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Hemp That Heals.

Now for another in the series on the wonders of hemp, in this instance I am talking about the medicinal uses of cannabis, it seems that it has the ability to cure an enormous number of different illnesses. It’s good for most forms of cancer, and can kill the cancer cells while leaving healthy ones to get on with their business, apparently it actually causes the cancer to commit suicide! This is already a much better report card than you will find regarding chemotherapy, and without all those nasty side affects too. In fact if you do go the mainstream route for your illness, cannabis is wonderful for preventing the nausea that goes along with chemo.

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There has been extensive research done in this area by pioneering doctors and the evidence is mounting in favour of hemp or marijuana being used as a medicine. It’s been known to be successful with heart disease, depression and anxiety, migraines, diabetes, arthritis, the list goes on and on, and yet governments are ignoring this potential for reducing the enormous amount of suffering that goes on amongst so many people in the world today. Mmmmmm don’t suppose those good old vested interests have anything to do with it, in particular the pharmaceutical companies, seems that some of them are actually quietly preparing for the day that this information can no longer be denied.

The documentary “Run From The Cure” talks about this information and tells the story of Rick Simpson who lives in Nova Scotia in Canada, he grows marijuana and makes hemp oil, which he then gives away for free to people who are in need. There are many who owe their lives to Rick and yet in 2008 he was sentenced in the supreme court for being a supplier of an illegal substance, this film isn’t so well made and a bit long, but it’s worth watching none the less. When are we going to put people before profits?

http://www.nextworldhealthtv.com/page/24647.html

You can find more information on this subject at: http://www.phoenixtears.ca/

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Deep Medicine.

I’m beneath the water line now, the tip of the iceberg far, far above me as I dive into the deepest parts of me. Letting go of EVERYTHING, the notion of being imperfect, of somehow not being good enough, a superficial idea created by superficial people who are not really worth giving attention or focus to, ( I include myself in that last description!)  I LET GO, there is nothing held in this drop into my bones, into the heaviness that needs do nothing ‘cept be, what it is in each moment, the present is a gift.

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And from this place of deep rest, of relaxation and release my gifts may emerge, defined not by the expectations of others, ’tis a reaching out of soul, of love and life. I am whole and in that wholeness I heal not only myself but the community at large, receiving my radiant light and being uplifted by it. Giving freely and flowing through a life full of joy and delight and good music!

My medicine journey took me to exactly where I needed to go, I perceived my need as releasing certain feelings associated with a particular person. What I realised in the safe space of the sacred circle was that this was an extremely narrow view, it was the tip of the iceberg when it was all that lies below the water line that I needed to journey to. That’s where I went and I was so deep I can’t tell you exactly what happened down there, I was beyond conscious comprehension as my body rocked and jerked to assist the movement of energy.

I am now very conscious of the fact that even when I am ‘relaxing’, there is still something being held somewhere, in the letting go of my journey I actually let go of all of it. It was such a beautiful and deep rest, and I will remember that feeling and do my best to continue my healing path so that I may be in that kind of truly restful space more often.

May there be peace within me, ohm shanti, shanti, shanti……………

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I Cord, You Cord, We All Cord!

Can you think of times in your life when you’ve had trouble getting someone out of your mind? You really don’t want them continually inside your head, but you just can’t seem to evict them, they might be lover, friend or even enemy. Whatever their relationship to you, there’s a pretty good chance that you’ve formed emotional cords with them.

It’s generally a two-way street, there is something in each of you that feels very similar, a trauma or wounding of some kind. If the connection is strong enough and you’re very intuitive, you may even find you just ‘know’ when they’re around, bump into them in what seems to be the most random fashion. If it’s somebody you really like you might be tempted to think it’s a good thing, but make no mistake, emotional cords are not healthy. Wound calling out to wound is just asking to create dependency, which ultimately leads to unhealthy relationships.

So what can you do about it? I find that meditating and cutting the cords works very well, although you may have to keep doing it. Use whatever imagery has meaning for you, I ask the Archangel Michael to cut the cords with his sword of truth, but if you prefer Tinkerbell to dissolve them with fairy dust then by all means go for it. Or maybe Coyote from Roadrunner cartoons can blow up the cords with his faithful TNT, just don’t do what he usually does and blow yourself up too!

