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The Journey Into Pleasure In All Things.

Lookout in the rain 2It feels a bit like I am sitting in a poem with each stage like a stanza telling the tale of water moving over the land. Looking out upon the Glasshouse Mountains  in the distance I watch the grey veil approaching as the mood shifts from warm sunlight to a touch of chill, back and forth. The rain which has been foretelling it’s coming in random stray drops finally begins to fall in a steady pattern as the sun shines through the sheets of water. It’s heavy for a time and I turn on the car’s engine and switch on the windscreen wipers, watching the motion back and forth and resting in the vibrating embrace of my metal steed.

Lookout after the rain

The water continues it’s journey over the land and so it passes me, ahead the veil is gone and sunshine and shadow outline the sweeping greens of the landscape, the odd and compelling shapes of those mountains. The wind is whistling and swirling as I watch a tree with a spiky afro that describes a subtle and yet extravagant dance.

Lookout afro tree

Even though my feet do not literally touch the earth I feel her, the feminine energy of this land is strong and many strong women are drawn to this place. But she is there for all so please call on her for the support you need, wherever you may be she will be present, no matter how subtle she is always here. After all, where could she go? Gaia is the universal intelligence that holds together what we know as our existence on this earthly plane. She is wise and if we allow her to do so, she is very good at keeping a balance between all the different realms.

As I sit here the sun has become strong again, shining its glory upon my neck and shoulder, flooding my cells with strength and determination. I’ve got a good feeling about what I am co-creating with my Beloved, Apollo fills me with optimism and hope, and my intuition whispers to me to do this, and do that.

lookout after the rain 2

Challenges will always come along but they can be instruments of diversion, taking us to places we might never have gone otherwise. And also providing more opportunity to feel pleasure as I release more and more of the holdings that couldn’t let me feel it all. And that isn’t just about sex you know, it can be in sitting in nature and connecting with the land you are on. The more deeply you are able to ‘see’ into things, the more pleasure you can feel. Why wouldn’t you want to take that journey!

Oh and by the way, all the photos are by me this time!

Life Is The Practice.

‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!


I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.

My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am………………..  I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.

Love and blissings…………

This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.

Scorpio Moon Rising.

I don’t know a lot about astrology but I do know what I feel, and the Scorpio full moon we had last week was incredibly intense! My moon is in Scorpio so that probably increased the intensity, deep feelings of loss and sadness came up leading up to the full moon, then I had three days of a very uneasy belly. It wasn’t emotional and there wasn’t any story attached to the feelings, it was energy swirling around, and every now and then I would feel some of it move through my body like a flock of butterflies, that shimmered through and then out my crown chakra.

Sexy Scorpio Moon.

Sexy Scorpio Moon.

I like it when stuff moves without me needing to know what the story is, there is a lot less temptation to hang on to the energy when the feelings are not luring you in with their siren song. Nellie Needy is ready to jump on anything that will confirm her world view that she just isn’t enough, Fay Fairytale will start to build castles in the air with absolutely no foundations at the drop of a hat! And Judge Judy takes me to task for all the things I haven’t achieved in my life so far, telling me that I’m a failure and that I need to pull up my socks and get a life!

Well I have a life as it happens, a truly wonderful and magical existence that keeps expanding into more and more happiness and joy. When you move through the shadowy corridors everything becomes edged with doom, kind of like those old horror films where the gore and violence is only ever suggested, and yet is all the more powerful for not being so obvious. I may not have had so much in the way of difficult emotions to deal with in this last lot, but I managed to stress over a whole lot of other things coming up in the next week or two, about which I am now perfectly serene.


As always, there are choices to be made and I choose to flow through my life with ease and grace, may my Scorpio moon bring me the intensity of passion and obsession about the things that will do me the most good!