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Yearning Is The Key To Love.

consciouslove“Your yearning for love is so powerful that I can feel your heart all the time. When you openly love me I can feel your heart, but I can also feel your heart’s yearning when you are angry or sad. To me your heart is always calling even though sometimes I am unable to open with you because your emotions divert me. I may be afraid or distracted and you may be upset, but  still I feel your heart’s yearning. And I need to feel your heart. Your yearning draws me back into love’s depth.  Your yearning is my invitation into your heart.”

Dear Lover, David Deida, Sounds True, Boulder CO, 2005, p 11.

I think I am beginning to truly understand the power that a woman has in love-making when she stays in her heart and radiates lots of yummy energy. And actually it isn’t just when you are connecting with each other sexually that this process can be happening, just as David Deida says in the above quote, your man needs to feel your heart. Be in that place all the time, when you are washing dishes or taking out the rubbish, if times are tough you will navigate them better when you stay in your heart.

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“Deep heart yearning is not a problem to be solved, but a divine pull to open as devotional surrender, as wide as all, now. With or without a man, whether or not you feel worthy, you can offer your heart’s openness  through your yearning, right now, as you are.”

David Deida, p 12.

For me this quote sums up in many ways my entire spiritual path, particularly since I embarked on shamanic techniques, ceremony, sound, dance, psychedelics, bodywork and breath work, for the last 13 years. For ten years I took myself on many journeys that all ultimately led to the same place, my own heart, loving myself. In my wonderful home I have re-built the last part of my self-esteem and let go of much of my old patterning in relationship.

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Now I am doing it with my man and while the new beginning, the dawning chapter of my opening is a little daunting at times, still we navigate it with good communication and a lot of love. My breasts and in particular the nipples are doorways to expand the heart that open up the channels so that sexual energy can flow, this feels good and can enhance your well-being at any time of the day or night! There are many resources out there my sisters and loving men if you want to find out more about this phenomenon, Diana Richardson’s  Tantric Orgasm for women is a wonderful book that talks about this.

But the best research is experiential so go to it my friends, for men on their own the recipe may vary but there is great information out there for all beings wanting to fully express their life energy in the world. Don’t settle for anything less, the path may seem a bit rocky at times but always worth it and never boring, the further I go along the path of the heart the more it becomes an ecstatic journey anyway.

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Until further notice celebrate everything! From Saint Germain through Azena Ramada.

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I Laughed So Hard I Wet Myself!

bumpy roadI almost decided to take a holiday on this post but my over conscientious  and obsessive nature won’t let me let you down. So here I am trying to make sense as I am being driven along a sometimes bumpy road by my Beloved, as we embark on day three of some much-needed time off. Ahhhh………..at last the freeway is offering a smoother passage………so what do I have to share with you today?

Well the first thing that comes to mind s that laughter is the best medicine of all, helpless laughter over the silliest things and I feel like a child. A child in the best sense of the word, present and open to whatever life may bring to me and full of wonder and joy at the gifts that I already enjoy in such bountiful helpings. Laughing so hard I actually pee myself, embarrassing but true, you see how much trust I’ve developed in life! Well, would you admit to the world that you wet your pants!!

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My heart, mind and soul feel incredibly open as I continue to move into this amazing new chapter of my life, my spirit dances and my intuition sings. The mind does its best to keep up with the larger me but this morning its feeling a little overwhelmed and struggling to be coherent, much less entertaining or profound.

AN INTERMISSION WHILE WE WALK THE CITY STREETS SEEKING A GOWN TO ADORN GALADRIEL FOR MY FABULOUS 50TH BIRTHDAY PARTY, FOR THE UNINITIATED THAT’S A LORD OF THE RINGS THING. GALADRIEL IS RATHER SERIOUS IN THE FILM SO I’M GOING TO BE HER TEENAGE WILD CHILD SELF, THE PERIOD IN HER LIFE WHEN THE FIRE IN HER BELLY MATCHED THE HAIR ON HER HEAD!

Here's Galadriel being all serious!

Here’s Galadriel being all serious!

I’m back and writing as we drive along, this is the first time I’ve walked city streets for a whole year and it was a tad overwhelming. Since moving to the country I am much more sensitive, it’s less about all the buildings and cars and traffic lights and more to do with the thronging energies of people and devices milling about in a sea of chaos.

If you want to develop your sensitivity and still live in an urban environment then I suggest you consider carefully what kinds of practices might support you in remaining open without becoming overcome by the sheer  volume of energetic traffic. Meditation is always helpful and there are as many ways of doing it as there are people. Any activity where you are firmly ensconced in your heart will give you protection and help you to perceive the beauty of life in whatever environment you are in.

