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The World Is Ending.

I am feeling an enormous sense of completion, things are coming to an end, some things may come back but nothing will ever be the same again, this is a good thing. They do say that change is the only constant, but we generally have big internal structures that will determine how we respond to change, or react. Sometimes we resist change and even that is not automatically a bad thing, it might be divine redirection taking you on a different path, or perhaps introducing a note of caution.

But there are times when those big constructs of values, beliefs and ideas, need to be challenged and that which is no longer useful, can be let go of. In the Tarot the card of The Tower symbolises this aspect of development, likely you will visit this space more than once in a lifetime if you are growing and evolving through your life. For me there has been a lot of movement in the area of ego, more in the egotistical view of myself as lesser, which is just as silly as having an over-inflated opinion of oneself. Resting in a true appreciation of whatever your gifts are, expressing your life force in whatever is the right way for you in the moment that you are in, sounds much more appealing doesn’t it.

The World.

The World.

So the question to explore then is what kind of ending do we have here, it feels very balanced so it might be the card of The World where the ending is very complete, not much unfinished business if any. That’s something I will sit with, if there is anything unresolved I need to attend to it so there is nothing barring the way for a new beginning to unfold!

Bring it on my compassionate cohorts, Michael, Germain, Aphrodite and Mary, and all the Heavenly Hordes!!

This is a kind of end of the world song from the late 80’s from “World Party”, it’s called “Ship of Fools”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHh0V7UjVXI

And here is the song that tells you what to do about it, “Private Revolution”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaYcJQej5Uw

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Opening To The Divine.

So what the hell is attraction anyway, a strong energy felt between two people that draws them together, unmet needs searching for a home where they can feel safe? Or could it be a sense of purpose, of having something important to do in the world with that other person. I would say all of the above and probably a whole lot more that I haven’t mentioned, possibly as many definitions as there are people, we are a complex lot! And of course without all that chemistry we wouldn’t keep having babies, so I guess it is something that is hard-wired into our DNA.

There have been a million songs written about attraction in all its various forms and love usually gets a mention, but do the two things automatically go together? Of course not! When they are both present there is a depth to the feelings that sheer physical magnetism can never really manage, however delicious it might seem in the moment. I am rediscovering the pleasures of attraction as I go through a big transition into my new life, but I have also felt the confusion that can come up. Since I began this particular journey there has been a lot of stuff coming up that harks from my teenage years when my sexuality was trying to flourish in the midst of confusion, despair, and eventually my father’s suicide.

Strong energies do tend to bring up stuff and if you aren’t conscious of the process it can be terribly easy to project what you’re feeling on to the other person. On the other hand, choose a conscious pathway as you relate to the world around you and you can become even clearer as you go along your merry way. That has been my experience over this last week, although the relationship that really stirred things up for me this week was not so much a person, it was Mother Earth.

Now that is a strong energy indeed, I lay on the earth and I merged into her until there was no longer any me, no longer any separation between me and anything else. The energy ripped through newly awakened energetic pathways and it was a wonderful opening, a kind of initiation. To be with the Mother is to experience love on an immense scale and that’s what I want in a relationship, to open to God, Goddess, All That Is…………….

My Relationship Altar.

My Relationship Altar.

So as I enjoy the dance of attraction I will remain mindful of my intention for any potential connection with a man, David Deida puts it very well indeed.

“Find a woman who you can open to God farther than she is opening herself. Find a woman who wants to join you in relationship in that commitment. Then practice together opening each other to God, to infinity. The relationship is a conscious choice, a commitment. It doesn’t just happen.”

From “The Love That Washes Through Patterns,” a talk by David Deida

Here’s a video from a talk by David Deida, love the bit where he talks about a woman wanting to be ravished open to God!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IZrkMZyEWY

Spirit In The Country.

One of my themes or lessons at the moment is to do with making choices about whether to stress when I feel like I am under pressure. My observer, who I talked about in my last post, steps back and sees that getting anxious about what needs to be done is only one option amongst many. When I feel into my body for the location of the stress, I find it in my belly, a feeling of insecurity. Then I think about what it is that has to be achieved and consciously make the choice to trust that it will all happen beautifully. When I do this there is a clear shift in my belly, a sense of letting go and release, leaving behind joy and peace.

