It’s a lovely feeling to simply open yourself to the free flow of spirit, let the intellect take a holiday, and allow the intuition to guide the creative process. That’s what my last two posts have been like, I have a sense that something is moving in me wanting to be birthed, but as I sit to write I often have absolutely no idea what is coming. It’s a surprise and a pleasure when it all comes together and I read over what has emerged from the void, it comes from me but it is the larger self that understands the big picture who is running the show when I go into that space.
It’s a kind of channelling, in this case poetic but it can also take the form of a conversation with various beings such as guides, I told my story of how I discovered and re-integrated a lost soul fragment of myself in “Dancing In The Moonlight”, July 17 2013 if you would like to read about it. If I am feeling confused about something I often seek clarity or reassurance through automatic writing, different guides of mine come through and give me their advice and thoughts on whatever it is that I am experiencing.
Or if you simply want to get creative and don’t know how to start, sit in front of a blank piece of paper, or the computer I guess but I am old-fashioned when it comes to this sort of writing. Take a moment to centre yourself and let your logical mind step aside, then begin to write and try not to think about what is coming out, let it all spill out in a stream of consciousness until the flow has run out. Then have fun looking at what you’ve done, hopefully you can read your own writing. You can do the same thing with crayons or textas or paint, let the critic go on a tropical holiday and see what your intuition can come up with, you may or may not like the results but with any luck the process has been fun.
This is a mandala I drew after a breathwork session back in march, not a great work of art but it carries the energy of that particular healing and I had it on the wall for some time afterwards to remind me. Looks like a cosmic egg cracking open!
You don’t have to be a child have this kind of fun, consider the possibility of having a second childhood and discovering all the dreams that you left behind!
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There was a time when I lived in my little garden flat with my pussy cat and hardly saw another living soul, apart from the people I worked with and my brother down the road. I spent lots of time on my own exploring myself through writing, I wrote about how I was feeling and sometimes it came out as poetry too. I also was experimenting with automatic writing, if you are not familiar with this technique, it’s where you put your mind to one side and let your intuitive brain take over.
I remember being with my brother sometimes when we were learning how to do this and there was a particular character who began appearing whenever I wrote, she called herself Milomel. She was very feisty and used to get annoyed with my bro, who has a wicked sense of humour, sometimes she would refuse to speak to me if he was in the room! Sound a little bit crazy? It’s a type of channeling and people have all sorts of ideas about what is actually going on in this process. That is a discussion for another post, in this particular example it eventually became very clear who Milomel was, and where she had come from.
This wild woman was a part of me that had split off when I was 12 years old, I even found the frozen moment in time when I saw something that shocked me deeply, and which I knew on some level signified the end of my parent’s marriage. I had completely forgotten it until Milomel came back and reminded me, this is an example of a soul fragment coming to search for me rather than the other way around.
I don’t actually remember how I came to the process of finally integrating my wild woman back into myself, I recall lying on my bed for a number of hours while it went on. I knew nothing then about soul retrieval, I was simply following my instincts, the natural impulse towards wholeness that I believe lies within us all. This was an important time for me in that journey, every time you heal a part of yourself you take a step forward but some steps are more critical than others.
It’s so important to be able to allow yourself to be wild, to rebel and get angry, to dance in the moonlight or flirt with the handsome man on the other side of the room. Twenty years later I am truly reaping the rewards of that intuitive search conducted by my earlier self, thank you little Kerry, I acknowledge and honour you for your courage.
Without you then, I wouldn’t be here now! Love and blissings all round………..
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It feels really good to be walking my talk, you can explore theory until the cows come home, but in the end the proof is in the pudding, you need to have your own experience or you don’t know much at all. I didn’t have a lot of time to meditate before going to the dentist, but I sat and created a vision of a happy visit, where I had the ideal result of my bridge being stuck back in and lasting long enough for me to go overseas and have implants done.
All morning and through my yoga class, I had felt sick to my stomach, my belly is where I usually feel things very strongly and I had some doubts about being able to transform it. So I was delighted as that sense of dread shifted into a feeling of optimistic joy, I felt myself in a space of lightness and ease, and the flow continued as I saw myself going off to get the implants, and having an overseas holiday at the same time.
Bangkok: One possible destination.
Budapest: Another possibility.
So how did it actually go in real-time? The truth of the physical condition of the crown and bridge meant that nothing could be done this day, but the visit was like my vision in that it was bright and breezy, and we laughed a lot, and I actually felt good about it all. In the end I had two options and I went home to sit with those choices, once again I meditated and I also did some automatic writing. I keep being told that money is not an issue for me and that there is a windfall coming my way very soon, not only my own spiritual communication, but it was also in the daily horoscope that I get every day! I’m sure some of you are raising your eyebrows and rolling your eyes at this point, but you have to admit it’s a nice piece of synchronicity.
Anyway, I hope you can see how I did indeed create the ‘feeling’ of my vision even if the details were not exact. I’m making the choice to be positive about my experience, to ‘seize the day’ and put into practice the principles of manifestation. I’m feeling the loving support of beautiful friends, and of course my gorgeous mother who is always on my side no matter what, with such love within me and around me, how can I lose!
Love my life, my dentist, my teeth, and the interconnecting circles of the community of my tribe!
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