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Silence Is Golden!

BUSYThe world is a very noisy place these days and silence something that many people actively avoid. I consider myself a reasonably conscious human being and yet I find myself doing the very same thing even though I know perfectly well that being silent is a great way of tuning in to deeper feelings and sensations. So what is so hard about simply sitting in silence? On my lunch break when I work a full day I usually go out to the balcony where I can breathe fresh air and see the sky and feel the wind on my face. And I know that once I’ve finished eating that the best way of spending the rest of my break time is to sit in meditation. Then the next thing I know I’m looking at Facebook on my phone and getting caught up in all of that stuff and I only manage a few minutes of actually sitting in stillness.

meal time phones

And yet sitting silently with deep feelings has been a huge part of my healing and growth. I know how valuable it is from my own experience but it is still a struggle to make myself stop and just sit. Our society doesn’t place any value in such an activity and we are indoctrinated at an early age to get out there and do things rather than spend time sitting around daydreaming. The phrase “Silence is Golden” is about being quiet while you work hard at what you’ve been told to do. The idea that there might be some benefit in the space created by silence gets lost as we pursue the next goal or task. Houses are full of the sound of television and our roads resound with engines and brakes and horns.

Busy Do It

So how can we rewrite this programming? How can I deliver on my promise to myself to do more regular meditation? Force of will is not a method that appeals to me but as I get more and more frustrated I am ready to try just about anything! Making a witnessed commitment in the last few posts has also been a failure up to this point. I’m feeling tired as I write this and my brain feels completely stymied and yet an answer floats up almost immediately. It consists of one word, gratitude. When you feel grateful your mood shifts and thus it is an elegant way of moving from one state of consciousness to another. So if I am wanting to be quiet and am meeting resistance the best response I can make is to fill that space with all the things that I am grateful for. It almost seems too good to be true but it does give me an easy technique to apply in my quest for inner peace and outer prosperity.

gratitude and abundance

roseIt’s worth a shot anyway, maybe even a gratitude diary where I write down all the things in my life that I am grateful for. As a lover of improvisation I will probably make it up as I go along ! And who knows what will happen as I spend more and more time in meditative spaces, many of the thorny issues I’m currently facing may turn into beautiful roses smelling sweet!

Science Says Silence Is Much More Important To Our Brains Than We Think

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Navigating Change And Looking For Gratitude.

maleny hills

My current view is a little bit more suburban but here are some of those lovely green Maleny Hills.

I sit looking out at a scene that I will not see again in this way after we have moved on in a couple of weeks. Morning light on green trees, chill air and birds enjoying their Sunday morning. It’s much darker where we are going, a big space that is awaiting our creativity and will require a fair amount of time and focus. Part of me is asking Spirit why, why this move at this time? My mind keeps wandering off to other places and I find myself picking up my book and starting to read again before I remember that I am doing something. Moving is a lot of work and I always work better with a firm purpose or intention, mind you having a cosy nest with my Beloved is probably reason enough for anything that we need to do to get there. But I’m human and I like to know why sometimes so I asked the question and tuned in.

spirit-guide

What came through finally after I’d finished being distracted, was the idea of being interconnected, particularly in the community in which we live my love and I. It is a wonderful community and we have already experienced Spirit bringing us things we will need for our new home. In the Love Bubble that my  Beloved and I swim in there sometimes seems not a lot of need for other people. That can never be true of course and we are not complete hermits or anything like that but we do supply rather a lot of each others needs. So moving into a situation where we have to connect with our immediate and even the wider community as we seek to make our new home is a useful reminder of how important these connections are. Spirit, the Guru, whatever you want to call it, will always bring us something that will aid us in our spiritual development.

Rumi we are all interconnected

We may not always like all aspects of where the flow of Spirit takes us as we evolve and grow in the best way that we know how. But I do know for sure that by looking for the gifts in each new experience I am far more likely to flow into great outcomes and to be surprised by how perfectly everything turns out, in ways I never expected! And so it will be with this move, I just hope I get over eating to manage some of the anxious feelings before I become the size of a house! The new space has room to set up a healing area so maybe I can get inspired into a daily yoga and meditation practice, that would be incredibly awesomely wonderful! Aho!

fit and healthy and calm

 

To Move Is To Be Alive!

Organs-Of-The-Human-Body“Blood cells that don’t move cannot transport oxygen, lungs that don’t move can’t breathe, hearts that don’t move can’t pump blood, and spines that don’t move can’t create the motion required for proper joint nutrition, for the activities of daily living, or for the stimulation of the joint-brain pathways required for proper brain and body function.” In short, movement is what enables our bodies to operate in all their delicate, wondrous complexity.

James Chestnut, chiropractor.

