It’s a while since I wrote about uneasy belly but even in the bubble of love stuff comes up, in fact the more that you dive into that ocean of love the more likely you will stir up the shadows lurking in the depths of your being. So I am feeling that knot of anxiety in my stomach but not like butterflies flying in flocks, it is more concentrated in just one spot. Because I am so very happy it isn’t disabling but it isn’t comfortable either, this will definitely be something I will take into my medicine journey tonight, an opportunity to release limitation and negativity.
And that is exactly what this is, the feelings are very familiar and have in the past created a kind of paralysis which made it hard for me to act on anything. They tell me that I’m not good enough to receive the full abundance of the life force, that there’s no point in even trying because I can never get anything right. This has all been triggered by insecurities over money, some big expenses going out and not so much coming in, but essentially there have been no real sudden changes, it is my thoughts that are creating this unsettling vortex inside me.
So inwards I go to release and transform, being able to share all this with my Beloved really helps a lot, he is a good listener and generously holds space for me when I need him to. As a matter of fact he is living proof that I have made ENORMOUS progress! To be loved so completely without reserve is to affirm that I am worthy of such regard.
My trust in life deepens as I continue to let go of anything and everything that may stand in the way of my fullness, of my full participation in the evolution of humanity.
The notion of conservation is not a new one, in Japan there has been a tradition of not wasting resources known as ‘mottainai’ which has become the catch cry for a campaign in Japan to reduce waste. Wangari Maathai, Nobel Peace Prize Winner, environmentalist, activist and parliamentarian, has brought this concept to the rest of the world. We need to become more responsive to our environment and prepared to dive deeper into our inner resources if the world is to continue with humans upon it.
In order to do this it is helpful to do with less, doesn’t mean you can’t be comfortable materially but you put thought into using your resources as efficiently as you can. I have become accustomed now to having some kind of compost operating wherever I go, that and recycling mean that I often only create one small bag of rubbish for the week, and that is often the case even with two of us! This is a relatively recent change for me, in the last five years, now it seems like the norm to me, all the house sits I do have some kind of arrangement to compost and pretty much everyone recycles these days.
This is all really important stuff but it’s important to remember the implications of mottainai when considering what you want to be doing in the world, what is your purpose and how you can bring your particular gifts into expression. Being inspired and passionate about things and then not following through is almost a bit arrogant to be honest even though it doesn’t feel like it at the time. Who am I to refuse the flow of spirit through me? The more of us who step into our larger selves and recognise the interconnectedness of all things, the more the world can be tipped towards massive change for the better.
Here is a song that I’m learning with my choir at the moment called “Mottainai”, the words have been going round and round in my head as I sit in front of the fire and has produced this bit of reflection on my part, I hope you enjoy!
Passion ignites desire and eyes spark, as lips meet in prayers of fire, as a seemingly molten liquid speeds through bodies lit up from within by the sweet merging of love and opening. A thousand petals gently spreading their tenderest parts to the gaze of the Beloved, feeling the threads of light that connect us to all things, the quantum galaxy of swirling particles. The soul exposed in all its depth and stirring, stirring the stuff that lies within that is finally ready to let go, to let go, to let go………….
The body is finished with this flow, no longer in a super sensitive frame but taking great gulps of sensation as the pleasure takes me on a journey free of thought. Even as the body takes its due harvest I can feel that the ‘stuff’ that is moving is the last of this installment, this layer of the onion, only the mental body catching the last fragments as it goes by. Making worry over nothing in a vain attempt to hang on is the ego’s way of trying to stay safe, let yourself know that letting go into pleasure is the surest way to stay safe in a world that is constantly shifting and changing.
My safe harbour is always there even when there is choppy water and a storm brewing, so I can brave the dark waters knowing that I will never drown, never be lost. And as I release and release the weight of my soul I can dance lightly into the bright future that is revealed as the night’s curtain parts to reveal the birth of a brand new day!
I’m listening to Shpongle doing “Once Upon The Sea Of Blissful Awareness”, if you missed it then please check out my last post where you will find the link, oh what the hell I’m feeling generous, here’s the link again: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAQkxJ4zHh4
In that particular post I made the suggestion that you take the time to truly listen to the music with your entire being, body, mind and soul. You might find that moving your body helps you to really ‘know’ the music at the deepest level possible, it is most definitely meditation and your response can be as fluid as it needs to be. Complete stillness may be what you require at times, listen to the body’s communications and journeys can come from the simplest of things, like hearing music or the sounds of nature, gazing into the eyes of another soul. The best things in life are generally not commodities, you wouldn’t think that from seeing what goes on in the first world.
