It’s a while since I wrote about uneasy belly but even in the bubble of love stuff comes up, in fact the more that you dive into that ocean of love the more likely you will stir up the shadows lurking in the depths of your being. So I am feeling that knot of anxiety in my stomach but not like butterflies flying in flocks, it is more concentrated in just one spot. Because I am so very happy it isn’t disabling but it isn’t comfortable either, this will definitely be something I will take into my medicine journey tonight, an opportunity to release limitation and negativity.
And that is exactly what this is, the feelings are very familiar and have in the past created a kind of paralysis which made it hard for me to act on anything. They tell me that I’m not good enough to receive the full abundance of the life force, that there’s no point in even trying because I can never get anything right. This has all been triggered by insecurities over money, some big expenses going out and not so much coming in, but essentially there have been no real sudden changes, it is my thoughts that are creating this unsettling vortex inside me.
So inwards I go to release and transform, being able to share all this with my Beloved really helps a lot, he is a good listener and generously holds space for me when I need him to. As a matter of fact he is living proof that I have made ENORMOUS progress! To be loved so completely without reserve is to affirm that I am worthy of such regard.
My trust in life deepens as I continue to let go of anything and everything that may stand in the way of my fullness, of my full participation in the evolution of humanity.
So be it, so be it, so be it…………………………………