What a long way I’ve come in twenty years of exploring strange new inner frontiers, not that I can’t be taken aback or frightened, but I take my courage in both hands and learn how to navigate! I had an example of this tonight when that dark energy had another go at infiltrating my space, it’s very subtle, I start to get negative thoughts that if followed, could spiral me down into dark chasms. I know it wasn’t me, because as soon as I realised what was going on I did my protection, and those thoughts disappeared instantly. It’s a very empowering place to be, and rather satisfying when I think of the frustration that must be on the other end of that energy, I know I’m supposed to be above all that but you know what, I’m happy be imperfect in this instance, it feels GREAT!
I guess I am still angry about what happened to me and it is ok to be angry sometimes, just as long as you keep that person in your heart. I used to think that anger was a ‘bad’ emotion, but as a response to behaviour that is out of integrity it is quite reasonable and in fact it helps to give you back bone. I had a lot of trouble standing up for myself before I began to access and allow that anger to come up, it can still be a challenge sometimes but its like anything, the more that you do it the better you get! So I always try to remember to have gratitude for those who help me to strengthen my back bone.
This video gives a very clear explanation about the difference between good and bad anger, my mother had a violent drunken father and she came out of that thinking that anger was not a useful feeling. So anger was not ok in my family and it has been a long journey to learn how to express that particular feeling, I’m not complaining by the way, there have been lots of interesting lessons on the way and I am much wiser and more empathic for it.
Words and thoughts concerning compassionate action that are not put into practice are like beautiful flowers that are colourful but have no fragrance.
Thich Nhat Hanh.
If you are interested in manifesting new opportunities in your life the process of visioning is most important, as is the letting go of anything that might get in the way of that vision. But unless you take whatever the appropriate action is to carry that forward into your living experience, it remains a glimpse into the raw field of quantum potential.
Find your practice, your method, and let your enthusiasm create a discipline that through repetition gives birth to new sensitivities and understandings. To truly go all the way with your method you must allow yourself to be seduced, this is when obsession becomes your ally, along with whatever symbols are significant for you in your journey. But at some point there needs to be a letting go or breaking down of your method or practice, remain rigid and you will begin to lose the insights and be doing it for its own sake. A bit like the self-sustaining beaurocracy that has forgotten that it is in service to the community, and is lost in the ego filled sea, or cloud of unknowing.
So I am interested in manifesting my soulmate or partner, just by shifting my frequency I can begin to become an attractor, but if I stay at home no-one will see me. Of course the whole being an attractor is quite subtle, the thing is to be out enjoying one’s life, notice what is coming into your orbit and from this raw material allow the new beginning to manifest. I’m having lots of fun and lots of connections with nice men, and no pressure to do anything other than be myself in the process, feels very empowering.
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