So the constant sea of change has brought my Beloved and I to live in a wooden cottage in the middle of national forest, off the grid and close to nature. We’ve had five nights and I am in love with this new lifestyle already! At the same time as landing here my phone has suddenly decided it doesn’t want to charge anymore and the wi fi is so intermittent it only works occasionally. It was a long weekend and so I had to let go of technology and the outside world and focus on settling in to our new home, to feel the wonderful space of nature unbridled. In the face of the trees and the birds and the distant views of the Glasshouse Mountains it was difficult to be concerned about my ailing phone, trust and patience seem to come more easily in this clean air.
I can already feel a deeper peace and calm within me after being in that sacred space over the long weekend. If I can continue to bring my awareness to this part of me then the myriad tasks of planning a wedding will happen with grace and ease and no fuss! Our new home feels like somewhere we can be highly creative as we recharge our batteries and prepare to go out into the world bearing rainbows and poetry. My Beloved’s paintings are once again all around us on the walls and that is a great inspiration in itself. Soon we will be hosting an art and craft day where we’ll be making decorations in the theme of the Mexican Day of the Dead, and perhaps I can get some assistance in distressing my op shop wedding dress.
The old Kerry would be freaking out right now but that part of me is nowadays represented by a slight feeling of dis-ease in my belly. She is still there and sometimes her fears come up and engulf me with disquiet and foreboding. But the larger part can observe this as it happens and allow the feelings to flow without being sucked into the current. And the so-called anxiety provoking circumstances resolve themselves as they always have, the knowledge that this is so comes from a growing sense of trust. Having a stable home will assist greatly in being able to navigate the next few weeks and I would like to express my deep gratitude and appreciation to Spirit which has brought us to this wonderful space in the bush. May I be well, may others be well…..aho!