Photo by Kerry Laizans.
We need to clean up our act on so many fronts as a race of beings, not only do we treat each other abominably, we also behave shamefully with the creatures we share this planet with. I am thinking very much about animals at the moment while I am living in a bush sanctuary, the rescue animals are not here but I feed wallabies and birds every morning before feeding the horses. To see wild animals so relaxed and at ease right next to human habitation is heart warming, there is nothing quite so chilled as a wallaby lying down!
Right by the verandah!
Photo by Kerry Laizans.
Quite apart from inhumane treatment our industrial culture is destroying habitat at a rate of knots, I am still actively appalled at an Australian Government that is allowing mining companies to dredge the Great Barrier Reef! If you are not from this country and not familiar with the reef I suggest you look it up, it is one of the natural wonders of the world, at least what’s left of it is. Not only is it being destroyed for our children, animals and all kinds of amazing plant life depend upon this jewel in the tourist crown of Oz. What right do we have to condemn whole species to death for our own short-term gain? Look at this beauty below, surely it needs to be preserved and honoured.
And then there are the incredible people out there who dedicate their lives to helping animals, “Last Chance To See” by Douglas Adams is full of human beings who truly care about our fellow inhabitants. To read more about that project check this out: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Last_Chance_to_See And if you feel like being profoundly touched and moved, I cried towards the end, have a look at this footage of the rescue of a humpback whale and her beautiful dance of gratitude: http://www.nextworldtv.com/page/26178.html
So here I am whipping up a post again and it feels a little bit like dear diary, oh boy I could do such a great x rated tale of events. But this isn’t that kind of a blog, doesn’t mean however that I can’t use the same inspiration to write some erotic literature, perhaps I will look up Anais Nin. I am more familiar with quotes from her but it might be time to read what she wrote, it will probably be different from what I would write but it may take me places I wouldn’t have gone otherwise.
And there has been a lot of pain, very intense at times but this sharing of wisdom is very true for me. At the other end of sometimes agonising pain, I have come to the light at the end of the tunnel and find it good.
And with that wonderful statement I will leave you dear readers as I return to my oh so courageous man……………after all if I’m going to try writing some erotic prose I need to go and do some research.
The new chapter begins again, my Beloved and I have moved into a wonderful house sit out in the bush, from spending a lot of time together in just one room, we now have a whole house to roam in! Today was moving day and I must confess to feeling a tad overwhelmed as I organised myself, you might think that strange when I have done so very many house sits and have the process down to a fine art.
But this time is different because it isn’t just me on my own, on a practical level I wouldn’t be here because being responsible for two horses would be a bit daunting. But it is also a shift in my new relationship, this feels like we have had the honeymoon and we are now settling into a life together, a life full of wonder and joy and intense pleasures. Its exciting and fun and somehow we will integrate being together and still managing to operate in the everyday world even when we are spending so much time together.
Boundaries have been a challenge for me in the past and so this will be an interesting opportunity to balance my desire to melt into complete indulgence, with putting a life structure together. Always remembering that the most important thing is to be happy in my life, as long as the basic needs are taken care of then how much do I really need.
Dinner is almost ready, I hope kind readers you will pardon me as I enjoy my first evening in my new domicile, as my Beloved toils in the kitchen on our behalf. You almost didn’t get a post yet again but for very happy reasons this time!
Well there’s good news and bad, whatever was in my neck has definitely gone, but my bladder is flaring up again. The medicine circle was beautiful as always and I received the understanding that I had shifted something in my body and that it was gone. I also got the message that I need to move my body more often in dance as well as yoga. Messages from spirit often tell us things we already know, gentle reminders of the treasure of knowledge that we carry within ourselves.
I asked for physical healing in my circle and so I am wondering where the bladder fits into this picture. I recently cleared a layer of very dark stuff which I thought the bladder infection was a physical manifestation of but here it is again bringing my attention to something that needs healing. So either it’s something new or I am meeting a deeper layer of the same energies.
