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A Pain In The Kidneys Slows Me Down.

too sweetWell I did everything that was on the schedule and reached a point where I could no longer stay with the pain and the discomfort that has been slowly growing worse. So I went to see my friend who gave me a herbal tonic and marshmallow powder, also a medicinal tea and the guidance to avoid alcohol and sugar. Been having a bit more sugar than is good for me although still nothing approaching my old habits, time to swing back to a place of not requiring so much sweetness. At least not in my food anyway.

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Forgive my barely supported visual segue into the realm of the faeries, after my Lord of the Rings themed party and the pleasure of having pointy ears for a night, I may be a little obsessed……….but now back to the story.

My friend confirmed that I had a fairly severe bladder infection and that we needed to hit it hard with the herbs, three times a day. I tried to do my overnight shift but severe pain in my back and probably kidneys sent me home a couple of hours early. Now I have had a day doing nothing much with everything I meant to do cancelled, just eating from the fridge, can’t face shopping. The things a body has to do to get a girl to slow down!

darth vaderOf course that isn’t the whole story, dark forces have been on the move and there is a bit of carnage left, like on the Death card, representing endings. It’s a mopping up operation now and the more efficient I am in this process the lighter I will be, able to manoeuver in a new life that remains complicated while incredibly simple. Yes I know that’s a contradiction but both are true, essentially I am very happy but right in this very moment I have absolutely no energy, at least not in my body.

My mind and spirit are moving and bringing these words to you, I hope they are of some use as I really do get a lot out of putting my thoughts out into the world. Being witnessed is a very powerful exchange, thank you to those who follow my posts, your likes and comments are much appreciated.

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Trusting What I Know.

I’ve had a very interesting weekend, on the friday night I sat overnight in a medicine circle and went on the most amazing and wondrous journey in a beautiful sacred space with some very special souls. I saw that I am very much on my spiritual path and the message came through very strongly that I can truly trust my inner knowing. It has always been a strong guide for me in my life but these days I am so much clearer, there really isn’t any doubt of what it is telling me.

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I ignored it earlier in the year when I fell in love with someone who ‘appeared’ to be a good match, but that turned out to be a necessary self-delusion so that old relationship patterns could be cleared. It opened my heart to the possibility of love once again, and that in itself would have been enough reason to go on the path that I did. It also gave me some very direct experience with ‘dark forces’ and I had to work very precisely and very consciously to give myself and others protection from some very powerful psychic energies (All The Freaky People: 2/7/13 and Not So Crazy: 3/7/13).

So there can be a case for being counter intuitive, just as long as you do wake up at some stage after the necessary work has been done (Farewell My Love: 12/6/13). I wrote this poem not long after meeting this person so you can see that I did indeed know that it wasn’t really going anywhere, indeed I consider that I had a lucky escape!

The Signpost.

I have known thee before,

a long time for evermore,

we have partnered in the dance

and we have loved.

I knew you then, and then, and then,

but for us the dance has changed,

we come together now as friends

and for me you show the way,

to open unto all that I BE,

as the New Age doth unfold,

you open the door and I walk through

my true love to behold.

Copyright Kerry Laizans February 2013.

For the rest of my tale tune into the next post, until then farewell my friends!