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Dancing And Writing The Fear Out Of My Body!

Posted on November 18, 2015 | 1 comment

chocolateThis strange feeling in my uneasy belly as cravings rush to quench the fear of I know not what. So I follow the urge and I’m very precise in my choices. Then I consume slowly being as mindful as I can be, accepting that my thoughts will wander at times. Being grateful for the fact that I do come back to the fullest perception that I can manage of the moment I am in . Consuming a lot less and feeling a certain level of satisfaction as well as a recognition that as a strategy this isn’t really good for long-term alignment. But I’m not beating myself up, simply observing what is going on in my inner realm. As deeply and openly and honestly as I am able to be.

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And then I danced and wrote, and wrote and danced, I moved………….and energies moved in me. Surrendering to what is true in this moment and being with that sense, whatever it may be. We are spirits having the material experience of being in a body on Mother Earth.

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Dance yourself open, move into the softness of surrender and taste freedom from care. Let it all go……..whatever you may be carrying that feels too heav for you to hold. Feel into where your body is speaking to you through stiffness and pain, give it your full awareness and allow your body to respond. If you let it, it will find a way to move that brings your sore bits back into some flow. It may be quite subtle but if you bring to it the power of awareness it is unmistakable.

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Might have to dance a bit more, Vas is playing and my body wants to move to those lush melodies and the voice hasn’t even come in yet! Talk to you next week my dancing friends, namaste.

Here is the Vas song I can’t resist:

 

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Interesting Times In The Constant Sea Of Change.

Posted on September 23, 2015 | Leave a comment

chinese_crisis_symbolsLife continues to be interesting, not crisis exactly but with that frisson of opportunity and danger. Sometimes a blessing and at times a seeming curse my sensitivity helps me navigate through the energetic currents even as it means feeling more deeply. That might be a bit scary at first especially if you aren’t used to it and even when you let go of the fear you are sometimes left with pure discomfort. Something that can be endured in a spirit of clearing, as strong energies are triggered and then move through my system in a variety of ways. Being sick with the flu for three weeks for example and then as that moves off my bladder issues suddenly flare up. Guess I am still playing host to a colony of resistant E-Coli bacteria, at least I know what to do now and it doesn’t involve antibiotics.

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There are moments when you wonder what it’s all for but luckily there are also many moments when I know exactly what is so good about being alive in this moment of time that I am existing in. I have found a solid foundation of being happy and content in my life even when there are other more difficult energies moving towards transformation. Through the constant sea of change I always have my Beloved, a relationship that is constantly growing and changing and becoming deeper. I call my Beloved my rock even though he is not always stable, neither am I for that matter but when you make cracks it is possible to go deeper. I particularly like the bits where progress and understanding comes through experiencing bliss through pleasure in love.

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Love is the sea I like  to swim in most of all, whether it be in love-making, dance and connecting with other beautiful people. Love is all you need, aho!

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Freedom Through Personal Power!

Posted on July 15, 2015 | Leave a comment

Ecstatic Dance SilhouetteIn my dance with the prospect of bureaucratic nightmares I kept telling myself I would have a really productive day. And my definition of that was that I was happy and content and that the things that truly needed to be done, were done! A lot of being in the moment and in the body with walking and dogs and dancing, lots of it all in just a few days so legs are sore but spirit is nourished. When I dropped in to my body’s desire I knew that I wanted to be free and independent and in my power. To believe in myself and what I want to create in this next phase of my exciting life with my wonderful Beloved. Who knows maybe we will even get back to running a workshop before too long.

Check out this amazing artist Gaia Orion! http://wisewomanmentor.com/art-gallery/1301431

Check out this amazing artist Gaia Orion! http://wisewomanmentor.com/art-gallery/1301431

So I decided to go it alone and put my time and energy and focus as much as possible on to positive activities. They may involve animals or gardens at a house sit or marketing or research for various work projects. We have our new home base and it is just perfect for us, like our own little flat in town that we can drop in to any time. And probably see clients there too so although there is still a lot of change it is all starting to feel like it might be settling down a bit. As much as it ever does in these times of shifting sands!

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There will probably be fears coming up as I move forward into these changing times and it will be a grand opportunity to let go of more of what is in the way of me stepping into my power. That was what my two dances were about, the one my Beloved and I ran and the one I attended that was facilitated by 5Rythms teacher Honor Morningstar. Dance is definitely good medicine for me, I will have to try and get into Brisbane some time for more dancing. Maybe in and out of the city with car pooling might make it a bit easier, hard enough having to go off the hill, in to the city can be a bit too much for us country folk.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

Guess I will keep listening to that inner voice that seems to be taking me in positive directions in my life. Easier to do when you have had a lot of feedback that tells you that your intuition is generally correct. Even I have to start believing in myself when it gets confirmed over and over again.

