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Be The Heart Of Conscious Community.

Posted on September 16, 2013 | Leave a comment

What is the depth of communication that occurs in social media, can it be a tool for creating conscious and empathic groups, supporting each other in a variety of ways. Certainly for me there is a stronger focus on my local groups when I use Facebook, as well as connecting directly with individuals, sharing information and inspiring each other. I am fortunate to be connected to many people in my local community, whatever I need is there if I have the sense to ask for it, there is always support for me here, love and acknowledgement. Add people in other parts of Australia and some around the world and we are talking a lot of hearts all being connected, being the heart of conscious community.

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That’s the theme for the Joining Gathering which runs over the Equinox weekend coming up, I have been called elsewhere this time but to experience a beautiful honouring of the masculine and feminine, and all the other deepening experiences on offer, is a beautiful thing to do if you are drawn to it. http://thejoining.com.au/  I’m going to be busy working with songlines as well as my personal journey, looking forward to this coming Equinox very much indeed. I was told not long ago by a psychic that I was going to become more witchy as I got older, I have to confess she was very accurate, in fact so far she’s been spot on about an awful lot of things.

So in my way of doing things social media plays a positive role in creating and connecting my community, like any useful tool it depends on how it is utilised and mindfulness is so important. Many of the people I connect with in the virtual realms I see in my daily life at different times, but there are some that I have never physically met who I actually feel just as close to. The particular group I am thinking of came together out of an online course with Jean Houston and so we have a similar vision and were all drawn to each other in the virtual world that was created for our interaction in the course.

So don’t be afraid to work with technology, it can be a very intuitive process and I have seen clearly how it can bring ordinary people together to create positive change in our communities. Bring on the New Age of spirit and matter, body and soul, time to become future humans!

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Opening To The Divine.

Posted on September 14, 2013 | Leave a comment

So what the hell is attraction anyway, a strong energy felt between two people that draws them together, unmet needs searching for a home where they can feel safe? Or could it be a sense of purpose, of having something important to do in the world with that other person. I would say all of the above and probably a whole lot more that I haven’t mentioned, possibly as many definitions as there are people, we are a complex lot! And of course without all that chemistry we wouldn’t keep having babies, so I guess it is something that is hard-wired into our DNA.

There have been a million songs written about attraction in all its various forms and love usually gets a mention, but do the two things automatically go together? Of course not! When they are both present there is a depth to the feelings that sheer physical magnetism can never really manage, however delicious it might seem in the moment. I am rediscovering the pleasures of attraction as I go through a big transition into my new life, but I have also felt the confusion that can come up. Since I began this particular journey there has been a lot of stuff coming up that harks from my teenage years when my sexuality was trying to flourish in the midst of confusion, despair, and eventually my father’s suicide.

Strong energies do tend to bring up stuff and if you aren’t conscious of the process it can be terribly easy to project what you’re feeling on to the other person. On the other hand, choose a conscious pathway as you relate to the world around you and you can become even clearer as you go along your merry way. That has been my experience over this last week, although the relationship that really stirred things up for me this week was not so much a person, it was Mother Earth.

Now that is a strong energy indeed, I lay on the earth and I merged into her until there was no longer any me, no longer any separation between me and anything else. The energy ripped through newly awakened energetic pathways and it was a wonderful opening, a kind of initiation. To be with the Mother is to experience love on an immense scale and that’s what I want in a relationship, to open to God, Goddess, All That Is…………….

My Relationship Altar.

My Relationship Altar.

So as I enjoy the dance of attraction I will remain mindful of my intention for any potential connection with a man, David Deida puts it very well indeed.

“Find a woman who you can open to God farther than she is opening herself. Find a woman who wants to join you in relationship in that commitment. Then practice together opening each other to God, to infinity. The relationship is a conscious choice, a commitment. It doesn’t just happen.”

From “The Love That Washes Through Patterns,” a talk by David Deida

Here’s a video from a talk by David Deida, love the bit where he talks about a woman wanting to be ravished open to God!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IZrkMZyEWY

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Deep Medicine.

Posted on July 16, 2013 | 1 comment

I’m beneath the water line now, the tip of the iceberg far, far above me as I dive into the deepest parts of me. Letting go of EVERYTHING, the notion of being imperfect, of somehow not being good enough, a superficial idea created by superficial people who are not really worth giving attention or focus to, ( I include myself in that last description!)  I LET GO, there is nothing held in this drop into my bones, into the heaviness that needs do nothing ‘cept be, what it is in each moment, the present is a gift.

