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Self-Care And Ritual In The Sea Of Love.

body wisdomI’ve just experienced a very intense wave of sickness moving through me very quickly, what seemed a clearing cold began to plummet until I felt simply awful. And it appears to be moving on and out just as quickly now as I write these words, feeling like a fresh wind has expelled a whole lot of toxicity from my system. It feels like my body knows what it is doing and if I can mostly stay out of my own way then I can let that tuning run the essentials.

My focus is on the energetic relationship that I am forming with my Beloved every day that we are together, it is my main spiritual practice. This is the practice you can always find time for, for us love-making is extremely important so inspiration can always be found. And we talk, we talk a lot because we spend an enormous amount of time together, we are always letting each other know how we feel. Actually you get so tuned in to the other person you just know anyway, and you don’t have to be a practicing psychic to be able to do that either.

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I find ritual very helpful, lighting a candle and stating intentions and chanting can be a powerful way of staying attuned to the flow of energies, in relationship and in the larger community. Following a spiritual path has been the most important motivation for me on the journey I have had in this life. Finding a life partner who has the same strong urge to be a seeker has been the most ecstatic experience of my life so far. Together we keep pushing the envelope on that one and I hope we always will!

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At this precise moment my immune system is coming back after a decent workout, slow gradual build over a few days and then whammy. Knock you flat for 24 hours and then feeling the energy coming back into your system just as quickly. Being careful though not to push myself so I can heal sufficiently to do some work tomorrow afternoon and overnight. So in the light of that I shall say goodnight and fare well all you fine ladies and gentlemen!

Harvest Time: Opening Deeper All The Time.

The LoversHere is a post that I wrote on December 4 last year, I was scrolling back through when this one caught my eye and at the risk of being a bit mushy, I smiled at what I wrote just days after my Beloved and I came together for the first time. So here it is from the perspective of almost eight months later and it keeps getting better and that kundalini energy is still surging with plenty of zest! Looking forward to seeing my darling tomorrow night after four days apart!

Energy rises through the column of space and time that is me in this particular place known as planet Earth, it coils with sensuous grace as my kundalini bursts forth, the final shackles thrown away as I dance out of prison into the light. Luscious thoughts snaking through a mind that cannot seem to hold on to a worry or a doubt, letting the fresh breeze of my new beginning blow away anything that will not serve in this Golden New Age of love and prosperity.

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Heart opens and opens, sending a delicious thrill to the nipples who are singing a song of creativity and flow, of surrender to the force of life and a spiral upwards into the pure space of inspiration. Tender distraction tugs at a mind doing its best to stay focused on the everyday, luring my thoughts into memory of touch and sound, of vibrating cells and a magical time out of time, a place you never really want to leave. So the trick then is to somehow stay there even as life pulls you into  its stream, bringing with you the sense of joy and discovery, of playfulness and love.

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Time to merge everything into the wholeness that is where it all began, a circle that circles within a circle, drawing our spirits into the centre of the heart, the place where transformation is a daily event. That fire will purify even the darkest of thoughts and actions and give wings to the angels who have lost their way, halos knocked askew as they go searching for the meaning to an ever-changing life. Fly with good intention and the winds of desire will always lift you up into a place where you will see the whole shebang from the perspective of an eagle, with clarity too.

Harvest Time.

Gallop Apace Oh Lover Of Mine!

phaeton R and JGallop apace, you fiery-footed steeds,
Towards Phoebus’ lodging: such a wagoner
As Phaethon would whip you to the west,
And bring in cloudy night immediately.
Spread thy close curtain, love-performing night,
That runaway’s eyes may wink and Romeo
Leap to these arms, untalk’d of and unseen.
Lovers can see to do their amorous rites
By their own beauties; or, if love be blind,
It best agrees with night. Come, civil night,
Thou sober-suited matron, all in black,
And learn me how to lose a winning match,
Play’d for a pair of stainless maidenhoods:
Hood my unmann’d blood, bating in my cheeks,
With thy black mantle; till strange love, grown bold,
Think true love acted simple modesty.
Come, night; come, Romeo; come, thou day in night;
For thou wilt lie upon the wings of night
Whiter than new snow on a raven’s back.
Come, gentle night, come, loving, black-brow’d night,
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess’d it, and, though I am sold,
Not yet enjoy’d: so tedious is this day
As is the night before some festival
To an impatient child that hath new robes
And may not wear them. O, here comes my nurse,
And she brings news; and every tongue that speaks
But Romeo’s name speaks heavenly eloquence.

