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My Story As A Reader: I’m Not Psychic She Said!

A younger me in my mid to late thirties when I used to do markets and festivals with my mother, being a hippy is something I haven't given up!

A younger me in my mid to late thirties when I used to do markets and festivals with my mother, being a hippy is something I haven’t given up!

I’d like to tell you a bit about how I got into doing psychic readings, an interesting direction for someone who as a teenager used to say, “Oh no I’m not psychic, that’s mum’s department.” It all began when my mother gave me the Mythic Tarot when I was 17 years old, a year or so after my father killed himself. I was pretty messed up as you can imagine and I spent many all nighters trying to make sense of all the confusion whirling around inside of me. The tarot cards quickly became an important tool for me and I did reading after reading for myself, in this way I came to know the cards.

A couple of cards from the Mythic Tarot: The Lovers and the 3 of Cups.

A couple of cards from the Mythic Tarot: The Lovers and the 3 of Cups.

In my early twenties I began doing readings for friends and over time I began to make more and more sense of what the cards were telling me. All of a sudden a pattern would reveal itself and I could see how the cards in a layout were connecting with each other. Eventually I became confident enough to start charging people for readings and judging by the responses I got the readings were pretty accurate. My mother always used to say that I gave an overview of the current situation in a nutshell, with the possibilities for the future radiating out from that place.

A radiating pattern in nature in one of the beautiful gardens we have looked after.

A radiating pattern in nature in one of the beautiful gardens we have looked after.

Over the years there has been a continuing evolution and expansion of my intuition that is directly related to my obsessive focus on self-healing. As I have healed layer upon layer of trauma I have become a much clearer channel for spirit to flow through. It’s a bit like cleaning a saucepan that you’ve burnt something in, at first it seems like it will never get clean no matter how long you spend scrubbing it. But if you persist and keep coming back to it there is a magical moment when you can see that it will come good, the darkness begins to disappear and the possibility of wholeness is all lit up.

All lit up like this wind chime!

All lit up like this wind chime!

A couple of years ago I got a kick up the bum from spirit in the form of a client who I connected with quite briefly, he encouraged me to get rid of the cards completely! But it wasn’t about me slavishly following his suggestions, his role was to shake me up and to get me thinking about the way I was doing my readings. Over thirty-three years of using the mythic tarot I had become so familiar with the cards that I had fallen into a bit of a rut. So I got a new pack of cards and I completely let go of the particular layout that I had been doing for so long. Now I channel through how many cards we need and the layout follows no set pattern, it’s interesting to see how the way the cards are placed adds extra meaning to it all.

spiritual awakening

At the same time I have been reaching that place where bits of me have become very clear and it’s so much easier for the information to come through, I simply step out of the way! It’s easier for me and generally makes for more accurate readings too. My studies in counselling and my work as a crisis counsellor have also helped enormously in the way that I communicate the information that comes through for my clients. In fact I am enjoying doing readings now more than ever and have decided to make it an even stronger focus in my working life.

Service with a smile!

Service with a smile! Photo by Steve Swayne.

So if a reading is something that you think might have benefit for you in your current journey please consider getting in touch with me. If you can’t see me in person then I am very happy to connect with you by phone or on Skype, payment is easily arranged by pay-pal or internet transfer.

And stay tuned for my next post where I will go into more depth on what a reading with me might look like and how it might be useful in a practical way in your everyday life.

 

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Paying Attention.

The balance is very fine for me at the moment, two nights of not enough sleep and the addition of some intensive study into an already busy schedule and I find myself with a cold having another go at me. After a heavenly sleep last night I woke early and could feel that my body was not feeling strong at all, scratchy throat and runny nose still going on. So I decided to practice the meditation from yesterdays seminar and to check in with my higher-self as to the wisdom of going to a vigorous yoga class, especially as I have an overnight shift this evening. I got the answer I expected which was don’t go, hate to miss a class but the message from my body is very clear, I would have to be a complete idiot to miss it. Truth be told I didn’t even really have to ask in the meditation, that was simply confirmation of what I already knew.

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How often do we ignore these communications from our bodies and from the realm of spirit? If you are looking they are everywhere, in my last counselling session I had wolf come to me as a totem so I had a bit of a look at its symbolism. There are a whole range of meanings but the one that struck me today is that they represent listening to your inner voice, sensitivity and strong psychic abilities. And the other animal that came in was the Owl which is also strongly linked to extra sensory perceptions.  Now I do work as a psychic so no surprises there, but it also reflected the process I had just taken myself through in deciding whether or not to go to yoga.