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And from this place of deep rest, of relaxation and release my gifts may emerge, defined not by the expectations of others, ’tis a reaching out of soul, of love and life. I am whole and in that wholeness I heal not only myself but the community at large, receiving my radiant light and being uplifted by it. Giving freely and flowing through a life full of joy and delight and good music!

My medicine journey took me to exactly where I needed to go, I perceived my need as releasing certain feelings associated with a particular person. What I realised in the safe space of the sacred circle was that this was an extremely narrow view, it was the tip of the iceberg when it was all that lies below the water line that I needed to journey to. That’s where I went and I was so deep I can’t tell you exactly what happened down there, I was beyond conscious comprehension as my body rocked and jerked to assist the movement of energy.

I am now very conscious of the fact that even when I am ‘relaxing’, there is still something being held somewhere, in the letting go of my journey I actually let go of all of it. It was such a beautiful and deep rest, and I will remember that feeling and do my best to continue my healing path so that I may be in that kind of truly restful space more often.

May there be peace within me, ohm shanti, shanti, shanti……………

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To The Depths!

Posted on July 11, 2013 | 1 comment

A sense of lassitude, bed is a good idea but oh how much nicer to flow with the energy and enjoy the feeling of being nurtured and  of self-worth that is moving through the cells of my body. The intelligence and heart of Leonard Cohen singing incisive and profound words, so very like real life told with such sensitivity and warmth. I am somewhat disenchanted with ego at the moment, it can be charming and fun but do you really want that kind of energy around too often, aren’t we supposed to surround ourselves with the kinds of people who reflect back to us our unlimited self. A control freak who cannot let go, struggles with spontaneity, is only amusing up to a point, however “conscious” the language or terminology you are always going to be swimming in shallow waters.

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I want to sink to the depths with all the wonders there to behold, to dance in and out of unity awareness, tantric sensibility, sensitivity to the whole picture, falling into old patterns to activate and to release……….letting go in love. Dreaming up the vision of connection to a beloved as a part of spiritual practice, where your relationship brings you closer to the Divine, why be there otherwise. Having that energy upon land that resonates with my being, that speaks to me in a tongue that nourishes and supports me as only the Mother can do, oh Durga, may I receive that which will bring me closer to you.

Love

Continuing to keep a shimmering barrier around me at all times, it allows in only that which is of a high vibration and which will serve the highest good of me and of all life everywhere, that which is of a low vibration and which will not serve me may not enter. At night I add a mirrored surface to the outside of the bubble, anything that will not serve me is reflected back to whence it came. I’ve never had to be this disciplined before but it feels necessary to do so at this time, I am hearing a lot about people feeling the need for protection from various types of unseen forces, or of those who are overshadowed by entities or dark energies. I think things are hotting up, if you are a sensitive it could get particularly interesting, and if you think of it as an adventure it has the potential to be a lot of fun!

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Here is a beautiful video clip of one of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs, Dance me to the end of love:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGorjBVag0I&list=PL3145B4789B3C8243&index=5

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Not So Crazy.

Posted on July 3, 2013 | Leave a comment

Time for the next installment of the horror movie, starring your favourite heroine, that’s me! I don’t feel quite so funny about putting this experience in writing after a phone call I received from a woman who was referred to me by a client. The timing is pretty extraordinary, just after I have published a post about psychic attacks and the importance of getting the information out into the public domain, I hear a story eerily similar to my own. There are differences, but the essence is the same, she is being attacked by an unseen force which seems to be stronger at night and is very frightened for herself and her son.

This woman was obviously a ‘sensitive’ but had always run away from her visions in the past, finally there was something going on that she couldn’t ignore and I did my best to offer her guidance on what to do. I suggested she visualise a protective barrier around her and her son, and also to ask her guides or higher self to help keep her safe for the night. In an indigenous culture she would probably have been recognised for her gifts and trained to use them for the benefit of the community.

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When we ignore the unseen realms and try to pretend that only the tangible world is real, there’s an enormous amount of knowledge that is being more or less thrown away. It’s like saying that the tip of the iceberg is the only thing that is real because that’s the part we can see, of course the bulk of it is below the surface, not unlike the conscious and unconscious parts of ourselves.

It really is time to wake up to the bigger picture, when we acknowledge the whole of life and our experiences how much richer will our world become! That vision is getting closer all the time, for some of us it is already becoming a reality, as more and more people awaken to the truth, as the world becomes a saner and happier place.

If you would like to know more about what a shaman does check out this article from “The Shaman’s Well”: http://www.shamanswell.org/shaman/what-is-a-shaman

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Follow Your Flow.

