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The Face Of The Divine Is You.

RainyDaysIngredients for staying in bed for far longer than one is supposed to, touch of autumn chill in the air, so cosy under the sheets! Cat snuggled into my bum and the backs of my knees as I lie in a foetal position, thoughts of my beloved drifting into my awareness as I listen to the gentle rain falling outside and allow myself to simply be. Yoga does tempt me but here you find me still partly snuggled under the sheets and cotton blanket with the cat curled up between my legs, computer on my lap, writing to you.

This is the cat I was referring to, a visitor to the house.

This is the cat I was referring to, a visitor to the house.

And now I know what I came here to write, something I have been thinking about sharing with you, a letter I wrote to my Beloved.

Dear Lover,

I treasure your tender loving gaze, your upturned mouth with soft lips tempting me to taste this beautiful bounty that is you. I trust you utterly at depth, I always feel perfectly safe when I am with you, allowing me to open more deeply then I have ever known. You open me to divinity, to the timeless essence that is existence, that cannot be bound for it is boundless. I am you and you are me, together we connect in the energies of love, the ecstatic dance of the polarities.

Love pours out from every cell and when I truly connect with that vibration there is no distance between us, even when we are apart. I love you and always will, looking forward to our shared future as cosmic micronaughts!

Thank you Mother for bringing us together, and to Ganesh for the removal of obstacles.

Your Lover (The Woman who adores you!)

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I never did finish “Dear Lover” by David Deida, so I bought a copy for myself from the Book Depository, it’s the kind of book I think is best read a little at a time. My letter above is not unlike what David Deida writes in his book, it may not be for everyone but I really like the way that he describes being in a relationship. As a spiritual practice it becomes your therapy and everything becomes heightened as you let go of heaviness and shadow amidst great and intense pleasure, light shining everywhere.

Light, delight, and beauty, nature in all her moods and the flow of fun, faeries and moon dust, the Goddess and her consort, true love in my heart, we are all one.

Aphrodite Rocks!

Blissful blessings have been well and truly showered upon me by Aphrodite today, I have spent the weekend embodying her energy and she has been most generous in her response. I had the best day at market that I’ve ever had, possibly something to do with the shoes that I wore, high heels that would have made the Goddess proud! If Aphrodite turned up in modern dress I am quite sure she would be wearing heels, that was my excuse anyway when I welcomed people to my toning circle yesterday.

These are the heels, an op shop bargain the Goddess would applaud!

These are the heels, an op shop bargain the Goddess would applaud!

It was the New Moon in Libra and so was all about harmony in relationship, balancing of the emotions, and appreciation of beauty, which is where Aphrodite comes into the picture. We explored her lush garden in a meditation and if you missed it and want a sense of it then have a look at my last post, possibly a bit over the top but we are talking about a Goddess so you can’t really go too far with superlatives.

The energy in our circle was very gentle and caring, the word that came up for me very strongly is tenderness with the emphasis very much on self-love. It somehow seems easier to be kind to others, when it comes to ourselves the inner critic often takes over and drowns out that other much gentler voice. And be kind to the critic too, they are trying to help even if they are misguided, acknowledge that sincerity even as you let them go.

Be as gentle with yourself as you would with this kitten.

Be as gentle with yourself as you would with this kitten.

It always does come back to love doesn’t it, it’s the stuff of which everything is made, it makes not only the world but the entire cosmos go round………and round and round and round. So if you are in the habit of self-flagellation then consider the possibility of creating a practice to change it, every time you notice yourself going into judgement with yourself or another, let go of the judgement and replace it with love. If you can’t actually feel the love then pretend, the old cliché “Fake it until you make it” is very true as most clichés are.

More about loving practices in future posts, until then farewell, with love and sonic blissings!

The Cathedral Of Sound.

Rising from sickness she marshalls her energy and prepares for the ceremony of healing, dressing with great care and attention to detail, her heart begins to soften and open. The scene is set and filled with the laughter of children and unseen sprites, dancing with joy through the sacred space, the sense of community, of belonging, fills her with the energy of love. Friendly faces abound and call out to our heroine, reminding her that she is never ever alone, the Goddess is within her, and in this place is seen and acknowledged.

The bad spirits are fleeing as she drinks the fiery brew that brings her to new levels of sensitivity, that opens up even more of the Goddess within, the hearth fire that lies at the centre of all of us. The energy of the masculine dances around her feeling the strength and delight of her fair form, desiring to connect with her deep femininity. Her softness responds and she enjoys the dance, but then ’tis time for the dance of the soul to begin, the alchemical transformation that will banish the sickness as if it had never been.

Me dancing with orbs! Photo by Antara May.

Me dancing with orbs!
Photo by Antara May.

Whirling and swirling, her body moves in a continuous flow as she becomes a channel for the energy of the sound, angel orbs play in the frequencies as she sends the light up through her crown. Ecstatic spaces within and without as the movement transmutes and transforms, the magicians holding the space in this cathedral finding ever more transcendent levels of prayer. The Goddess fills our heroine with her energy until the two are indistinguishable, the mystery is complete and somewhere in the levels of existence a candle is lit.

