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It’s Christmas, Ask For Whatever You Want!

Posted on December 8, 2013 | Leave a comment
The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA's Spitzer Space Telescope.
The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope.

It feels like its time to say thank you, I have a lot of things to be thankful for and they include some stuff that is quite uncomfortable in the moment, but that takes you into deeper places. Go deep and rest in the dark womb of creation, a space where you can let go of it all, let go and be nothing and nobody……….everything and no thing.

I am grateful for every trigger, for every little thing that prodded and encouraged me to keep the energy moving, even the actions that were not in the spirit of integrity, have brought me to this place. So biggest thanks to the players on my particular stage who have been such able assistants in producing the right script to help me to move beyond such structure, into a dance of spirit that spirals me up into the light, an improvised jig with the whole cosmos!
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Do thank your inner critics and helpers too, they have been on your case or cheering you on for most of your life, they all have lessons to teach, did you find your class room? Don’t worry its an open invitation to this particular university but the situation continues to evolve and divine timing is getting pretty damn close, time to be doing your job whatever it might be.
If you are not sure what that is for you, then begin with gratitude every day, over time you may begin to notice which things give you energy and excitement, follow that passion and see where it takes you.
Explore what you would like to have in your life in an ideal world and make it REAL……………….let Spirit know what you want for Christmas, and who knows, you just might get it!
Another inspirational piece from Louie Schwartzberg, the subject is gratitude, enjoy………peace and mung beans.

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The Even Road.

Posted on October 11, 2013 | Leave a comment

I don’t know a lot about astrology but I am pretty sure that I am still very strongly under the influence of the New Moon in Libra, with the scales being the symbol for this sign balance is a key aspect and I am feeling extremely calm. It is almost a bit eerie as I move along so evenly, it isn’t indifference, in fact it’s easier to appreciate the pleasures because there is nothing much attached to them. To find inner peace you need stability, says the Dalai Lama:

“………the practice of Dharma, real spiritual practice, is in some sense like a voltage stabilizer. The function of the stabilizer is to prevent irregular power surges and instead give you a stable and constant source of power.”

It does feel a bit strange, I am accustomed to a tad more drama even just within my own inner world. I will be taking this space to my second holistic counselling session which will be very interesting indeed, of course I only have to drop in a little bit to start finding areas to work on, life isn’t perfect and may never be but I think I can safely say that I have been firmly on the road to happiness for some time now. Maybe I can have a session that is less focused on letting go of the stuff that holds me back and is more about pure creation in that newly vacated space.

That thought has a ring to it that I rather like, I can feel an answering response in my belly and my heart and they are emanating a gentle excitement. In the meantime I will do my best to continue to enjoy my wonderful life, eating, dancing, writing,  listening to great musos play, and spending time with me, doing not very much at all, must spend time watching the cat who is a zen master at the art of making important business look like sleeping a lot!

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Farewell My Love.

Posted on June 12, 2013 | Leave a comment

I come full circle, the knight goes on forever on his eternal quest for perfection, and I turn away from the fairytale and look upon the world as it is for me. I gaze upon this reality and I feel the resonance in my body, in my soul, held in the emptiness of the void of creation, containing all life, and the seeds for death and rebirth. I will open to what spirit brings unto me, without judgement, I will see beyond the veil, and I will see true.

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The deepening of winter draws me into myself, but the space of the hermit is not for me, for I am the connector, the catalyst, that which brings change and shakes up the status quo. You may not see me but you will feel the energy of my creation, as I shine a light that illuminates a bright new path, the road that leads to a new kind of humanity, a new kind of life.

Behind me is the past, all of it, only that which serves will come on this road trip into the future, only the pearls, the swine will stay behind and root in the mud of eternity. My heart still aches gently for the loss of my knight, and yet I know that this parting is a part of what is meant to be, I knew it when we began, and I know it even more so now as we come full circle……….from the darkness into the light.

The Signpost.

I have known thee before,

a long time for evermore,

we have partnered in the dance

and we have loved.

I knew you then, and then, and then,

but for us the dance has changed,

we come together now as friends

and for me you show the way,

to open unto all that I BE,

as the New Age doth unfold,

you open the door and I walk through

my true love to behold.