The analogy for that state of consciousness that the American Indians call “Beauty’s Way”, is being in love. It’s a pretty nice way of going there but luckily it isn’t the only doorway, I’m driving the Love Bug quite blissfully at the moment but it is by no means the first time that I’ve travelled that particular inner landscape. I’ve found it through friendships, dance, yoga and meditation, I always joke about toning being my favourite way of getting ‘bent’, I’m sure there are endorphins that get triggered when we are doing things that we love that bring us into openness and joy.

Can you imagine a world full of open-hearted, joyful folk, all expressing their uniqueness in the world and creating a global community of co-operation and mutual care? I can, and the more of us that hold this vision in our heart space, the more likely we are to get there!

Shanti, shanti, shanti………peace, peace, peace.

The Light Of Love Shatters The Past.

Phoenix_RisingHeld in the light of love I long to drown in that sweet ocean, to let go of everyday cares and to simply be the hunger that rises in me like the legendary serpent nestling at the base of my spine. Energy moves in answer to my thoughts and sensation sings through this physical creation as pure bliss releases the old patterns, blinding white light scours out the ancient scars that feed upon current circumstance. Intense pleasure shatters the dark structures that have held such fear and misery, until only the light remains, a rebirth into new life as the phoenix rises from the ashes in all her glory!

Follow your bliss was a thought that once was so alien even as I knew the truth of it, like a stubborn fool I stuck to the path of the heart even as my very foundations were ripped out and set on fire. The fool that I was understood that to let go of all the stuff that did not hold me dear would not be possible without first tearing down the tower of old beliefs. The demolition crew with their triggers and jack hammers came marching in wearing the faces of those I have loved, those that I have feared, the teachers that were obstacles on my road, paving the way to enlightenment and joy.

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But to enter into that ecstatic place I first had to sit with that which gave rise to pain, to doubts and fears, the guilt that ate away my sense of self until only a shell remained. And a strongly burning heart space that knew its own divinity even as it became lost in the dust of the construction site, don’t forget to wear your hard hat, you never know what’s going to drop out of the sky! Dropping the old stories along with the armour the rebuilding can begin, and here patience has been much-needed as one piece after another is carefully fitted together.

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At last I am whole! More or less, more than enough to be getting on with and best of all, willing and able to receive the maximum amount of pleasure that this body can handle. And it can handle quite a bit, if you are ever in the space of not surrendering to absolute pleasure in a safe environment you might want to look at what the sensation is bringing up for you. Yet another golden opportunity to let go of stuff you don’t need, and with bliss leading the way the future can only be bright and sunny!

Hooray!!!!!!!

Enjoy this beautiful love song, my current favourite from Deva Premal and Miten: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZL8m_wj1li8

Pirouetting Upon The Edge Of The Pyramid.

If you aren’t a dancer then perhaps I should explain that a pirouette is when one is spinning on one toe, possibly quite a few in a row, so doing it on the edge of a pyramid is a physical challenge indeed! Esoterically it is full of symbolism, many of the conspiracy theories have pyramids in the story and they can’t all be wrong, let’s face it, there is definitely something rotten in the state of Denmark.  Someone mentioned Egypt to me today when I was at market, a brief spontaneous reading I received although I am probably more drawn to ancient structures in South America, there are pyramids there too.

pyramidconspiracySo the pyramid may be the sometimes precarious balance as the corrupt and power-hungry influences try to maintain a status quo that does it best to keep large numbers in poverty. Dancing and  refusing to toe the line and do things the way that you are supposed to, living a full life and being happy as you explore the inner realms, opening up as I become the Love that I AM. All this and more keeps me safe from the cultural engineers mentioned in my last post!

For me the pyramid is also a symbol of balance and grace, a gateway to other dimensions, the journeys that excite me the most tend to happen within my own awareness. Of course sharing that space is quite delicious too, bring in another unique awareness and it seems to expand by much more than a simple doubling, more like to the power of 10 at times. That’s with the energy of love powering the process, when you are in your heart and happy things tend to flow more smoothly, and if they don’t you tend to handle it much better.

Not perfection at all, instead the thrill of the edge as you spin and spin, seeing myriad possibilities in every turn, knowing that there are hands ready to steady you if you lose your balance. Feeling safe enough to let go of whatever is no longer serving you, letting go…………and transforming.

Shanti, shanti, shanti…………….

I Stand In Utter Nakedness Before The God Of Love.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERALetting go of pain in lover’s bliss, my waters flow as the memories release, of ancient hurt done long ago, energy moves, and thus it is so. I am held and I am safe, I am held and I am safe. I rise and fall with my breath, my heart filled to overflowing with tender care as I allow the tensions of life’s lessons to fall away, along with all the stories that I have stored and brought again and again to the classroom.