Aho!

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An Adventurous Life Is A Choice!

Posted on August 31, 2014 | Leave a comment
Noel Gardner: Maleny Music Weekend: http://www.malenymusicweekend.com/

Noel Gardner: Maleny Music Weekend: http://www.malenymusicweekend.com/

Musical vibes filtering through festival haze as the whole shebang is winding down after a lovely gathering has woven its spell. The dancing is done, for now……remembering that moving the body will move energy so that all can flow with ease and grace. And I have a busy week in which I will need to be extremely proactive, how about bringing this lazy chilled way of being to that week of getting things done!

Maleny Music Weekend.

Maleny Music Weekend.

It’s been an adventurous last little bit of time with my Beloved and I, stuff coming up and old feelings kicking around. Luckily we navigate reasonably well by talking a lot, even about difficult feelings when we are ready to. Now he is off for a few days to care for aged parents and we need to get ourselves organised for a run through of our upcoming workshop. With lots of clear communication and the right attitude we can do it all without getting too stressed, I choose to see it as an adventure!

Create your own reality feels very pertinent to me at the moment, I can feel this holographic shape that I’m moving into which is where Cerridwen’s cauldron is making the future. It is the zero point field where all possibilities exist, the quantum soup which is the raw material of what we want to manifest. It is a fluid space where you need to be flexible and always remember the impermanence of all things.

Cerridwen by Catherine Svhela

Cerridwen by Catherine Svhela

If that sounds like hard work you couldn’t be more wrong, with a song on your lips and a skip in your step it’s time to go down the yellow brick road. Time for adventure and time to tell the stories that will create the new age of man if there is indeed to be one, as I do believe that there will be.

Captain Jean-Luc Picard.

Captain Jean-Luc Picard.

As Captain Picard always says, “Make it so!”

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Bigger, Better, Faster……….Slow Down!

Posted on July 16, 2014 | Leave a comment
Rainbow Man at the Enchanted Gathering.

Rainbow Man at the Enchanted Gathering.

Life has been a little bit crazy what with being between two house sits for almost three weeks, ending in the moving haze I referred to in an earlier post and arriving in a house full of Celtic musicians. Then a couple of days at the Enchanted Gathering with lots of magic, frequencies and dancing, freezing cold and fires burning as the Wizard and the Rainbow Man kept crying, “More wood, more wood!”.

The Enchanted Gathering.

The Enchanted Gathering.

So it’s been very busy and quite intense and my Beloved and I have been enjoying the chance to slow down and begin to get to know our new environment which we now have all to ourselves.  I’ve also started reading a new Diana Richardson book, “Slow Sex”, if you’ve read my posts before you might remember me talking about her book “Tantric Orgasm For Women”. I’ve read the introduction and the first chapter and already I’m feeling very inspired, and not just about sex either, the principles she is talking about can be applied to everything that we do.

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In fact her inspiration to write the book came from another writer called Marc David who wrote “The Slow Down Diet”, he is a nutritionist and expert on the psychology of eating. He talks about eight qualities that are an integral part of how we are nourished when we eat and it is less about what we eat and more about the way in which we do it. Awareness and relaxation are two of these qualities and you will hear a lot about these in any book on tantric sex worth it’s salt.

passionate embraceWhen you slow down there is an entire world of sights and flavours and smells to savour, and if you can actually relax you offer your body the opportunity to respond to all of this treasure. Most of the time we have ideas about things, whether it be food or sex, that we try to force upon the body. Then when our experience is less than satisfactory we think that there must be something wrong with us, if we can create that ‘perfect’ body somehow it will all made right.

It is so important to nourish ourselves on all levels of our being, bring the sacred into everything that you do and you are well on the way to true fulfillment on a soul level. And remember that life was meant to be fun!

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Part Two: Enchantment At The Gathering.

Posted on July 9, 2014 | Leave a comment

 

Photo by Antara May.

Photo by Antara May.

Here’s a piece I wrote last year on March 12 after attending a beautiful gathering of sounds and frequencies and bodies moving in a show of laser lights. I’ve dressed it up a bit more, more photos, I’ve come a long way in just over a year. Now it’s time for part two and this time I am journeying with my Beloved, oh what fun!