Life itself is devalued when we move out of balance with a system that we are an integral part of even though there are some who seem determined to maintain ignorance on that subject, unfortunately they tend to be the ones ‘governing’ our country. There are places where people do behave with respect for the environment and each other, my town is a long way from perfect just like me but I am strongly reminded of how different we are when I go to the city. It is possible to change the way that you think and it can happen in so many different ways, the more of us who do it the easier it becomes for everyone else.
So keep rocking on with your spiritual, physical, mental and emotional bodies as the vital vortex that is life takes you in a quantum dance into the future, baby it is time to ROCK!
Here is of all people, Tom Cruise, rocking it on big time in the movie “Rock of Ages”, if you haven’t seen it, it’s an awesome films with great performances, Tom Cruise isthe Rock God, the guy can really act! And Alec Baldwin and Russel Brand make the most delightful couple.
I only just remembered that I am supposed to write a post for tonight! I am in a space of no-time with my Beloved and I completely forgot what day it was, that is true relaxation. So I am going to honour that lovely place that has no deadlines by staying there and making this the shortest post I have ever published.
So I offer you a little exercise if you fancy it, this piece of music gives a sense of where my consciousness is floating at this moment, in the sea of love, of life. Turn it up and listen in the most relaxed space that you are able to achieve at this time, let the music take you deeper in to your body and if it feels good maybe even move your body. Imagine that every part of your body is listening to the music, not just your ears but every part of your physical being!
And surrender to the ocean of bliss that is the life we were born to live!
Letting go is a process of refinement I find, the more sensitive you can be as you tune into what your body, mind and spirit are up to, the more opportunity you have to let go of something else. You may have a sense of what it is or know precisely the meaning of what you are perceiving, or you may have no idea, just a knowing that something is leaving you. It is transformed and so are you as another piece of excess baggage falls away. Often there will be big themes that keep cropping up over and over again, don’t worry, if it’s coming up for you then it is available for release.
Any big issues that you have will be layered all through your experiences in life, the particular entry into the earth plane that you have taken in this incarnation, family, country, etc……..so don’t be discouraged if the same things keep on coming up. If you persist and persist and never give up on the possibility of healing everything in this lifetime, then it is possible to create fundamental change. At least that’s what it took for me in this lifetime, the strong desire to evolve my inner world, invoke my spiritual task and do what I have come here to do.
Me dancing with orbs! Photo by Antara May.
I am a communicator with words and sometimes with my body, toning is another medium that can create a sacred space where it is possible to use the sound to come into coherence, when the brain and the heart beat as one! It used to be my favourite way but I must confess that relationship as a spiritual practice is head and shoulders above the rest for me these days. But I will be doing some groups with my Beloved and that feels like the next stage of creating this kind of energy, if people connect with our offerings they may experience great transformation over time. At worst they will have a fun session and end up feeling a bit like little kids, learning should always be fun I reckon, there will definitely have to be some kind of movement/dance element.
Kerry Laizans Photo by Antara May.
Once again I feel excited at the thought of exploring ways of helping other seekers tune in and let go, looking forward to the Equinox very much! http://www.thejoining.com.au/
Hello and yes I will continue the story of the commoner princess by and by, but for today’s sharing I want to talk about different states of consciousness, a topic that has fascinated me for years. For women it is probably easier in some ways to comprehend the ways in which we shift from one state to another, at least in theory. We have a monthly shift which is our moon time, and even though women in western culture are not taught to value this phenomenon, it is an opportunity to become more sensitive and able to perceive inner transformation.
It’s not often I have anything that could be described as PMT but I’ve felt my menstrual flow on the way for the last few days and found myself over sensitive to physical touch and very emotional. My Beloved and I ended up going from passion to me being held as I felt almost like crying, distressed but for no perceivable reason. He was rather excited but could feel where I was and accepted with great grace that I had things moving and he needed to hold space for me rather than make love.
The next day I watched lots of “Charmed” episodes and didn’t do too much and my Beloved was there when I needed him to be and I was left to myself as needed, quite perfect! A perfectly normal situation for many couples, can you see how ignoring the feminine shift into pre-moon time could create arguments and separation, imagine how often that has actually happened to people. Recognising cycles and accepting what they bring to us, responding to what is in the present instead of what we think shouldbe there, here is an approach that can bring two people closer together. There is nothing more attractive than someone who really getsyou!
Shape-shifter, shaman, prophetic visionary, healer. Oh, hello everything that I desire to embody, and do so, even as I am a little bit freaked out/scared/wonder why I couldn’t’ve just been some ‘more normal’ instead. http://www.janeofardis.com/tag/goddesses/
Of course tuning into cycles is going to be an asset whether you are in a relationship or not, it can help you to be in the energetic flow of your life, wherever that journey may be heading for you.
