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Let Mother Nature Take The Load!

frazzled and tired catWhen things are going smoothly and according to plan it’s so very easy to be in your heart and to feel the joy of life flowing through your veins. The real test is when you are feeling frazzled and stressed, can you be in your heart just when you need it the most? Today I was still tired from a big and challenging work day and it took me most of the morning to get myself into a space where I was able to head off to my afternoon shift. I’m filling in for holidays this month so the schedule is fuller than usual and I was very much hoping to cruise through the rest of the day with grace and ease.

computer stress

I won’t bore you with unnecessary details but you can probably guess where I am heading with this. There were no great catastrophes or disasters but it was stressful and the kind of stress that comes with a new computer system for routing phone calls going through a bit of a glitch. Nothing earth shattering but when you are already tired it can feel like the straw that broke the camel’s back! I did do some breathing into my heart as I cultivated a feeling of love by thinking of my dear Beloved. It didn’t magically shift me into bliss but it definitely eased the tension I was feeling and helped to keep me on an even keel.

breathe into your heart

Then I got home to find that my Beloved had also had a difficult day talking to phone companies trying to change over to a new provider and plan. And to top it off the B & B guests were being very noisy upstairs, first time we’ve ever heard the TV up there so they must have had it on pretty loud! We shnuggled and we showered, then we drove to a nearby lookout and gazed out at what was left of a gentle sunset. I followed this up with listening to some soft and ethereal music while my Beloved made our dinner.

heart chakra breathe

Now as I sit here and write I can still feel some of the stress, and only sleep and rest will cure the tiredness, but I am coping. Sometimes that’s the best we can do. I’m also giving myself permission to finish this tomorrow as a deep kindness to me. So remember, if life is getting you down, breathe, be in your heart, change something or go somewhere.

sunset water

PS: After an 8 hour sleep and then starting the day with yoga I am back in a happy place! I also found a bit of grass to sit on with trees, sunshine and birdsong before I had to be at work. I sent any remaining stress into the Earth and the Mother held me in her nurturing embrace. Only 10 minutes but oh what a difference! So don’t forget nature when you are feeling stressed, you know what they say: “There’s no Wi Fi in the forest but I guarantee you will find a better connection.” (From Facebook by I don’t know!)



Inner Balance: A Meditation On Joining.

moontime sacred womanWhat does inner balance mean to you? This is a question that was posed by The Joining Gathering, (http://www.thejoining.com.au/), on Facebook yesterday, and it got me thinking about how I find balance in myself. My Beloved has gone off to the big smoke for four days of intense study and so I found myself looking inside for what it is that keeps me centred, particularly when I am on my own. Time alone is quite rare these days and I wouldn’t have it any other way, but in the past it has often been my preference to be on my own rather than hanging out with other people.


Now I just want to be with my Beloved ALL the time and that’s wonderful but life being what it is there will be times that we have to be apart and I need to be ok with that. And I am, the question is what is going on inside me to create that sense of being grounded in who I am. When I tune into that I get a sense of a column going up the middle of my body, in particular my torso and the place where I feel it the most is in my heart. There is a sense of fullness in the heart space and the feeling is gratitude.

ocean of love

I learned to be happy about who I am and truly love myself before I was able to be with my Beloved in deep love and connection. I decided to settle for nothing less than a relationship based on spiritual practices and I waited 10 years until the moment of our joining unfolded. Just as it was always meant to be, and in the time of my preparation I’ve done a lot of inner discovery that stands me in good stead for the path that my Beloved and I will walk together, side by side.

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Liking me means that while I miss my darling terribly on those rare occasions he has to be away, I really genuinely am ok. Having said that I must confess to a saucy exchange of texts with my Love as I try to finish writing this post! Hard not to be happy when someone regularly takes your breath away and squeezes your heart in that soft goofy way, even when he isn’t physically here.

Love and smiles, be happy and well!

The Joining 2014

The Fire Of Love Never Runs Out.

My photo of my fire reborn!

My photo of my fire reborn!

The theme tonight is fire, death and rebirth, the power of three and the power of persistence, of never giving up………..just as love never stops or runs out. Anger, resentment, jealousy, pride and arrogance, even sorrow eventually will run out, but love just keeps on going. So if you can tap into that ocean which is always here you have become one with a power that is about as renewable as energy gets!

“The lover who leans upon the beloved’s response, his love is like the flame that needs oil to live; but the lover who stands on his own feet, is like the lantern of the sun that burns without oil.”

Hazrat Inayat Khan.

