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A Psychic Reading With Kerry.

brain intention energyI generally begin a reading with the question, “Is there anything particular you would like to focus on? Some folks have very specific questions they want answered while others may simply be looking for a little direction or guidance. Curiosity or a sense that having a reading might be a good idea can also draw people to seek me out. If they don’t have a specific issue or question then I often say to them to, “Hold the question ‘what do I need to know'” in their mind’s eye, as they handle the cards. So having some kind of intention is a very good place to start, it’s something that is helpful in any process where you are exploring the inner realms.

tarot rider waite fan

The next step is for me to open myself up to spirit as I ask for how many cards are required in the spread. Then when they have been chosen I lay them out intuitively, the pattern is rarely exactly the same. If I am doing a reading online or by phone I am a little less formal with the cards and will often pull them out as I go, whichever the medium the message is the same. The cards are a focus  but what you get is much more than simply an explanation of the meaning of a particular card. The same card can turn up in different people’s readings and even though it has a certain ‘feel’ to it, what I say to each person may be quite different. I don’t ‘think’ about it with my mind, I allow my intuitive self to open and allow the information to come rolling in. It is a capacity that we all have but like anything the more that you practice it the better you get.

psychic ability

From this point the reading will take shape according to many factors, in a way each reading I do has its own life and shape. I may do most or all of the talking, or my client may have lots of questions about what is coming up. Even if I am doing most of the talking it is very much an interactive process with a deeper exchange occurring  below the surface level of words and the conscious mind. You can ask as many questions as you like, more and more I find strong and clear responses coming through and if there is any uncertainty about which way something might go that is usually clear as well. I always try to be as honest as I can about what I am saying, if it looks tough then I do call a spade a spade!

We are all connected by energy in a quantum universe.

We are all connected by energy in a quantum universe.

I’ve also done quite a few readings for couples, some newly weds and they always seem quite delighted with the process. Luckily I didn’t see any break ups for any of those couples, but if it was there I would find a way to convey the message. Even the challenges in my readings can be seen as opportunities to expand and grow, sometimes letting go can be a part of that. We might indeed need to consider ending a relationship or friendship, sometimes we are letting go of our own limiting beliefs. I am reminded of the chinese character for crisis, there are two symbols, one means danger and the other opportunity.

chinese_crisis_symbols

Photo by Steve Swayne.

Photo by Steve Swayne.

So if you are a seeker looking for guidance on your path, if you are simply curious, go to the contact page and either send me an email or a text with details of how you would like to connect with me for a reading.

 

Letting Go Of Who You Think You Are.

spiritual loveDiving into the space of eternity I fall into the softest state of being, letting go of the things that are supposed to be who I am in the world. Following the path of the heart, letting go of who I think I am, this has been a major part of my journey into relationship as a spiritual practice.

Not that you have to be in a romantic relationship in order to let go of the ego’s assumptions, I’ve been following this particular path for what feels like a very long time. Just reflect for a moment, how much of your sense of identity comes from what other people have told you over the years? Parents, teachers and institutions, images in a culture that screams out youth, money and status! Even those who appear to embody all of these desirable traits, will often secretly feel unworthy. I can think of at least one drop dead gorgeous young woman I know who constantly surprises me when she seems unable to see her own beauty.

It’s such a relief to let go of all of that weight of expectation, to drop into the stillness of expectancy, quivering on the edge of the unknown. But to get to that place you need to be prepared for being uncomfortable at times, breaking old patterns requires focus, determination, and a certain amount of bloody mindedness.

heart leaves

It can also be fun and I am very excited to be bringing my awareness to ways in which I can support people in doing this for themselves. My Beloved and I have been accepted to run a workshop at the next “Joining Gathering” in September, it’s called “The Path of the Heart: Letting go of who you think you are”. (http://www.thejoining.com.au/) So far we make a good team, in the bedroom, the kitchen, in tasks around the house and on the dance floor, this is our opportunity to take that energy out into the wider community.

