Monthly Archives: December 2013

Love, Festivals, And Being In The Moment: Woodford!

What a strange feeling to be mostly entering the future in thoughts that are focused intention, entering sacred space and ‘seeing’ my desired outcomes, performing healing upon myself. It isn’t that I have banished future and past from my awareness, but it is the present moment that dominates, it is the only reality from moment to moment. It does really feel a bit odd, not at all what I’m used to, no future soap operas being directed by my dear friend and ally Fay Fairytale, she has now taken over the movie that plays regularly in the temple and her imagination is a valued resource.

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And so much of the past has been shed, the charge has gone and messy emotional constructs have melted away or morphed into shining geometrical holograms. There are still bits of things that I’m not quite ready to let go of too, annoying but I know from experience that giving myself a hard time over it will not help the matter. I am a work in progress enjoying the journey, and doing my best to follow a spiritual path in the world as well as have a bloody good time!

The trick will be to keep some kind of focused meditation going through the holiday season, that’s where flexibility comes in as well as the concept of infusing everything that I do with spirit. Fill my cells with luminous light from the central sun, mix in the deep reds coming up from the earth with the green of the heart and you have the colours for christmas, base, heart and crown chakras.

Woodford Festival Poster 2013

Woodford Festival Poster 2013

You will have to wait for my inspirations from six days of hanging out at the Woodford Folk Festival: http://www.woodfordfolkfestival.com/,  fabulous for music as well as dance, talks , workshops and classes. I am not going to be sitting on my computer when I can be out there experiencing life in vivid colour, hanging out with my peace-loving gorgeous community, in fact as you are reading this I am doing exactly that!

Love, mung beans and community………..greetings from Woodford.

Here is a promo clip of the festival: http://www.youtube.com/woodfordfolkfestival

A New Screenplay For A New Life!

redwomanmovingI have been reflecting a little on the process that I have gone through in the last ten years of being not only single, but celibate. Ok so there were a couple of poor decisions in that decade and a blissful interlude with a dear friend and cuddle buddy, but essentially I was on my own and very focused on healing myself. I made a vow not to move into relationship until I had healed the patterns that led to dysfunctional behaviours, to shift my frequency and to attract something very different this time, and to hang in there no matter how long it took.

Who would have thought it would take so long! There have been so many layers to shed, it’s like the old proverbial can of worms, once it has been opened it all has to come out. And I have made a vow on more than one occasion, to heal everything in this lifetime, these vows are powerful statements of intention and if you put enough of your belief behind them they can be quite unstoppable. Hence the expression “Be careful what you ask for, the Gods may give it to you”, I have had moments when I doubted that I would ever make it to my desired outcome, in fact a big part of the process was letting go of needing an outcome.

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The journey to a happy relationship is through the doorway of love of self, you need to feel worthy of happiness and joy, have the courage to speak your feelings with clarity, know that you are love itself having an earthly experience. I’ve been doing some powerful work creating a new reality for myself and these reflections remind me that spirit will do the details better than I ever could, I just need to focus on the ‘essence’ of what it is I desire to have more of in my life.

And the truly interesting thing that is happening for me at the moment? Now that I am in a space of feeling secure with my Beloved the need to fantasize about the future is quite gone, being in the present moment is more than sufficient. Fay Fairytale is using her imaginative talents to direct the movie of my life when I spend time doing my morning meditations, feels like energy is flowing well and all I have to do is follow the flow as best I can………….singing and dancing along the way!

The Boomerang Of Love: Turning Pain Into Prosperity.

bubblesofjoyThe warm slightly moist air is a container caressing my aura and holding me in the gentle embrace of the mother. Trust in that sense of complete non-judgement, total acceptance of me, no matter what I’ve done, or not done…….may do. Feeling the support of loving community, of loving kindness streaming from my heart out into the world, and the boomerang from that which keeps feeding the air into the ocean of love, keeping me floating, floating……bubbles of joy dancing in the shallows, with sunlight glinting and smiling.