Posted on May 29, 2013 | Leave a comment

What an interesting journey it is to re-enter a life in a higher powered vehicle, feeling the effects of raising my vibration, through shedding as well as conscious intention to manifest my highest good. I have entered an intuitive flow that can sometimes change quite suddenly, I surrender to it and it takes me on a slightly different tack, I call it fine tuning. Life seems to be handing me gifts from all sides, messages come through just when I need to hear them and they are getting pretty clear!

I shifted from having a night at home with a few friends, food and movie,  to connecting with a groovy new household and on to my community and tribe who often tend to meet up on this particular evening. The music was stellar quality, one of those lovely nights where you get to have some great conversation but just have to stop often in order to listen to the wonderful sonic offerings. And I just had to dance to some of those fabulous rhythms, can’t understand how people can hear that music and not move their bodies!

There were people there who are very dear to my heart, and there are some challenges amongst us, we are coming together to support as a community. The hearts are there and I seem to connect with openness, everybody seems to like me and there is a feeling that I can be who I am, without judgement. Oh the dancing was good tonight, I am feeling the most delicious expansion in my ribs when I move and flow, its energy that tickles me in a very sensual way, almost like making love to myself.

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Dancing on the dark verandah to Alicia Keys, coming in for one song so I could use the floor, beautiful wooden floors, eating left over desert from that May 10 Taurian New Moon eclipse as I integrate the cellular shift brought in by the Sagittarius Full Moon and eclipse. That’s quite a mouthful wouldn’t you agree? Not as hard as it might seem, if you can find your flow and trust it is amazing how much synchronicity seems to guide your path forwards.

Here’s Alicia singing, ‘Never felt this way’, nice version.

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xpc1t9_alicia-keys-never-felt-this-way-piano-i-aol-sessions-1_music?ralg=int.meta2-only#from=playrelon-11

Lead on my third eye, and St Germaine, and the Archangel Micheal…………..on, on, on to the Golden Age!

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The Classroom.

Posted on May 27, 2013 | 2 comments

I anchor into the world by doing ordinary tasks, cooking, cleaning, looking after animals, I organise the wood and I wash the dishes. Of course this is all happening to the sound of the bell birds, and wherever I look I can see green leaves and sunshine, inside all the different grains of wood keep me connected to the natural world. I’ve been on a wild ride, and it’s time to come back to the mother, the earth, grounding into the energies that sustain and nourish us all, this way I might actually be able to make some sense of the lessons I have learned.

Bell birds.

Bell birds.

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And the curriculum in the classroom has been what? Well, there are many subjects here but the most important one is probably trust, not so much trust of another, but of self. I ignored advice from dear friends, I let Fay Fairytale override my intuition, I chose in a pretty conscious way to be in denial of what I knew to be true. So you could say that I didn’t trust my deeper knowing, on the other hand perhaps there was an even deeper knowing that wanted me to have the experience in order to activate the enormous amount of material that I’ve shifted in that period. We are talking about from the Summer Solstice last year, up to the present moment, I am a very different person to who I was then.

My intuition has grown enormously in this same period, there is more space for it and I trust it more, it told me things about this house that I am living in and it has all come true, although not necessarily as I might have imagined it. I had a feeling there might be a death with the animals, but I put it aside not wanting to borrow trouble, well one of the guinea pigs decided it was time to shuffle off this mortal coil, and I now realise that it was a premonition. I also felt it would be a good house for relationship and communication, I’ve done more entertaining here in two and a half weeks than I’ve done in many years!

Community and connection, is even sweeter over the sharing of a meal made with love………………………………

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Sex Is Everything!

Posted on March 23, 2013 | 1 comment

Energy lies coiled in the base of the spine they say, I can feel it curling and caressing my sacrum, waiting for the opening, the opportunity to burst forth with great pleasure and joy. The desire to share this is powerful, but the first step is to bring it fully into myself, to give myself permission to experience pleasure bursting forth in every cell of my divine body!

Oh to have to wait, anticipate……………..there’s a choice to be made, I could be mad that time is not to be had………..mmmmmmmmm not a path that draws me to it. Or I could bring anticipation into every moment, convey the brimming life force into every ordinary activity, into every encounter as I move through the landscape of my existence.

My sexual energy infuses my whole life, I used to keep it in a separate box and only bring it out on special occasions, and my life was the poorer for it. Now as I allow this natural force to flow, so my reality is beginning to reflect a larger possibility for prosperity on all levels of my being. I can see it in my work on the crisis lines where my newfound clarity is cutting through confusion and despair, and helping me to truly HEAR and UNDERSTAND, feels like magic!

I am doing better business at my weekly market and having the most delicious connections with beautiful people, as the flow comes in myriad forms. I am beginning to connect with men who are conscious and aware, and while that may sometimes trigger my stuff it is of course a blessing, because it is clearing the way for more luscious energy to be freed up.