The Earth smiles…………..and so do I, for she is me and I am her, the heroine is my story, and I choose to be the Goddess in myself, in all things. Praise the Goddess for she is healed!

Here is a youtube clip of the magicians of sound who created the space for us to move in ecstasy through, Hayden Hack Infusion:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quPMnNXEf4g

The Body Speaks.

To stay on an even keel and not to be overwhelmed, a constant challenge in this busy life I have created!  I didn’t have to stay longer at the club tonight but in doing so I created stronger connections with my community, as well as having a bucket load of fun. Then home to write posts with so much less time than I had planned, and I have a really sore throat, oh Goddess please don’t let me get sick. It will make my night out at the theatre tomorrow night so much less enjoyable, I will have to have a chat with my body and see if there is some other way for it to release whatever it is trying to let go of.

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I don’t get sick very often, genetics plays a part in this, I have a particularly tough constitution. But I also communicate with my body all the time, when I can feel sickness coming on I always ask my body if there is some other way that it can clear whatever it is needing to get out of my system. This is why I am not a believer in taking medication for colds, the body is busy getting rid of toxins and all you are doing is pushing it all back into the system. So at the end of the day I will surrender to the cold if I have to, but a lot of the time it dances around my edges and then goes away.

Of course you need to keep your immune system nice and strong, good nutrition is an important part of that as well as supplements. Listen to your body, I’ve been starting every day with a green smoothie since the New Year, but a few days ago my smoothie didn’t taste so good, always a sign that something needs to change. So I’m having them every second day and lo and behold, my smoothie tastes good again!

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Good health is kind of simple in some ways, but we have strayed such a long way from basic nutrition and self-care in this culture, people have largely forgotten those basics. Time to return to the past, and add in the amazing new information that is coming in from the new paradigm!

The Red Shoes.

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There is a sense of completion all around me, the ripples of my actions creating endings, and new beginnings. When I follow those ripples out into the ocean of love I am filled with the excitement of my own potential. But I also need to be careful not to get too far ahead of myself, it comes back always to balance and being present in the moment that I am in.

At times I am so impatient, like Juliet as she waits for the day to end so that she may be with her Romeo:

Spread thy close curtain, love-performing night,

That runaway’s eyes may wink, and Romeo

Leap to these arms untalked of and unseen.

Lovers can see to do their amorous rites

By their own beauties; or, if love be blind,

It best agrees with night.Come, civil night,

Thou sober-suited matron, all in black,

And learn me how to lose a winning match,

Played for a pair of stainless maidenhoods.

William Shakespeare.

But it is not simply a partner that I am singing up here, it’s an entire new life in a world that has gone through such enormous changes since the Summer Solstice 2012. And divine timing is always such an important aspect of the process, flowing with the current, where the energies naturally want to go.

But I’m human and so I come in and out of that easy current and of course there are sometimes storms that blow in as well . At the end of the day it’s my response that determines how I travel, it creates my reality based on the impetus of what is actually happening around me. What is particularly nice at the moment is that not a lot of stuff is coming up and I am shifting it fairly quickly when it does. Praise the Goddess, and a special thanks to the feminine flow for guiding me towards the amazing bargain of getting the last pair of red boots on crazy sexy special, perfect fit!

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Couldn’t find the french version of Prokofiev’s Romeo and Juliet that I remember as being particularly good, but this one shows Margot Fonteyn and Rudolf Nureyev dancing together, the energy between them is electric!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtBRN5BXt6o

Trust In The Moment.

Trust would have to be one of the biggies, I keep coming back to it over and over again. Especially for me, trust around being supported, that all my needs will be met and that I deserve to receive abundance on every level of my being. A day at market where I have no customers really tests that sense of being prosperous. My market family gives me so very much in so very many ways, it does help me to trust, but the little niggle keeps niggling away somewhere deep in the core.

Perhaps its time to set up a rig and go drilling for that seed of doubt, of uncertainty and fear. Release that from this organic system and it will be like releasing water from a dam, abundance will come pouring out and that is the key to allowing myself to receive what has been heralded from all directions. The message keeps coming in loud and clear, if there is sabotage going on here it can only be self-inflicted.

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St Germaine always used to say, there are no victims only volunteers! In that case I’m going to volunteer to be the architect of my own harvest time, to reap the ripe crop born of darkness transformed into light and love. I AM the person I’ve been waiting for, the heroine rescuing herself from all the drama, the melodrama of life lived beneath a Scorpio moon. Not that I’m complaining about that moon of mine, it may give me grief at times, but it also intensifies the joy and gives me passion and discipline. Live life to the full, that’s my motto, time for the next phase………..

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Oh and by the way, I had a lovely day at the market, and the business all happened at the very end and so my trust and enjoyment of the moment paid off, thank the Goddess, I truly am looked after, gratitude, gratitude, gratitude………..love, love, love………….

Check out this short video showing the economic cost of low trust, the figures are mind boggling! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFlIgNesNM0

Weary, Sad Goddess.

