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Let The Feelings Flow.

As the cold deepens, the energy of the dark womb draws us within, Demeter is mourning for her daughter and her grief is cold as ice, as cold as the underworld where Persephone has gone. The emptiness contains all that we have pushed aside in busier and brighter times, when distractions are easy to come by, and the shadow merely an interesting shape created by the sun’s rays. But now the trees are bare, and though the sun still shines from deep blue skies,  the pull comes from within, our shadow clamouring for our attention.

Surrender to that call, let go into the stillness that you will find as you descend into your own private version of the underworld. What is it that you cannot own or accept as a part of who you be, what aspects of self have you demonised or judged as being unworthy. That which remains unacknowledged can never be transformed or set free, so let yourself be………….all of who you are, this is the key.

We all of us have parts of ourselves that we don’t like very much, if you try to ignore this truth, if you push it down into the deepest part of your being, it will become even more powerful. It will control you from a place that you may not easily be able to access, the longer this goes on the more layers will gather and the harder it becomes to identify and therefore release. Here is a piece I wrote about how I did this very thing with the guilt I felt over my father’s death when I was 15:

My guilt was a mountain the size of Everest and I buried it as deeply as that mountain is tall.

The guilt festered away in the dungeon of my soul and within a brief few years it had eaten away it all, my self-esteem, my sense of worth, my love of self was gone.

It was in the midst of terrible storms on Australia Day that I realised that I had at last rebuilt my self-esteem, 33 years after burying that which I could not face or acknowledge to myself. To read more about that check out my post “Rebirth” on January 30 2013.

Rebirth

This one act of mine shaped my entire life, I cannot regret it for it has brought me to where I am, but I offer my experience as a lesson hard learned. No matter how painful it may be, allow your  feelings to move through you, express them in the moment and let them go, just keep doing that until you are clear, as long as it takes…………..

Shanti, shanti, shanti…………peace, peace, peace…………

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Eat Everything In Sight!

The cold has really arrived and the danger that that brings is already playing havoc with my diet! Yes, it’s the eat everything in sight so that I will have plenty of fat on this fleshly vehicle and will be able to make it through the long hard winter months syndrome. What is it about the cold that does this to us, all year-long I resist eating bread and enjoy the wonderful state of health that comes from listening to my body, then all of a sudden it’s winter and all of my willpower is simply gone.

breadandsoup

I’m going to have to come up with a system for this, putting on weight for winter might be ok if I had lost it all again come summer but somehow it never seems to work like that. The first step is to start making my almond meal muffins again, I leave out the sweet ingredients and just make them plain so you can have them with soup or as little sandwiches. And I am sure there are other good alternatives that will assist me in keeping my wonderful figure as we go through these dark months.

But I keep thinking that the place to truly effect this change is inside my head, it’s my thoughts that have shifted in response to the changing season and so to get a different outcome I need to change the thoughts. Mmmmmmm this is going to take some reflection, I can feel a sense of unworthiness swirling around inside of me which is definitely a part of this whole thing. Time to dive into myself and see what I can find in this ever-moving journey of discovery, slowly evolving into a better version of who I am……………..

I will keep you posted on my progress, hopefully with tips on how you too can stay slim and warm for winter!