Here is a post that I wrote on December 4 last year, I was scrolling back through when this one caught my eye and at the risk of being a bit mushy, I smiled at what I wrote just days after my Beloved and I came together for the first time. So here it is from the perspective of almost eight months later and it keeps getting better and that kundalini energy is still surging with plenty of zest! Looking forward to seeing my darling tomorrow night after four days apart!
Energy rises through the column of space and time that is me in this particular place known as planet Earth, it coils with sensuous grace as my kundalini bursts forth, the final shackles thrown away as I dance out of prison into the light. Luscious thoughts snaking through a mind that cannot seem to hold on to a worry or a doubt, letting the fresh breeze of my new beginning blow away anything that will not serve in this Golden New Age of love and prosperity.
Heart opens and opens, sending a delicious thrill to the nipples who are singing a song of creativity and flow, of surrender to the force of life and a spiral upwards into the pure space of inspiration. Tender distraction tugs at a mind doing its best to stay focused on the everyday, luring my thoughts into memory of touch and sound, of vibrating cells and a magical time out of time, a place you never really want to leave. So the trick then is to somehow stay there even as life pulls you into its stream, bringing with you the sense of joy and discovery, of playfulness and love.
Time to merge everything into the wholeness that is where it all began, a circle that circles within a circle, drawing our spirits into the centre of the heart, the place where transformation is a daily event. That fire will purify even the darkest of thoughts and actions and give wings to the angels who have lost their way, halos knocked askew as they go searching for the meaning to an ever-changing life. Fly with good intention and the winds of desire will always lift you up into a place where you will see the whole shebang from the perspective of an eagle, with clarity too.
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It feels a bit like I am sitting in a poem with each stage like a stanza telling the tale of water moving over the land. Looking out upon the Glasshouse Mountains in the distance I watch the grey veil approaching as the mood shifts from warm sunlight to a touch of chill, back and forth. The rain which has been foretelling it’s coming in random stray drops finally begins to fall in a steady pattern as the sun shines through the sheets of water. It’s heavy for a time and I turn on the car’s engine and switch on the windscreen wipers, watching the motion back and forth and resting in the vibrating embrace of my metal steed.
The water continues it’s journey over the land and so it passes me, ahead the veil is gone and sunshine and shadow outline the sweeping greens of the landscape, the odd and compelling shapes of those mountains. The wind is whistling and swirling as I watch a tree with a spiky afro that describes a subtle and yet extravagant dance.
Even though my feet do not literally touch the earth I feel her, the feminine energy of this land is strong and many strong women are drawn to this place. But she is there for all so please call on her for the support you need, wherever you may be she will be present, no matter how subtle she is always here. After all, where could she go? Gaia is the universal intelligence that holds together what we know as our existence on this earthly plane. She is wise and if we allow her to do so, she is very good at keeping a balance between all the different realms.
As I sit here the sun has become strong again, shining its glory upon my neck and shoulder, flooding my cells with strength and determination. I’ve got a good feeling about what I am co-creating with my Beloved, Apollo fills me with optimism and hope, and my intuition whispers to me to do this, and do that.
Challenges will always come along but they can be instruments of diversion, taking us to places we might never have gone otherwise. And also providing more opportunity to feel pleasure as I release more and more of the holdings that couldn’t let me feel it all. And that isn’t just about sex you know, it can be in sitting in nature and connecting with the land you are on. The more deeply you are able to ‘see’ into things, the more pleasure you can feel. Why wouldn’t you want to take that journey!
Oh and by the way, all the photos are by me this time!
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Who are the pollinators in your life’s experience? Bees and butterflies ensure we have an abundant supply of wonderful and nutritious foods that support our physical bodies. But there is also such a thing as food for the soul and that is just as important, the more that we can be in the space of love and inspiration the easier it is to create harmony in the world at large.