Dance and movement keep popping up whenever I consider current issues in my life, particularly in relation to my shoulder injury and the urinary tract infection that won’t go away. Of course I am doing what is appropriate with the medical profession, just because there is a lot wrong with modern medicine doesn’t mean that it isn’t a wonderful method of dealing with some problems. But expecting someone else to do all the fixing isn’t a useful way of thinking, if I want to get better then I need to participate in the healing process with as much mindfulness as I can muster.

mind-fullI’ve been moving less because of my shoulder injury, still can’t do my regular yoga class and struggling to get myself to do any kind of practice at home. Sometimes I don’t even know what makes it flare up, with that kind of uncertainty I am a bit scared to do anything that might conceivably make it worse. And becoming less physically fit isn’t going to help my immune system with the infection it’s dealing with. My sugar addiction is going strong again too which doesn’t help with this overall picture, certainly doesn’t look like the optimum health that I am aiming for in this life.

Not the state I aspire to!

Not the state I aspire to!

It’s very easy in a place like this to feel like there isn’t anything I can do to change this, the mind may know it’s possible but the emotional body feels trapped. What needs to happen is an internal shift of consciousness that breaks the old patterns that are flaring up at the moment. Each time I have been in this space I have found various ways of breaking the loop and the message that keeps coming to me right now is to move my body. My Beloved and I are about to spend four weeks on five acres with dogs and cats and alpacas and not much else so a space is opening up for exploration and for play.

dance

Sometimes it will be movement to music but there will be times when I invite my body to move to its own rhythms. This can be done alone but it is even more powerful with another as witness, simply observing, not participating except to give feedback afterwards. This is one activity that can be guaranteed not to hurt my shoulder, I have learned how to move so that it can participate without trauma. And my body always feels better when it is in regular motion, even just a short walk is enough to perk everything up. So while I will continue to call upon doctors to support me in my healing I will also be taking responsibility for my own wellbeing.

body in space

And once the shift in consciousness has occurred then all the other stuff becomes so much easier! When my head is in the right place healthy choices seem simple and obvious. I need to be kind to myself and take one step at a time, after all I have done this before. And each time I do it I find myself in a better position than the last time it happened, slowly but surely I am getting healthier and healthier.

fruit and veg family

Hooray for the opportunity to create a happy and healthy life on the lovely planet known as Earth!

The Body Talks And Talks: Are You Listening?

rash and rainbow tarotI have a lot of energy moving through me and some of it is expressing itself through an itchy rash on my arms and hands. Not sure how clearly you can see it in this photo but believe me when it goes into ultra itchiness it can seem almost unbearable. I will see how this unfolds and let you know if I can pass on anything useful. In the meantime here is a story I’m re-blogging as a great example of how the body can give us very clear messages in the most amazing fashion. On this particular occasion understanding the message provided almost instant healing! Read on:

heartchakravenus

It would have been towards the end of 2003 when I was involved in intense shamanic training in bodywork and breathwork, that I experienced this rash in  a very intense form. I went to a talk by Nityama, a tantric master, just hugging him is enough to trigger an orgasmic state, I got a lot out of his talk on conscious relationships and it got me thinking about the relationship that I had supposedly ended just recently.It was someone I had a deep bond with and love for, but it was definitely not a conscious relationship, I had ended it because I knew it was doomed but he was still coming to my bed, it can be hard to let go as I’m sure you all know! At the end of that talk I knew I had to finish it completely but a week later I still hadn’t done anything about it.

Shantam Nityama

Shantam Nityama

Then a day or two after a bodywork session this rash started to develop on my face, it was intensely itchy and I had little pustules that wept at night so I had to have a towel on my pillow. I still went to work, life modelling and working in a bookshop, I was determined to work out what the rash was telling me so I refused to suppress it with medication. This went on for four days and then I was talking with my dear buddy Ulli on the phone about it, and we were discussing the significance of where it was occurring on my body, she said, “What is you’re not facing?”

breakup-heart

The penny dropped and as soon as I hung up on her I rang my ex and asked him to come visit, he wasn’t surprised when I said we had to finish completely, there was a sense of relief on both our parts. I went to bed that night and when I woke up the rash was well on the way to healing, I had got the message and taken appropriate action.The message isn’t always as clear as on that occasion, but the body is always talking to us, and it has a deep wisdom we would be wise to tap into. In order to access this space it is necessary to do clearing on the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual levels of our being. I’ve been engaged in this process since the beginning of 2000 but the good news is that for some of you it will be much quicker, I have had a lot of damage to clear which is often the case for those of us engaged in the healing arts.

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Either way it is so worth doing, life just gets better and better, there is more joy, pleasure and fun to be had, in fact it’s infinite!! So go ahead and follow your bliss, that’s my plan!

