Monthly Archives: September 2016

The Constant Sea Of Change.

lovers-stormy-seaFor my post today please enjoy this poem from my Beloved which pretty much sums up the changing sea that we have been swimming in for the last three years!

The Constant Sea of Change

I awoke and spent my pre-alarm minutes
gazing thoughtlessly,
I’d never noticed the morning colour of the walls before
or the way sunlight comes through that lemon tree.

Strange to be leaving, packing our boxes,
just to transport, unpack and re-arrange;p
everything’s falling apart and rearranging itself
in the constant sea of change.

oranges-and-lemonsThe seasons are shifting, the citrus harvest is over.
My baby’s getting home from work before it’s dark.
And that flu that’s been niggling around the edges
has morphed into a cough that sounds like a bark

We kept the bugs at bay with oranges and lemons
and whisky imbued with the medical efficacy
of garlic and ginger, spices and honey
and we toasted life’s bewildering complexity.

Nothing like a lingering cold
to emphasise my brain’s impertinence!
Expecting to be spared vicissitudes
whilst on a sea of continual impermanence!

In a room full of boxes and books and clothes
my woman tells me about her week.
Half hearing the words as she chats and smiles,
while I feel the softness of her cheek.

12647475_868408953277134_1329402072906993941_n3 years ago she was a stranger,
and in 8 weeks she’ll be my wife.
There’s plenty to enjoy if you can stay open
amidst the impermanence of life.

The unusual becomes the familiar,
an old habits new seem strange.
everything shifts and becomes something else
in the constant sea of change.

A Willy-wagtail agrees in the twigs and leaves
as he dances in winter sunshine.
Looping and strutting, breast swollen with song,
calling to the mate he intends to find

Out there she awaits and here he gyrates,
inviting her to a dalliance;
His passion finding its way through the fog
of life’s beguiling transience

sensualcat1It’s strange visiting my future mother-in-law
and not seeing her little black cat.
All those hours spent patting the schmoozy bastard
and now he’s gone – ! – just like that.

Taken by a tick in the prime of his life,
another reminder that everything is temporary.
The sea of change is also the sea
of life’s fragility.

So we’re moving tomorrow, it’s late winter
and please God don’t send us any more rain.
Our boxes are packed and we’re as prepared as can be
to do it all over again.

new-homeAnd the unusual will slowly become familiar
and what’s now familiar will soon seem strange.
Not good, not bad, just the way things are:
the constant sea of change.

Brendan O’Shea (2016)

If you like this poem then you may be interested in the album coming out very soon, “Tales of the Rainbow Gnome” by Brendan O’Shea. Watch this space!

An Earth Angel And His Van!

van-strandedIt’s been a crazy week of moving madness as my Beloved and I settle into our temporary lodgings with my mother. And as I reflect upon the shifting sands of our travels there is a moment that my mind keeps returning to. At a quarter to one last Wednesday we were surrounded by boxes and feeling good about our progress when my Beloved took a fateful call. The van that was supposed to be moving our stuff was sitting on the side of the road and was not going to be moving anything anytime soon! In that moment I felt my calm deepening in response to the sudden crisis. I had no idea what we were going to do but that we would come up with a good answer to this quandary was never in any doubt. Nice to know that when the chips are down I can be counted upon not to lose it completely!

bubble love

We took a moment to hold each other and let the feelings that were swirling around do their thing, then we hit the phones and the computer. It took a couple of hours but there was eventually a call from a man who might have thought I was quite mad if he wasn’t the charitable fellow that he is. I was quite euphoric and a little bit crazy and to me he was an angel surrounded in radiance, coming to save the day! And he not only brought his van and his strong  back, he also brought a positive uplifting attitude that was completely in alignment with my visions of his halo. Quite apart from getting the job done we enjoyed connecting with a lovely member of our community whom I now know a little better than I did before.


So seeming disaster turns into delight as we continue to navigate the constant sea of change, entering into a new chapter brimming with potential. There was a movie with Jeff Bridges thirty-two years ago called “Starman”in which the protagonist is asked what he has observed about humans in the time he has been running from the authorities. His answer has always stuck with me: “You are at your very best when things are worst.” So perhaps there is a design in the insanity that seems to be currently running the world, maybe things have to get really, really bad before people will recognise the need for change. And it does seem that we have reached that place by now, Spirit waits for our response and to see if we can find that deeper intelligence which manifests as compassion.