The adventure continues and my own path of the heart shines out like the glorious sun on a crisp autumn morning.

“Until further notice celebrate everything!” (St Germain through Azena Ramanda)

Focusing The Positive.

Life is good, of that I have not the slightest doubt, in the very heart and soul of my being I know that the corner has been turned, that I am on the homeward lap and it isn’t actually possible to stray off the path, for where else could I possibly be! Yet my day has been a journey through many different emotional landscapes, when you are challenging the very bedrock of your foundations there tends to be a response from the aspects of self that are terrified of dying.

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The kind of environment you inhabit is very important at times like this, I connect as much as I can with others who have a positive outlook on life, and who I can truly be myself with. But that isn’t always possible, and I was reminded today in a meditation by my higher self that it is common sense to put in energetic protection in order to not be taking on other people’s stuff. Nellie Nobody is very keen to take on the slightest possible suggestion that another might not approve of the measures I am taking to change my life, and so brings up whatever insecurities that may still be lurking inside.

And I bless her for her anxiety, she is helping me to shed anything that might get in the way of my personal golden age unfolding with grand fanfare and ecstatic celebration. When that job is over for her she can be in charge of making sure I never lose my humility, I have encountered very few people who I would truly consider to be masters, but the one thing they have all had in common was the ability to be completely ordinary.

This is one of those people, Master Zhang Hao, an amazing teacher based in Sydney, Australia: http://www.chihealing.com.au/index.html

This is one of those people, Master Zhang Hao, an amazing teacher based in Sydney, Australia: http://www.chihealing.com.au/index.html

So don’t be too hard on the parts of you that are trying to hold you back from being fully in your power, its more about redirecting their gifts rather than shutting them down. When I can be consistent in my focused intention of creating my new life, Fay Fairytale’s wondrous imagination is probably my greatest ally, if she’s wasting time on unproductive fantasies I have only myself to blame!

It’s from Gabrielle Roth the incredible dance shaman that I have borrowed these particular terms for the different parts of myself, I have a feeling that I’ve shared this quote with you before but it sums up the theme of this post so nicely I’m going to share it again:

“Life is sacred. Life is art. Life is sacred art. The art of sacred living means being a holy actor, acting from the soul rather than the ego. The soul is out of space and time and hence always available, an ever-present potential of our being. It is up to each of us to celebrate and to actualize our being and to turn each meal, conversation, outfit, letter, and so on, into art. Every mundane activity is an opportunity for full authentic self-expression. The soul is our artistic self, our capacity for transforming every dimension of our lives into art and theater.”

Maps to Ecstasy, Gabrielle Roth, Nataraj Publ, Novato, CA, 1989.

So lets hear it for the ordinary and the everyday, may we swoon over the dishes and make love to the earth as we pull up the weeds!

Here is a very famous death scene from Monty Pythons’s Meaning of Life, enjoy!

Choosing Joy.

My current view!

My current view!

The powerful energies of transformation have been hard at work and I for one am feeling the benefits of staying focused on creating change in my life, at the same time that I am taking good care of myself. Having said that I do still have a cold in my system that has been hanging around for over three weeks now, and I have taken herbal tonics, lots of lime juice, and slowed down considerably. It might be tempting to ask myself what I’m doing wrong but that would be counter productive, as well as the care I have taken in the outer world I am doing lots of healing in my inner realms, in my temple.

The Inner Neural Workout!

The Inner Neural Workout!

I mean, what more can a girl do I ask myself, simple answer really, just keep doing what you are doing and don’t give up! I believe the cold is a sign that the detox on all levels of my being is continuing and that the work I’m doing is paying off, this is where being bloody minded can come in handy to marshal my persistence to new levels of determination. I am meditating every day and going into my temple to heal myself, there are a few things I am working on and some I will keep to myself for now, but rest assured I am including my immune system in this process.