The Enchantment lasted well into the next day, it was enchanting, enchantfull, enchantress, articulate LOVE through the cells of the BEING. It was a classic kind of Enchantment where you wake up and return to some kind of normality previously agreed upon. It’s a place where dreams come together and we collect them in the Rainbow Pouch.

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It was ENCHANTED at the warehouse, it was Rainbow……….at the warehouse……

Dancing in the Enchanted Faery Caverns of the Deeper Realms the theme was purple, bringing the third eye energy into the ZONE, Aquarian pure intention shifts the frequencies, one tone at a time! One tone at a time, in the Enchanted Warehouse.

Tantric Techno Shamans of the Earth gathered at the Sacred Space and set the tone for the human race, they create harmonics that operate on many different levels, clearing out the pathways physical and energetical. The Faeries came and all the Rainbow came, earth, fire, water, and air, we play in the Enchantment, Enchante, life is good. All the Nature Spirits and Devas are welcome in this forest out of time, no-one is endangered here and nothing is ever truly lost. No-one is invited, and no-one came, seems fair enough to me, the pixies reign and Rainbow Man holds the fabric together, quietly. Misted by pain the wizard snaps with sharp teeth…………….. floating, and holding the energy always, anchoring, being the Gathering.

Dancing, trancing, creating a field of love, going on a trip on that beautiful seascape, it was truly Enchanted, feeling lots of gratitude for the time I’ve had out of time.

Lovely Sonic blissings to you all!

Photo from Koochi Woochi.

Photo from Koochi Woochi.

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Dancing From The Dark Into The Light.

Posted on June 20, 2014 | Leave a comment

Reading through my last post I can feel those energies still moving through me, probably they will get the chance to truly depart in the dance tonight. A bit different for me as my journey will be swinging between the personal and the holding of space, creating a container that we can all fall into as deep as we need to go. I am looking forward to it but I must confess to being a bit nervous too, those old energies are full of doubts and fears and are no doubt fueling the nerves, but actually a touch of nervous energy can help to keep you sharp so not necessarily a bad thing.

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I’d be more than just a little bit nervous if I was doing this on my own, having the chance to collaborate creatively with my Beloved and to share the load makes the whole experience much more fun. This is the first time we have worked together on a project so it is actually one of those landmark events in a personal history, something we will always remember. The way it has come together bodes well for our relationship, neither of us is ‘boss’ and we both feel able to express what we are feeling. As we were putting our playlist together it felt to me as if we both cared more about the final shape of our dance, rather than whether or not we got our favourite songs into the mix.

This was my Beloved’s suggestion, I’d forgotten about this song from Lamb, soooooo good to dance to!!!!! Gorecki, by Lamb:

Just for the record we both got favourite songs into the sonic landscape and by the time we had finished we were both satisfied that we had created a structure to take people down into the darkness to the point of stillness in the centre. Then from that silence we begin to open into the light, beginning slowly and building, the music becoming more and more joyous. I feel like I have been preparing for the Winter Solstice all week with the way energies have been moving through my organic being, preparing for this dance has been a wonderful part of all that.

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Then the actual Solstice the next day and a simple fire ceremony followed by eating, drinking, talking with beautiful people and dancing the night away. A different kind of evening but the same ocean of love, life is very sweet, wish me luck friends………….Namaste and Blissings.

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I Love Me.

Posted on October 14, 2013 | 2 comments

Self-love keeps popping up in my world wherever I go, and what I think of as its opposite, self-judgement, that was the theme of my latest holistic counselling session. It was also the major aspect that presented when we toned on the day of the New Moon in Libra, so it must be relating to a larger energy in our environment that is probably affecting many of us, in various ways. And as more focus goes upon self-love, whatever judgements are still there will often be triggered, they may not be comfortable but if they are on the way out then I suggest you wave them goodbye!

A cloud of gnats.

A cloud of gnats.

My homework from my session is to be kind and tender to me, to Kerry, and to call upon the compassionate cohorts, Michael, Germain, Mary, Aphrodite, and all the ascended masters, and to connect to nature. So I need to immerse myself in the ocean of love within and without and try to enjoy this gorgeous warm weather that we are having here, the gardens are beautiful at the moment, the bush even better. Mother Earth is very kind and she never judges me as I do myself, need to take a leaf out of her book, ha ha…..ha ha……..oh I am silly, in a good way!