Once upon a time in the Magic Kingdom there lived a commoner princess who loved the caring, hearted community that she left only for very important reasons. After all there was not anything much that she couldn’t find to satisfy her deepest needs in this place that often seemed to run at a different rate of time, just like the Faerie Kingdom. Wonderful and creative people, good food and music, all at standards usually only seen in more metropolitan settings, here in the Magic Kingdom one can have ones vegan, raw cake and eat it too!
Raw Key Lime Tart.
The only thing missing was a companion at her side to share the wonder and stimulation of this place where empowerment and stepping into ones magnificence is positively encouraged. Over almost three years she had connected to a vibrant pulsing interconnected system that has developed through the strong intentions of those who saw that recognising our co-dependance on each other was imperative in order to navigate turbulent times. The princess kept doing her inner work and refining her diet and began to spend a lot of time with the Mother in Sacred Circle, she asked the Mother to help her to do whatever was required to make space for her love to come through.
And so she met her soulmate, he too sat in Sacred Circle with the Mother and so they neatly avoided much of the surface nonsense that can sometimes be there at the beginning of getting to know another soul. When one has been in intimate space with another in a circle created by all of the participants, there is a connection that makes absolute honesty much easier. So they courted online for a month before meeting in the Magic Kingdom and discovering that the promise they had suspected was in fact a flowering harvest, ripe for the plucking!
And that will be quite enough of that for the moment, stay tuned for the sequel to my tale of the commoner princess, Queen of Hearts and a long way from perfect, just like you or me.
Diving into the space of eternity I fall into the softest state of being, letting go of the things that are supposed to be who I am in the world. Following the path of the heart, letting go of who I thinkI am, this has been a major part of my journey into relationship as a spiritual practice.
Not that you have to be in a romantic relationship in order to let go of the ego’s assumptions, I’ve been following this particular path for what feels like a very long time. Just reflect for a moment, how much of your sense of identity comes from what other people have told you over the years? Parents, teachers and institutions, images in a culture that screams out youth, money and status! Even those who appear to embody all of these desirable traits, will often secretly feel unworthy. I can think of at least one drop dead gorgeous young woman I know who constantly surprises me when she seems unable to see her own beauty.
It’s such a relief to let go of all of that weight of expectation, to drop into the stillness of expectancy, quivering on the edge of the unknown. But to get to that place you need to be prepared for being uncomfortable at times, breaking old patterns requires focus, determination, and a certain amount of bloody mindedness.
It can also be fun and I am very excited to be bringing my awareness to ways in which I can support people in doing this for themselves. My Beloved and I have been accepted to run a workshop at the next “Joining Gathering” in September, it’s called “The Path of the Heart: Letting go of who you think you are”. (http://www.thejoining.com.au/) So far we make a good team, in the bedroom, the kitchen, in tasks around the house and on the dance floor, this is our opportunity to take that energy out into the wider community.
The adventure continues and my own path of the heart shines out like the glorious sun on a crisp autumn morning.
“Until further notice celebrate everything!” (St Germain through Azena Ramanda)
Here are the four sisters from “Charmed”, one left and lo and behold another sister!
I’m feeling very irresponsible, I want to watch episodes of “Charmed” rather than write this post! I don’t watch television except for shows sometimes on my computer or on dvd, but it can be a rather wonderful way to switch off. I just can’t handle ads interrupting the program, so much better to watch at your convenience and pause when answering calls of nature.
There are actually some tv shows around that are very high quality, with profound social messages, and sometimes it is a bit of fun or fluff that is pure entertainment. “Charmed” falls mostly into the latter category, with an occult theme there will often be some kind of message going on but for the most part it is good stories and witchy action in designer clothes. All three characters are gorgeous, each in their own way, and I enjoy looking at beauty as much as the next person.
The many faces of Bernard from “Black Books”
There is something about pleasing yourself and not taking life too seriously that really enhances the enjoyment of life. It’s a balance between really enjoying life and attending to the necessities of daily existence, tax for instance. If you would like to have a really good belly laugh on that subject as a matter of fact, I suggest you watch the first episode of “Black Books” with Dylan Moran, I’ve seen it more than once and don’t get sick of it.
And with that I am going to go and watch my show, before my Beloved comes home, somehow I don’t think the beautiful clothes and spells will do a lot for him. We watch “Lord of the Rings” and the friday night football, the “IT “Crowd is also hilarious and fun to share the laughter with another.