If you aren’t familiar with listening to these signals it may require some practice to be able to interpret the messages but it is so worth the investment of time and energy. And there will still be times when you are not sure, no matter how good you become at tuning in. That is the mystery which will always be present as long as we allow ourselves to remain open to life in all its wonder, and the world really is such a wonderful place!

Here’s Louis Armstrong singing about what a wonderful world we live in: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2VCwBzGdPM

Dance And Sing The Dream!

We left my counselling session with me chucking away big black blobs that were interrupting the flow of energy in my body, with a little bit of help from my friends, Germain and Michael. This was only the half way point in the process, the next step was to put something more positive in the vacated areas of my being, to fill the space as it were. I ought to mention too, we made sure to purify and transmute the negative energy that was pulled out of me, leave it lying around and it may just end up coming back in. I used St Germain’s violet flame to do this but you could use anything you want, maybe imagine elves tickling the darkness into light and laughter, the only limit is your imagination.

elvesdancing

I decided on the qualities I wanted to bring in and arranged them into two sections, the first was self-confidence, authenticity and inspiration, for this I called on St Germain. The other was self-care and nurturing of self and others as well as inner peace, and it was the feminine energy of Mother Mary who came to assist me. For each of these I moved my body and made sounds, Germain was full of laughter and Mary was soft, I found myself caressing my body with great tenderness, in both cases I could feel the appropriate energies coming in very strongly. I did a drawing for each and they are up on my wall now where I can see them easily, it is a beautiful reminder of the positives I am drawing into my life and being.

I have felt a big difference in myself since my session, part of my homework was to ground myself by doing a daily exercise that involves saying my name to the nine directions and then stamping my feet as I say, “I am here, I am safe.” I can safely say that this does work to ground me, I’m also making sure that I touch my bare skin to the earth every day, just holding my staff against my forehead does this really well.

Jean Houston talks about how some African tribes approach problem solving, they dance, sing and dream about the issues as a way of finding solutions. When we do this we are using much more of the totality of who we really are, bringing in our right brains where our genius lies. So if you are trying to solve problems in your life see if you can bring in more of your fullness as you contemplate whatever it is you are trying to achieve, it’s more fun too, and that can only be a good thing!

Here is a link to Jean Houston’s Mythic Life Blog: http://www.jeanhouston.com/blog/?p=69

Bug Wars.

Once again I find myself dancing with the bug that keeps coming back to haunt me, if things really do come in threes lets hope that this is the last time! I’m feeling much better since my counselling session last week and doing my best to take care of myself while still doing the things that need to be done. I’ve been working on my writing project as well as reading “The Art of Non-Conformity” and inspiration is flowing, although as I sit here writing this post there are butterflies dancing wildly in my belly.

dancing with butterflies

I didn’t wake up with this feeling and am not sure what triggered it, but at the end of the day it doesn’t really matter what it was. I could say it was a thought that obviously didn’t serve me but that wouldn’t actually be accurate, whatever is moving in me needs to move on, and the trigger is a necessary part of the clearing process, so I bless and honour it. But I don’t enjoy the feeling at all, in my days of unconsciousness this is what would drive me to try to blot everything out by getting stoned or drunk.

Now I sit with the feelings and breathe, bringing the notion of devotion into the equation, devotion to my healing process, to the sharing in this blog, devotion to all the special people in my community, and one in particular who is having a birthday today. As I do this the energy in my belly moves out into my arms and legs, and then starts radiating out into the aether as if I have become a small sun. I begin to breathe in and out of my heart and what was a kind of anxiety has transformed into excitement and anticipation. Now I’m feeling a bit light-headed and there is a sense in my body almost as if I could start to levitate!

Wow, what an interesting and quite spontaneous shift! The imagination is a marvelous gift and if you allow it free rein it can take you anywhere you need to go, a good reminder for me as I continue with my writing project and the development of this blog.  And my sense is that if I can balance self-care with doing the things I am passionate about I will win the battle of the bug, so be warned denizens of the micro world, this gal is no push over, her immunity is strong!

cartoon-bug

Balance is the theme here as we are heading towards a New Moon in Libra next saturday, but more on that subject later, for now farewell dear friends, good health to you all!

PS: When I finish this post I am going to go for a brisk walk, excited energy is needing to be channelled, transformation of anxious energy motivating even more self-care!

Give Your Dreams Wings!

I really do appreciate my good health, especially after my immune system has spent pretty much a whole week at the gym! The pleasure in being embodied is even sharper and everything seems to flow, just as well considering the busy week that I will be navigating in the river of my life. The sense of being tuned in to the flow of spirit is also feeling clearer and there is a sense of joy in being alive that comes from being connected to all things.