Surely it is time to enter upon the glorious new unfolding that opens out from this place of letting go, of deep release and feelings like rivers that flow eventually to the ocean, the source of all that is. Two travellers are we, determined to heal all of our sorrows, our song is a frequency that clears out the shadow and the shame.

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Transformation through utter nakedness as I stand before my Beloved, nothing but truth between us and a love that knows no bounds, can not be contained or held within prison bars. My heart opens and my soul becomes a song that takes the slumbering caterpillar and turns it into the butterfly that was always present, flying  into the glorious dawn with wings of many colours.

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And so I am reborn over and over again, each layer dissolving to reveal the light that is within me, that flows through me………… that holds my essence which never dies. An eternal being living many lives, bringing all the threads together now as the old age comes to its final ending, preparing to sing the stories of humanity’s growth into a new form. Bringing peace and harmony to Mother Earth and all who live within her sheltering arms………….shanti, shanti, shanti……peace, peace, peace.

Festival Time Brings Sustenance For The Soul.

Scottish strains infuse the air as the lightning flashes and the rain comes down, a passerby is captured by the urge to jig as she gambols along the path. Jalapeno pepper still warming my belly and my lips, thinking of my lover as a young couple canoodle in the shelter of the awning. One moment of so many and not quite even halfway through, so many riches to draw upon, legs still a bit sore from last night’s dancing. Another world, another time, family and community all wrapped up in one, world music, social issues, fun and frivolity, from the sacred to the profane it’s a well sauced sandwich that satisfies the soul.

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As I settle into the Woodford groove that is the magical merging of so much diversity, I find myself doing the strange etherial shuffle between no-time and the time that says that Ohm Shanti is doing their thing at the Blue Lotus, or the candle lighting ceremony at the Sacred Labyrinth is on at 6.30pm. I move in and out of varying threads from which I weave the tapestry of an experience too complex for just one image to encompass, it’s more like a film, the kind you can watch over and over again and still see new detail.

And then there is the address of my campsite, I am between Route 66 and Your own crazy way, just down from Absolutely the wrong way! To get there you go along the Long and winding road, it really is another world and one I would like to live in all the time. I am reminded of a Swiss woman who came into our stall when mum and I used to sell clothes and party stuff at the festival, she had been picked up from the airport by friends and brought straight to Woodford. It was her first experience of being in Australia and she was wide-eyed with wonder, she turned to us and said, “Is it like this everywhere?” We smiled and said, “Oh, how we wish it was!”

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That is my wish, that all the world may wake up to the beauty and wonder that is life on this planet, the diversity amongst peoples, plants, animals and everything else is quite astounding and fills my heart and soul with such joy!

Ohm Shanti, shanti, shanti…………peace, peace, peace.

Love, Festivals, And Being In The Moment: Woodford!

What a strange feeling to be mostly entering the future in thoughts that are focused intention, entering sacred space and ‘seeing’ my desired outcomes, performing healing upon myself. It isn’t that I have banished future and past from my awareness, but it is the present moment that dominates, it is the only reality from moment to moment. It does really feel a bit odd, not at all what I’m used to, no future soap operas being directed by my dear friend and ally Fay Fairytale, she has now taken over the movie that plays regularly in the temple and her imagination is a valued resource.

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And so much of the past has been shed, the charge has gone and messy emotional constructs have melted away or morphed into shining geometrical holograms. There are still bits of things that I’m not quite ready to let go of too, annoying but I know from experience that giving myself a hard time over it will not help the matter. I am a work in progress enjoying the journey, and doing my best to follow a spiritual path in the world as well as have a bloody good time!

The trick will be to keep some kind of focused meditation going through the holiday season, that’s where flexibility comes in as well as the concept of infusing everything that I do with spirit. Fill my cells with luminous light from the central sun, mix in the deep reds coming up from the earth with the green of the heart and you have the colours for christmas, base, heart and crown chakras.

Woodford Festival Poster 2013

Woodford Festival Poster 2013

You will have to wait for my inspirations from six days of hanging out at the Woodford Folk Festival: http://www.woodfordfolkfestival.com/,  fabulous for music as well as dance, talks , workshops and classes. I am not going to be sitting on my computer when I can be out there experiencing life in vivid colour, hanging out with my peace-loving gorgeous community, in fact as you are reading this I am doing exactly that!

Love, mung beans and community………..greetings from Woodford.

Here is a promo clip of the festival: http://www.youtube.com/woodfordfolkfestival