Copyright Kerry Laizans February 2013.

Here is a beautiful song from Loreena McKennitt called ‘Full Circle’:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97nCHyL6VBw

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Be Still.

Posted on April 27, 2013 | Leave a comment

As a reader I often find that whatever I am telling my client has many reflections for myself, must be something to do with frequency that brings our energies together at a particular time. I mentioned a post or so ago that the message stillness was coming at me from all directions, well here it was again as I did a reading for somebody. So I’m looking at my day and realising that I haven’t actually meditated, except for a brief savasana (corpse pose) after my morning stretches, I know the idea of stillness is to bring it into other activities too, but there isn’t anything quite like just sitting in stillness.

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I have another client soon and then I need to get a bit of sleep before my overnight shift, what better way to start my rest than to sit in stillness. In fact I have gone to work without sleep but having meditated, and been fine, sometimes a lot better than fine! The trick is to remember to do it, here I am going on and on about such things and I can still manage to forget, thank the Goddess that spirit keeps sending me reminder notes.

And in that place of stillness I can look at some of the issues that are swirling around me at the moment, they are pretty basic when you think about it, money and sex! Even though I am in a place of trust with both of these topics, my uneasy belly tells me that some old patterns are being activated, might have to think about another breath session before too long. In the meanwhile I need to spend as much time as possible in quiet reflection, I’m moving to a house sit in the bush in a week and a half and it will be the perfect place to do this.

Being in stillness doesn’t mean becoming a hermit though, I intend to find beautiful depths of myself as I sit quietly, and then allow that to emerge into my connections with all the gorgeous people I am fortunate to know and love. The love will expand and so will I, and the world becomes a better place…………….love and blissings to you all!

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The Burning Of The Feminine.

Posted on March 25, 2013 | Leave a comment

Somewhere between ecstasy and despair lies the deepest peace, as they say in the bible, the peace that passeth all understanding, it is the place where there is no thought. And where there is no thought there can be no reason to suffer, it is a stillness that holds us without judgement, a place where we can experience complete and unconditional acceptance of who we be. In all our glory and magnificence, with all our warts and dis-ease, the shadow and the light can be together without shame, becoming whole, and in that process an integration occurs that transforms our egoic small selves into something large and mysterious.

To get to this place we must be prepared to journey to the furthest reaches of delight and to the deepest pits of the darkest hell, knowing all this time that it is our own creation, all of it. As I take responsibility for my own manifestation in all it’s light and shade, like a coat of many colours or a multi faceted crystal, I feel a sense of liberation. The lighter I become the easier it will be for my newly formed wings to rise and catch the wind, to lift me from the life lived in half measures, to the fullness of the starry starry night. The moon smiles at me and invites me for  a visit, she holds a vision of my transformation that comes from the deep and mysterious realms of the feminine soul, that hard softness that will save the world if we let it.

Isis, Astarte, Diana, Hecate, Demeter, Kali, Inanna…………………..

Please take a look at the beautiful images that accompany this version of The Burning Times, that period in history when the feminine was under intense attack from all sides, particularly from the catholic church.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RntnpYTfpSc

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I Dance.

Posted on March 4, 2013 | Leave a comment

The yearning that I feel to merge with all things, moves through my being, my soul, the very fabric of who I am. Pared down  to essence I ride the flow generated by the movement of arms, legs, hips, feet and spine. Curling down to the earth, the mother of all, sinking into her soft embrace and being held. Feeling the anchor within I begin to climb from the depths, rising through the base, moving up and ever up, reaching for the crown, reaching for the light.

I dip, I twirl, I spin, the feelings spiralling through the sparkling cells that hold this spirit in this space-time reality we call the present moment. There is nothing but the moment, there is nothing here as I become the void, the womb of creation where emptiness lies full, of the potential for all that ever was, can ever be. The wheel of time is spinning, spinning, and I turn with it into a stillness as deep as the darkness at the bottom of the sea, where glowing creatures glide through an inky landscape.