Life is still very busy but I am coping with it now and can truly enjoy all the fun aspects, which is pretty much all of it, flamenco, choir, my work as a crisis counsellor and as a psychic, my writing for this blog.  I’m back in the space of inspiration and joy with it all. So the theme of balance that came in with the New Moon in Libra feels complete now, and the focus is on Scorpio’s influence of deep transformation, letting go of the resistance that has played the saboteur in the past. Hence the body’s method of shedding through bodily fluids, even as I cough and blow my nose (only very occasionally), I am feeling uplifted and have a sense of deep peace in my body.

Noelhouse

Doing a house sit in a place that doesn’t have the usual right angles everywhere and expansive views of the green rolling hills as I sit out on the balcony, is also a big contributing factor to this peaceful feeling. If you are ever in a place that isn’t the usual modern architecture, you know, high ceilings, rounded shapes and sloping angles, notice how this makes you feel in your body. I have a feeling of nourishment and joy that comes from this difference in the space that brings a softness to my heart that is quite delicious.

But wherever you may be, tune into the environment and find some kind of joy in it, even if that seems like a huge challenge, there is always a choice and why not make it a positive one! It’s a bit like the state of consciousness that the American Indians call ‘Beauty’s Way’, where even a rubbish dump seems vividly beautiful…………….the sacred is everywhere…………Ho!

I Love Me.

Self-love keeps popping up in my world wherever I go, and what I think of as its opposite, self-judgement, that was the theme of my latest holistic counselling session. It was also the major aspect that presented when we toned on the day of the New Moon in Libra, so it must be relating to a larger energy in our environment that is probably affecting many of us, in various ways. And as more focus goes upon self-love, whatever judgements are still there will often be triggered, they may not be comfortable but if they are on the way out then I suggest you wave them goodbye!

A cloud of gnats.

A cloud of gnats.

My homework from my session is to be kind and tender to me, to Kerry, and to call upon the compassionate cohorts, Michael, Germain, Mary, Aphrodite, and all the ascended masters, and to connect to nature. So I need to immerse myself in the ocean of love within and without and try to enjoy this gorgeous warm weather that we are having here, the gardens are beautiful at the moment, the bush even better. Mother Earth is very kind and she never judges me as I do myself, need to take a leaf out of her book, ha ha…..ha ha……..oh I am silly, in a good way!

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Now I am smiling at myself and that brings a rush of soft warm energy into my body, it feels good to consciously love and appreciate self, noticing how niggling little judgements come up like a flight of gnats, letting them go and feeling the heart expand. I’m remembering  the sounds of the holy names and the soft container that was “Sacred Earth” at the festival last saturday, sitting and receiving the vibration, dancing the frequencies, these are all fabulous ways in which to practice loving yourself.

And you do need to practice, we all do to some extent, depending on where you are in your development, hopefully we are always a work in progress. So maybe take the pressure off yourself in some particular area of your life that is having an impact on your stress levels, and give yourself at least a day every week where you totally please yourself, preferably at least a taste of some kind of indulgence.

It works for me!!

Here is a clip of “Sacred Earth” performing “Divine Mother”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uSV9nqNHPw

And another beautiful song, “Ancient Mother”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yqY3u4b7Zg

Trust And Surrender.

Okay, so in the end I’ve had to surrender to being sick, managed to get through work and play on the weekend, and then monday morning was spent in bed instead of yoga. That night I started losing my voice which means missing a shift on the crisis phones, guess it’s time to rest and just allow my body to release whatever it needs to. There is a kind of relief in that feeling, trust is often a bit tricky, but one thing I do absolutely trust in is my body’s wisdom.

body-of-light

I did go out last night for what’s known in my local club as a bunya meal, if you are in the community exchange system you can do that, but only on a monday night which is when they have the blackboard with 15 minute spots for musos. Nice not to have to cook and very nurturing to connect with my community, old friends and some newer ones, I even managed a bit of a dance. But before the music was over my voice was failing and that more than anything signalled that it was time to wend my weary way home, luckily only a 2 minute drive.