Stepping Into My Power And Being Seen.

ballet girlI’ve always been a performer, from ballet classes at the age of six to a degree in performing arts in my early twenties. My brother and I used to recite Banjo Patterson’s “The Man From Ironbark” which we knew off by heart, and David would sing “Me And Bobby McGee” in his sweet, not yet broken voice. If there was an opportunity to step into the spotlight I was always ready to jump in, so you might be excused for feeling a tad confused when I say that I have had huge issues with ‘being seen’.

public-speakingThe thing is when you’re playing a character on stage you’re not actually being yourself. You may well draw upon aspects of who you are but it isn’t really you at all. And somehow that is so much easier than standing up in front of a whole bunch of people and speaking to them as Kerry Laizans. But that’s the more obvious stuff, the desire to stay hidden operates at much more subtle levels of our being. There was a period in my life about thirteen years ago when I was meeting lots of new people as I established a new life in a new city. It didn’t happen with everyone, but there were certain people who I kept meeting over and over again and each time they would behave as though they were meeting me for the first time.

higher selfNot everyone responded in the same way but it was clear that I was sending out the message, “Don’t see me”, and some people received it and were most obliging! It would happen to the point of ridiculousness , someone who had met me so many times that still not knowing me was kind of crazy. So being at The Joining Gathering as a presenter a couple of weeks ago represented a bit of a milestone as I step more and more into my power. And how did I get there? It’s been a long and hard road and much of the healing has been about clearing out the negative material that was obscuring my view of my larger self.

You really do have the answers within, it isn’t just some cliche, the jewel that you are simply has mud covering many of the facets that represent all that you could be. So time to start cleaning and polishing so you can discover that bigger perspective that your higher self can offer. Life will continue to be challenging at times but I guarantee you will have a whole lot more fun along the way.

Namaste!

Food Forests Are Fun- And Good For You!

cartoon-bugFor those of us in the southern hemisphere who are experiencing winter, you might be feeling those bugs dancing around you, waiting for an opportunity to make you sick. I’ve gone for whole winters without getting sick but nothing wrong with a bit of a workout for the immune system every now and then. And when you do need a bit of extra help you may look no further than nature where all kinds of fruits abound.

Juicy orange

I am feeling particularly grateful to the citrus fruits at the moment, lemon and orange juice brewed up with honey, cinnamon, nutmeg, garlic and ginger. Add a good helping of some fine single malt whiskey once you have taken your slowly simmered medicine off the stove and the alchemy is complete! That’s my recipe for a hot toddy, I don’t remember who I got it from but I do know that it is wonderful for colds and flu. And the fine brew we made came from fruit on the trees here at our latest house sit, abundance comes in many forms and this is certainly bounteous nature at her best!

hot-toddy

I’m not sure about some of the garlic but the ginger came from a lovely lady at my Sunday market who sells strawberries, avocados and other yummy things. The honey comes from my local co-op and is raw, so my medicine for my cough was made with very fine ingredients! And when I sent my Beloved out for the whiskey I was happy when he came back with a good bottle, nice and smooth. It’s a funny thing but the only time I ever really want whiskey is when I’m sick with a cold or bug of some description. For me it really is medicine, does a wonderful job of healing and in winter it’s nice to be so hot, but you wouldn’t want to be drinking it all the time.

winter fruit

So if you are in winter at the moment consider whether your immune system might need a boost, when there is a lot of fruit on the trees sometimes even organic can be quite cheap, certainly no more than the commercial fruit. In fact whatever season you are currently inhabiting may well be rich with all the nutrition you need. Nature does seem to balance supply and demand quite well if treated with respect, if you have the opportunity plant a food forest where you live!

I like the sound of that!

Burning In A Sea Of Confusion.

inner-fireWell there’s good news and bad, whatever was in my neck has definitely gone, but my bladder is flaring up again. The medicine circle was beautiful as always and I received the understanding that I had shifted something in my body and that it was gone. I also got the message that I need to move my body more often in dance as well as yoga. Messages from spirit often tell us things we already know, gentle reminders of the treasure of knowledge that we carry within ourselves.

I asked for physical healing in my circle and so I am wondering where the bladder fits into this picture. I recently cleared a layer of very dark stuff which I thought the bladder infection was a physical manifestation of but here it is again bringing my attention to something that needs healing. So either it’s something new or I am meeting a deeper layer of the same energies.

pain

I can feel resistance to looking at what this is about and as I sit here I can feel anger in the burning down below, there is a part of me that just wants everything to be fine without having to look at anything. This resistance seems to be manifesting through my computer which is behaving in the strangest fashion, the keyboard has gone mad and I wasn’t able to write my post much less fix the problem. I am writing this on another computer and really struggling to make myself keep going, like a part of me wants to give up.

There is an aspect of me that doesn’t want to be here which I’ve worked with before this, maybe I am meeting a deeper layer of it. Whatever the answer may be I will have to explore it in future posts, I can only keep up this much coherence for a limited time. With any luck I will be able to soon report some clarity on this issue, until then I shall sail the sea of confusion, trusting that the energetic currents will take me where I need to go.

stormy-sea

And herbs for the infection without a doubt, this is one of those times when I need to take care of the physical directly as well as find the place from which this issue has come. I asked for physical healing, this dis-ease may well be a part of that process………….be careful what you ask for…….the Gods may just give it to you!