We live in a world made of energy and mine feels like it is forming into a giant wave for my Beloved and I to ride into a wondrous new beginning! We are starting a new business, looking for a new place to live, and planning a wedding, all at the same time. Feels a bit overwhelming sometimes but overall it feels like positive energy that is emerging from all the deep inner work that we have been doing this year. Many people shy away from going deep within as it often means having to sit with uncomfortable feelings. Without an understanding of the process they think that inner work must be negative as it seems only to lead to difficult feelings. That can certainly be true in the short term but if you are prepared to persist then it is possible for the discomfort to be dissolved and for space to be made so new energies can come in.
I describe the persistence as being ‘bloody minded’ and it is a quality that I seem to have in great abundance even as there has been scarcity in other parts of my belief systems. Even when it seemed like nothing would ever change I stuck to my inner journey and I felt the horrible feelings. What I have noticed as I progress is that it becomes easier and easier to bring awareness to my body and to my mind, to see the patterns in my behaviour and thoughts. This is essentially because there is less getting in the way of my being able to see what is going on in the moment that I am in. So I am now in a space where I can allow myself to receive great abundance from Spirit and I can be open to that flow in whatever form it arrives in.
So one of the shapes of our new beginning is full of vibrant rainbow coloured clothing, partnered with wise and funny words from the Rainbow Gnome. It is still forming at the moment but we will be launching with what we do have on the first Saturday in September at the Crystal Waters Market. I did not expect to be doing markets again but I couldn’t resist the lure of the rainbow, which may indeed lead to a pot of gold for my Beloved and I. We love hanging out together and if we can combine that with a fun and profitable business then life is going to become even more abundant than it already is. This picture of the Rainbow Gnome will give you an idea of what I am talking about! The album of poems entitled “Tales of the Rainbow Gnome” will be available soon as well so get ready for everything rainbow coming to a market near you. And as always, there’s more. But that will do for now, I will keep you posted on the exciting new developments.
The dancing every day is not happening quite yet but I did have a good dance at a party on Saturday night, on the earth by a camp fire in fact. Bare feet would have been even more awesome but it’s still winter and the grass was wet from an earlier rain so I danced in my boots beneath a beautiful moonlit sky full of amazing clouds. Just as well after a week when I worked two nine to five days instead of my usual one, on the afternoon of the second day my shoulders were having a lot to say about how much they hate sitting still for so long! They say that our sedentary ways are bad for the body and I couldn’t agree more. That and much of the food that people eat which tends to be full of all kinds of crazy chemicals that were never meant for human consumption.
Which brings me ever so neatly to what was a big highlight of my party night, I made my first ever batch of brownies! The birthday girl was surprised that I’d made something to bring, I’m known for many wonderful attributes amongst my lovely friends but cooking isn’t really one of them. Having said that I usually do ok when I make the effort and the brownies were no exception. There are only five ingredients for this recipe, sweet potato, nut butter, maple syrup, cocoa (I used cacao) and carob chips. It was so easy I managed to make them as part of a busy day with no stress whatsoever. I’m hoping this will inspire me to start exploring more gluten free food, there are a lot of very simple recipes out there these days. I found this one on Facebook ages ago and feel incredibly grateful that I worked out how to save links, great resource when I was looking for quick and easy party food.
Isn’t it just the best when you are savouring delicious food knowing that every bite is contributing to the health and well-being of your body, mind and soul. When I eat like that I can feel my body saying thank you as well as the taste buds, nice when the whole system is saying YES, thank you, thank you. I feel the same way when I have one of my green smoothies full of fruit and veggies, positively brimming with life force energy. But please don’t assume I’ve achieved some kind of perfection in this, I still have bread sometimes and the sugar monster is never too far away. I do my best to limit that sort of thing but being too hard on yourself when you do eat naughty foods can stress you as much as the food itself. In the end balance is the key and if you enjoy cooking then it will be much easier to make sure that your meals are mostly nourishing and nurturing.
Having said that I’m not much into cooking and even I found it easy so if you have a sweet tooth and like chocolate brownies check out this recipe and see what you think. Yay for yummy gluten free treats!
As I sit here wondering what to talk about my mind keeps thinking about dancing and how I haven’t been doing much at all lately. My body has this odd disconnected yearning when I tune into it and there is nothing that my mind is doing at this moment that makes any difference at all to this physical sensation. In fact the mind can help the body to relax by using it’s capacity for understanding but there are times when talk is cheap and the only thing to do is to dance! My Beloved and I are no longer running a monthly dance and our local musical co-op closed down at the start of the year so the possibilities for going out and dancing have been less in our town.
