Monthly Archives: February 2014

Yearning Is The Key To Love.

consciouslove“Your yearning for love is so powerful that I can feel your heart all the time. When you openly love me I can feel your heart, but I can also feel your heart’s yearning when you are angry or sad. To me your heart is always calling even though sometimes I am unable to open with you because your emotions divert me. I may be afraid or distracted and you may be upset, but  still I feel your heart’s yearning. And I need to feel your heart. Your yearning draws me back into love’s depth.  Your yearning is my invitation into your heart.”

Dear Lover, David Deida, Sounds True, Boulder CO, 2005, p 11.

I think I am beginning to truly understand the power that a woman has in love-making when she stays in her heart and radiates lots of yummy energy. And actually it isn’t just when you are connecting with each other sexually that this process can be happening, just as David Deida says in the above quote, your man needs to feel your heart. Be in that place all the time, when you are washing dishes or taking out the rubbish, if times are tough you will navigate them better when you stay in your heart.

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“Deep heart yearning is not a problem to be solved, but a divine pull to open as devotional surrender, as wide as all, now. With or without a man, whether or not you feel worthy, you can offer your heart’s openness  through your yearning, right now, as you are.”

David Deida, p 12.

For me this quote sums up in many ways my entire spiritual path, particularly since I embarked on shamanic techniques, ceremony, sound, dance, psychedelics, bodywork and breath work, for the last 13 years. For ten years I took myself on many journeys that all ultimately led to the same place, my own heart, loving myself. In my wonderful home I have re-built the last part of my self-esteem and let go of much of my old patterning in relationship.

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Now I am doing it with my man and while the new beginning, the dawning chapter of my opening is a little daunting at times, still we navigate it with good communication and a lot of love. My breasts and in particular the nipples are doorways to expand the heart that open up the channels so that sexual energy can flow, this feels good and can enhance your well-being at any time of the day or night! There are many resources out there my sisters and loving men if you want to find out more about this phenomenon, Diana Richardson’s  Tantric Orgasm for women is a wonderful book that talks about this.

But the best research is experiential so go to it my friends, for men on their own the recipe may vary but there is great information out there for all beings wanting to fully express their life energy in the world. Don’t settle for anything less, the path may seem a bit rocky at times but always worth it and never boring, the further I go along the path of the heart the more it becomes an ecstatic journey anyway.

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Until further notice celebrate everything! From Saint Germain through Azena Ramada.

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Let Love Corner You: Surrender The Pain, The Fear……….

Twins-in-love“Viewed spiritually, romance is, in its divine essence, a temple space. It is one of God’s laboratories, a mode of spiritual transformation. It is when held this way, a sacred opportunity for souls to jump past the confines of the narrow self, to take quantum leaps forward into new and uncharted emotional possibilities. There love corners us, putting a mirror up to our faces and demanding that we surrender: surrender the hurt, surrender the past, surrender the walls, surrender the blame, surrender the defenses, surrender the limits, surrender the fear……. Love is not a game for sissies.”

Marianne Williamson in the foreword to “Dear Lover: a woman’s guide to men, sex and love’s deepest bliss”, by David Deida, published by Sounds True, Boulder CO, 2005.

david deidaFinally I am reading a David Deida book, I have participated in processes facilitated by others but informed by his work and read countless quotes, but this is the first time I have sat down with one of his books. It belongs in my current house sit so I have two and a half weeks to read it, shouldn’t be so hard and I can share any discoveries with my Beloved. When I watched David Deida on a dvd running a session down in Byron Bay I was not always so thrilled with the way he delivered his message but there was loads of good information coming through. So this is going to be a pleasure!

When I have written about relationship as a spiritual process and been looking for appropriate quotes I’ve often checked out David Deida, not sure if the words are exactly correct but the mantra I loved and heard from my dance teacher was: “Fuck me open to God.” The other statement of his that always stuck with me was “If your relationship isn’t opening you to the divine then what are you doing there?” My few relationships before a ten-year break were each what I needed at the time but none could really be considered in that light, perhaps for the odd moment of ecstasy but I wasn’t any more ready for it than the men I was with.

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Now I am so it will be interesting to see what Deida has to say about it all in more depth, and it’s my favourite subject matter so will be easier to find time for!

Free Energy, Free Spirits……..The Truth Shall Set You Free!

Enough of my personal journey for one week, let us consider the world we could be living in if original inventions grew out of an expansive and supportive environment. The ten on the list in the following video are I am sure a fraction of the ingenuity and creativity that humanity is capable of, one hears over and over again of successful cures for cancer that end up being suppressed. They couldn’t possibly all be hoaxes even if some are actually fakes and there are some alternative approaches that are well and truly documented and yet are still refuted by so-called authorities.

http://www.nextworldtv.com/page/22235.html

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Exactly what do they want authority over? Our body, mind, spirit and soul is invited to dive into a commercial dream where having all that stuff that you can buy is held up as the path to happiness and joy. I’ve never had much if any of all that stuff and I have spent large parts of my life feeling happy and content, even as I did my best to trigger all the inner stuff that needed to go. So I could be even happier, that was what I noticed on the shamanic healing path, things got better the further I travelled upon it.

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I’m not saying that I know the way, I only know my own path and give enormous gratitude for the obstacles on that road. So perhaps one day we will gaze upon a world with free energy available to all, renewable sources giving power to all our needs as we co-operate and communicate as the interconnected beings that we are. And perhaps on that day I will understand the point of all this suppression of creativity, there must be a reason for existence always knows what it is doing.