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Now I am smiling at myself and that brings a rush of soft warm energy into my body, it feels good to consciously love and appreciate self, noticing how niggling little judgements come up like a flight of gnats, letting them go and feeling the heart expand. I’m remembering  the sounds of the holy names and the soft container that was “Sacred Earth” at the festival last saturday, sitting and receiving the vibration, dancing the frequencies, these are all fabulous ways in which to practice loving yourself.

And you do need to practice, we all do to some extent, depending on where you are in your development, hopefully we are always a work in progress. So maybe take the pressure off yourself in some particular area of your life that is having an impact on your stress levels, and give yourself at least a day every week where you totally please yourself, preferably at least a taste of some kind of indulgence.

It works for me!!

Here is a clip of “Sacred Earth” performing “Divine Mother”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uSV9nqNHPw

And another beautiful song, “Ancient Mother”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yqY3u4b7Zg

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Woe Is Me.

Posted on October 8, 2013 | Leave a comment

Letting go is a theme that crops up in my healing process over and over again, let’s face it, it is a constant in life whether you are particularly focused on your evolution or not. You can go into denial and hold on for dear life but sooner or later there are going to be things going on that you cannot control and so you really do have to surrender, even if you are dragged kicking and screaming all the way!

Kerry Laizans Photo by Antara May.

Kerry Laizans
Photo by Antara May.

I am thinking of my experience last week when I came home from a night out feeling light and happy, finished the night off with some dancing to good music which is always a good recipe for me. I decided that I would write my post for the next day while I was in such a good mood, not such a great move after all but I wasn’t to know. My laptop was not behaving itself and what should have been a quick whip through my emails took forever, it was quite late by the time I finally started to write my post.

And then the magic happened, poetic prose came spilling out of me and I had one of those wonderful journeys where I had no idea where I was going until I got there, and felt awed at the result, possibly one of the best things I have ever written. You’re probably wondering which post this was, well you only got to see half of this seminal piece, the computer was still misbehaving but I ignored my intuition which told me to abandon ship and go back to good old pen and paper.  You know where this is leading don’t you, yes I ended up losing half the post and no matter how I tried, I could not find those words again, they were completely in the moment and my left brain had nothing to do with it so it really couldn’t help me out.

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It was soooooo hard to let go of it, I ended up staying up far too late in a fruitless attempt to somehow change what had happened or to find that magic flow again. And as I lay in bed I had to use every breathing and relaxation trick in the book to get myself to relax, in the end it was breathing in and out through my heart that began to allow me to let go of my tight clutching of what I felt I had lost. And to satisfy your brimming curiosity, it was “Beauty Walks Before Me”: Oct 5 2013, when I completed the post the next day I couldn’t get a good sense of whether it was good or not, it could never match what I had lost!

Anyway, there seem to be a few who liked it and in the end I didn’t have much choice but to let go, it was gone and life goes on……….surrender to what is………..and listen to your intuition.

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The Cathedral Of Sound.

Posted on August 20, 2013 | Leave a comment

Rising from sickness she marshalls her energy and prepares for the ceremony of healing, dressing with great care and attention to detail, her heart begins to soften and open. The scene is set and filled with the laughter of children and unseen sprites, dancing with joy through the sacred space, the sense of community, of belonging, fills her with the energy of love. Friendly faces abound and call out to our heroine, reminding her that she is never ever alone, the Goddess is within her, and in this place is seen and acknowledged.

The bad spirits are fleeing as she drinks the fiery brew that brings her to new levels of sensitivity, that opens up even more of the Goddess within, the hearth fire that lies at the centre of all of us. The energy of the masculine dances around her feeling the strength and delight of her fair form, desiring to connect with her deep femininity. Her softness responds and she enjoys the dance, but then ’tis time for the dance of the soul to begin, the alchemical transformation that will banish the sickness as if it had never been.

Me dancing with orbs! Photo by Antara May.

Me dancing with orbs!
Photo by Antara May.

Whirling and swirling, her body moves in a continuous flow as she becomes a channel for the energy of the sound, angel orbs play in the frequencies as she sends the light up through her crown. Ecstatic spaces within and without as the movement transmutes and transforms, the magicians holding the space in this cathedral finding ever more transcendent levels of prayer. The Goddess fills our heroine with her energy until the two are indistinguishable, the mystery is complete and somewhere in the levels of existence a candle is lit.

The Earth smiles…………..and so do I, for she is me and I am her, the heroine is my story, and I choose to be the Goddess in myself, in all things. Praise the Goddess for she is healed!

Here is a youtube clip of the magicians of sound who created the space for us to move in ecstasy through, Hayden Hack Infusion:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quPMnNXEf4g

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