I become more happy with every day, with every shift and release of the baggage that has weighed me down for so long. The times I’m not happy I’m generally moving stuff through, and so it keeps moving until it’s completely gone, and there is a space left inside as my inner realm becomes bigger and bigger. We are so much more than we think we are, I believe indeed that we ARE infinite beings and that love is the fuel which can run everything from the heart space, the place which I call home.

Heartfelt blissings from an expanded and glowing being of infinite potential!

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From your innermost secret garden will flow Rivers of Living Light

In Love’s openness an entrance is granted to your Realm of Innocence, this is your secret garden a place of intimate magic and manifested wonder. You are an extraordinary soul-light in this dancing Cosmos. Your joy, your desire, your pleasure lights the way home. ~Keith Allen Kay

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The Lover’s Kiss.

Posted on February 17, 2013 | Leave a comment

Since I attended my first Joining Gathering in 2011, I’ve been working with the intention to free up my life force energy, to allow it to flow through all facets of my life. That’s almost a year and a half ago and I think I can safely say that I’ve been successful in that process, I’ve become more confident in myself, improved my money flow, and made many beautiful connections in my community.

My sexuality is also flowering, I can feel it’s flow in my body and my spirit and see the response around me. It’s not just about men noticing me, when your energy is flowing like that you become an attractor, and so people are more likely to be drawn to connect with you. When you live in a very conscious community this is a beautiful experience and one that I am enjoying most thoroughly!

I’ve been receiving the energy of male desire which has not been in my life for a long, long time, it feels rather yummy and I’ve even felt a spark in myself in return. That too has not been in my life for almost a decade, the signs are all here, I am ready for my beloved whoever he might be. How will I know it’s him? Well I might not, so the wisest course is to follow my flow, to treat all with the greatest respect, and to focus on friendship as a beginning place. It’s a good recipe for life in general, not just relationship, and I need to form healthy friendships with conscious men, for me it’s a new experience! And it will assist me in continuing the process of letting go of the deep distrust that I have held for the masculine energy, I let go of a heavy load a few days ago in my yoga class but it’s likely I will encounter new layers as I move into my fabulous future.

The Lover’s Kiss.

Loving the man within

the woman I be

reaches for his hand

now I can see

the face I saw as brutal

can flow with ease and grace

can give me inner strength

yet be delicate as lace

so like yin and yang

the two shall meet

singing songs of bliss

in a union oh so sweet

here comes the lover’s kiss.

Copyright Feb 2013 Kerry Laizans.

God Goddessyinyangmascfem

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Sonic Prayers For A New Age.

Posted on February 15, 2013 | 2 comments

I tried to have a sound circle in january but the storms, inner and outer, sent me in a different direction, if you want to check out those stories look at the posts after the weekend of the 26th and 27th of january. It’s been an intense time energetically speaking, if you are ready to shed layers of your stuff this is the time to be doing it, the cosmos will be there with its big sparkly broom!

So the first toning circle for the year ended up being on World Sound Healing Day which happens every Valentines Day, 2013 was the eleventh time it’s been held around the globe. There were seven of us in a cosy circle and it was a very gentle energy, I took another class in surrender as a matter of fact. I took everyone on a journey into the earth and invited them to allow themselves to be drawn to a particular part of the globe and spend time in the energy of that place. I asked them to find a sound that embodied that place and we channelled those sounds for our first merging of frequencies.

It was very beautiful and soft but I felt as the facilitator that I could maybe liven things up a bit, not that there was anything wrong with what was happening, but I sensed some restraint in a very subtle fashion and thought maybe I needed to do something about it. When will I learn! Set the space and let the group energy and flow show me the direction, my attempts to make things more lively were not jarring, but in the end I did what I always do, I surrendered and let my heart lead the way.

My heart knew when it was time to move into the ahhhhh sound, our sonic valentine to Mother Earth, and the timing was divine and what happened in our ceremonial space was exquisite. One of the participants had a big release that was incredibly powerful, I realised upon reflection later, that what I was sensing as restraint was probably the BIG stuff that was ready to move in her. She gave us a song to complete our circle and it felt like such a celebration, warm fuzzies all round in the form of wide open hearts!

I run my circles because it is part of my spiritual task on the planet, an important aspect of what I agreed to do before I incarnated. The more that conscious people gather to open their hearts and connect to the larger reality, sending the frequencies of love through the field of life, the more chance that humanity will transform rather than be extinguished.

Personally I’m in favour of the path of the heart, the one that leads to transformation, what choices are you currently making in your life? Are you in favour of extinction or the new golden age?

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