The Phoenix of flame rising from the ashes , hope burns eternal!

The Phoenix of flame rising from the ashes , hope burns eternal!

My beloved left a fire set for me to light as he would not be home until late, I treasure his delight in contributing to my happiness and enjoy a good fire so I set fire to paper before it was dark. All seemed well and I thought the fire was taking well but alas it failed, I girded my loins and mustered some fuel and managed to find a flame but again it seemed to die. After the third time I had almost given up but as I gazed at the fire I saw there was a bed of coals and the smaller log was glowing. I blew upon it and flames licked up, I coaxed the hot coals to deliver the heat that would finally get my fire going, the juices of my creativity that have been brewing in this lovers nest.

Look here my fire looks like a scene from outer space!

Look here my fire looks like a scene from outer space!

Oh what fun to explore the pathways of consciousness and connection and to share that with other beings, fellow seekers on the path of bliss and self-love. As we approach the Winter Solstice it is time to consider what you may be ready to shed, to let go of in the darkness of the longest night of the year, transforming into a rebirth as a new day dawns. But before that we have a Sagittarius Full Moon, the adventurous traveller and explorer of different realities inner and outer. The optimist who will always see the world as an exciting place to discover and who is therefore much more likely to be able to navigate turbulent times.


And we are living in tumultuous times, the possibility for positive change has never been so full even as we seem to see the dark forces triumphing over the poor and the helpless. Use your imagination to link with the powerful energies we are a part of and help us all to create the world we all want to live in, all of a sudden one day it will be here and there will be nothing that the ignorant can do about it. And perhaps even they will wake at the last, evolution ensures that we all will wake and flow through the process that eventually returns us to the unity that we have come from.

So be it, so be it, so be it.

Cycles And Shifts Bringing Us Closer Connection.

moontime connectionHello and yes I will continue the story of the commoner princess by and by, but for today’s sharing I want to talk about different states of consciousness, a topic that has fascinated me for years. For women it is probably easier in some ways to comprehend the ways in which we shift from one state to another, at least in theory. We have a monthly shift which is our moon time, and even though women in western culture are not taught to value this phenomenon, it is an opportunity to become more sensitive and able to perceive inner transformation.

It’s not often I have anything that could be described as PMT but I’ve felt my menstrual flow on the way for the last few days and found myself over sensitive to physical touch and very emotional. My Beloved and I ended up going from passion to me being held as I felt almost like crying, distressed but for no perceivable reason. He was rather excited but could feel where I was and accepted with great grace that I had things moving and he needed to hold space for me rather than make love.

moontime sacred woman

The next day I watched lots of “Charmed” episodes and didn’t do too much and my Beloved was there when I needed him to be and I was left to myself as needed, quite perfect! A perfectly normal situation for many couples, can you see how ignoring the feminine shift into pre-moon time could create arguments and separation, imagine how often that has actually happened to people. Recognising cycles and accepting what they bring to us, responding to what is in the present instead of what we think should be there, here is an approach that can bring two people closer together. There is nothing more attractive than someone who really gets you!

Shape-shifter, shaman, prophetic visionary, healer. Oh, hello everything that I desire to embody, and do so, even as I am a little bit freaked out/scared/wonder why I couldn’t've just been some ‘more normal’ instead. http://www.janeofardis.com/tag/goddesses/

Shape-shifter, shaman, prophetic visionary, healer.
Oh, hello everything that I desire to embody, and do so, even as I am a little bit freaked out/scared/wonder why I couldn’t’ve just been some ‘more normal’ instead.

Of course tuning into cycles is going to be an asset whether you are in a relationship or not, it can help you to be in the energetic flow of your life, wherever that journey may be heading for you.

Inanna And The Underworld, Surrendering To The Blood.

Only just found this, looks very interesting: http://www.writersbucketlist.com/creating-a-writing-career/

Only just found this, looks very interesting: http://www.writersbucketlist.com/creating-a-writing-career/

Feeling a little hemmed in where I am at my market today and wondering what this is symbolising for me at the moment. Perhaps it is time to move on from this wonderful warm space where I find part of my family or tribe, I have a sense of belonging and connection and it is this that keeps bringing me here. It’s a beautiful energy exchange but there is another path unfolding, as my Beloved and I settle into a life together we will have times apart to do stuff and mine may be to look at the earning online as a writer idea that’s been kicking around for a while now!

Harness your moon stallion!

Harness your moon stallion!