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My inner smile paving the way for prosperity to flow in a golden river, carrying a rich array of resources to wherever there be need. I can sense my readiness to let go once again, allowing my trust in the mother, the father, the self, to keep me afloat as I release tensions held for so very long. With an Ahhhhhhh I tone from the heart space and unwind a thousand heart aches, loss, resentment and grief, anger and pain unbearable, so much can be held in our amazing organic beingness.

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Joy may lead us to encounters with the dark side, she does this that we may shed whatever is no longer required and move into the next fabulous stage of what Jean Houston describes as the Possible Human.

“There is no question but that a larger life is latent in the human species and that we live only a small part of the life that is given. For the first time in human history perhaps we can begin to live that life which we are given.”

www.jeanhoustonfoundation.org/downloads/PossibleHuman.pdf

It is exciting and it can also bring up big fears, being truly magnificent ought to be easy you think but the reality can be as overwhelming as the greatest disaster or catastrophe. If I really am that incredible then what have I been doing all of these years! Simple answer, preparing for this moment that you are in now, living your life, being yourself as much as you could manage at any given time, now it’s time to be ALL THAT YOU ARE!!!!!

Let the FUN begin!

Oh and by the way, Happy, Happy, Happy Christmas to you and your loving community, may the love on this day circle the whole globe and TRANSFORM everything!

Imagine Your Highest Good: Grow Good Intention!

SupernovaAs you can probably tell I’m pretty damn happy at the moment, does that then imply an uninterrupted flow of uncomplicated simple happiness, with no light or shade anywhere, just feelings of luminous joy? For some of the time that’s a big YES, but life continues to move along and unless you’ve achieved full enlightenment then you will probably still get triggered sometimes. Not just by that which you perceive as negative but also by the moments of transcendent joy, nothing like a powerful explosion of light to show up and shake out any lingering darkness upon the soul.

It is somehow a bit more disconcerting to have those old butterflies mingling in my belly when I am so very aware of how truly amazing my life is, I mean why would I be doubtful when it is obvious that I am a very powerful manifestor indeed! Ok so I took ten years to sort my old patterns out so that I could finally attract a very different kind of relationship into my life but hey, some people never get there, and I learned lots of cool things along the way.

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So I breathe into the stirrings down below and acknowledge any feelings associated with the movement of energy, seems to be a lot of insecurities that I somehow am not good enough, you would think I might have emptied that particular can of worms by now! Oh well, stay with the feeling and it will move on at some stage, leaving you lighter and more able to respond to life in the moment, the gift of the present that is always with us.

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And who knows what the future may hold for us, might as well be here for the moment that is NOW, what you do then will determine the shape of what you are moving into anyway. So imagine your highest good and happiness, no holds barred, let your creativity shine a light into the darkest corners of self that you may shed anything that is no longer a part of the balance of things. Grow good intentions and love well, be a food forest for the depths of soul, yours and the whole planet, the entire cosmos, the fullness of creation itself.

Namaste.

Summer Solstice Heat: Rebirth Into Love.

fall_harvestAs I began to seek inspiration for my Solstice Toning Circle I noticed a feeling of familiarity that was arising within me at the themes and symbols associated with this event. The sun firing up our passions, desires and sensuality, awakening of consciousness, the colours red, yellow and orange, and the celebration of a bountiful harvest!

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It began with a session I had of Zen Shiatsu and the guidance I received which matched my intuition completely, I’d been attracted to foods I don’t normally eat so much, like potato and bread, gorgeous organic pies with tomato sauce. Comfort food, and food that has a warming effect on the body according to Chinese Medicine, I also hadn’t felt much like salad which is highly unusual for me and that of course is cold for the body.

Seems I was depleted in my spleen and I certainly had no energy that day, I was so low I could have cried, I thanked myself heartily for having the sense to book this session for myself three weeks previously. I’ve followed the guidance and it feels a bit disconcerting to be eating so differently, fears around getting fat come up a bit but it all seems to be staying balanced so far and I have my energy back.

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Of course being in love also helps the energy levels, you can go with little sleep for a few days buoyed up on the excitement and thrill of being in that space. Which is the other parallel for me in the Solstice themes, after a long period of abstinence I am full of passion and desire as I explore the awakening of consciousness that can come through approaching relationship as a spiritual practice.