That of course is no excuse and barely makes it in as a valid reason even, dancing can happen anywhere including when we are at home all alone. A FB friend just had a dancing challenge where she danced for half an hour every morning with her kids, what a good idea I thought to myself as I clicked on ‘going’. You can guess where I am going with this, I did not do one formal dance session in the two week period. And I LOVE to dance, when I manage to have a really good movement session I feel AMAZING! This is starting to sound a lot like a recent post on meditation and how I wasn’t managing to get myself on the cushion in spite of how beneficial it is to my health. Well I have made it to at least a couple of meditation classes since then but as for a regular practice, forget it.
So what to do? The first thing that comes to mind is that it would be useful to talk to my Beloved about this issue and see if we can come up with a buddy system that supports regular movement for us both. I’m thinking dancing here, it’s usually sensible to do one thing at a time and as a deep lover of the transformational energies of dance I know that if I create the space my body will adore moving the energy in this way. The other idea I’ve had is to run a weekly dance class that goes for an hour and call it “Dance For Joy!” I can’t be the only person who has this problem and I love the vision of a room full of people laughing and dancing to an eclectic mix of tunes old and new. If you have a look there are often plenty of meditation classes for people to attend but dance classes where you get to do your own thing are not so common. So this will be my next focus for a class but in the meantime I will see what I can do about moving this gorgeous body of mine a little more often.
The spirit in motion heals, expands, circles in and out of the body, moving through the layers of consciousness from inertia to ecstasy. Open to the spirit, and you will be transformed.
And I will continue with my gratitude practice because that helps with pretty much anything and everything! I’m noticing as I feel gratitude and visualise my body in motion that my mood is lifting even as the body’s yearning becomes more pronounced. So what kind of incredible transformation might be possible when I actually dance in real time with an open heart and mind. I’m smiling and feeling very excited at the prospect!
On the edge of a cramp my belly craves chocolate and sugar which is surprisingly delivered at 8.30am in the glove box of my car as I return the driving sunglasses to their home. No breakfast at home and now artificial stimulation is glaringly there just as my willpower says “You’ve got to be kidding!” and promptly eats a row before I settle into five minutes of meditation. This is no clear space of light and clean with mindfulness sparkles gleaming out into the urban landscape. There has been no natural organic segue from sleepiness to waking alertness on my more traditional nine to five day. The trees and sunshine do their best to draw me back into the earthly realms as they wink and smile at me but part of me feels quite disconnected.
Part of this feeling is my reluctance to come back after a five day holiday that my Beloved and I took at the beginning of our house sit almost two weeks ago. So lovely to let go of the everyday world and especially the online one, a wonderful convenience but it does impact on our organic selves in ways that are not always helpful. The more sensitive I become in the world the more I notice when I’m not feeling connected to the natural world. It’s easy in modern society to sometimes forget that we are natural beings and that much of what creates happiness for us comes from inner resources. It isn’t so easy in front of a computer in an office to reconnect with that place so I tend to focus on my body as a doorway or bridge from one realm to another. When I arrive at the car park I consciously connect with the trees and the birds and if it’s too wet to sit for my meditation I at least spend a moment with my hand on the trunk of a tree.
And even then I can fall prey to unexpected windfalls of chocolate and get caught up in the concrete and steel, the humming of lines of energy, seen and unseen. So the first part of navigating days like this one are just about practicing mindfulness and not giving yourself a hard time when your actions are not always peaceful. If you notice sensations of disconnection then that may be a victory in and of itself! Even if you can’t seem to get back into the flow be grateful that your inner growth has fostered deeper understanding and the ability to see more clearly what is happening in your body, mind and spirit. If you persist with this process you will improve the quality of your life. I can say this with great certainty as this has been my experience so far, the more I bring awareness to me and to my life the happier I become overall.
Don’t Belong Here by Alena Beljakova is part of a series of images that deals with the increasingly insulated and disconnected nature of modern urban life. This particular image is an effective allegory of the modern condition- it shows human disconnection from each other and also from nature
The time before we forget!
But there always seem to be times of varying energy levels in life’s tapestry and the trick is to ride the waves whatever the speed, to wherever it is that life wants to take us to next! I for one would like to take a moment to thank Life for all that it brings to me and especially for the gift of my dear Beloved who brings a song into my heart every day in every way. Aho!