As I sit here I would love to say that my burning issue has passed as I move beyond the big party and public acknowledgement of becoming 50 years old. There is some relief involved but the deep letting go that has been going on for the last three months continues so I am keeping on with the colloidal silver. But I am sure that being present with my feelings is the best way to heal all of this, on my own and with my Beloved. I do try not to ignore the physical but surely any condition present in the body has an energetic source, which if treated, will dissolve the physical symptoms.
Very soon I will be in a new house sit and there will be time and space for my Beloved and I to bring a strong intention to our loving, for the healing to flow and energy be made available to heal the disharmonious frequency. And perhaps some reiki and massage or toning perhaps, a dance or a breath session even and a bit of random yoga, the possibilities contained within the quantum soup are bottomless. I am determined to heal myself, my intuition says stay away from doctors so if I do feel that professional help would be useful I will be going to see a friend who is alternative and who I trust.
In the meantime I am sitting with this and doing my best to allow the energies to keep moving through me, I’m doing a lot of farting and it isn’t because of lentils this time! Feels like it is a part of what is moving through, very visceral, torture, blood, sweat and tears…………….not surprising that it doesn’t feel very comfortable as it is moving out after a long stay.
Farewell dark energies, go back into the field and be transformed as I let go of my fear and step into the light of my own magnificence! Hooray!!!!!
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The story continues, I am getting very strong physical symptoms that have emerged out of the energies that have been moving through me. They are dark and painful and that is the feeling as my bladder feels like to burst, I am sitting with the feelings and letting them move, also doing spontaneous healing visualisations. Of course I am supposed to be going to see a doctor but I am hoping to avoid that strategy, knocking this out with antibiotics won’t do anything to address the energetic source of the complaint.
The stuff I am letting go of is all about sexual energy, aspects of that force that have been warped and morphed into something that interferes with connection to source, to the bottomless sea of bliss. Somehow I am keeping that silver cord attached even as I feel the intensity and pressure in my bladder, it is a bit like being in two realities at once. I have a friend who has often described me as living on the edge and she is rather accurate I think, this is not fun at all but I am stubborn so am hanging in there and giving my body a chance to heal itself.
Makes focusing on a post a bit difficult but it is also quite useful to put my thoughts into writing, once again the act of putting words to paper helps me to move things along. When I’m done with this post I will have to do some serious focusing on getting the healing done, time to truly let go of that which has held my life-force energy back from its full expression. And on the other side of that story is a new chapter in my life which almost feels like starting all over again, but with a lot more wisdom and knowledge than the first time.
Bringing conscious awareness to everything can make the passage through life easier to navigate, just as a sailor is attuned to the moods of the sea, we can tune into our own and the planet’s flow. Bring it all into harmony and true alignment, this is what I must do………..I will let you know how I get along!