You know those moments when something pops out of your mouth unexpectedly, it isn’t an expression that you’ve ever used before and you don’t really know where it came from. But for the person you are speaking to it really hits the spot, that happened for me with someone I was counselling and it really made my night! I’d like to share it with you if I may:

Be clear about what you want to manifest.

Then give it over to a higher power and that’s what gives it  WINGS!

wingedheart

It’s the bit about the wings that is a new expression for me, but I think it will now be something I use a lot, for myself and for others. Those moments when we are relaxed and open to possibility are when we truly allow ourselves to become a part of life’s flow, it’s a kind of channeling and often happens when we are focused on something other than ourselves. Or if you are very tired, it’s never a bad thing for my client if I am exhausted when giving a reading, the veils become even thinner then, although I don’t particularly recommend it as a technique for developing your psychic abilities!

The bottom line here is, relaxation is the key to so many things, you can build up to a climax through tension and it can be pretty amazing, but if you find the ecstatic flow in the valley your climax will go for much longer. And while this can obviously apply to sex, it has much broader applications in an inspired and creative life!

Ahhhhhhh………..don’t you just love life!!!!!

My Guru, My Guru.

I used to think that Gurus were not such a great idea, it seemed to me that in order to have one you had to give away your power, and I was doing that enough without adding to it! I guess it would have been St Germain that would have been my guru but he was temporary in coming through Azena Ramanda, so I moved on to direct communication after that. Not being attached to a particular form, he brings me messages in many different ways. I thought having a guru on earth might be a bit of a drawback, taking the focus away from self, but after hearing stories of their guru, from Krishna Das and Ram Das, I have a different perspective.

They can be a doorway into that deeper dive into the self, into the quantum field of raw potential, a true guru will not take your power. What you choose to give away is your business, enjoy the stepping up into the limelight as you empower yourself with every step. A true guru will assist you in finding coherence, where the heart and the head and everything else is vibrating at just the right frequency, that of love. You can go there in so many ways, keep exploring doorways, it’s the evolution into a spiritual future, enlightenment.

I am my own guru these days, getting clearer and clearer on that one, developing the shamanic pathways for healing, bodywork, psychic/aura readings, sound healing, holistic counselling, writing/teaching. Lots of fun and inspiration to be had, bit more tech savvy would be good, me learning or help, don’t mind which one. But gurus can connect you to the place in yourself where you ARE LOVE, they can inspire and uplift in all sorts of different ways. Ram Dass is a guru no doubt to many, adepts or addicts, need to get stuck and then eventually be free of method, in the end we are all one in the unified field of consciousness that Rupert Sheldrake talks about, he and Bruce Lipton finally met properly and this is the conversation, its long but well worth it!

Rupert Sheldrake and Bruce Lipton.

Rupert Sheldrake and Bruce Lipton.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0o50jpPqQqA

In India when we meet and part we often say, ‘Namaste’, which means: I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides; I honor the place in you of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honor the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.

~ Ram Dass

All of Me.

So I guess the cat is out of the bag, I am in search of my beloved. It is time for us to do what we came here to do but that is just a tad tricky if you don’t know who your beloved is specifically, the broader ‘life and everything’ one is as clear as it’s ever going to be while encased in mortal flesh. I understand the Beloved in the context of the macrocosm but when it comes to the microcosm I can’t see him at all, somehow I manage to yearn without yearning, in other words making your needs known without being needy!

My task definitely has to do with supporting people through these exciting end times, through counselling, psychic and crisis, vocal toning, massage and energetic support. That still doesn’t always give me specifics but if I am paying attention I can usually work out what I am meant to be doing in the moment which after all is the present, the gift that never goes away. And sometimes I even give myself a day off, a day where I might clean, or walk, do yoga or washing, doing my best to let go of all that constant processing.

It is interesting being in all these different spaces as I go on my house sitting journey, getting to know different parts of my town and perhaps conjuring up different aspects of me, I am getting very clear about what I want in my own space when that comes. Me and my beloved in a space which is ours together, supporting each other in our journey upon the planet and the important work we are here to do. It feels a tiny bit scary putting that intention on paper as it were, so it must be a good idea, kind of like the buddy system where your intention is witnessed and supported.

Once it is out the next step is to surrender and to give my desire to the higher power that knows exactly how to bring it to fruition with perfection. Sometimes specific actions are required but on this occasion I keep getting the message from all around me to continue doing what I am doing, allow the ‘knowing’ to guide me in each part of the process. What matters more than anything is that I become who I really am in all my fullness, no excuses, no late notes, no more resistance………….simply letting go into what has always been there.

Namaste Beloved……….blissings…………

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