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Flying Into The Mystery, As I Fall Apart!

falling apartI was getting ready to go and visit a friend in hospital yesterday and as I put my bag on my shoulder I felt a sudden and sharp pain in my right neck and shoulder. A few gentle stretches and I was on my way but I could feel the soreness in my body and this gradually got worse as the day went on, felt like I was falling apart! I began to notice other aches in my body and realised that my second yoga class for the year (yes I did finally make it!) had really had quite an impact.

There is the obvious fact that if you are not stretching so often the muscles are going to end up a bit sore when you actually do get to it, but as always I tend to contemplate a bigger picture when I consider physical manifestations such as aches and pains. Love making is a place where a lot of my therapy happens these days, it can be enormously helpful in moving energies that are active in the body and so assist in clearing out old patterns. So there was quite a lot coming up for me and at one point I could ‘see’ this black shape in my neck, it was a rough black shape a bit like an infinity symbol.

Masculine Feminine SpiritForce

It seemed to dissolve with the movement of energy so I think it was released but it will probably be something I will check on when I am on my medicine journey tonight. My intention will revolve around physical healing as that is what is coming up strongly for me at the moment, the bladder is still behaving itself at present but I when I tune in I can feel that it is still not in an optimum state of health. My experience on journeys is that my intention is always addressed but often I get a much bigger and broader picture so it will be interesting to see what comes up.

spiritual mystery

I feel very ‘open’ which is a great space to be in when going into the mystery, the trick is to state your intention and then to let it go and surrender to the process. What a fortunate life I do lead where I have the opportunity to go on grand adventures into my inner realms, with beautiful facilitators who hold a deep and respectful space that I can dive into, carried on the wings of trust.

Fly, fly high, let the earth touch the sky………………an inspirational song from the fabulous Deva Premal and Miten, enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKYgA2JaufY

 

 

 

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Abandoned In The Darkness I Open To The Light.

light-in-the-darknessA new chapter is often fraught with risks and uncertainties as well as great treasures and rewards, this is very much the case for me at the moment as I navigate my way through this time of birthday celebrations. It began with a couple of big journeys as I sat in my medicine circle over two nights, there was a lot of energy moving and it wasn’t very comfortable, downright tortuous if you must know, but worth it for the light streaming out at the end of the tunnel. I was very aware as I was in the darkness that my willingness to face that part of myself would ultimately help me to sink deeper into the ocean of bliss that is available to us all!

sunset water

The story continues as I encounter old feelings of rejection and abandonment, my beautiful lover had to leave my bed to get some sleep as I snored in his ear and that triggered all of that old stuff even as I knew that he had not really left me at all. But when the feelings are moving through and telling me that I’ve lost my Beloved, that he’s angry or pissed off with me, it is very hard for the rational part of me to have any impact in what’s going on in my inner world. Luckily my Beloved and I are not afraid to talk about these things, we share with each other openly and honestly everything that is happening inside. It’s scary sometimes to be so open and vulnerable to another human being, but the more that we do it the deeper we dive into an intimacy that goes beyond anything that I have experienced in my life so far.

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Feeling emotionally drained but at the same time so very grateful for this incredible relationship that is helping me to let go of so much that was not supporting me in my life. I finally feel safe enough to go to places that were too frightening to visit without someone to hold my hand, to hold space as I navigate my path from the darkness to the light.

Thank you Beloved, you mean the world to me, and my world is a much brighter place for having you in it!

And the song that sums it up for me from Deva Premal and Miten, “Till I was  loved by you”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZL8m_wj1li8

May All Beings Be Happy And Free.

Ok, I’m going to go out on a limb now and say that I really, truly think that I’m through the worst of this latest upheaval, phew……….what a ride it’s been! Doesn’t mean that there won’t be challenges ahead, I just want a break from emotional pain, go back to my theme of kicking my heels up and having fun. I’m setting a clear intention to stop being the human yo-yo, expanding, contracting, expanding, contracting………from the heights of ecstasy to the pits of despair.

As I write these words I can feel my heart stirring softly, like the petals of a flower preparing to open to the sun’s bright rays of gleaming light, I am a lotus flower ready to bloom in all its fullness. That full heart is spilling over and all my cells gradually begin to be infused with its gentle radiance, suspended as if I were levitating, this dense physicality lightening with a sense of soul, of spirit and love. Breathing in and out through my heart, I fall into the rhythm of the beat that is life, that is blood rushing from organ to organ, bringing nourishment to the magnificent co-operative that is the human body.

Lotus Flower.

Lotus Flower.

We are such miracles each and every one of us, connected to the greater mysteries that underly the tangible reality that we can see and touch. Each of us is an antenna with our feet on the earth, and our intuition reaching out into the cosmos, capable of tuning into whatever we may choose, be it a beetle on the rainforest floor, or a comet on its fiery path. Once again it comes back to choice, what do you want to have more of in your life, what makes your heart sing with joy and delight? I have a few things that do that for me, but what I am doing in this very moment, writing about life and death and everything in between, that’s what really takes me into pure happiness.

Your heart will show you the way, be soft and kind with yourself, learn to be loving to you, know that you deserve to be happy and to be free. There’s a Sanskrit chant that embodies this message, lokah samasta, it means, “May all beings be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words and actions of my own life contribute in some way to this happiness, and to this freedom for all.” Here is a beautiful version of this from Deva Premal and Miten:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usJl7oiZPnc