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Be Yourself!

As more and more of me comes out to play, the threads of my being begin to weave new stories, Bad Queen gives me the strength to stand in the power of who I am, the child brings wonder and joy to every present moment. The writer plunges into the creative flow following a feeling, or a title, a thought, she hits still water and eddys, and then all of a sudden a glint of sunlight on water and the current takes her again and she is off!

Life seems like sunlight on water, puppies and kittens, music that moves the soul, dance that takes the being to new dimensions and ignites a passion for living. Connecting, loving, flirting, engaging in community in all it’s forms, grateful to be alive, such gratitude for the extraordinary world we live in. I’ve become aware of an absence in my being of something that has been there for a very long time, a tension that was more than likely brought into this existence for the very purpose of being finally released in this lifetime.

Wow, all this energy surging through me was being used to hold on to so much stuff! And now that I’ve let go I can channel this energetic flow into the creation of magical miraculous fun-filled projects, that will not only support me in a myriad of ways, but make important contributions to the community. The thing is you can make that contribution just by becoming more of who you are, you don’t have to become a volunteer or raise money for charity although those are perfectly valid pathways if that is the way for you.

The most important thing is to be yourself, if you are full of purpose and inspiration and feeling love in your heart, you can do no harm, to yourself or to others. As Oscar Wilde said, “Be yourself, everybody else is already taken!”

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Becoming Whole.

Moving from house to house I go on my merry, merry way! One night back at mums and then I’m off to play nanny to 6 dogs, two adults and 4 adorable puppies. They’re little fluffy bundles of curly black surging around me, jumping up and licking my feet. I’ll be there for less than a week but it will be fun to be in that puppy energy for a bit, a reminder of fresh eyes and childlike enthusiasm.

Which reflects back to me the child I am continuing to become, infused with bright energy and feeling a sense of optimism about the future. We are all made up of many different aspects of self, the child at various ages, the victim, the lover, the clown………and on and on it goes, for many it ends up being like a dysfunctional family.

In my huge process of shedding I’ve let go of many of the more negative aspects of self, probably the most important was the part of me that thought I was unworthy, not good enough to be prosperous and do well in life. And as I let go of that which no longer serves me I allow room for more positive forces to be revealed, the new child is one of these and Bad Queen is definitely a force for good!

Whenever I think about Bad Queen I feel strength coming into me, a devil-may-care attitude and a sense that I can have whatever I want and to just go for it. You can spend too much time and energy worrying about other people’s feelings, sometimes you just have to do what’s right for you, and if that doesn’t work for someone else then you  accept the consequences and move on. Easy to say, not so sure about easy to do, I will keep you posted on my progress!

So my internal family is starting to become very functional, they are speaking up and being heard,  the communication lines are wide open as the life force energy continues to surge through my being. Just as well I have all this energy, as I frolic with those gorgeous puppies and dance my way through another super busy and inspirational week!

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Bad Queen.

Bad Queen kicks arse, she does what she wants with who she wants and the rules of society don’t concern her at all! Justice does though, you’d better not cross Bad Queen, she’ll make sure that karma catches up with you real fast. On the other hand, if you look out for her, you will have her loyalty for ever, she will never let you down.

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Bad Queen, also known as BQ, is a wild woman, she represents the part of us that wants to rebel against the status quo, the aspect of self that knows its own worth and acts accordingly. The rights or wrongs of what she does depend largely on the perspective of the one who is judging, in a society where people are indoctrinated to be like sheep, she is the wolf, the baddie!

I think it’s time for me to explore my BQ nature, let the sweet receptive soft feminine do the counselling, the massage, and the healings, everybody else watch out! How do I know this is the time for me to do this? Because the idea of it scares the bejesus out of me! Whenever I contemplate a course of action and feel fear coming up it’s like a signpost saying, time to face this one. I need to develop more of an edge, learn how to give people a hard time if they deserve it, something I have trouble doing even as a joke. Pathetic I know but BQ is going to help me move through all that and find my inner strength without becoming a bitch.

That’s the thing about BQ, she isn’t mean, nasty or petty, if you do the right thing by her she’s a great person to hang out with. You’ll be laughing and inspired and full of the joy of life, her energy is infectious, in a good way!

Oh boy, what have I got myself into………………..BQ, I am going to do my best to let you come out and play but be kind to me, this is going to be quite a challenge. Calling on the energy of Kali and Lilith, two kick arse Goddesses who embody exactly the qualities I am looking to find in myself!

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