The one who separates me from all things has fled, it calls itself the mind, it tries to chain me to its small self and say that it is real and the only thing that is. I love this small self for all is precious to me, but how can I convey the beauty of expanded boundless love to a container held so tight. How can we come into balance so all gifts can come into the light, and illuminate the course of humanity’s plight.

For deep in sadness we are mired, deep in grief and loss and limitation, of greed and short-term goals annihilating truth and beauty in all forms. The treasure lies just below the surface, a smidgen out of reach in the heavens above, it lies within the soul of man, of woman, its key is love, its key is love.

Love is all you need, dance me to the end of love, love in the time of cholera, love me tender, love me true, falling in love again, how deep is your love, I just called to say I love you, she loves me yeah, yeah yeah…………….

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Gabrielle Roth 1941-2012.

‘Our Mama Raven’s wings have lifted her spirit from this lifetime and she is in flight to her next journey, where she will dance in our hearts forever.’

Gabrielle Roth 1941-2012

-Jonathan A Horan, her son, 5 Rhythms Global

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Transitioning Into Myself.

Posted on February 11, 2013 | Leave a comment

The founts of inspiration are flowing once again, the trick is to catch it as it bubbles out, I have been so buggered by my big week I sometimes fail to grasp the ideas as they come. Guess I will simply have to trust that they are still present in my energy field and will offer their gifts in the perfection of divine timing!

The thought that has remained is the notion of transition, I am shifting my reality from having a place to myself to sharing with mum. I’m also integrating my huge shift into becoming the larger me, the one who loves herself and who values the skills and talents that she can contribute to the community. Before too long we will be transitioning from summer into autumn, there are so many different cycles operating like circles within each other. As a woman I travel through my moon cycle every month, a process I treasure deeply, an opportunity to dive into the womb of creation.

The world is going through such changes, the skill of being able to transition with ease and grace is a very important one. We are in the Chinese New Year of the Water Snake and while there are no doubt many aspects to this sign, flexibility is one quality that comes to my mind. Water is also the element that corresponds to emotions, I interpret this as a time to shed the stored emotions that relate to the old patterns we are all letting go of.

Time to wash away the beliefs and values that don’t work, and to usher in the Golden Age of love and co-operation. For me this means focusing on what I love to do, and having the confidence to put myself out there and being prepared to be successful! That may sound a little strange but when you don’t value yourself success is something you tend to avoid, you just don’t think that you’re worth it.

I offer my gifts to the world, as a writer, healer, counsellor, performer, plus all the stuff that is still to come, because there is always more, more joy, more laughter and more love! We live in an infinite universe nestled within the quantum field seething with potential, brimming over with possiblity………one, two, three GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Water Snake in Paris

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On the Brink of the Void.

Posted on December 31, 2012 | 4 comments

The year that we are saying goodbye to has been extremely full on, there have been some huge shifts and changes and I’m not really thinking about the larger world, my focus has been with my inner world and with my immediate community. To me true change is about shifting consciousness and while I do assist people in that area with some of the work that I do, at the end of the day it is something we each have to take personal responsiblity for.

Perhaps that’s why I am heading off to the Woodford Folk Festival on my own to celebrate the eve of the new year, it feels absolutely perfect to be doing it this way, I am looking forward to what may unfold. Something is drawing me there, the pull is very strong and so I am following what some might consider a mad impulse. Most people seem to be more comfortable moving in groups and I have moved more and more into community myself this year, but the siren call of the hermit is still a powerful force within me.

I do need to be in that space on a regular basis in order to be centred and to restore my energy, I have been so busy in my wonderful community that I actually had to pull back a few weeks ago in order to come back to that place of quiet strength that the nourishment of solitude provides for me. A seemingly strange topic for what is considered by many to be the biggest party night of the year and perhaps my new year’s eve will end up being a big party, or maybe I will go home early.

I feel like a blank canvas waiting for inspiration and the not knowing is exciting, the womb of creation, the void from which all things arise, the quantum field that is quivering with possibilities………..

Bring it on……………..whatever may come I do welcome thee as I surrender to the flow of the life force.

Ohm Shanti Ohm.

In the dark and empty spaces of the universe, we find the void.

In the dark and empty spaces of the universe, we find the void.

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