I’ve always been a performer, from ballet classes at the age of six to a degree in performing arts in my early twenties. My brother and I used to recite Banjo Patterson’s “The Man From Ironbark” which we knew off by heart, and David would sing “Me And Bobby McGee” in his sweet, not yet broken voice. If there was an opportunity to step into the spotlight I was always ready to jump in, so you might be excused for feeling a tad confused when I say that I have had huge issues with ‘being seen’.
The thing is when you’re playing a character on stage you’re not actually being yourself. You may well draw upon aspects of who you are but it isn’t really you at all. And somehow that is so much easier than standing up in front of a whole bunch of people and speaking to them as Kerry Laizans. But that’s the more obvious stuff, the desire to stay hidden operates at much more subtle levels of our being. There was a period in my life about thirteen years ago when I was meeting lots of new people as I established a new life in a new city. It didn’t happen with everyone, but there were certain people who I kept meeting over and over again and each time they would behave as though they were meeting me for the first time.
Not everyone responded in the same way but it was clear that I was sending out the message, “Don’t see me”, and some people received it and were most obliging! It would happen to the point of ridiculousness , someone who had met me so many times that still not knowing me was kind of crazy. So being at The Joining Gathering as a presenter a couple of weeks ago represented a bit of a milestone as I step more and more into my power. And how did I get there? It’s been a long and hard road and much of the healing has been about clearing out the negative material that was obscuring my view of my larger self.
You really do have the answers within, it isn’t just some cliche, the jewel that you are simply has mud covering many of the facets that represent all that you could be. So time to start cleaning and polishing so you can discover that bigger perspective that your higher self can offer. Life will continue to be challenging at times but I guarantee you will have a whole lot more fun along the way.
I just watched an inspirational video that I would like to share with you, it comes from Kiesha Crowther who calls herself “Little Grandmother”. Her name was vaguely familiar to me but I don’t really know who she is so I thought I would have a quick look to see what information I could find out about her. When I put her into Google I got a couple of you tube videos in German of all things, but for the most part it seems to be all about what a hoax she is. At that point I decided to let go of the research and just focus on her message, I’m writing this post because I found it really inspiring.
If you resonate with something that you hear, if it moves you and helps you to get excited and passionate then it doesn’t really matter who is delivering the message. Getting caught up in gossip and scandal is not the kind of vibration that is going to change the world in a positive way. Which doesn’t mean that I condone dishonest or unethical behaviour, if someone is doing wrong then by all means take them to account for it. Do it from your heart but take whatever action is appropriate to the situation.
So what is her message? She talks about what a miracle it is when a person remembers who they really are, the truth that we are all magnificent divine creators. She is speaking of what some describe as our higher self, it’s the bit that knows we are inextricably interconnected to everything, and that our actions ripple out into those networks and often create a much bigger effect than we could imagine. When you consider the immense complexities of modern life and the struggle to survive that is the reality for so many, it truly is a miracle that anyone does remember these truths.
A miracle and a blessing, this knowledge is growing and in my humble opinion it is unstoppable. Even those who are most implicated in creating misery and pain for others on this physical plane, are capable of this shift. As Keisha says, this beautiful planet that we have all incarnated upon is sacred, as are we. It’s time for all of us to remember who we are.
Here is an exquisite song from “Omkara” which is all about remembering our divine nature, let it take you on a beautiful journey, enjoy!
The balance is very fine for me at the moment, two nights of not enough sleep and the addition of some intensive study into an already busy schedule and I find myself with a cold having another go at me. After a heavenly sleep last night I woke early and could feel that my body was not feeling strong at all, scratchy throat and runny nose still going on. So I decided to practice the meditation from yesterdays seminar and to check in with my higher-self as to the wisdom of going to a vigorous yoga class, especially as I have an overnight shift this evening. I got the answer I expected which was don’t go, hate to miss a class but the message from my body is very clear, I would have to be a complete idiot to miss it. Truth be told I didn’t even really have to ask in the meditation, that was simply confirmation of what I already knew.
How often do we ignore these communications from our bodies and from the realm of spirit? If you are looking they are everywhere, in my last counselling session I had wolf come to me as a totem so I had a bit of a look at its symbolism. There are a whole range of meanings but the one that struck me today is that they represent listening to your inner voice, sensitivity and strong psychic abilities. And the other animal that came in was the Owl which is also strongly linked to extra sensory perceptions. Now I do work as a psychic so no surprises there, but it also reflected the process I had just taken myself through in deciding whether or not to go to yoga.
If you aren’t familiar with listening to these signals it may require some practice to be able to interpret the messages but it is so worth the investment of time and energy. And there will still be times when you are not sure, no matter how good you become at tuning in. That is the mystery which will always be present as long as we allow ourselves to remain open to life in all its wonder, and the world really is such a wonderful place!
Here’s Louis Armstrong singing about what a wonderful world we live in: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2VCwBzGdPM
Time for the next installment of the horror movie, starring your favourite heroine, that’s me! I don’t feel quite so funny about putting this experience in writing after a phone call I received from a woman who was referred to me by a client. The timing is pretty extraordinary, just after I have published a post about psychic attacks and the importance of getting the information out into the public domain, I hear a story eerily similar to my own. There are differences, but the essence is the same, she is being attacked by an unseen force which seems to be stronger at night and is very frightened for herself and her son.
This woman was obviously a ‘sensitive’ but had always run away from her visions in the past, finally there was something going on that she couldn’t ignore and I did my best to offer her guidance on what to do. I suggested she visualise a protective barrier around her and her son, and also to ask her guides or higher self to help keep her safe for the night. In an indigenous culture she would probably have been recognised for her gifts and trained to use them for the benefit of the community.