In the meantime my Beloved and I wait to hear from our new landlords and continue to make progress on our wedding and the other myriad things that are in process. And if I am tempted to go into overwhelm I simply recall that moment when my calm got so much deeper. As always relaxation and awareness make life so much easier to navigate!

The Light Of Awareness And The Sea Of Old Regret!

waiting-for-a-waveI feel like the surfer who is waiting out to sea for that truly big wave to come sweeping through taking everything in it’s path into a brand new day. Tomorrow we finish the packing, the next day we will be moving most of our stuff into storage at the home of one of our beautiful and generous friends. Then after a couple of weeks staying with my mother we will be moving into our new home in the bush. Sounds simple and is fairly straightforward but doesn’t ‘feel’ that way in this moment, there is so much more to moving than the physical side of things although most would probably say that’s enough in itself!


Since coming to our safe haven after the trials and tribulations of the “Prison Farm” I have been very conscious of being grateful for the lovely space that we’ve been living in for the last four months. In the past I’ve needed reminders but I can safely say that not a day has gone by in our current abode without me bringing that sense of gratitude into conscious awareness. And somehow that makes it much easier to move on, when you have truly savoured the moment that you are in it becomes much easier to let go of when the time comes. This is an excellent example of how mindfulness can help us in our everyday life, with navigating the constant sea of change. When you bring the full light of awareness to every moment there is much less chance of getting lost in the dried up old sea of regret


Of course bringing that light into your life will illuminate all the areas that haven’t yet been explored and may show you some of what is getting in the way of the full expression of your life force. This is what stops many from truly examining what lies within and it is easy to fall back into old patterns, endless repetitive loops of thoughts and feelings. It seems easier to fall back but the larger truth is that remaining locked into your small self is a recipe for misery and regret. Breaking out requires enormous courage but if you can truly understand the emptiness of the alternative it may be a little easier to find the motivation for change. And if you stick at it even when it doesn’t feel like anything is changing you will notice shifts over time, and possibly learn a thing or two about the concept of patience!

breaking free

Then once you are fully launched into this new way of being there will be times when you are amazed at how everything is falling into place, like magic. And when it doesn’t happen like that you will know to wait and see, sometimes Spirit understands the way that we need to move forward in particular situations a lot better than we do ourselves. This isn’t a recipe for living “happily ever after”, it is a way of ensuring that we get the most out of our current incarnation in the world. The happiness is a by-product of a life well lived and as such there will be sorrow at times too. All part of the wonderful opportunity known as being in a body on Planet Earth! Aho!




Rainbows, Rainbows…And More Rainbows!

RainyDaysI slept well last Friday night but I did wake up a couple of times and each time that I did I could hear the sound that every marketeer dreads, relentless rain drops pelting from the sky! When the alarm went off at 5.30am it was still dark although the dawn was beginning to show and that lovely delicate light was illuminating sheets of water and a grey sky full of clouds. I lay in bed and wondered if it was even worth getting up at all. The thought that all our careful preparation might be for nought felt like a heavy  weight in my belly, ripe with disappointment. But I am nothing if not stubborn, just ask my Beloved and he will definitely confirm that this is a true fact. So we got up and started getting ready anyway and as we did so the day began to improve slowly but surely.

By the time we got to the Crystal Waters Market the world had been washed clean and fresh including the clear blue sky and I was feeling much more positive about our debut. We got a perfect spot next to a beautiful tree and proceeded to set up our stall in the warm sunshine. It’s been a long time since I did anything like this but your body remembers what to do even when the mind can’t recall. And making our stall into a gorgeous display was the easiest thing in the world, simply hanging up the stock so it can be seen does the job as you can see from the photos. My Beloved and I were happy as pigs in the mud as we talked to the people who came by to check us out. There were many reasons for our joy but I realised that spending the day surrounded by all that colour and all the fractals was a big part of how happy I was.

Science has a bit of catching up to do but even in the mainstream it is accepted that being out in Nature is good for your health. There are many factors involved here but the fact that nature is positively bursting with fractals is most likely a key element in the beneficial effects that people experience. So having a stall full of these kinds of shapes will only add to the happy health benefits that are sure to unfold as my Beloved and I navigate this new pathway of ours. I’ve included a link to a brief article that explains what fractals are and why being around them is good for us:

Fractals and Health

And if you just want to sit back and enjoy amazing, colourful patterns then search for fractals on You Tube, hours of healthy viewing to be found with ease. Enjoy the fractal journey!

fractal rainbows