The Beloved is all around us and the more that we can be in loving creative space the more flow is created, so who inspires you to be all of who you are? Which part of your environment opens you to your own divinity and the spark that lies within all people. Focus on that which brings you into alignment with your eternal soul, the bit that moves on in various forms and which sometimes inhabits the strange construction of an earthly body.
The Beloved is here,
in every breath that I take
the beat of my heart
the song of my blood
as it moves and flows
the organs, tissue, veins.
the Beloved is here,
in everyone I meet
gifts given freely with love
with a word or a glance
from strangers chance met
never to be seen again.
the Beloved is here,
in the food on my plate
as I bite into flesh
grown from the good earth
taking in all her love
through the cycle of life.
the Beloved is here
and I shall not yearn
for something already within,
the stars are inside
they shine with a light
that can never truly go out…….
the Beloved is here.
Copyright K.Laizans 24/11/02
What does your Beloved look like? For some it is finding ways to help the bees as these people from Slovenia have done with a project to repopulate the bees which is crowd funded. Check it out here:
It doesn’t matter what your vision is, we all have our own unique part of the puzzle and the important thing is to trust that Existence knows what it’s doing, and to tune in to Universal Intelligence.
My Beloved is here in the form of my man and as long as that opens me to God/Goddess, I think I know what my favourite tuning strategy might be. But be assured that there are many roads to the place of oneness and the only limit on how many is how much imagination we can muster. Are you ready to be an unlimited being and to perceive the abundance in simply being alive and participating in this marvelous creation known as Existence.
When I am truly aligned with the flow of spirit it is hard to be anything other than optimistic, the dark shadows become less but sometimes those inky pools can feel endless and so intense. For a moment and then the letting go which allows more and more light to come in. That moment in time can seem an eternity but if we are consciously connected to our larger self then we know that the terror will be over in the blink of an eye.
Let the Joy begin!
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Letting go of pain in lover’s bliss, my waters flow as the memories release, of ancient hurt done long ago, energy moves, and thus it is so. I am held and I am safe, I am held and I am safe. I rise and fall with my breath, my heart filled to overflowing with tender care as I allow the tensions of life’s lessons to fall away, along with all the stories that I have stored and brought again and again to the classroom.
Surely it is time to enter upon the glorious new unfolding that opens out from this place of letting go, of deep release and feelings like rivers that flow eventually to the ocean, the source of all that is. Two travellers are we, determined to heal all of our sorrows, our song is a frequency that clears out the shadow and the shame.
Transformation through utter nakedness as I stand before my Beloved, nothing but truth between us and a love that knows no bounds, can not be contained or held within prison bars. My heart opens and my soul becomes a song that takes the slumbering caterpillar and turns it into the butterfly that was always present, flying into the glorious dawn with wings of many colours.
And so I am reborn over and over again, each layer dissolving to reveal the light that is within me, that flows through me………… that holds my essence which never dies. An eternal being living many lives, bringing all the threads together now as the old age comes to its final ending, preparing to sing the stories of humanity’s growth into a new form. Bringing peace and harmony to Mother Earth and all who live within her sheltering arms………….shanti, shanti, shanti……peace, peace, peace.
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I have been reflecting a little on the process that I have gone through in the last ten years of being not only single, but celibate. Ok so there were a couple of poor decisions in that decade and a blissful interlude with a dear friend and cuddle buddy, but essentially I was on my own and very focused on healing myself. I made a vow not to move into relationship until I had healed the patterns that led to dysfunctional behaviours, to shift my frequency and to attract something very different this time, and to hang in there no matter how long it took.
Who would have thought it would take so long! There have been so many layers to shed, it’s like the old proverbial can of worms, once it has been opened it all has to come out. And I have made a vow on more than one occasion, to heal everything in this lifetime, these vows are powerful statements of intention and if you put enough of your belief behind them they can be quite unstoppable. Hence the expression “Be careful what you ask for, the Gods may give it to you”, I have had moments when I doubted that I would ever make it to my desired outcome, in fact a big part of the process was letting go of needing an outcome.
