As I sit here wondering what to talk about my mind keeps thinking about dancing and how I haven’t been doing much at all lately. My body has this odd disconnected yearning when I tune into it and there is nothing that my mind is doing at this moment that makes any difference at all to this physical sensation. In fact the mind can help the body to relax by using it’s capacity for understanding but there are times when talk is cheap and the only thing to do is to dance! My Beloved and I are no longer running a monthly dance and our local musical co-op closed down at the start of the year so the possibilities for going out and dancing have been less in our town.
That of course is no excuse and barely makes it in as a valid reason even, dancing can happen anywhere including when we are at home all alone. A FB friend just had a dancing challenge where she danced for half an hour every morning with her kids, what a good idea I thought to myself as I clicked on ‘going’. You can guess where I am going with this, I did not do one formal dance session in the two week period. And I LOVE to dance, when I manage to have a really good movement session I feel AMAZING! This is starting to sound a lot like a recent post on meditation and how I wasn’t managing to get myself on the cushion in spite of how beneficial it is to my health. Well I have made it to at least a couple of meditation classes since then but as for a regular practice, forget it.
So what to do? The first thing that comes to mind is that it would be useful to talk to my Beloved about this issue and see if we can come up with a buddy system that supports regular movement for us both. I’m thinking dancing here, it’s usually sensible to do one thing at a time and as a deep lover of the transformational energies of dance I know that if I create the space my body will adore moving the energy in this way. The other idea I’ve had is to run a weekly dance class that goes for an hour and call it “Dance For Joy!” I can’t be the only person who has this problem and I love the vision of a room full of people laughing and dancing to an eclectic mix of tunes old and new. If you have a look there are often plenty of meditation classes for people to attend but dance classes where you get to do your own thing are not so common. So this will be my next focus for a class but in the meantime I will see what I can do about moving this gorgeous body of mine a little more often.
The spirit in motion heals, expands, circles in and out of the body, moving through the layers of consciousness from inertia to ecstasy. Open to the spirit, and you will be transformed.
And I will continue with my gratitude practice because that helps with pretty much anything and everything! I’m noticing as I feel gratitude and visualise my body in motion that my mood is lifting even as the body’s yearning becomes more pronounced. So what kind of incredible transformation might be possible when I actually dance in real time with an open heart and mind. I’m smiling and feeling very excited at the prospect!
My gratitude practice was severely strained last week as I struggled to find something to be grateful for in the face of bureaucratic nit picking taken to extraordinary lengths. As I do my best to raise funds to get myself and my Beloved to Thailand for my brother’s wedding I can’t even manage to get myself a passport which has to be step number one for any overseas venture. Because my name was spelt Kerri on my birth certificate I have to go through an application to change my name to Kerry, the spelling I have used for the entire length of my 52 years on the planet. And to avoid waiting 67 business days for this absurdity to be processed it is costing me $211 to change something that has come about because of a clerical error. This is a world gone mad where restrictions that are supposed to keep us safe from the bogey man are interfering with ordinary folk trying to go about their everyday business.
Dwelling on that kind of insanity can start to send one quite mad so after having a healthy vent I did my best to find something to be grateful for. The thought of my Beloved sprang forth and began to bring hope back into my heart. Then I decided to ask the Faeries for some help and the card that they sent me was “Raise Your Standards”. One card with one simple message and the flow of tentative thankfulness became a flood of positivity and light. Not exactly great wisdom you might think but what that phrase did for me was shift my focus from lack to abundance. Instead of going into worry over things costing even more I could see that it was only a problem if I didn’t think I could meet the challenge. And bits of me are still a bit unsure and sending messages of doom into my belly even as I put these words into writing.
I’ve never read the book “Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway” by Susan Jeffers, but the phrase has enormous resonance in and of itself. There is a part of me that wants to give up in the face of over the top bureaucracy, it doesn’t believe I have the capacity to earn the money needed so why bother at all. Luckily I have a stubborn streak which won’t let me give up so I will just have to feel all that fear and keep going on the path to abundance. I managed to do 10 minutes of meditation during lunch today so anything is possible! The list goes on, doing yoga classes again, eating healthy and maintaining my recent weight loss, living with the love of my life….. Many of these things seemed quite impossible not so long ago and yet here I am. Life is good and I am grateful!
The world is a very noisy place these days and silence something that many people actively avoid. I consider myself a reasonably conscious human being and yet I find myself doing the very same thing even though I know perfectly well that being silent is a great way of tuning in to deeper feelings and sensations. So what is so hard about simply sitting in silence? On my lunch break when I work a full day I usually go out to the balcony where I can breathe fresh air and see the sky and feel the wind on my face. And I know that once I’ve finished eating that the best way of spending the rest of my break time is to sit in meditation. Then the next thing I know I’m looking at Facebook on my phone and getting caught up in all of that stuff and I only manage a few minutes of actually sitting in stillness.