This was my audition piece for NIDA many years ago, I have often thought of it since I found my Beloved six months ago, especially in the first couple of months when we would have sometimes three or four days apart. Waiting for him to arrive I felt like Juliet who is desperately longing to lose her maiden hood to her beloved Romeo.

From Franco Zeffirelli's film of Romeo and Juliet.

From Franco Zeffirelli’s film of Romeo and Juliet.

If you are not familiar with Shakespeare I invite you to read carefully through the words and think about what the imagery is saying to describe Juliet’s feelings, essentially she is hanging out for darkness when Romeo is due to arrive. It is a lovely state of flurried feelings and excitement and delighted anticipation and feeling like you just can’t wait!

Almost feels like that time for us now as we have just celebrated our six month anniversary, we made it a special day and it was simple and yet amazing and our relationship feels like it has hotted up again, if that’s possible. Ritual is a wonderful way to add power to our intentions and help us to go deeper, and it can be completely spontaneous. Juliet, I know exactly how you feel honey, you go for it girl!

Flying Into The Mystery, As I Fall Apart!

falling apartI was getting ready to go and visit a friend in hospital yesterday and as I put my bag on my shoulder I felt a sudden and sharp pain in my right neck and shoulder. A few gentle stretches and I was on my way but I could feel the soreness in my body and this gradually got worse as the day went on, felt like I was falling apart! I began to notice other aches in my body and realised that my second yoga class for the year (yes I did finally make it!) had really had quite an impact.

There is the obvious fact that if you are not stretching so often the muscles are going to end up a bit sore when you actually do get to it, but as always I tend to contemplate a bigger picture when I consider physical manifestations such as aches and pains. Love making is a place where a lot of my therapy happens these days, it can be enormously helpful in moving energies that are active in the body and so assist in clearing out old patterns. So there was quite a lot coming up for me and at one point I could ‘see’ this black shape in my neck, it was a rough black shape a bit like an infinity symbol.

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It seemed to dissolve with the movement of energy so I think it was released but it will probably be something I will check on when I am on my medicine journey tonight. My intention will revolve around physical healing as that is what is coming up strongly for me at the moment, the bladder is still behaving itself at present but I when I tune in I can feel that it is still not in an optimum state of health. My experience on journeys is that my intention is always addressed but often I get a much bigger and broader picture so it will be interesting to see what comes up.

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I feel very ‘open’ which is a great space to be in when going into the mystery, the trick is to state your intention and then to let it go and surrender to the process. What a fortunate life I do lead where I have the opportunity to go on grand adventures into my inner realms, with beautiful facilitators who hold a deep and respectful space that I can dive into, carried on the wings of trust.

Fly, fly high, let the earth touch the sky………………an inspirational song from the fabulous Deva Premal and Miten, enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKYgA2JaufY

 

 

 

Love Thy Enemies And Save The World.

swanloveheartSend your enemies love, the people who knock you out of your heart are the ones we need to love the most! Really truly, that’s my nefarious plan, to create so much love in the world that people will have no choice but to recognise that they are all interconnected and might as well get along. So if you do try out that simple practice of loving everyone you are actually contributing to the cause of world peace, who knows you may even get a Nobel prize one day.

As I am writing this I have to recognise that I am offering this up to you my readers, not just in the spirit of sharing it with your good selves, but also as a timely reminder to myself. In the last little while I have managed to live up to this lofty purpose for the most part but I am human and so there are times when I get triggered and don’t handle it well. Practicing love with EVERYONE will be very uplifting especially if added to the already sweet taste of soul mate bliss. Ok so that is starting to sound a bit chocolate box isn’t it? But that’s how it is, I didn’t really feel like writing a post, would much rather be lying around gazing into my lover’s eyes.