Of course there are times when you truly do need to be doing less, find your balance and answer the call of spirit from a hearted place, so that you may flourish even as you do serve. My recent week in bed tells me that I probably do need to do a bit less, tricky when I love pretty much everything that I do. But I do know what I have to do, find a market for the kind of writing I like to do, the Carrie Bradshaw of the Spiritual Realms, instead of “Sex and the City”, “Spirit in the Country”.

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But it won’t be just about relationships, boy and girl stuff, this is the realm of the Spirit and all subjects are up for grabs, there isn’t anything that isn’t grist for the mill. The deeper levels of consciousness are certainly what invite me to explore within, but if you look at images from space and think about the distances out there it is clear that we have barely scraped the surface as far as space exploration goes. And just having astronauts going to the moon and sending back pictures of the earth, changed the consciousness of humanity, what will a journey to the Milky Way do to our perceptions of self and the world. What will contact with other intelligent life out there do to our sense of who we are, the future is an exciting place to be heading towards.

Deep-Space

So I choose to be excited and confident that everything is going to work out perfectly in divine timing, that means action too of course, it also means lateral thinking to fit everything in. And there is also a need to be very quiet, still longing for that real stillness that you have out in the bush, remembering to breathe in love and to exhale gratitude.

Peace.

Divine Love.

I had a day recently when I felt great compassion for someone who I have very mixed feelings towards, there is a deep connection but to open my heart fully would be not only foolish, but actually dangerous. Sounds a bit dramatic doesn’t it, but I am not exaggerating here, I told the story of being attacked on a psychic level in an earlier post (All The Freaky People: 2 July 2013), it was very frightening and I was sick for four days. I definitely don’t want to go through that experience again, once was more than enough.

So it was a challenge to walk the fine line between compassion and protection, it brought up a lot of fear for me but I managed to navigate my way through, I stayed in my heart but kept my boundaries firm and clear. It wasn’t until the next day I read what the message of the HeartFire Gateway had been for that day (The HeartFire Gateway: 14 Aug 2013), it was all about honouring the Divine Self and asked the question, how will you BE LOVE today. I smiled, because the answer to that question was so very clear, to love our dear friends is the easiest thing in the world, but to love one who has done you harm is much more difficult.

Ma Durga: The Divine Mother.

Ma Durga: The Divine Mother.

Kabir said: “Do what you do with another human being, but never put them out of your heart”, to BE LOVE is to be your essential self, it is who we all are underneath all the stuff. When we are in our hearts we are in our divinity, we are present to life and its infinite possibilities.

This beautiful song from Donna De Lory captures the essence of this feeling of being love, it is about the Divine Mother, an exquisite combination of sacred chanting and pop music, enjoy and feel into your heart!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czSephKaMag

And just for a bit of fun here is another kind of love from the Divinyls, sexy sensual Chrissy Amphlett singing about how she touches herself, what a siren!

Chrissy Amphlett.

Chrissy Amphlett.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wv-34w8kGPM

To The Depths!

A sense of lassitude, bed is a good idea but oh how much nicer to flow with the energy and enjoy the feeling of being nurtured and  of self-worth that is moving through the cells of my body. The intelligence and heart of Leonard Cohen singing incisive and profound words, so very like real life told with such sensitivity and warmth. I am somewhat disenchanted with ego at the moment, it can be charming and fun but do you really want that kind of energy around too often, aren’t we supposed to surround ourselves with the kinds of people who reflect back to us our unlimited self. A control freak who cannot let go, struggles with spontaneity, is only amusing up to a point, however “conscious” the language or terminology you are always going to be swimming in shallow waters.

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I want to sink to the depths with all the wonders there to behold, to dance in and out of unity awareness, tantric sensibility, sensitivity to the whole picture, falling into old patterns to activate and to release……….letting go in love. Dreaming up the vision of connection to a beloved as a part of spiritual practice, where your relationship brings you closer to the Divine, why be there otherwise. Having that energy upon land that resonates with my being, that speaks to me in a tongue that nourishes and supports me as only the Mother can do, oh Durga, may I receive that which will bring me closer to you.

