What a long way I’ve come in twenty years of exploring strange new inner frontiers, not that I can’t be taken aback or frightened, but I take my courage in both hands and learn how to navigate! I had an example of this tonight when that dark energy had another go at infiltrating my space, it’s very subtle, I start to get negative thoughts that if followed, could spiral me down into dark chasms. I know it wasn’t me, because as soon as I realised what was going on I did my protection, and those thoughts disappeared instantly. It’s a very empowering place to be, and rather satisfying when I think of the frustration that must be on the other end of that energy, I know I’m supposed to be above all that but you know what, I’m happy be imperfect in this instance, it feels GREAT!
I guess I am still angry about what happened to me and it is ok to be angry sometimes, just as long as you keep that person in your heart. I used to think that anger was a ‘bad’ emotion, but as a response to behaviour that is out of integrity it is quite reasonable and in fact it helps to give you back bone. I had a lot of trouble standing up for myself before I began to access and allow that anger to come up, it can still be a challenge sometimes but its like anything, the more that you do it the better you get! So I always try to remember to have gratitude for those who help me to strengthen my back bone.
This video gives a very clear explanation about the difference between good and bad anger, my mother had a violent drunken father and she came out of that thinking that anger was not a useful feeling. So anger was not ok in my family and it has been a long journey to learn how to express that particular feeling, I’m not complaining by the way, there have been lots of interesting lessons on the way and I am much wiser and more empathic for it.