold I’ve had were rather interesting, if not what I would describe as particularly pleasant. That’s when the cough would come and make it hard to sleep, I noticed though that after a really deep racking cough there was a sense of expansion and lightness in my chest that actually felt good. I was also aware of a strong vibration going on at a cellular level that indicated a lot of energetic movement, a big shift of some kind. I keep seeing the Tower from the tarot and the Death card, both of these archetypes indicate fundamental change occurring.
I guess my trip to Sydney to sort out my stuff was even bigger than I realised, it closes a chapter in my life so there is a kind of death that is happening. In many ways I have been in transition for the last two and a half years even though my focus has been very much on where I have been living. Let’s face it, how often does an old chapter end neatly with the new one following on, there is almost always a bit of back and forthing that goes on.
Now I need to address any completions that need to be done with regards to the old path that is finishing, and probably the hardest part is letting go of the old outmoded ways of being that no longer serve me. The one that is coming up big time for me is abundance and being supported, with a better return on the energy I put out I will be able to do a better job of looking after myself. There are things I could do less of and be happy, but economic necessity is a factor that cannot be ignored and so I do what I have to. But I’m not prepared to compromise on things I know are important for me to do, even though they may not bring in income, and so we arrive at a schedule that becomes overwhelming at times.
It’s a biggie but I do finally think that the time has come to properly address this issue, and my intuition has been telling me for the longest time that my writing is the key to this. We shall see what unfolds, I will be calling on all the resources I can find inner and outer to meet this particular challenge, wish me luck as I go!
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Well I went from nuclear disasters to the habits of highly empathic people and I’m feeling positively inspired by the journey! Even though there may be masses of sleepy people who have no idea of how their world could be slipping away, there are those who not only notice and care, but who are doing something about it. And the ones who are doing the damage are a tiny part of the overall population, I think they know that their days are numbered and are simply trying to rake in as much as they can while they can.
Empathy is a key ingredient as we grow and develop into the future humans that will have a continuing and positive presence on this beautiful planet. And it is a quality that can be developed, I relate strongly to the habits of HEP’s (highly empathic people) and have tended to go in this direction all my life. But anyone can do it, those who are severely disconnected from their emotions are going to have a challenging journey, but I do believe it possible for all people if they have a strong enough desire to go there.
The author of the article at the end of this post, Roman Krznaric, describes the twentieth century as the Age of Introspection and says that the twenty-first should be the Age of Empathy. I agree heartily with this viewpoint, it certainly matches my path through life which was extremely introverted for many years as I dove deep in my healing journey. Then slowly but surely I began to get the sense that I needed to move more into connection with others, the messages kept coming, and over time that is the path I have taken. My very special country town has helped me to reach a point where I am fulfilling this part of my life in a way that truly amazes me at times, in a good way!
There is a lot more I could say on this topic but I will save it for future posts, in the meantime have a read of this inspiring article, it has links to lots of grass-roots movements that are helping to create fundamental change in the world. A wonderful resource!
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