We live in a world made of energy and mine feels like it is forming into a giant wave for my Beloved and I to ride into a wondrous new beginning! We are starting a new business, looking for a new place to live, and planning a wedding, all at the same time. Feels a bit overwhelming sometimes but overall it feels like positive energy that is emerging from all the deep inner work that we have been doing this year. Many people shy away from going deep within as it often means having to sit with uncomfortable feelings. Without an understanding of the process they think that inner work must be negative as it seems only to lead to difficult feelings. That can certainly be true in the short term but if you are prepared to persist then it is possible for the discomfort to be dissolved and for space to be made so new energies can come in.
I describe the persistence as being ‘bloody minded’ and it is a quality that I seem to have in great abundance even as there has been scarcity in other parts of my belief systems. Even when it seemed like nothing would ever change I stuck to my inner journey and I felt the horrible feelings. What I have noticed as I progress is that it becomes easier and easier to bring awareness to my body and to my mind, to see the patterns in my behaviour and thoughts. This is essentially because there is less getting in the way of my being able to see what is going on in the moment that I am in. So I am now in a space where I can allow myself to receive great abundance from Spirit and I can be open to that flow in whatever form it arrives in.
So one of the shapes of our new beginning is full of vibrant rainbow coloured clothing, partnered with wise and funny words from the Rainbow Gnome. It is still forming at the moment but we will be launching with what we do have on the first Saturday in September at the Crystal Waters Market. I did not expect to be doing markets again but I couldn’t resist the lure of the rainbow, which may indeed lead to a pot of gold for my Beloved and I. We love hanging out together and if we can combine that with a fun and profitable business then life is going to become even more abundant than it already is. This picture of the Rainbow Gnome will give you an idea of what I am talking about! The album of poems entitled “Tales of the Rainbow Gnome” will be available soon as well so get ready for everything rainbow coming to a market near you. And as always, there’s more. But that will do for now, I will keep you posted on the exciting new developments.
The dancing every day is not happening quite yet but I did have a good dance at a party on Saturday night, on the earth by a camp fire in fact. Bare feet would have been even more awesome but it’s still winter and the grass was wet from an earlier rain so I danced in my boots beneath a beautiful moonlit sky full of amazing clouds. Just as well after a week when I worked two nine to five 
days instead of my usual one, on the afternoon of the second day my shoulders were having a lot to say about how much they hate sitting still for so long! They say that our sedentary ways are bad for the body and I couldn’t agree more. That and much of the food that people eat which tends to be full of all kinds of crazy chemicals that were never meant for human consumption.
As I sit here wondering what to talk about my mind keeps thinking about dancing and how I haven’t been doing much at all lately. My body has this odd disconnected yearning when I tune into it and there is nothing that my mind is doing at this moment that makes any difference at all to this physical sensation. In fact the mind can help the body to relax by using it’s capacity for understanding but there are times when talk is cheap and the only thing to do is to dance! My Beloved and I are no longer running a monthly dance and our local musical co-op closed down at the start of the year so the possibilities for going out and dancing have been less in our town.
On the edge of a cramp my belly craves chocolate and sugar which is surprisingly delivered at 8.30am in the glove box of my car as I return the driving sunglasses to their home. No breakfast at home and now artificial stimulation is glaringly there just as my willpower says “You’ve got to be kidding!” and promptly eats a row before I settle into five minutes of meditation. This is no clear space of light and clean with mindfulness sparkles gleaming out into the urban landscape. There has been no natural organic segue from sleepiness to waking alertness on my more traditional nine to five day. The trees and sunshine do their best to draw me back into the earthly realms as they wink and smile at me but part of me feels quite disconnected.
Part of this feeling is my reluctance to come back after a five day holiday that my Beloved and I took at the beginning of our house sit almost two weeks ago. So lovely to let go of the everyday world and especially the online one, a wonderful convenience but it does impact on our organic selves in ways that are not always helpful. The more sensitive I become in the world the more I notice when I’m not feeling connected to the natural world. It’s easy in modern society to sometimes forget that we are natural beings and that much of what creates happiness for us comes from inner resources. It isn’t so easy in front of a computer in an office to reconnect with that place so I tend to focus on my body as a doorway or bridge from one realm to another. When I arrive at the car park I consciously connect with the trees and the birds and if it’s too wet to sit for my meditation I at least spend a moment with my hand on the trunk of a tree.
Through the Vortex 