And yet sitting silently with deep feelings has been a huge part of my healing and growth. I know how valuable it is from my own experience but it is still a struggle to make myself stop and just sit. Our society doesn’t place any value in such an activity and we are indoctrinated at an early age to get out there and do things rather than spend time sitting around daydreaming. The phrase “Silence is Golden” is about being quiet while you work hard at what you’ve been told to do. The idea that there might be some benefit in the space created by silence gets lost as we pursue the next goal or task. Houses are full of the sound of television and our roads resound with engines and brakes and horns.
So how can we rewrite this programming? How can I deliver on my promise to myself to do more regular meditation? Force of will is not a method that appeals to me but as I get more and more frustrated I am ready to try just about anything! Making a witnessed commitment in the last few posts has also been a failure up to this point. I’m feeling tired as I write this and my brain feels completely stymied and yet an answer floats up almost immediately. It consists of one word, gratitude. When you feel grateful your mood shifts and thus it is an elegant way of moving from one state of consciousness to another. So if I am wanting to be quiet and am meeting resistance the best response I can make is to fill that space with all the things that I am grateful for. It almost seems too good to be true but it does give me an easy technique to apply in my quest for inner peace and outer prosperity.
It’s worth a shot anyway, maybe even a gratitude diary where I write down all the things in my life that I am grateful for. As a lover of improvisation I will probably make it up as I go along ! And who knows what will happen as I spend more and more time in meditative spaces, many of the thorny issues I’m currently facing may turn into beautiful roses smelling sweet!
The Witta Markets (Third Saturday of the month)
I’ve been running, running and all this wonderful energy has been channeled into playing catch up after our month of moving madness. So now it’s Saturday and we’ve been in our new home for just over two weeks and our last brief abode is receding into a distant dream peopled by archetypal animals and a psychopathic character that probably belongs more in the realm of nightmare. Whew! Still in a constant state of gratitude for the beautiful community that my Beloved and I live in. Market days amidst green grass and trees as we drink our coffee and chai latte on almond milk and talk about the wonderful Walk Against Domestic Violence that launched a new initiative, “Say Yes to Family Peace”. We had an internationally renowned choir master teach us the song we sang as we walked down the main street and the police car drove in front of us so we could walk safely. The words we sang were “Walk with me, hold my hand, I don’t want to walk alone”.
And so many people do feel alone even when they are in the middle of a crowded city surrounded by countless other millions of isolated folk. The gap between the rich and the poor keeps getting more and more like a bottomless abyss and the politicians have become quite blatant about supporting their rich mates over the average working Australian. Let’s face it, we have enough technical know how and resources these days that the idea that everyone needs to work for a living is simply not true. I love this quote from Buckminster Fuller:
“We should do away with the absolutely specious notion that everybody has to earn a living. It is a fact today that one in ten thousand of us can make a technological breakthrough capable of supporting all the rest. The youth of today are absolutely right in recognizing this nonsense of earning a living. We keep inventing jobs because of this false idea that everybody has to be employed at some kind of drudgery because, according to Malthusian Darwinian theory he must justify his right to exist. So we have inspectors of inspectors and people making instruments for inspectors to inspect inspectors. The true business of people should be to go back to school and think about whatever it was they were thinking about before somebody came along and told them they had to earn a living.”
― R. Buckminster Fuller
The Co-op where I buy my organic produce.
So I am incredibly grateful that I do live in a place where people are valued just for being who they are. What you do for a living or how much money you have in the bank don’t tell me if you are a kind and gentle person, or if you have an open heart. Living in a place where people and community are considered important gives me a bit of insulation from the outside world which sometimes frightens me. In the state of New South Wales just below the state that I live in the premier of that state has just sacked a whole lot of councils. Because of corruption or ineptitude perhaps? No, because they opposed developers wanting to build roads in places where the community was very much against the proposals. And if anyone wants to protest his undemocratic behaviour he has brought in new laws to take away that basic human right.
Comparisons with the corruption of the Roman Empire keep springing to mind, the rich today are starting to look more and more like the moral degenerates that abounded as that empire went through it’s last gasps. Thank the Goddess for grass roots movements that are these days filled with ordinary folk who are beginning to wake up to the fact that our governments are much more interested in feathering their own nests than they are in doing the job they were supposed to be elected for. Because I’m an optimist and I believe that there will be a way forward into a brand new day of true harmony and connection for the people on this beautiful planet. Just don’t look to governments for this direction, look into your own heart and find the peace within yourself. That is something that no dictator can take from you, it is a quality that will create happiness for you and those around you no matter what craziness is going on in the world.
End of rant, shanti, shanti, shanti……peace, peace, peace…..
My current view is a little bit more suburban but here are some of those lovely green Maleny Hills.
