I haven’t felt much like writing here what with all the goings on of recent times and when I started to get the urge to communicate I wondered what about. I will speak to you of the miracle that my Beloved and I have flowed into even as we had visioned during our search for a new home, at another time. For now let me say that we are living close to town on a beautiful property which carries very much the energy of retreat which was the message that Spirit sent to us with great clarity as we did the inner work. Moving is exhausting and every new situation has challenges as well as immediate blessings, so we are going through a period of adjustment, a transition time. I’ve been having a flare up of a bladder issue also so you might expect me to be grumpy and pissed off.
Well I don’t enjoy it when my bladder hurts but the empowerment of managing it myself is really satisfying. And being in a place that is quiet, surrounded by nature and animals, keeps me grounded even when I’m unwell. I did a day and a half of work at the start of this week and at the start of both days I sat on the grass in a park and meditated for ten minutes before heading off to work. On the second day I was walking down the path through a bit of bush and an inlet to my car when I found myself with a gorgeous blue and black butterfly hovering around me. I stood entranced with a huge smile on my face and when I began to walk the butterfly came with me and fluttered around really close to me. I realised that it was probably attracted to the swirling colours in my skirt but it was also a message from Spirit. Butterflies are all about transformation and it feels like my Beloved and I are going through something huge at the moment.
Change is inevitable and there are times when it may seem scary, to get a bit anxious about moving into the unknown is a normal part of being human I think. But it can also help to crack you open so that energy that is stuck can move and so surrendering to the things you cannot change is an important part of health and well being. I’m not speaking of becoming passive, simply accepting for example that death will come to all living beings at some time. Death may be the greatest transformation of all and one that my Beloved gets all excited about. I suspect I still carry fear around that part of my life but his attitude is rather comforting and I think it has helped me to let go of some of those fears.
There is always something to feel grateful for and at this particular moment I am remembering that stunning butterfly and the sweet joy that I experienced as it hovered around me. And so many other joyful moments, so many of them with my cohort in love, the sexiest man on the planet! Life that has been a little anxious lately is beginning to get reconnected to Nature, and that combined with true love is a recipe for Happiness!