Held in the light of love I long to drown in that sweet ocean, to let go of everyday cares and to simply be the hunger that rises in me like the legendary serpent nestling at the base of my spine. Energy moves in answer to my thoughts and sensation sings through this physical creation as pure bliss releases the old patterns, blinding white light scours out the ancient scars that feed upon current circumstance. Intense pleasure shatters the dark structures that have held such fear and misery, until only the light remains, a rebirth into new life as the phoenix rises from the ashes in all her glory!
Follow your bliss was a thought that once was so alien even as I knew the truth of it, like a stubborn fool I stuck to the path of the heart even as my very foundations were ripped out and set on fire. The fool that I was understood that to let go of all the stuff that did not hold me dear would not be possible without first tearing down the tower of old beliefs. The demolition crew with their triggers and jack hammers came marching in wearing the faces of those I have loved, those that I have feared, the teachers that were obstacles on my road, paving the way to enlightenment and joy.
But to enter into that ecstatic place I first had to sit with that which gave rise to pain, to doubts and fears, the guilt that ate away my sense of self until only a shell remained. And a strongly burning heart space that knew its own divinity even as it became lost in the dust of the construction site, don’t forget to wear your hard hat, you never know what’s going to drop out of the sky! Dropping the old stories along with the armour the rebuilding can begin, and here patience has been much-needed as one piece after another is carefully fitted together.
At last I am whole! More or less, more than enough to be getting on with and best of all, willing and able to receive the maximum amount of pleasure that this body can handle. And it can handle quite a bit, if you are ever in the space of not surrendering to absolute pleasure in a safe environment you might want to look at what the sensation is bringing up for you. Yet another golden opportunity to let go of stuff you don’t need, and with bliss leading the way the future can only be bright and sunny!
Enjoy this beautiful love song, my current favourite from Deva Premal and Miten: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZL8m_wj1li8