I sit looking out at a scene that I will not see again in this way after we have moved on in a couple of weeks. Morning light on green trees, chill air and birds enjoying their Sunday morning. It’s much darker where we are going, a big space that is awaiting our creativity and will require a fair amount of time and focus. Part of me is asking Spirit why, why this move at this time? My mind keeps wandering off to other places and I find myself picking up my book and starting to read again before I remember that I am doing something. Moving is a lot of work and I always work better with a firm purpose or intention, mind you having a cosy nest with my Beloved is probably reason enough for anything that we need to do to get there. But I’m human and I like to know why sometimes so I asked the question and tuned in.
What came through finally after I’d finished being distracted, was the idea of being interconnected, particularly in the community in which we live my love and I. It is a wonderful community and we have already experienced Spirit bringing us things we will need for our new home. In the Love Bubble that my Beloved and I swim in there sometimes seems not a lot of need for other people. That can never be true of course and we are not complete hermits or anything like that but we do supply rather a lot of each others needs. So moving into a situation where we have to connect with our immediate and even the wider community as we seek to make our new home is a useful reminder of how important these connections are. Spirit, the Guru, whatever you want to call it, will always bring us something that will aid us in our spiritual development.
We may not always like all aspects of where the flow of Spirit takes us as we evolve and grow in the best way that we know how. But I do know for sure that by looking for the gifts in each new experience I am far more likely to flow into great outcomes and to be surprised by how perfectly everything turns out, in ways I never expected! And so it will be with this move, I just hope I get over eating to manage some of the anxious feelings before I become the size of a house! The new space has room to set up a healing area so maybe I can get inspired into a daily yoga and meditation practice, that would be incredibly awesomely wonderful! Aho!
This post is a day late, read on to find out why!
If you’ve read my recent posts then you know that my experience of life lately has been much like trying to walk on shifting sands. Just when you think you know what is going on something changes, often with very little warning. So I really shouldn’t have been surprised when our new home base fell through four days before we were supposed to move in. I knew this would be a tough week with all the moving but at least there was something permanent at the end of that particular picture. Or at least that’s what I thought, my Guru obviously had other ideas and decided I needed even more shaking up!
The day we found out my Beloved and I were both stunned, then of course a whole host of other uncomfortable feelings came up as the shock began to wear off. It wasn’t easy to get motivated to do anything in response but we did manage a ritual before going to bed. We each read out a list of the difficult feelings that were coming up for us and we sat with that for a bit. Then we burnt the paper in the fireplace as a way of letting go of it all. Then we read out a list of what we want to create from this place. There were various mantras interspersed with this and of course it was all done in front of our altar. I could feel the calm that had come into me through performing this ritual, it spoke to a part of me that words alone will never reach.
Since then it has been head down and bum up as we moved out of our latest house sit and then went straight into the big move into temporary accommodation. And for that I am so very grateful, my Beloved and I are blessed by the friendships we share with beautiful fellow souls on the journey. And everyone I speak to reflects my own belief that we are headed towards something even better. I heard a very pertinent quote many years ago that sums up this notion perfectly, “There is no such thing as a mistake, only divine re-direction”. So on to the next part of the adventure, with gratitude and a healthy dollop of ritual to keep us sane and on track.
This song has been going round and round in my head all day, have a listen and you will soon see why. This is one of the many wonderful local musicians that we are lucky enough to have living here in this part of the world, Jacinta Foale:
Grumpy the dwarf looking very ‘fratched’!
This is going to be a very short post as I am suffering with another bout of the bladder infection that has been hanging around now for over a year. Can’t remember the last time I took antibiotics but there are times when they are extremely helpful and this is one of those occasions. It’s left me feeling ‘fratched’, a term I borrow from the fantasy novel I am reading at the moment. Somehow it really captures the way I am feeling, even the sound of the word conveys just how scratchy I do feel.
There are many aspects of first world civilisation that I find extremely frustrating and much which is downright unfair. Particularly when it comes to those marginalised and vulnerable groups that are usually targeted by those who are allegedly supposed to be looking out for the welfare of everyone in the community. But at the same time I am full of deep gratitude for the fact that I am able to go and see a doctor when I need to and be bulk billed. The antibiotics were around $13 so all in all I am receiving the care I need at a minimal cost.
So for this moment I am going to let go of my concerns over what is happening in the world and simply be grateful for the many wonderful blessings that I do have. I have my Beloved, loving family and friends, and I live in a succession of beautiful places while paying minimal rent. The work that I do is meaningful to me and makes a positive contribution to those in not only my own immediate community but to the rest of Australia too. When my online readings take off that may well extend to many other places all over the world. Whether I am operating as a psychic reader or as a crisis counsellor, my work is all about helping others to navigate life.
And that is something worth doing! When not engaged in these kinds of activities I will do my best to keep appreciating my life in the Magic Kingdom. Lets all be children and keep remembering to look for the wonder and magic that is inherent in life on this beautiful place known as Planet Earth!