Check out this website with some great reflections on the value of tuning into your moon time ladies, harness your moon stallion! http://www.elephantjournal.com/2011/09/harness-your-moon-time-stallion-nicole-maniez/

But just for today I am going to relax into the space of my moon time, as I sit here writing I can feel the deep earthing energy drawing me deep within myself. Anyone who does have a reading from me today will get a particularly good one, feeling very open as a channel for spirit today. Then back to my bush sanctuary where I feel the spirit of the land very keenly, it’s different to the fairy cottage I looked after almost a year ago, but there is still a deep, rather subtle connection going on.

Came home to my retreat to find the power off and so couldn’t do much, not even a cuppa, sat with my Beloved and watched the peaceful water of the pond. Letting go into the depths of the mother I did a reading for my love and that flowed as easily as the readings I did at market earlier on.

Spiraling down into the swirling depths and layers of the feminine, the unconscious, the unknown………….the mystery.


Isis, Astarte, Diana, Hecate, Demeter……….Kali, Inanna.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-K_g-5FEKLU  This version of the song “The Burning Times” ends a bit abruptly but it is a good one particularly for really hearing the lyrics clearly.


This Crazy Delicious Place Of Delight!

Dressing up as an elf can also be great therapy! Yes that's me, photo by Steve Swayne.

Dressing up as an elf can also be great therapy! Yes that’s me, photo by Steve Swayne.

Hello dear Readers, what is life holding for you in this very moment? Is there a thought or a dream that’s been wandering around in your inner being that wants to be expressed in some way? That’s a bit like the writing process for me, this blog is as much about my own therapy as it is about you gorgeous people out there.

There is a lot going on in my life at the moment, not the least of which is my going from being on my own to being with my soul mate. That journey brings its own challenges, it also brings incredible joy and the deepest connection, it isn’t the only way to get there but it certainly is fun! I have been noticing in myself an urge to immerse myself completely in my relationship, the desire to be in that ecstatic loving space all the time. There is a potential danger in this oh so natural process, at least it has been for me, it is so easy to lose myself in the ocean of love.

ocean of love

And this is relationship which is a spiritual practice that I am engaging in now so how much more the temptation to drown in that crazy, delicious place of delight. The funny thing is that the same thing ultimately saves me from tipping over the edge, it’s much harder to lose me these days, I keep finding deeper and deeper layers of who I really am. When you reach a certain point there is no going back, and why would you want to?

And I do let go of who I think I am  as I shift into that state of oneness and surrender, but I’m not really losing myself these days, its more like letting go of control. Or maybe you could compare it to the ability of a shaman to move in and out of altered states of consciousness, after all I used to be a shamanic apprentice! Whatever you call it, its nice to have the opportunity to navigate the paths to ecstasy, even when it is shadow, as I release layers of old stuff I become more available to the ecstatic.

Faeries Dancing

Until further notice, celebrate everything! Saint Germain through Azena Ramanda.

Add Belief To Desire And Be Showered With Blessings!

ItstephenkingIt was so hot today I reached a point where my brain pretty much ceased to function, so I found a dvd at my house sit and watched of all things a horror film! An oldie from Stephen King called “It” which I remember scared the pants off me when I read the book, the movie wasn’t quite so bad but there were a few moments when I had goosebumps, which is fairly impressive considering the soaring temperature!

It kept me suitably occupied and one could simply dismiss it as a distraction but I can’t help myself, I’m always looking for meanings in things, and so I wondered what possible lesson there could be in this film for me. It’s the story of a bunch of kids who take on a monster who has been haunting the town of Derry for hundreds of years, it comes to life every 30 years and feeds on children mostly. It’s only the kids who can see the hallucinations created by this creature, the adults have stopped ‘believing’ so they can’t see what is obvious and terrifying to the children.

7" Cake Plate

There is a moment in the fight against the monster where one of the kids uses his asthma puffer as a weapon and as he sprays it he is saying, “This is battery acid” with total conviction and it works just as if it was acid. The message here is that our belief or strong intention can create anything that we desire, there is also a powerful message in the fact that the friends must band together in order to defeat their opponent, the connection that they have to each other creates a kind of magic.

Nothing is ‘impossible’, not if your intention is strong and steady and you are prepared to accept a little help from your friends. I’m still trying to work out how to apply this to my latest project, the celebration of the new chapter in my life, symbolised by my 50th birthday next month. But apply it I shall, life is currently showering me with abundant blessings so I don’t see why that shouldn’t be the case in every area of my life, time to move into the fullness of prosperity on every level of my being!

So be it, so be it, so be it………….

Here’s a trailer for the movie: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndmNc-rJtbc