Sadness slips out of me and pools on the floor, it wants to be numb, but I can’t go there anymore, I have to feel it no matter how hard, how painful. I’ve felt worse, this is a gentle feeling although it still sucks the life out of you, let it be but don’t indulge it, for it may lead you into inertia and a downhill spiral that will leave you without breath in your body, or spirit in your soul. It’s a sense of loss that opens up a grey place where everything is hopeless and nobody ever wakes up or escapes. I used to get lost in that place but now I am merely a visitor, watching the scene and feeling it in my heart, but knowing I can leave at any time.

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Sleep will wash away the fog and bring me into a bright new day, the loss is for something I never actually had even for a moment, so how hard can the letting go be! Dear Goddess, I’ve been so very good, I’ve done everything you’ve asked me to do, I’m following the path of spirit as best as I possibly can, is there not a long clear day for me sometime soon? Where I can rest on my laurels for a moment, and walk hand in hand with joy and not a care in the whole wide world, where the inner peace that is within me is filling me and flowing out into the world around me.

That day will be tomorrow, but until then I am in this place of bitter-sweet half regret, I have to keep feeling it and then letting it go, feeling and letting go, knowing that it is all a part of the process and that being alone is the biggest illusion of all. And yet that does not stop us from feeling the pain of loss, for who amongst us can lay claim to true sovereignty over self, true surrender to what is.

From a poem by Sir Thomas Wyatt

And wilt thou leave me thus,
That hath loved thee so long
In wealth and woe among?
And is thy heart so strong
As for to leave me thus?
I’m feeling better already, after all I am fair and square in the middle of an amazing community that loves and acknowledges me, bit hard to be abandoned or left behind.
I release the illusion of separation, I step into a life of community, love and nourishing support, so be it, so be it, so be it…………………………………..

Life Is The Practice.

‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!

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I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.

My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am………………..  I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.

Love and blissings…………

This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.

The House Of Mirrors.

The fun fair ride continues but for the moment I’m off the roller coaster, now it’s more like the house of illusion where the mirrors show distorted pictures and the maze confuses you until you think you will never get out. I’ve been going to this place on and off, for some time now, and it’s time to get some clarity into the picture, that means speaking up for myself. Oh Goddess, why is that so hard to do????? I managed to make a little headway. but much, much more needs to be said, not to blame but to inform.

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I can feel the energy running through my body, my teenaged girl inside is terrified and excited all at once, she feels such pain and confusion, she also feels hope and the possibility of delight. Years ago I read a book by John Cleese and Robyn Skynner called “Families and how to survive them”, they talked about how if you missed a particular stage of your development you would be looking for a way to complete it, usually on an unconsious level.  Hence the mid-life crisis when hubby buys a Porsche and runs off with his blonde secretary, the adolescent urge has been repressed while he’s being responsible, then something triggers him and off he goes!

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My adolescent associates sexuality blossoming with death, after all she was trying to flower in her pain and confusion, and then Daddy killed himself. So the life-giving force of sexuality is perceived as dangerous, better not let it flow too freely, and with dad gone I have to look after mum and my brother, because I’m the strong one. All this at the tender age of 15, I felt what it was like for her as if it was happening now on my roller coaster ride, if you missed that post it came out on May 13.

Now I have to rewrite the programming and it feels like one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, luckily I have good support and guidance around me, lots of love and appreciation. So wish me luck as I complete my adolescence at the age of 49!

The Roller Coaster Ride.

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The roller coaster at the fun park has been taking me to the edge, as I rode the energy of the New Moon and solar eclipse on May 10. Slowly rolling up and up with a sense of the sacred and of fun, creating an environment of beauty with good food, good company and mood lighting. That sense of being on top of the world, suspended for a moment…………then down with a gut wrenching dip as you scream and scream and the sobs come from the deepest part of you. Once again I am triggered into a big release and it seems there is still a lot of that unexpressed adolescent energy needing to be let out, oh Goddess will it never end!

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In that space you start to stress about things that are absolutely fine, creating an environment where sleep is hard to come by, which of course ends up creating more stress. I put all that aside to prepare the sacred space for my special may toning circle, Mystical May and the Violet Flame, if you missed that post it came out on May 1st. I read the invocation to ground the new frequency of the violet flame into the physical, and we then toned for our youth and babies, institutions such as schools and prisons, the banks and pharmaceutical companies. We also toned to bring in conscious awareness and perfect health into those who are asleep, for the full invocation check out the post.

It was a beautiful ceremony and the energy that was created in the circle was palpable, it really took us all into a very deep place of stillness and quiet which was part of my intention for this circle. We still had time for people to receive healings and even I got to receive which was perfect, I could feel how much more relaxed I was after lying in the middle of the circle and receiving the loving frequencies that came from the group energy.

Tune into my next post for the conclusion to this fair ground ride, more thrills and spills, men being men and women leaving them to their masculine doing, a gathering of loving support for a dear soul in a precarious place, which way will he jump, and where will he land!

See you tomorrow!