This flu has finally shifted enough that I managed a full day of training for work today, hallelujah! I’m tired but also feeling very grounded after getting out of the home environment into somewhere completely different. We had an awesome facilitator and it was great to focus on something other than being sick and pissed off. This rotten flu is still in my body and may be there as a low-level thing for a bit but I do feel more myself than I have done in three weeks. Three weeks! I cannot even begin to imagine what it is like for people who are sick for months or years at a time. This experience will certainly expand my empathy for those who have health problems that go on and on, so easy to get stuck in a loop.
My loop has been broken and while I will attend to the issues that have been annoying me so much I feel like I can let go of it all until then. Holding on to things that you can’t do anything about is very counter productive but also very human. And maybe as my health continues to improve I might be able to do some fruitful investigation of some of the feelings that have been getting triggered so strongly for me. There are genuine issues that I am quite angry about but I am aware also that those same issues have triggered other deeper feelings. And when stuff comes up it is always a golden opportunity to shed more of the excess baggage that gets in the way of me being my wondrous larger self!
So a much more optimistic post this week, who knows what wonders the next week will bring as I move back into a healthier state of mind. And mindfulness and self-care too to make sure I don’t overspend my returning energy.
I begin to ponder the last 6 or 7 days where I have been experiencing physical health issues at the same time as my Beloved and I move into our cat, dog and alpaca house sit on acreage. Some of it is a bit dream like as I rest a body that simply doesn’t want to move, a healing stupor and sometimes sleep where it is easy to drop in deeply. Thus re-charged I do what is needful and no more as we transition into yet another kind of life, one that is complicated by a lot of animals. Dogs and cats as children can be lovely, indeed charming, but they can also be a bit neurotic at times.
For my Beloved this is family territory but it’s a bit easier for me, I can come in and simply adjust as I do in any house sit, no particular triggers here for me. He is also the one doing the alpaca stuff but I will help a bit more as I get stronger. With the bacteria colonising my bladder to the antibiotics that I had to take for what seemed like forever and the dodgy shoulder, my body has been going through rather a lot! So the night of our first full day here I had no dinner and then gradually consumed seven large cloves of garlic. I felt a bit spacy and light but it wasn’t difficult. I was very glad not to have to chew the garlic up, instead I simply chopped up each clove finely and swallowed it with water.
The next day I continued to fast and drank lots of water and healing herbal teas. It was a trance like day where I watched a lot of Charmed episodes and made sure I was nicely rugged up. I didn’t sweat a lot or stink of garlic except for my breath and that faded as the day wore on. The idea is that the garlic attracts the right kind of bacteria to come and inhabit my gut and my bladder. And fasting for a day is not a bad thing to do as long as you don’t have to do any kind of hard physical labour. I did think about food and want it with my mind but my body was actually quite ok with not eating anything. And I did have some good teas including the one that my naturopath made up for me especially for my bladder issues.
So here I am and the things I would usually be doing every week like my choir for example, are too far away for me to go. So I have this time available to explore whatever I want to and I have begun by finally doing the garlic cure. Right after nuking all the bacteria in my gut and bladder with medicine’s heavy weaponry. Golly it was nice to eat again today, starting with a delicious and healthy green smoothie! Then a late breakfast with a great coffee out and an adventure out into rural parts further out. Oh and I am taking a very good certified organic probiotic daily to help in the healthy re-colonisation of my gut and bladder.
Aho for a simple country life!
My Beloved weighs fifteen kilos less than I do, a skinny little runt who must have hollow legs because he certainly doesn’t eat any less! To my fond eyes he is the perfect size but there is a part of me that can’t help feeling a bit envious at his ability to eat everything in sight without seeming consequence. Of course the trick is always to find the best diet for your particular body type and if there are two of you then a certain amount of compromise is probably required.
It’s the age-old question for those of us women who don’t quite fit the ideal laid out in the current cultural archetypes, is it about health or how you think you should look? Health has been the paramount question for me but lately indulgence has been a bit of a byword and that can definitely go too far at times. The thing is when you improve your diet you do become more sensitive, no matter how often I notice this in my response to food I still seem to need reminders.