May the light of wisdom one day grace planet earth, just as Leonard Cohen hopes that the lights in the land of plenty shine on the truth one day:

A Pain In The Kidneys Slows Me Down.

too sweetWell I did everything that was on the schedule and reached a point where I could no longer stay with the pain and the discomfort that has been slowly growing worse. So I went to see my friend who gave me a herbal tonic and marshmallow powder, also a medicinal tea and the guidance to avoid alcohol and sugar. Been having a bit more sugar than is good for me although still nothing approaching my old habits, time to swing back to a place of not requiring so much sweetness. At least not in my food anyway.

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Forgive my barely supported visual segue into the realm of the faeries, after my Lord of the Rings themed party and the pleasure of having pointy ears for a night, I may be a little obsessed……….but now back to the story.

My friend confirmed that I had a fairly severe bladder infection and that we needed to hit it hard with the herbs, three times a day. I tried to do my overnight shift but severe pain in my back and probably kidneys sent me home a couple of hours early. Now I have had a day doing nothing much with everything I meant to do cancelled, just eating from the fridge, can’t face shopping. The things a body has to do to get a girl to slow down!

darth vaderOf course that isn’t the whole story, dark forces have been on the move and there is a bit of carnage left, like on the Death card, representing endings. It’s a mopping up operation now and the more efficient I am in this process the lighter I will be, able to manoeuver in a new life that remains complicated while incredibly simple. Yes I know that’s a contradiction but both are true, essentially I am very happy but right in this very moment I have absolutely no energy, at least not in my body.

My mind and spirit are moving and bringing these words to you, I hope they are of some use as I really do get a lot out of putting my thoughts out into the world. Being witnessed is a very powerful exchange, thank you to those who follow my posts, your likes and comments are much appreciated.

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Farewell Dark Energies: Be Transformed!

flames burnAs I sit here I would love to say that my burning issue has passed as I move beyond the big party and public acknowledgement of becoming 50 years old. There is some relief involved but the deep letting go that has been going on for the last three months continues so I am keeping on with the colloidal silver. But I am sure that being present with my feelings is the best way to heal all of this, on my own and with my Beloved. I do try not to ignore the physical but surely any condition present in the body has an energetic source, which if treated, will dissolve the physical symptoms.

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Very soon I will be in a new house sit and there will be time and space for my Beloved and I to bring a strong intention to our loving, for the healing to flow and energy be made available to heal the disharmonious frequency. And perhaps some reiki and massage or toning perhaps, a dance or a breath session even and a bit of random yoga, the possibilities contained within the quantum soup are bottomless. I am determined to heal myself, my intuition says stay away from doctors so if I do feel that professional help would be useful I will be going to see a friend who is alternative and who I trust.

In the meantime I am sitting with this and doing my best to allow the energies to keep moving through me, I’m doing a lot of farting and it isn’t because of lentils this time! Feels like it is a part of what is moving through, very visceral, torture, blood, sweat and tears…………….not surprising that it doesn’t feel very comfortable as it is moving out after a long stay.

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Farewell dark energies, go back into the field and be transformed as I let go of my fear and step into the light of my own magnificence! Hooray!!!!!

Birthday Treasures: Smaug’s Hoard.

smaugs hoardJust a quick note to you all today as I chill after a wondrous 50th birthday party, here is some of the treasure I received with Smaug guarding the hoard!

For those who read my last post the burning bladder continued on pretty much up to when the party started but I took some colloidal silver and that seems to be helping. It isn’t over but as I continue to process it will probably shift, at least I’ve found something in the physical that does appear to assist my body, a support.

Here is some of the colour, beautiful images that I had a lot of fun discovering as I sat on the floor like a child at Christmas time!

Now it’s back to paradise, dear friends and my Beloved, it’s been quite some time since I kissed him……mmmmm need to do something about that!

Burning The Darkness Away: Healing The Body.

inner-fireThe story continues, I am getting very strong physical symptoms that have emerged out of the energies that have been moving through me. They are dark and painful and that is the feeling as my bladder feels like to burst, I am sitting with the feelings and letting them move, also doing spontaneous healing visualisations. Of course I am supposed to be going to see a doctor but I am hoping to avoid that strategy, knocking this out with antibiotics won’t do anything to address the energetic source of the complaint.

The stuff I am letting go of is all about sexual energy, aspects of that force that have been warped and morphed into something that interferes with connection  to source, to the bottomless sea of bliss. Somehow I am keeping that silver cord attached even as I feel the intensity and pressure in my bladder, it is a bit like being in two realities at once. I have a friend who has often described me as living on the edge and she is rather accurate I think, this is not fun at all but I am stubborn so am hanging in there and giving my body a chance to heal itself.

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Makes focusing on a post a bit difficult but it is also quite useful to put my thoughts into writing, once again the act of putting words to paper helps me to move things along. When I’m done with this post I will have to do some serious focusing on getting the healing done, time to truly let go of that which has held my life-force energy back from its full expression. And on the other side of that story is a new chapter in my life which almost feels like starting all over again, but with a lot more wisdom and knowledge than the first time.

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Bringing conscious awareness to everything can make the passage through life easier to navigate, just as a sailor is attuned to the moods of the sea, we can tune into our own and the planet’s flow. Bring it all into harmony and true alignment, this is what I must do………..I will let you know how I get along!