The message from my body is clear, rest, rest and more rest! I have also not been so good at following my own advice and intentions, so this evening I will do some meditation and bring my focus to raising my vibration. Probably the Telos Daily Activation of Light Meditation followed by some sitting meditation, with no voice I won’t be doing any toning that’s for sure! In that quiet space I will ask if there is anything I need to know at the moment. I have a sense of something opening up for me but I’m not sure exactly what it may be, I feel that my settling in one place may be soon but not sure about that either.

Not sure about much am I, that’s why I will ask for guidance, and if I don’t need to know then I will do my best to surrender to the uncertainty. Being ok with not knowing is often the hardest thing of all, and yet if you can do it, it’s also a blessed relief.

Found a lovely guided meditation to share with you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrgGouSUUPc

Listening To The Feminine.

Those of you who are following these posts might want to know how I got on with the conversation I had with my body last night. As I was lying in bed I asked my body if we could either find a different way of releasing the toxins, or move it through overnight while I slept. Well my body chose the latter and this resulted in numerous trips to the bathroom, some sleep and then up, back and forth until I almost began to regret my request. Somehow I did manage to get some rest and then lo and behold, I woke feeling so much better, the cold is still in my system but the sore throat is gone. I suspect that when I wake up tomorrow I will be completely hale and hearty again!

I still felt tired but I only did what absolutely had to be done, and that was after having a nice sleep in. I came home and had a sleep in the afternoon, the honest truth is that I could probably have slept all day, but I had two plays to go to, one in the afternoon and one in the evening. That’s my country town, always so much to do and the finale for the evening was “The Vagina Monologues”. Some of you may recall a post called “My Regretful Vagina” that I wrote after deciding not to audition for this play. No regrets after seeing the show, it was deeply profound, disturbing, and very, very funny, to take part in a performance of this depth would have required energy and focus that I simply didn’t have to spare.

Brooke Shields and Andrea Martin perform The Vagina Monologues at V Day in New York, 2001. Photograph: Scott Gries/Getty Images http://www.theguardian.com/culture/2013/feb/04/how-we-made-vagina-monologues

Brooke Shields and Andrea Martin perform The Vagina Monologues at V Day in New York, 2001. Photograph: Scott Gries/Getty Images
http://www.theguardian.com/culture/2013/feb/04/how-we-made-vagina-monologues

So by staying in touch with my own needs I was able to have my cake and eat it too! Listen to what your body has to say to you, it’s always speaking to us but most people tend to ignore the wisdom that it has to share. Life is so much more rewarding when you pay attention, I LOVE mindfulness, it means that I usually have a good idea of what is going in inside me, and if I don’t it’s an opportunity to discover more about that last frontier, the inner realms of the human spirit.

Here are a couple of clips I’ve posted before, but both well worth watching more than once, the first is my favourite version of “My Angry Vagina” from the monologues. The second is Eve Ensler, the author of “The Vagina Monologues”, speaking in India about the horrors of violence against women, and the inspiration and joy of what women are doing to change this. I hope you enjoy these as much as I did!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=og10JphWHRQ

Eve Ensler: Embrace your inner girl | Video on TED.com

My Guru, My Guru.

I used to think that Gurus were not such a great idea, it seemed to me that in order to have one you had to give away your power, and I was doing that enough without adding to it! I guess it would have been St Germain that would have been my guru but he was temporary in coming through Azena Ramanda, so I moved on to direct communication after that. Not being attached to a particular form, he brings me messages in many different ways. I thought having a guru on earth might be a bit of a drawback, taking the focus away from self, but after hearing stories of their guru, from Krishna Das and Ram Das, I have a different perspective.

They can be a doorway into that deeper dive into the self, into the quantum field of raw potential, a true guru will not take your power. What you choose to give away is your business, enjoy the stepping up into the limelight as you empower yourself with every step. A true guru will assist you in finding coherence, where the heart and the head and everything else is vibrating at just the right frequency, that of love. You can go there in so many ways, keep exploring doorways, it’s the evolution into a spiritual future, enlightenment.