At the end of the day I want to be happy more than anything else, pretty much the way I am right now except that I’ve noticed it keeps getting better. That’s all pleasure by the way, our capacity for opening to this kind of energy I do believe is infinite. Follow your bliss sounds shallow but it can actually be fairly deep, and if you truly relax and surrender you can go beyond whatever ‘stuff’ you may have picked up along the way. RELAX and enjoy the journey, the one thing you can be sure of is change so try and get comfortable in the flow of life. RESPONSIBILITY is being able to respond to the shifts and changes that inevitably are a part of following our flow, it can be FUN too!
So I think I will be fairly relaxed with my food, just watch the sugar thing and try to have a few green smoothies every week. Relaxation is a bit underrated as a quality but I think it is the key to so many of the ways in which to move into new ways of being in the world. So I will continue to spend lots of time with my Beloved, that’s always relaxing whatever we’re doing! And we are going to the joining gathering very soon to present our first workshop together, very exciting!
Remember to have fun!
For those of us in the southern hemisphere who are experiencing winter, you might be feeling those bugs dancing around you, waiting for an opportunity to make you sick. I’ve gone for whole winters without getting sick but nothing wrong with a bit of a workout for the immune system every now and then. And when you do need a bit of extra help you may look no further than nature where all kinds of fruits abound.
I am feeling particularly grateful to the citrus fruits at the moment, lemon and orange juice brewed up with honey, cinnamon, nutmeg, garlic and ginger. Add a good helping of some fine single malt whiskey once you have taken your slowly simmered medicine off the stove and the alchemy is complete! That’s my recipe for a hot toddy, I don’t remember who I got it from but I do know that it is wonderful for colds and flu. And the fine brew we made came from fruit on the trees here at our latest house sit, abundance comes in many forms and this is certainly bounteous nature at her best!
I’m not sure about some of the garlic but the ginger came from a lovely lady at my Sunday market who sells strawberries, avocados and other yummy things. The honey comes from my local co-op and is raw, so my medicine for my cough was made with very fine ingredients! And when I sent my Beloved out for the whiskey I was happy when he came back with a good bottle, nice and smooth. It’s a funny thing but the only time I ever really want whiskey is when I’m sick with a cold or bug of some description. For me it really is medicine, does a wonderful job of healing and in winter it’s nice to be so hot, but you wouldn’t want to be drinking it all the time.
So if you are in winter at the moment consider whether your immune system might need a boost, when there is a lot of fruit on the trees sometimes even organic can be quite cheap, certainly no more than the commercial fruit. In fact whatever season you are currently inhabiting may well be rich with all the nutrition you need. Nature does seem to balance supply and demand quite well if treated with respect, if you have the opportunity plant a food forest where you live!
I like the sound of that!
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I started my last post talking about food as medicine, it’s been a while since I’ve talked about health from the point of view of what we eat but it is something I am always thinking about. From Junk Food Queen to Miss Organic Raw Chocolate that’s me! Truly though, if I can change my automatic settings to healthy and actually tune into what my body really wants and needs, as opposed to the old taste buds, then anyone can.
The thing is that if you go down this road you will become more sensitive, I can’t get away with munching down on the sort of crap that I used to eat by the bucketful. The reason this is on my mind right now is the experience that I had on my last two overnight shifts, as you can imagine this can be a challenging time to be awake and working. I always have a good dinner before I head off to a 10pm start, but there are times when I want to nibble on something even though I’m not hungry. That’s when I reach for the cheap cream biscuits that are always there, and usually I get away with just that little bit. But last night I did that very thing and it all seemed fine until about 45 minutes before I finished at 4am I started to feel really sick.
I navigated it by taking some time and going to the toilet, and then focused on taking deep slow breaths, slowly it began to pass but I am now quite determined never to eat those biscuits ever again. If necessary I will bring my own crappy commercial chocolate to eat, the question is why does it seem so necessary to have something processed and full of sugar when I’m not an addict anymore? I think there is some association with the state of being tired and wanting to go home so it is probably a remnant of the old comfort food habit that I had in a big way for so much of my earlier life.
Something to ponder on but not to take too seriously, I can safely say that ninety per cent of my current diet is very high quality and largely organic. When I eat at my local club the food is organic where possible and always fresh and good, the vegan cafe down the way does the best raw cakes on the planet! So if my body will allow me the odd bit of crappy food well and good, but cream biscuits are definitely off the menu!
Raw Key Lime Tart.
