Accommodation blues have stopped playing that sad tune and we are feeling quite settled in our new and very much impermanent dwelling. The place is up for sale but for now we are grounding ourselves and moving into a brave new future of prosperity and success! So much inner work I’ve travelled through and the one big obstacle that keeps coming up is the age old problem of getting sufficient funds in to the proverbial bank account. So much abundance in every other way, my relationship, friends and community, work that has meaning, the opportunity to learn new things and grow, and the resources to improve my diet and move into sparkling health!
So what is going on? It takes confidence and organisation to make things happen in the world and I have tended towards being a bit retiring when stepping out into the everyday realm. At least when it’s myself I’m promoting! So I guess it comes down to self-love and I guess that I still have a bit of work to do on that front. I have found myself with loads of energy since I cleaned up my diet so having enough physical energy shouldn’t be an issue at least. With the huge shift that happened a month ago I have been getting lots done and catching up with lots of stuff that had been delayed so it probably comes down to having a list of tasks and simply doing them.
I can’t think what else to do at the moment and it feels like the right thing to do but I get a sinking sensation in my belly as I think it. There is a bit of pressure too with big bills coming up and my brother getting married overseas in a matter of months, to say nothing of my own impending nuptials. There is fear around being able to meet those demands even as I revel in the energy that is coursing through my body, maybe my mind is having difficulty catching up with the body’s transformation! Mmmmmm that’s a thought that only just occurred to me as a matter of fact. If I can soothe my mind and convince it that it is possible to meet all these delightful possibilities with enthusiasm, excitement and great confidence then perhaps it will stop sending these messages of doom to my belly.
As a kinaesthetic person I have probably been guilty of neglecting the intellect at times, I always want to ‘feel’ my way through everything. So my mind may be a little crazy owing to not getting enough tender loving care from me, in spite of all my mindfulness! It’s a theory anyhow and bears thinking about, kind and compassionate thoughts and BIG thoughts that allow me to become much more than my small, fearful self. The fear in my belly has subsided a little with this current crop of thoughts so I will give it a go and report back to you all when I have an answer or two. In the meantime don’t forget to have a bit of fun every day and touch the earth or nature in some form every day too! Aho!
The Witta Markets (Third Saturday of the month)
I’ve been running, running and all this wonderful energy has been channeled into playing catch up after our month of moving madness. So now it’s Saturday and we’ve been in our new home for just over two weeks and our last brief abode is receding into a distant dream peopled by archetypal animals and a psychopathic character that probably belongs more in the realm of nightmare. Whew! Still in a constant state of gratitude for the beautiful community that my Beloved and I live in. Market days amidst green grass and trees as we drink our coffee and chai latte on almond milk and talk about the wonderful Walk Against Domestic Violence that launched a new initiative, “Say Yes to Family Peace”. We had an internationally renowned choir master teach us the song we sang as we walked down the main street and the police car drove in front of us so we could walk safely. The words we sang were “Walk with me, hold my hand, I don’t want to walk alone”.
And so many people do feel alone even when they are in the middle of a crowded city surrounded by countless other millions of isolated folk. The gap between the rich and the poor keeps getting more and more like a bottomless abyss and the politicians have become quite blatant about supporting their rich mates over the average working Australian. Let’s face it, we have enough technical know how and resources these days that the idea that everyone needs to work for a living is simply not true. I love this quote from Buckminster Fuller:
“We should do away with the absolutely specious notion that everybody has to earn a living. It is a fact today that one in ten thousand of us can make a technological breakthrough capable of supporting all the rest. The youth of today are absolutely right in recognizing this nonsense of earning a living. We keep inventing jobs because of this false idea that everybody has to be employed at some kind of drudgery because, according to Malthusian Darwinian theory he must justify his right to exist. So we have inspectors of inspectors and people making instruments for inspectors to inspect inspectors. The true business of people should be to go back to school and think about whatever it was they were thinking about before somebody came along and told them they had to earn a living.”
― R. Buckminster Fuller
The Co-op where I buy my organic produce.
So I am incredibly grateful that I do live in a place where people are valued just for being who they are. What you do for a living or how much money you have in the bank don’t tell me if you are a kind and gentle person, or if you have an open heart. Living in a place where people and community are considered important gives me a bit of insulation from the outside world which sometimes frightens me. In the state of New South Wales just below the state that I live in the premier of that state has just sacked a whole lot of councils. Because of corruption or ineptitude perhaps? No, because they opposed developers wanting to build roads in places where the community was very much against the proposals. And if anyone wants to protest his undemocratic behaviour he has brought in new laws to take away that basic human right.
Comparisons with the corruption of the Roman Empire keep springing to mind, the rich today are starting to look more and more like the moral degenerates that abounded as that empire went through it’s last gasps. Thank the Goddess for grass roots movements that are these days filled with ordinary folk who are beginning to wake up to the fact that our governments are much more interested in feathering their own nests than they are in doing the job they were supposed to be elected for. Because I’m an optimist and I believe that there will be a way forward into a brand new day of true harmony and connection for the people on this beautiful planet. Just don’t look to governments for this direction, look into your own heart and find the peace within yourself. That is something that no dictator can take from you, it is a quality that will create happiness for you and those around you no matter what craziness is going on in the world.
End of rant, shanti, shanti, shanti……peace, peace, peace…..
In my last post I spoke of an idyllic country retreat with lots of green trees and fields and animals frolicking around the place. Sounds lovely doesn’t it but I’m afraid this was one of those times when the beauty was only skin deep, or rather it was true of the landscape but not so much for the human inhabitants. My Beloved and I had many red flags and warnings but we were blinded by fear and the lure of not paying any rent. So we found ourselves suddenly presented with a 7 day termination notice on the same day we were going into retreat. There was only one thing to be done, to go fearlessly into our inner realms to observe the myriad of fears that the situation triggered in us both.
And oh what a wondrous journey and what treasures we have brought back with us to this everyday waking reality. We ate a clean alkalising diet in the lead up to the retreat and this has continued since then as I avoid bread and sugar as much as possible. As a result my body feels lighter, I’ve lost weight and have so much energy it makes me high as a kite! There is a sense now with my Beloved and I that we are finally ready to truly move forward on our “Love Bubble Presents” journey. We have been running classes and our dances but the numbers have been low and that has had a lot to do with our own internal barriers to being prosperous and successful. We are never short of ideas on what might help our cause but actioning those strategies has been one of those things that somehow never seems to happen.
In the end though I can safely say that my Beloved and I have never actually been out of the flow of divine timing, even in the place that turned out to be like a bad dream. Somehow I always knew it was meant to be and the transformation that has followed more than justifies the anxiety and stress of the last few weeks. We got out of there in 6 days and found a safe haven the day before so we didn’t end up having to store our stuff and go couch surfing. It only took 2 days to create a welcoming, warm and loving space in our new digs and we found ourselves truly relaxing for the first time in a couple of months. Now the challenge is to do something with the wisdom that has come out of our plunge into the depths of self. It’s time to take hold of our courage with both hands and to allow the motivation of doing what we love to dissolve any fears that may be holding us back.
There was an oracle card that I drew twice in the same day while I was on retreat, it was Pele the Hawaiian Goddess of the volcano. She was representing melting into divine desire, getting all fired up and motivated by the passion of what I want to create in the world. What a perfect message to receive and at the perfect time too! May my prosperous future come to me with grace and ease and with the heat of passion and love!