Before I begin I would like to express my gratitude to those of you who have started following my blog, thank you so much for being interested in what I have to say. Gratitude is one of those qualities that is given its proper weight these days, Oprah probably has a lot to do with that, Goddess bless her!
Another important quality is the ability to live with uncertainty, something I have been looking at lately, and which is really in my face today. Sometimes the most trivial events can point these things out to us. I went to play the final dvd in the second series of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and yes I am still on that merry ride, and it was broken. Apparently I must have done it when I took it out of its case, something that has never happened to me before.
Not terribly important in the cosmic scale of things, I hear you say, but to an anal, two planets in Virgo, Buffy obsessive, this is really, really devastating. I almost could have cried, I know, a grown adult and shaken up by not knowing how the season ended. I am the first to agree that this is totally pathetic, I’m trusting my readers not to run away in droves at this sad admission. Actually there probably aren’t enough of you to be in droves, but you get my meaning!
As I wrestled with my feelings of disappointment, I told myself that I would just have to forge on ahead with the other episodes, letting go of the need to know what happened. And that was when I realised that this minor issue, was underlining a much bigger one, that I have indeed been looking at just these last few days. Wanting to know NOW if particular possibilities are going to develop into fully fledged manifestations, in work, relationship, everything as a matter of fact.
So much of my life is up in the air at the moment, my house sit ends in three weeks and I don’t have a new one yet. I’ve finished some aspects of my work and while I have a sense of moving into something exciting and new, I can’t see it yet. And when it comes to my Beloved, I can practically smell his pheromones sliding into my olfactory senses, mmmmmmmmmmm…………. Oh Aphrodite, bring it on!!!!
But for now I must make my peace with not knowing, I think I will tone for a bit and bring my frequencies into a better alignment, I choose to be happy with my life exactly as it is in this moment!
From “Be Here Now” by Ram Dass.