One of my themes or lessons at the moment is to do with making choices about whether to stress when I feel like I am under pressure. My observer, who I talked about in my last post, steps back and sees that getting anxious about what needs to be done is only one option amongst many. When I feel into my body for the location of the stress, I find it in my belly, a feeling of insecurity. Then I think about what it is that has to be achieved and consciously make the choice to trust that it will all happen beautifully. When I do this there is a clear shift in my belly, a sense of letting go and release, leaving behind joy and peace.
Of course there are times when you truly do need to be doing less, find your balance and answer the call of spirit from a hearted place, so that you may flourish even as you do serve. My recent week in bed tells me that I probably do need to do a bit less, tricky when I love pretty much everything that I do. But I do know what I have to do, find a market for the kind of writing I like to do, the Carrie Bradshaw of the Spiritual Realms, instead of “Sex and the City”, “Spirit in the Country”.
But it won’t be just about relationships, boy and girl stuff, this is the realm of the Spirit and all subjects are up for grabs, there isn’t anything that isn’t grist for the mill. The deeper levels of consciousness are certainly what invite me to explore within, but if you look at images from space and think about the distances out there it is clear that we have barely scraped the surface as far as space exploration goes. And just having astronauts going to the moon and sending back pictures of the earth, changed the consciousness of humanity, what will a journey to the Milky Way do to our perceptions of self and the world. What will contact with other intelligent life out there do to our sense of who we are, the future is an exciting place to be heading towards.
So I choose to be excited and confident that everything is going to work out perfectly in divine timing, that means action too of course, it also means lateral thinking to fit everything in. And there is also a need to be very quiet, still longing for that real stillness that you have out in the bush, remembering to breathe in love and to exhale gratitude.
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“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all of the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”
I would take this thought one step further and say that we ARE LOVE, in the very fabric of our beingness, in the very centre of all that we be. I find myself inspired by one of the HeartFire Gateway offerings and intrigued by information which is new to me. Apparently there are seven layers of muscle around the heart in a spiraling configuration, I have always loved the shape of the spiral and in this case you are following it into the centre of the heart. The memories of our life’s journey are held in those layers around the heart, anything unresolved creates a barrier or veil that impedes the flow of love.
I tried the meditation that was suggested which was to breathe in and out through the heart and to allow the memories to rise up, then collect them in a magical sack to be transformed in the centre of my being. What I felt was deep sorrow, it felt like liquid blue moving very slowly and rather than put it into a bag I allowed it to move into the centre of my heart. As it reached the centre it became golden, bright and glowing, and was transmuted into light, then dissolved into nothingness.
When I clear stuff I usually experience the energy moving upwards and out my crown chakra, so this was quite different having it move into my centre and be transmuted in that way. I enjoyed the experience very much and will probably do it again, although I think the memories we need to clear are not just in the heart, they can be anywhere in the body. But I can imagine having stirrings in the belly and encouraging the energy to move up into the heart fire at my centre. Isn’t it great that there are so many different ways of doing things, life is a smorgasboard of the most wondrous variety!!
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Here I am feeling empty and trying not to worry about the things I have to organise in the next couple of weeks, and of course my belly is feeling a bit jumpy. Stuff just keeps getting triggered, and I do find that by actually focusing on the feelings I will often start to feel a bit better, certainly ignoring the stirrings doesn’t help at all. Meditation is a wonderful way to work with uneasy belly, it is a nice sharp focus and the energy may begin to move even before you get a sense of what it’s about. In fact sometimes the energy moves and you don’t need a story, I’m feeling a bit of movement as I write, don’t even know what the feeling is exactly.
It’s in my heart now, I will pause here and do the heart lock meditation from the Heart Math Institute and see what happens. Well the belly is much softer now and my heart feels light, in fact I feel rather spacious in my chest as though there is more room there now. It’s a really simple meditation, you focus on your heart and breathe in and out through it, if you want to take it further then begin to radiate out into the world the warm fuzzy feelings that will begin to emerge. I’ve got a lightness happening from my toes all through the body, and all this without a single piece of narrative.
Mind you, we are story making creatures we humans, and there’s nothing wrong with that, we have an opportunity to create new tales for a new age, so it’s definitely time to let go of the old ones that don’t serve us very well. If knowing what the feelings are about helps you to let go of them, then by all means let that be a part of your process. There isn’t a right way of doing any of this, there is simply your way, and that’s the one that’s right for you!
Here is a clip of Gregg Braden talking about the human heart, very inspiring and you will find out from him just how those kinds of positive feelings can help us, not only physiological benefits but much, much more!
And here is the web site for the Heart Math Institute: http://www.heartmath.org/
Champagne in the middle of the day, even just a little bit, makes a girl wilt like a flower that’s been left without water for too long. It makes finding the inspiration for a post that much harder to find, so I’m doing what I always do in this situation, writing about what I’m feeling in this very moment and see where it takes me. There’s a weariness and a vulnerability in me, and I’m not quite sure what it’s about, after my recent experiences of my feelings being amplified by a malicious outside source, one can’t help wondering if something like that is going on yet again.
How can I tell if this is mine, mmmmmm…….guess I need to pause for a moment and tune in, and also use my imagination to put a mirror all around me, so that if anything is coming from outside of me it will be reflected back to sender. Ok so I did all that and this is definitely mine, there was no shift when I made the mirror and when I focused on the feeling in my belly it moved up to my heart. It’s sadness with no particular story attached to it which is another clue, an invasive energy is going to stir up your negative self-talk and stories. I acknowledged the feeling and it began to shift into warmth and tingling, signs of the energy moving, there is a tiny bit left but I actually feel a bit less tired.
It takes practice to tune into your body but it’s a skill that is well worth developing, if you can connect with its authentic voice the body has much wisdom to offer us. There are many doorways that lead to that knowing, dance, yoga, and meditation are my personal favourites but take your pick, there is a wonderful world out there just bursting with ideas on how to connect more deeply with the self.
Enjoy the journey!
Eugene Gendlin talks about focusing, this explores our deeper ‘felt’ sense and can help you to understand your body’s point of view:
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