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But I couldn’t desert this tale of inner journeys and sensual delight, dastardly doings and love’s gentle bliss, the stillness of nature, on a star I do wish! And my reward today is to find fresh intention in assisting the world to become a happier place, one bit of consciousness at a time……………..

So be it, so be it, so be it.

 

A Life Fragrant With Gratitude: Be In Your Heart.

hearttreeApologies to those reading my posts at the moment, they have suddenly lost their format and the lovely picture of me toning my name seems to have completely disappeared! I don’t have time to do more than write my post so will have to hope that someone somewhere is frantically working to fix the sorry mess and that I will come back to my beautiful creation to find it is in harmony again. (Seems like it is now sorted and it was only going wonky at my end!)  Thinking of what I am grateful for helps to bring me back into my heart, the best place to be no matter what is going on around me.

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Gratefulness in the character is like fragrance in the flower. 

A person however learned and qualified in his life’s work, in
whom gratefulness is absent, is devoid of that beauty of character
which makes the personality fragrant.

If we answer every little deed of kindness with appreciation,
we develop in our nature the spirit of gratefulness; and by
learning this we rise to that state where we begin to realize
God’s goodness toward us, and for this we can never be grateful
enough to His/Her divine compassion.

The great Sufi poet Sa’di teaches gratefulness as being the means
of attracting that favour, forgiveness, and mercy of God upon us
in which is the salvation of our soul.  

There is much in life that we can be grateful for, in spite of all the
difficulties and troubles of life.  Sa’di says, “The sun and moon,
and the rain and clouds, all are busy to prepare your food for you,
and it is unfair indeed if you do not appreciate it in thanksgiving.”

God’s goodness is something one cannot learn to know at once; it
takes time to understand it.  But little actions of kindness which we
receive from those around us we can know, and we can be thankful
if we want to be.  In this way man develops gratefulness in his nature,
and expresses it in his thought, speech, and action as an exquisite

form of beauty.

~ Inayat Khan

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And perhaps the magic of gratitude will help to smooth the path as I feel the movement of ancient fears, they sit in my heart in this moment and the trick is to let them keep moving, sit with the feeling. I have made moves to find a time to do my next therapy session, possibly tomorrow and my body is beginning to respond to my intention. Anyway, it’s all good, life is a grand opportunity for a rich array of beingness to be inhaled and explored, the oneness from which we all come!

The Terror Lives Again In Order To Let Go.

medicine circle childrenAs you read this I am already on my journey as I sit in the medicine circle and go deeper and deeper, surrendering to my intention to explore the terror that has been coming up for me, and seeking insight for the physical issues that I am sure are connected. I may not find anything that I will be able to convey to you in words that would make any sense, but I will know in my body, what the next steps in the course of my healing shall be.

Actually I already know what one of the next steps will be, another therapy session known sometimes as body based psychotherapy, I’ve just had one and even more seems to be coming up. And it was even more intense this time, I knew it was just energy and that it would pass but I struggled to separate myself from the terror which was overwhelming. When another session was suggested I felt enormous reluctance, a sure sign post that this is the direction that will help to uncover and release whatever is ready to go.

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I cannot begin to describe what the terror feels like, I think I now have a little bit of insight into how it is for those who suffer with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. The last time it happened there were two parts of me, one was observing and the other lost in the terror, try as I might I couldn’t fully separate from the panic but at least there was an awareness that it was just energy, that I was perfectly safe with my lover. He was holding space for me and letting me be where I needed to be while at the same time assuring me that I was safe. I had to have the light on for a while in order to feel safe enough not to totally freak out!

I remind myself that those feelings of terror have been inside me for a very long time and were impacting my well-being even when buried deep in my soul. So when I let them keep moving and truly let go, that part of me gets freed up, I get to be more of who I am, all of me. But sometimes getting to that place can be a bit scary, luckily I have all kinds of loving support, see you on the other side!