I can feel resistance to looking at what this is about and as I sit here I can feel anger in the burning down below, there is a part of me that just wants everything to be fine without having to look at anything. This resistance seems to be manifesting through my computer which is behaving in the strangest fashion, the keyboard has gone mad and I wasn’t able to write my post much less fix the problem. I am writing this on another computer and really struggling to make myself keep going, like a part of me wants to give up.
There is an aspect of me that doesn’t want to be here which I’ve worked with before this, maybe I am meeting a deeper layer of it. Whatever the answer may be I will have to explore it in future posts, I can only keep up this much coherence for a limited time. With any luck I will be able to soon report some clarity on this issue, until then I shall sail the sea of confusion, trusting that the energetic currents will take me where I need to go.
And herbs for the infection without a doubt, this is one of those times when I need to take care of the physical directly as well as find the place from which this issue has come. I asked for physical healing, this dis-ease may well be a part of that process………….be careful what you ask for…….the Gods may just give it to you!
I was getting ready to go and visit a friend in hospital yesterday and as I put my bag on my shoulder I felt a sudden and sharp pain in my right neck and shoulder. A few gentle stretches and I was on my way but I could feel the soreness in my body and this gradually got worse as the day went on, felt like I was falling apart! I began to notice other aches in my body and realised that my second yoga class for the year (yes I did finally make it!) had really had quite an impact.
There is the obvious fact that if you are not stretching so often the muscles are going to end up a bit sore when you actually do get to it, but as always I tend to contemplate a bigger picture when I consider physical manifestations such as aches and pains. Love making is a place where a lot of my therapy happens these days, it can be enormously helpful in moving energies that are active in the body and so assist in clearing out old patterns. So there was quite a lot coming up for me and at one point I could ‘see’ this black shape in my neck, it was a rough black shape a bit like an infinity symbol.
It seemed to dissolve with the movement of energy so I think it was released but it will probably be something I will check on when I am on my medicine journey tonight. My intention will revolve around physical healing as that is what is coming up strongly for me at the moment, the bladder is still behaving itself at present but I when I tune in I can feel that it is still not in an optimum state of health. My experience on journeys is that my intention is always addressed but often I get a much bigger and broader picture so it will be interesting to see what comes up.
I feel very ‘open’ which is a great space to be in when going into the mystery, the trick is to state your intention and then to let it go and surrender to the process. What a fortunate life I do lead where I have the opportunity to go on grand adventures into my inner realms, with beautiful facilitators who hold a deep and respectful space that I can dive into, carried on the wings of trust.
Fly, fly high, let the earth touch the sky………………an inspirational song from the fabulous Deva Premal and Miten, enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKYgA2JaufY
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Dressing up as an elf can also be great therapy! Yes that’s me, photo by Steve Swayne.
Hello dear Readers, what is life holding for you in this very moment? Is there a thought or a dream that’s been wandering around in your inner being that wants to be expressed in some way? That’s a bit like the writing process for me, this blog is as much about my own therapy as it is about you gorgeous people out there.
There is a lot going on in my life at the moment, not the least of which is my going from being on my own to being with my soul mate. That journey brings its own challenges, it also brings incredible joy and the deepest connection, it isn’t the only way to get there but it certainly is fun! I have been noticing in myself an urge to immerse myself completely in my relationship, the desire to be in that ecstatic loving space all the time. There is a potential danger in this oh so natural process, at least it has been for me, it is so easy to lose myself in the ocean of love.
And this is relationship which is a spiritual practice that I am engaging in now so how much more the temptation to drown in that crazy, delicious place of delight. The funny thing is that the same thing ultimately saves me from tipping over the edge, it’s much harder to lose me these days, I keep finding deeper and deeper layers of who I really am. When you reach a certain point there is no going back, and why would you want to?
And I do let go of who I think I am as I shift into that state of oneness and surrender, but I’m not really losing myself these days, its more like letting go of control. Or maybe you could compare it to the ability of a shaman to move in and out of altered states of consciousness, after all I used to be a shamanic apprentice! Whatever you call it, its nice to have the opportunity to navigate the paths to ecstasy, even when it is shadow, as I release layers of old stuff I become more available to the ecstatic.
Until further notice, celebrate everything! Saint Germain through Azena Ramanda.
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