I am overflowing with the heat of summer, that matches the heat of my body, my spirit and my soul, my blood burns like hot lava bursting from the rich moist earth, volcanic eruptions and gentle stirrings of trust reborn.

A Rebirth into love……………..ohm shanti, shanti, shanti………….

And just for a bit of summer silliness here is Madness singing “It Must Be Love” from 1981: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmezIIrFQmY

Pleasuring Into Ecstasy: Slow It Down Sweetheart!

PinkOshoFlowerPoemYou know there are some blogs out there that really keep it simple and focus on one big project, like cooking your way through a famous french recipe book over a whole year. And then there’s someone like me, exploring every aspect of consciousness she can send her awareness into, moving fluidly and sometimes for no apparent reason from one project to another, and then back again!

Well I’m back to where I had got to in “Tantric Orgasm For Women” and really enjoying being able to read and find that sometimes an open body and heart is as good as any book. But it is an excellent text-book and very inspiring too, relaxation is the key and I can attest to the value of letting go of tension and generally slowing everything down. So you do need to be able to trust your Beloved, even then you may be holding tensions you are not aware of, so a safe space to be together in is crucial, and that is emotional and spiritual space, not just the physical.

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The more that you let go, the more you can allow the body to guide the experiential navigation of two energies coming together, you become more sensitive to subtle energy, sensuality is heightened, which can only be a good thing! And anything that you do comes out of a place of non-attachment.

“Action is an overflowing of energy; action is in this moment, a response, unprepared, unrehearsed. The whole existence meets you, confronts you and a response simply comes. The birds are singing and suddenly you start singing-it is not activity. Suddenly it happens. Suddenly you find it is happening, that you have started humming-this is action.”

Osho, Transcribed Teachings, Tantra: The Supreme Understanding: in Diana Richardson: Tantric Orgasm for Women, p 139.

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Teenage Activist Shows Up Monsanto!

There are some truly amazing young people in the world, they give me hope that this rather jaded civilisation might actually begin to blossom into greater maturity, we show such promise it would be a shame not to realise it. Rachel Parent is one such teenager, we see her on Canadian Television in debate with a defender of Monsanto and it is so very obvious who is intelligent, authentic and open to reason, certainly not the so-called adult who thinks it’s ok to tell lies in order to gain profit.

Yes I am still a bit angry about what is happening to food on this planet in the name of Big Profits for Multi-national corporations, nature does know what she is doing and if we work with her then there will always be plenty for everyone. We need to be creating food forests and encouraging everybody to grow some of their own veggies, support our local growers and let them know exactly what we want from them.

We don’t really know yet how GMO foods might affect our health over the long-term, by the time we have an answer it may be getting a little bit late to stop the spread of this uncontrolled experiment. It reminds me of early science fiction movies with people in white suits running around in complexes, trying to halt the escape of some deadly virus that they were trying to turn into a weapon.

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You know what really struck me in this debate, the way O’Leary kept talking about GMO technology helping the poor and the starving even though Rachel was pointing out the mythology around these crops, not a higher yield at all, just a patent for profit. Her ability to articulate a response in the face of bull-headed ignoring of basic facts is really quite stupendous, this 14-year-old has a brilliant life ahead of her doing anything she wants to. Lets hope we can keep that world open as a possibility for Rachel and for all the other children out there, with this kind of genius in the world it is never too late to find a new way of being.

Hope you are as inspired as I was!

http://www.nextworldtv.com/page/24721.html

From The Stillness to Salvation, With Bliss The Medicine Of Choice!

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Intense little period of activity, writing and writing in a much smaller pressure cooker which is sandwiched with languid delight and lots of satisfaction if not a lot of sleep. A recipe to be happy for me in this moment, open to the flow of energy as it charts new pathways long visioned and desired, blood running hot, a slow, sensual way of being that needs to be relaxed into. Yoga reflects this slow movement, spending long moments in stillness of pose, letting go into muscles slowly moving towards their edge, restorative pose with all the support I need, savasana……….still space edged with impatience!