The journey to a happy relationship is through the doorway of love of self, you need to feel worthy of happiness and joy, have the courage to speak your feelings with clarity, know that you are love itself having an earthly experience. I’ve been doing some powerful work creating a new reality for myself and these reflections remind me that spirit will do the details better than I ever could, I just need to focus on the ‘essence’ of what it is I desire to have more of in my life.
And the truly interesting thing that is happening for me at the moment? Now that I am in a space of feeling secure with my Beloved the need to fantasize about the future is quite gone, being in the present moment is more than sufficient. Fay Fairytale is using her imaginative talents to direct the movie of my life when I spend time doing my morning meditations, feels like energy is flowing well and all I have to do is follow the flow as best I can………….singing and dancing along the way!
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I’ve got this message at the top of my screen, it is trying to get me to change security settings and it’s all very serious and I am having trouble wrapping my head around what I actually need to do. I’m bobbing along in a bubble of happiness and joy and it can be a bit challenging to come to earth and do practical things, particularly not being the most practical of persons naturally. But I am doing my best and in the meantime exploring what it feels like to be so happy, everything seems easy from this space and the flow happens, in whatever is the most efficacious manner.
And things keep changing but there is a new continuity in my life that changes everything, I manage neurotic pets, writing commitments, shopping and yoga, giving a massage and getting my hair done, all in preparation for time with my Beloved. And time in my community, where I am constantly connecting with beautiful people who celebrate with me my joys, support if I do sorrow. Life is actually pretty good as we approach the Summer Solstice, the completion of what felt like a very important cycle to me, some of it quite painful, but the clarity on the other side is well worth it!
Really challenge yourself and see what comes up, sit with the feelings and if you can let it be a journey then it may take you into a deeper awareness of body, mind……soul………heart. If you don’t like the feelings and the types of outcomes they tend to produce, then be present with the discomfort, you can let go of that stuff forever. Feels like I have let go of rather a lot of heavy stuff that I really didn’t need anymore, life is both simpler and more complex, in the most delightful way!
Just like this song from Mary Poppins, “A Spoon Full of Sugar”, you have to love Julie Andrews, she is just perfect in this role and what a voice!
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Tonight’s post was supposed to be on how to save the planet, but in the end it’s about saving me from burn out as I do my best to imitate Wonder Woman, trying to fit much more into a day than twenty-four hours was ever supposed to contain. As I get clearer and clearer on what I want to create in my life, I can see that more time is required to focus on these goals and the actions that will flow from that place. So I’ve decided to post three times a week, on Wednesdays, Fridays and Sundays from this day forth.
I also need to walk my talk and act on the messages that my body has been sending me since I was in bed for a week in August, at the moment I still have the cold that began two weeks ago and it seems determined to linger on. Some of the time that I have been spending on these posts can be channelled into finding a more effective way of supporting myself in the world, and that could lead to all sorts of exciting outcomes. You might get the chance to buy my as yet unwritten book, or listen to the guided meditations I could very well create, or perhaps receive an invitation to an event I’ve organised in some exotic location!
Or perhaps none of the above, I don’t know all the details of the new chapter in my life, what I am sure of is the kind of lifestyle I want, and it’s not only abundant, it’s also very relaxed and easy. Living in the bush near the songline that I resonate with, communicating with nature and with the people in my community, moving into a relationship with my Beloved in divine timing. I don’t want to travel the world, just visit a few specific places, traveling through my own land appeals more to me, maybe singing the songlines as I go!
Just writing about this dream has me feeling more relaxed and at ease, letting go of the need to post every day hasn’t been easy, but I know it’s the right thing to do because of the relief I feel at the lessening of pressure. I talked about reducing stressors a few days ago in “There’s Always More!”, so here I am doing it again and this one is going to make a HUGE difference! I hope that those of you who have been faithfully following will hang in there with me, there are going to be many great stories coming your way from the newly invigorated and re-invented KERRY LAIZANS!!!!!!!
See you on Friday, until then love and blissings to you all…………