Love

Continuing to keep a shimmering barrier around me at all times, it allows in only that which is of a high vibration and which will serve the highest good of me and of all life everywhere, that which is of a low vibration and which will not serve me may not enter. At night I add a mirrored surface to the outside of the bubble, anything that will not serve me is reflected back to whence it came. I’ve never had to be this disciplined before but it feels necessary to do so at this time, I am hearing a lot about people feeling the need for protection from various types of unseen forces, or of those who are overshadowed by entities or dark energies. I think things are hotting up, if you are a sensitive it could get particularly interesting, and if you think of it as an adventure it has the potential to be a lot of fun!

Deep_Sea_Serpentradiantgoddess

Here is a beautiful video clip of one of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs, Dance me to the end of love:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGorjBVag0I&list=PL3145B4789B3C8243&index=5

Good And Sweet.

I’ve had a period of relative calm for once in my life, not much ‘stuff’ coming up at all, being a bit indulgent with myself and that feels good too. When I come back into my practices that will also feel very good, I think it’s important not to ever be rigid with anything that we do, even the good habits can afford a holiday sometimes. All this making food for people is leading me back into sugar and grain at times, special occasions that have been happening all too often lately, having broken my lifelong sugar addiction I’m most reluctant  to go back into that space.

caramel apple pie By crazyrawvegan

caramel apple pie
By crazyrawvegan

So I need to think about how to manage the craving for sweets that is making a return appearance this week, pretty simple really, be strict with my diet whenever I’m not in entertaining mode. And in the long-term I want to come up with more sweet foods that I can easily make that are actually good for me, seems like palm sugar might be a good thing to find out more about. Raw cake and raw chocolate can be utterly delicious and super good for you, one of my dinner guests brought raw chocolate that she made herself, it was divine and sounded very easy to make.

Another couple of weeks of entertaining to get through without becoming the size of  a house, like when Alice drank the bottle marked ‘drink me’ and grew and grew and grew! Maybe I should try to stir up some more stuff, that uneasy belly makes for an excellent appetite suppressant! Only kidding, only kidding……..I’m sure there is shedding in my future without my having to go trying to dig anything up, that’s life after all, receiving and letting go, receiving and letting go…………….breathing in and breathing out…………bless………..

Phoenix Rising.

A tender spiral invites me to swirl down and down into my soft sweet centre, there are no thoughts there, simply a warm acceptance of my beingness. I flow with the current, as the moon tugs at my innermost parts and asks me to sink into those depths, to let go of surface attachment and to be………… I pause in the midst of madness, and my blood chooses that moment of divine timing to release, carrying sadness, grief and anger, a river of loss and abandonment returning to the source from which it came………….. and being transformed.

Quantum Fractal Energy Mandala: On Facebook.

Quantum Fractal Energy Mandala: On Facebook.

Nothing is ever truly lost, not love nor beauty, for where could it go? In deepest grief this knowing may take a very long time to be truly accepted and integrated. Though we may distract ourselves and pretend that our world is complete, there is always this yawning abyss waiting to engulf us, we fear that it will take us and we may never find our way home again. And yet home is where we’ve always been!

To gradually peel away the layers of self, the false images we created for protection, that became an armour that seemed unbreakable. With each release another distraction loses its charm, and we can begin to become more present with what is actually before us, the truth of the beauty of what our present moment contains. Surely this is worth the trials of sitting with discomfort, with pain and a sense of emptiness that sometimes seems unbearable, for the light at the end of the tunnel may seem far away, but that it is there is certain.

My long dark night of the soul is far behind me, but I would go there again in a moment if that was what the journey required, the blessings that have come to me in its wake are too many to be counted. From the ashes of my pain I am reborn, and the world is a beautiful place………………

The Prayer of Light

Love before me Love behind me Love at my left Love at my right Love above me Love below me Love unto me Love in my surroundings Love to all Love to the Universe

Peace before me Peace behind me Peace at my left Peace at my right Peace above me Peace below me Peace unto me Peace in my surroundings Peace to all Peace to the Universe

Light before me Light behind me Light at my left Light at my right Light above me Light below me Light unto me Light in my surroundings Light to all Light to the Universe