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Dancing from moment to moment with animal companions snuggling, kookaburra flies in to deliver his message of truth, passion and laughter, the end of the journey of healing, new growth has already begun. For a full description of this animal totem check this link out: http://solacetemple.wordpress.com/2007/11/10/kookaburra-a-spirit-bird/ Enjoying the space with just me in it even as I long to be entwined once again, one being re-united into the form of two polarities, going in and coming out, out into the cosmos and the stillness, bringing back all of that, into the merge.

Being intensely present to the scene around me, like a movie, and the one on the outside is getting more like the one I play regularly in my temple every day! You can assume by my positive tone that this is a good thing and you would be correct, my outer world has shifted massively in tune with movement in the inner realms, the flow of healthy, happy energy gives one rather a buoyant feeling in fact. I can feel that healing occurring on every level of my being, from the physical to all of the mental, spiritual, emotional realms that form the person that be me in this particular incarnation.

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The more that your life force energy flows wherever it needs to, the happier you will be, even if the road is sometimes a little stony or steep, that effort and the surrender to the flow will bring light unto your sight, truth from your lips, warmth to the heart. And remember what St Germain always used to say:

“Until further notice, celebrate everything!”

The Medicine Just Got Sweeter, From The Everyday To Mary Poppins!

godgoddesstreeI’ve got this message at the top of my screen, it is trying to get me to change security settings and it’s all very serious and I am having trouble wrapping my head around what I actually need to do. I’m bobbing along in a bubble of happiness and joy and it can be a bit challenging to come to earth and do practical things, particularly not being the most practical of persons naturally. But I am doing my best and in the meantime exploring what it feels like to be so happy, everything seems easy from this space and the flow happens, in whatever is the most efficacious manner.

And things keep changing but there is a new continuity in my life that changes everything, I manage neurotic pets, writing commitments, shopping and yoga, giving a massage and getting my hair done, all in preparation for time with my Beloved. And time in my community, where I am constantly connecting with beautiful people who celebrate with me my joys, support if I do sorrow. Life is actually pretty good as we approach the Summer Solstice, the completion of what felt like a very important cycle to me, some of it quite painful, but the clarity on the other side is well worth it!

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Really challenge yourself and see what comes up, sit with the feelings and if you can let it be a journey then it may take you into a deeper awareness of body, mind……soul………heart. If you don’t like the feelings and the types of outcomes they tend to produce, then be present with the discomfort, you can let go of that stuff forever. Feels like I have let go of rather a lot of heavy stuff that I really didn’t need anymore, life is both simpler and more complex, in the most delightful way!

Just like this song from Mary Poppins, “A Spoon Full of Sugar”, you have to love Julie Andrews, she is just perfect in this role and what a voice!

It’s Christmas, Ask For Whatever You Want!

The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA's Spitzer Space Telescope.
The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope.

It feels like its time to say thank you, I have a lot of things to be thankful for and they include some stuff that is quite uncomfortable in the moment, but that takes you into deeper places. Go deep and rest in the dark womb of creation, a space where you can let go of it all, let go and be nothing and nobody……….everything and no thing.

I am grateful for every trigger, for every little thing that prodded and encouraged me to keep the energy moving, even the actions that were not in the spirit of integrity, have brought me to this place. So biggest thanks to the players on my particular stage who have been such able assistants in producing the right script to help me to move beyond such structure, into a dance of spirit that spirals me up into the light, an improvised jig with the whole cosmos!
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Do thank your inner critics and helpers too, they have been on your case or cheering you on for most of your life, they all have lessons to teach, did you find your class room? Don’t worry its an open invitation to this particular university but the situation continues to evolve and divine timing is getting pretty damn close, time to be doing your job whatever it might be.
If you are not sure what that is for you, then begin with gratitude every day, over time you may begin to notice which things give you energy and excitement, follow that passion and see where it takes you.
Explore what you would like to have in your life in an ideal world and make it REAL……………….let Spirit know what you want for Christmas, and who knows, you just might get it!
Another inspirational piece from Louie Schwartzberg, the subject is gratitude, enjoy………peace and mung beans.