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The Honeymoon Is Over As A New Life Begins!

Boy_Girl_LoveThe new chapter begins again, my Beloved and I have moved into a wonderful house sit out in the bush, from spending a lot of time together in just one room, we now have a whole house to roam in! Today was moving day and I must confess to feeling a tad overwhelmed as I organised myself, you might think that strange when I have done so very many house sits and have the process down to a fine art.

But this time is different because it isn’t just me on my own, on  a practical level I wouldn’t be here because being responsible for two horses would be a bit daunting. But it is also a shift in my new relationship, this feels like we have had the honeymoon and we are now settling into a life together, a life full of wonder and joy and intense pleasures. Its exciting and fun and somehow we will integrate being together and still managing to operate in the everyday world even when we are spending so much time together.

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Boundaries have been a challenge for me in the past and so this will be an interesting opportunity to balance my desire to melt into complete indulgence, with putting a life structure together. Always remembering that the most important thing is to be happy in my life, as long as the basic needs are taken care of then how much do I really need.

Dinner is almost ready, I hope kind readers you will pardon me as I enjoy my first evening in my new domicile, as my Beloved toils in the kitchen on our behalf. You almost didn’t get a post yet again but for very happy reasons this time!

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Destination Unknown.

Well I’m back in this strange reality that we have all agreed to participate in together and feeling soooooo much better about it than I did yesterday. I was aware of fear and doubt moving in my belly this morning, much diminished from the day before, to me it felt like a shimmering energy moving upwards to be released. I went out into a stunning and hot day to dive into two hours of a yoga class that took me deeply into my inner realms, helping me to process and integrate those swirling energies.

This image comes from what looks like a wonderful business that brings yoga into the workplace: yogaworkflow.com

This image comes from what looks like a wonderful business that brings yoga into the workplace: yogaworkflow.com

Now as I sit here writing I’m aware that there is still movement down below, but I’m detached from it, it’s a kind of stepping back that happens internally. It allows the process to continue as it needs to, but you are no longer attached to the discomfort or whatever feelings are going on. I find yoga to be a wonderful way of moving into this space, but you need to find a class that acknowledges the practice as not only physical, but spiritual and energetic. I am very fortunate in that I have two amazing teachers who support me in my practice on all levels of my being.

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As always I recommend that you explore the possibilities, and find the modality that works for you, dance, meditation, chanting or toning, challenge yourself and get out of your comfort zone, you might be surprised at what ends up working for you. I like having as many tools as possible, doing the same thing all the time just doesn’t work for me, variety is an absolute necessity in my life. But you know, it doesn’t actually matter what you do, as long as it works!

I’m looking over at “The Art of Non-Conformity” and reading the sub-title, “Set your own rules, live the life you want, and change the world,” sounds like an excellent plan to me, and in my more positive frame of mind it seems much more likely than it did yesterday. I’m still not quite sure of the how but the only way to find out is to keep plugging away, sometimes you just have to keep going even when you have no idea what the final destination might be.

So on, on and onwards, to destinations exotic and unknown!

Here is a video with some basic yoga for beginners, but if you don’t have any movement experience or a pretty comprehensive body awareness then I would recommend going and doing a class. If you do a pose incorrectly you can hurt yourself, and if you learn it right the first time there are no bad habits to undo!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3vLZqPZxZE

I Am Whole, Ohm Shanti…..

I’m getting stronger and stronger as I continue to integrate the intense learnings that have dominated my year so far, with each shift more of me is available to life, the universe, and everything! And this is just as well because I’m sure that things will be moving more and more quickly as the vibration of the earth itself is moving into new frequencies. I am going to clear clutter so I can move cleanly into this new life that is unfolding in each moment on my wonder filled journey into a Golden New Age, the journey into the fullness of us all!

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I find myself issuing challenges to life and aspects of me that fill me with excitement rather than fear, always a lesson to be learned and always a light at the end of the tunnel. The challenge of organising posts for while I am away south, is showing me how I can see the pieces as part of a tapestry and be a bit ahead of myself as a matter of course. So I am seeing the larger pattern that is my account in through the vortex, fun to get the posts in just the right order for maximum impact!

Writing these short pieces certainly is a format that one refines as one goes, each one is carefully crafted till it is just right, or good enough in some cases, yet there is always someone who loves it. When you are creating something new, there is this kind of zing you get when it’s exactly right, the rhythms of poetic flow, visuals and video, quotes………….the whole picture.

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This is a really nice description of holistic healing and the human energy field, getting a flow with all of these, so that they are in alignment with each other, is my intention, so be it, so be it, so be it…………ohm shanti, blissings and love…….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4FrmkWsKQU

And a clip that shows us the implications in the energy based universe that we currently inhabit, what is around us can sometimes only be discerned by the finer senses, the intuitive or right brain side of us.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDmivrnktkQ

Dancing In The Moonlight.

There was a time when I lived in my little garden flat with my pussy cat and hardly saw another living soul, apart from the people I worked with and my brother down the road. I spent lots of time on my own exploring myself through writing, I wrote about how I was feeling and sometimes it came out as poetry too. I also was experimenting with automatic writing, if you are not familiar with this technique, it’s where you put your mind to one side and let your intuitive brain take over.

I remember being with my brother sometimes when we were learning how to do this and there was a particular character who began appearing whenever I wrote, she called herself Milomel. She was very feisty and used to get annoyed with my bro, who has a wicked sense of humour, sometimes she would refuse to speak to me if he was in the room! Sound a little bit crazy? It’s a type of channeling and people have all sorts of ideas about what is actually going on in this process. That is a discussion for another post, in this particular example it eventually became very clear who Milomel was, and where she had come from.

This wild woman was a part of me that had split off when I was 12 years old, I even found the frozen moment in time when I saw something that shocked me deeply, and which I knew on some level signified the end of my parent’s marriage. I had completely forgotten it until Milomel came back and reminded me, this is an example of a soul fragment coming to search for me rather than the other way around.

I don’t actually remember how I came to the process of finally integrating my wild woman back into myself, I recall lying on my bed for a number of hours while it went on. I knew nothing then about soul retrieval, I was simply following my instincts, the natural impulse towards wholeness that I believe lies within us all. This was an important time for me in that journey, every time you heal  a part of yourself you take a step forward but some steps are more critical than others.

It’s so important to be able to allow yourself to be wild, to rebel and get angry, to dance in the moonlight or flirt with the handsome man on the other side of the room. Twenty years later I am truly reaping the rewards of that intuitive search conducted by my earlier self, thank you little Kerry, I acknowledge and honour you for your courage.

Without you then, I wouldn’t be here now! Love and blissings all round………..

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