When I hear someone like David Wolfe talking about the latest super food he recommends, I often wonder how people on very low incomes are supposed to afford this kind of product. If you’ve ever looked at David’s web site you will know that what he has on offer is no doubt very high quality indeed, but very expensive, for someone who is feeding a family prohibitively so. The same goes for organic food too, sure you don’t have to eat as much because you are getting more nutrition, but it’s still too expensive for those who are not earning fairly high incomes.
So it’s nice to see a company creating a product that is free to all, and has the added bonus of actually creating renewable energy while it’s being used. Enter TGO- The Great Outdoor Gym Company, you could mistake it as a kid’s playground from a distance, but up close the gym they have created in Hull in the UK is a marvel and looks like just as much fun as you might have in a playground. You can weigh yourself, see how tall you are and help yourself to the hand bike or cross trainer at any time of the day or night, you also get to see how much power you are creating!
Yes that’s right, these exercise machines generate power as they are used, which goes into the local grid, apparently the average person will create between 50-100 watts of electricity, even more if they are very fit. So you can help save the planet at the same time that you’re improving your health! This would have to be one of the coolest ideas I’ve come across in ages, if we had one in my town it might even help me to get that cardio fitness that is the one element lacking in my personal program.
Have a look at this video, I suspect you will be as excited and inspired as I was:
As I write this for tomorrow night I am having to breathe into the deep nausea that lies in my belly, it does seem to help but the sickness comes and goes in waves. Yes, you guessed it, more illness rolling in as I continue to push the envelope, this time it’s a gastro attack and believe me you don’t want to know the details. I probably shouldn’t be even writing this post but I can be extremely stubborn about things I really want to do so here it goes.
I have started to use some of the techniques in the course I am doing and I thought I would start by asking the question, how can I make money as a writer and see what messages spirit sends me. If there has been an answer I haven’t seen it but I’ve been so busy my focus isn’t always as sharp as it could be, what I do think has occurred is that some deep part of me is very shaken up by what I am attempting and this sickness is trying to stop me.
The day that all this is happening is very interesting too, it’s the first day of November, All Hallows Day, also known as the Day of the Dead. I had planned on doing a ritual with my staff but all I could do in the end was lie in bed and try to sleep, hoping the nausea would go away. It is a day to honour the ancestors but some believe that there are also evil spirits around and that one should stay indoors, which is what I ended up doing. It’s a significant day for me because of an experience I had five years ago in the Blue Mountains, it is quite a story and I told it in four parts beginning with “The Birth Canal” on March 8 2013 if you missed it and would like to check it out.
A Gathering of Evil Spirits.
But the only obstruction around at the moment is me, it might be nice to project on to evil spirits as being responsible but it won’t help me get what I want. So I will finish this post and get myself to bed, programming myself to wake up in good health with lots of energy to prepare for my toning circle. This time we are working with the energies of the New Moon in Scorpio plus there is a solar eclipse, Scorpio is deeply transformative and the eclipse helps us to see where we are resistant to change. So that probably also makes sense in the light of what is happening in this moment, but more on all of this in another post, time for me to prepare for my rest.
Love and transformational blissings to you all!
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I really do appreciate my good health, especially after my immune system has spent pretty much a whole week at the gym! The pleasure in being embodied is even sharper and everything seems to flow, just as well considering the busy week that I will be navigating in the river of my life. The sense of being tuned in to the flow of spirit is also feeling clearer and there is a sense of joy in being alive that comes from being connected to all things.
You know those moments when something pops out of your mouth unexpectedly, it isn’t an expression that you’ve ever used before and you don’t really know where it came from. But for the person you are speaking to it really hits the spot, that happened for me with someone I was counselling and it really made my night! I’d like to share it with you if I may:
Be clear about what you want to manifest.
Then give it over to a higher power and that’s what gives it WINGS!
It’s the bit about the wings that is a new expression for me, but I think it will now be something I use a lot, for myself and for others. Those moments when we are relaxed and open to possibility are when we truly allow ourselves to become a part of life’s flow, it’s a kind of channeling and often happens when we are focused on something other than ourselves. Or if you are very tired, it’s never a bad thing for my client if I am exhausted when giving a reading, the veils become even thinner then, although I don’t particularly recommend it as a technique for developing your psychic abilities!
The bottom line here is, relaxation is the key to so many things, you can build up to a climax through tension and it can be pretty amazing, but if you find the ecstatic flow in the valley your climax will go for much longer. And while this can obviously apply to sex, it has much broader applications in an inspired and creative life!
Ahhhhhhh………..don’t you just love life!!!!!
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