My Beloved and I are shifting into a new phase of our sacred union and it comes at a time when we are preparing for our very private commitment ceremony. So why am I telling you about it? Because it is incredibly significant to me at this time and I try always to write authentically from my heart in this space. You don’t need to know the details but I can tell you about what it means to me. We’ve been talking about having a ceremony for a very long time but it is only as it comes closer that I am feeling the shift that it represents.
Deeper and deeper I go following the guidance of my softly open heart, always there is a deeper place to go to. In my experience there is no end to love, it keeps opening and saying yes, even when things get hard. And we have had a few challenges lately, sometimes it feels as though we are teenagers trying to work out who we are and in a way that’s actually the truth of the matter. At a time when people are ‘supposed’ to be all settled we are searching for who we truly are and living on the smell of an oily rag as we do so.
But even at moments when it feels like everything is going wrong we always have each other. Without blame or unconscious projections you make sure not to sabotage the greatest support that you have, the person who loves you unreservedly. So when you are experiencing uncomfortable feelings try not to look for someone to blame. Sit with the feelings and if you have the courage to stay with that process they will eventually move. As you drop deeper you will uncover inner treasures that may amaze and delight you, possibly even confront you a little. Particularly as you begin to discover just how incredible you are when you allow all that trivial crap to fall away.
This poem is very dear to us both and expresses the love that we share so very beautifully, I hope you enjoy these exquisite words from Sally Cutler:
In the garden…
I promise I will always dance with you in the garden.
I promise to always honour your beauty.
I promise to recognise your divinity.
I promise to look after you, even when it’s hard.
I promise to always be with you, in all your exquisite flaws.
I promise to know you are love,
I promise to forgive you when you forget.
I promise my soul to you in this body.
I promise to show you your true self over and over again,
in the rising of the sun and the turning of the earth.
I promise when you need me, I’ll be right there,
in the soil under your feet and the sweet rhythm of your heartbeat.
I promise to stand as you under the stars.
I promise you are always light.
I promise I will always dance with you in the garden.