When we ignore the unseen realms and try to pretend that only the tangible world is real, there’s an enormous amount of knowledge that is being more or less thrown away. It’s like saying that the tip of the iceberg is the only thing that is real because that’s the part we can see, of course the bulk of it is below the surface, not unlike the conscious and unconscious parts of ourselves.
It really is time to wake up to the bigger picture, when we acknowledge the whole of life and our experiences how much richer will our world become! That vision is getting closer all the time, for some of us it is already becoming a reality, as more and more people awaken to the truth, as the world becomes a saner and happier place.
If you would like to know more about what a shaman does check out this article from “The Shaman’s Well”: http://www.shamanswell.org/shaman/what-is-a-shaman
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We get affected by each other’s energy fields all the time, picking up on other people’s stuff is a much more common occurrence than you might imagine. I am experiencing this at the moment, my ‘energy vampire’ is having another go, with my defenses down after a couple of nights of not enough sleep my immune system is affected, and one of the bugs going around has managed to gain a foothold. So I am resting and doing meditations where I hand over to my higher self who is once again doing work with my neural pathways to ensure that I am no longer vulnerable.
Neural pathways in the brain.
Sound like crazy science fiction? Sometimes it feels more like a horror film but it is very real, if you allow your intuition to grow into its natural state you will be surprised at the things you begin to pick up. Most people don’t give it any credence and are so numbed out by the drone culture, they have lost any sensitivity they might have once had. Children who show signs of such ability are usually told to stop being silly, or accused of telling lies or showing off.
In fact there is such a resistance to this aspect of our capacity as human beings, I’m having serious doubts about actually putting all this down as something that is happening to me. I go out on a limb all the time and am prepared to admit to some pretty embarrassing things, I mean I actually published a photo of me with my three front teeth missing, what a nightmare that was! Yet on this particular subject I feel really concerned that people will be put off by what I have to say. I’m like two people in one body, the rational one is saying, “People will think you are crazy and will stop following your posts!”, and the other is saying, “This is such important information, you MUST put it out there!”
So here I am, following my intuition as always, if you do think I’m crazy, I hope at least that you appreciate my honesty! And as Michael Frante says, “All the freaky people make the beauty of the world”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=580NWAdGaAo
Some of you may have read my post on emotional cording a short while back, I would like to give some feedback on that subject which may give you more ideas on the different ways one can navigate through such a process. I was cording with someone and finally reached a point where I had to do something about it, part of me wanted to hold on to the connection but it wasn’t healthy and it had to go!
I had been doing my cord cutting from time to time, but I knew it would always keep coming back, there were times when I cut the cord and could almost feel it beginning to reform straight away. This person was in my energy field a lot and because it was someone I liked it was hard to set a firm boundary, even though I knew it wasn’t really appropriate. By the way this is not an example of someone doing this deliberately, I’m quite sure it was unconscious and maybe one day I will tell them all about it and we’ll have a good laugh.
Just cutting the cords wasn’t going to do the job so I decided it was time to pull out the big guns, I did a trance journey where I connected to my higher self or entelechy. I asked them to help me, they are really a bigger and brighter version of yourself, they know you really well but they are also connected to the unity consciousness so their resources are much bigger. My entelechy did a neurological operation on my brain and all I had to do was relax into nothing, as much as I was able to. After this I no longer had the sense of those cords forming, it felt like something very tangible had been achieved with my process.
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin’s definition of entelechy, “it is inside of you, like the butterfly is inside of the caterpillar ….. the dynamic purpose that is coded in you.”
You are the acorn, your entelechy is the oak tree!
The real test was to be in the presence of that person again which didn’t happen for a while, when it did I was amazed at the difference. The charge that had been there was completely gone, there were still feelings that had always been there but the intense blast from the past was not there at all. It’s making the letting go which I always knew was the right thing, much easier to do, what a relief!
So if you are encountering particularly thorny problems, don’t forget that you have incredible resources inside you that may be able to help you. You need to be able to drop into an altered state of consciousness, so if that is not already on your list of gifts to grow, I suggest you get on to it right now. Jean Houston is a wonderful resource and she sometimes teaches online courses that can help you to learn how to do this. Her website is: www.jeanhouston.org/
I have my beautiful smile back! Not that I really lost it this time, the couple of times before that I have had problems with the bridge and crown the whole thing fell out and I had to go around with three teeth missing in the front of my mouth. Just to prove that I am prepared to bare myself on this blog, here is a picture of me with those missing teeth the first time it fell out in 2009, not a good picture of me either, but it probably reflects how I was feeling at the time.
On this occasion it actually went pretty smoothly, the bridge was twisted but it was still in place while I went to yoga and shopped and worked a shift on the crisis phone lines. I didn’t look forward to my two hours in the dentist chair, but I felt optimistic about the outcome, especially when the bridge came out as my lovely young dentist poked around upon my arrival in his domain. He and his assistant were light-hearted and fun while conveying competence, I received a pillow for my neck and was as comfortable and relaxed as one could be in the circumstances.
As I lay there I was hearing voices, if that bothers your scientific sensibility then by all means think of it as self-talk, a communication from the higher self, for me I don’t actually care where it comes from or who it might be. What matters is the feeling of confidence and trust that was conveyed to me, the voices said they were guiding my dentist to make sure he did the best possible job, and that he was very open to that kind of guidance. I could see energy around his head in the shape of a hat, a bit like the sort that the Mad Hatter wears in Alice in Wonderland.
So in the end the outcome is very close to the vision that I created, the price tag is a tad higher than I had hoped for, but in that respect I was probably doing a bit of the old wishful thinking magic, dentists are not quite as bad as lawyers but they still charge like wounded bulls!
So success in my process of manifestation, on, on to the next phase of heartful, loving, passionate life!