I am my own guru these days, getting clearer and clearer on that one, developing the shamanic pathways for healing, bodywork, psychic/aura readings, sound healing, holistic counselling, writing/teaching. Lots of fun and inspiration to be had, bit more tech savvy would be good, me learning or help, don’t mind which one. But gurus can connect you to the place in yourself where you ARE LOVE, they can inspire and uplift in all sorts of different ways. Ram Dass is a guru no doubt to many, adepts or addicts, need to get stuck and then eventually be free of method, in the end we are all one in the unified field of consciousness that Rupert Sheldrake talks about, he and Bruce Lipton finally met properly and this is the conversation, its long but well worth it!

Rupert Sheldrake and Bruce Lipton.

Rupert Sheldrake and Bruce Lipton.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0o50jpPqQqA

In India when we meet and part we often say, ‘Namaste’, which means: I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides; I honor the place in you of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honor the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.

~ Ram Dass

Deep Medicine.

I’m beneath the water line now, the tip of the iceberg far, far above me as I dive into the deepest parts of me. Letting go of EVERYTHING, the notion of being imperfect, of somehow not being good enough, a superficial idea created by superficial people who are not really worth giving attention or focus to, ( I include myself in that last description!)  I LET GO, there is nothing held in this drop into my bones, into the heaviness that needs do nothing ‘cept be, what it is in each moment, the present is a gift.

Iceberg

And from this place of deep rest, of relaxation and release my gifts may emerge, defined not by the expectations of others, ’tis a reaching out of soul, of love and life. I am whole and in that wholeness I heal not only myself but the community at large, receiving my radiant light and being uplifted by it. Giving freely and flowing through a life full of joy and delight and good music!

My medicine journey took me to exactly where I needed to go, I perceived my need as releasing certain feelings associated with a particular person. What I realised in the safe space of the sacred circle was that this was an extremely narrow view, it was the tip of the iceberg when it was all that lies below the water line that I needed to journey to. That’s where I went and I was so deep I can’t tell you exactly what happened down there, I was beyond conscious comprehension as my body rocked and jerked to assist the movement of energy.

I am now very conscious of the fact that even when I am ‘relaxing’, there is still something being held somewhere, in the letting go of my journey I actually let go of all of it. It was such a beautiful and deep rest, and I will remember that feeling and do my best to continue my healing path so that I may be in that kind of truly restful space more often.

May there be peace within me, ohm shanti, shanti, shanti……………

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Heart Story.

Here I am feeling empty and trying not to worry about the things I have to organise in the next couple of weeks, and of course my belly is feeling a bit jumpy. Stuff just keeps getting triggered, and I do find that by actually focusing on the feelings I will often start to feel a bit better, certainly ignoring the stirrings doesn’t help at all. Meditation is a wonderful way to work with uneasy belly, it is a nice sharp focus and the energy may begin to move even before you get a sense of what it’s about. In fact sometimes the energy moves and you don’t need a story, I’m feeling a bit of movement as I write, don’t even know what the feeling is exactly.

It’s in my heart now, I will pause here and do the heart lock meditation from the Heart Math Institute and see what happens. Well the belly is much softer now and my heart feels light, in fact I feel rather spacious in my chest as though there is more room there now. It’s a really simple meditation, you focus on your heart and breathe in and out through it, if you want to take it further then begin to radiate out into the world the warm fuzzy feelings that will begin to emerge. I’ve got a lightness happening from my toes all through the body, and all this without a single piece of narrative.

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Mind you, we are story making creatures we humans, and there’s nothing wrong with that, we have an opportunity to create new tales for a new age, so it’s definitely time to let go of the old ones that don’t serve us very well. If knowing what the feelings are about helps you to let go of them, then by all means let that be a part of your process. There isn’t a right way of doing any of this, there is simply your way, and that’s the one that’s right for you!

Here is a clip of Gregg Braden talking about the human heart, very inspiring and you will find out from him just how those kinds of positive feelings can help us, not only physiological benefits but much, much more!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8dKcvROnl4

And here is the web site for the Heart Math Institute: http://www.heartmath.org/