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In the end the best solution is to heal the wounds, as long as they are still present there’s always the possibility of creating more cords. Use whatever methods you’ve found that work for you, and stay focused on the journey of healing. Above all don’t give yourself a hard time when you become aware that you are forming cords, just deal with it as best you can and know that you are a work in progress.

Here is an example of how to cut emotional cords:

http://flowingfree.org/cutting-ties-a-simple-way-to-free-yourself-from-emotional-baggage/

From Bliss To Butterflies.

Last week was huge for me, I had three shifts which I would classify as small, large and earth shattering! There was grief in the letting go, fear of loss, and a deep sense of being utterly unworthy to allow myself to fully experience pleasure without condition. The end result was that I was in a state of utter bliss even though I had only had 8 hours sleep in two days. Once again my life force energy is flowing ever more freely and I embrace the joy of being with all my heart.

So I was thinking a week of integration would probably be a good idea, I slept in yesterday, got up and did my oil pulling, an hour of yoga, and then had my green smoothie.  Just when I think I know what the plan is it all changes, all of a sudden a house sit that didn’t happen is on again at short notice for an indeterminate time. It’s good news really, but then I find myself sitting and writing and the sense of stuff moving in my belly is back, it’s like what some people call butterflies but there isn’t anything to be nervous about.

I love my life, but I do have moments when I wonder about this constant processing, why can’t I have longer periods of clarity before things start getting triggered again! The answer is simple but I don’t have to like it, I just happen to have a lot of trauma, in layer upon layer, and I have an obsessive need to keep clearing it away. Can I really heal everything in this lifetime? There are some who would say that’s a crazy ambition, but even though I might have some complaints about the details at times, I keep moving into deeper states of ecstasy, and I am happy most of the time even when I have uncomfortable stuff moving through.

So I guess I will just have to integrate and process simultaneously, after all I do describe myself as a shamanic practitioner and shamans are the ultimate interdimensional multi-taskers!

Shamans transmit to their people in sign, song, and dance the nature of the cosmic geography that has been revealed to them in the process of initiation trances and soul journeys. Map-makers and myth-dancers, shamans live internally in a multi-dimensional realm continuous with so-called ordinary reality.

Joan Halifax (Shaman: The Wounded Healer, New York, Crossroad, 1982. P 66.)

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Rebirth.

I’ve been asked a couple of times what I mean when I talk about processing stuff and releasing it out of the body. Stuff seems like a terribly vague description, yet its hard to find another word that sums it up as well. There are so many elements involved when shifts are occurring, it’s feelings, physical sensations, thoughts, movement of energy, somehow stuff just seems to cover all possibilities.

For me I often notice a sensation of dis-ease in my belly, if there is a lot going on it can affect my appetite so I’m not very hungry. In the lead up to my big release last saturday, I ate out at the film society and they had one of my favourite deserts, lemon tart, but I had absolutely no desire for it, couldn’t even finish my main meal.

When I left the rain was pouring and the wind was howling, and I began to feel a sense of emptiness and deep sadness even as I drove away. By the time I got home the sadness was really strong and I sat to write for a time, I let words just come, I reflected on my afternoon and evening, nothing seemed to fit for what I was feeling.

Finally I went to bed and lay there not able to sleep as the feelings continued to move and my mind wandered. At one point I remembered something I had said to my friend about the decimation of my self-esteem, from the age of 16 to about 18, and how I felt that I had only rebuilt the last of it in the last year and a half, here in my new home. In that moment everything came together and I thought of taking 30 years to come back to myself, and I wept as I released all the feelings and sensations that had been swirling around inside me.

It felt HUGE and the next day I felt AMAZING, mum came to visit and noted how clear I was looking, after she’d gone I looked in the mirror and it was like a new person looking back at me. Who is this gorgeous woman I said to myself as I gazed upon this incredible sight, the clarity in my face was extraordinary!

Whatever we have experienced and not fully expressed, gets crystalised in the cells of the body. You can understand past events with your mind but at the end of the day, it will be the trauma held in your cellular memory that is actually running you. It’s an ongoing process, I had another big release the next night and even now I can feel dis-ease in my belly.

I have the intention to heal everything in this lifetime, so I really can’t complain when things keep coming up. Slowly but surely my life gets better and better, my capacity for experiencing happiness and joy continues to expand, and at last I can truly say to myself, I love you Kerry, you are perfect exactly as you are in this moment, and mean every word.

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