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Speaking Whose Truth, The Heart And The Head As They Dance!

Heart head funnyMore challenges in the constant sea of change as I continue to grow into my larger self, speaking my truth and getting clear on what that truth may actually be for me. That is important to remember, the truth is a very, very large thing and it may not be exactly the same for each and every one of us. I have had a situation where I was saying yes with my intuition even though my head thought it was a really bad idea. I was exploring the notion of being in complete trust and saying yes to choices that my logical mind thought I should say no to. It didn’t seem to make a whole lot of difference to events, it brought ‘stuff’ up which I got the opportunity to release.

higher self

Then things changed and my head and my heart came together and agreed with the original conclusions of the logical brain. From the outside it might appear that I suddenly changed but it was an ongoing process of exploring the balance between trust and setting boundaries. I realised that assumptions had been made all over the place and that I still have some work to do when it comes to clear communication in the world. Well the important thing is to see the patterns that don’t support me and have the courage to change them. And to trust that by meeting this opportunity for growth with as much authenticity and truth as I can, I will continue to grow in being able to receive abundance!

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I already have so much in the way of blissful blessings, not the least being my dearest Beloved, the Light of my life! That is my rock and my home, in the arms of the Beloved do I lay.

passionate embrace

Bless………….

Freedom Through Personal Power!

Ecstatic Dance SilhouetteIn my dance with the prospect of bureaucratic nightmares I kept telling myself I would have a really productive day. And my definition of that was that I was happy and content and that the things that truly needed to be done, were done! A lot of being in the moment and in the body with walking and dogs and dancing, lots of it all in just a few days so legs are sore but spirit is nourished. When I dropped in to my body’s desire I knew that I wanted to be free and independent and in my power. To believe in myself and what I want to create in this next phase of my exciting life with my wonderful Beloved. Who knows maybe we will even get back to running a workshop before too long.

Check out this amazing artist Gaia Orion! http://wisewomanmentor.com/art-gallery/1301431

Check out this amazing artist Gaia Orion! http://wisewomanmentor.com/art-gallery/1301431

So I decided to go it alone and put my time and energy and focus as much as possible on to positive activities. They may involve animals or gardens at a house sit or marketing or research for various work projects. We have our new home base and it is just perfect for us, like our own little flat in town that we can drop in to any time. And probably see clients there too so although there is still a lot of change it is all starting to feel like it might be settling down a bit. As much as it ever does in these times of shifting sands!

body in space

There will probably be fears coming up as I move forward into these changing times and it will be a grand opportunity to let go of more of what is in the way of me stepping into my power. That was what my two dances were about, the one my Beloved and I ran and the one I attended that was facilitated by 5Rythms teacher Honor Morningstar. Dance is definitely good medicine for me, I will have to try and get into Brisbane some time for more dancing. Maybe in and out of the city with car pooling might make it a bit easier, hard enough having to go off the hill, in to the city can be a bit too much for us country folk.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

Guess I will keep listening to that inner voice that seems to be taking me in positive directions in my life. Easier to do when you have had a lot of feedback that tells you that your intuition is generally correct. Even I have to start believing in myself when it gets confirmed over and over again.

Aho!

A Psychic Reading With Kerry.

brain intention energyI generally begin a reading with the question, “Is there anything particular you would like to focus on? Some folks have very specific questions they want answered while others may simply be looking for a little direction or guidance. Curiosity or a sense that having a reading might be a good idea can also draw people to seek me out. If they don’t have a specific issue or question then I often say to them to, “Hold the question ‘what do I need to know'” in their mind’s eye, as they handle the cards. So having some kind of intention is a very good place to start, it’s something that is helpful in any process where you are exploring the inner realms.

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The next step is for me to open myself up to spirit as I ask for how many cards are required in the spread. Then when they have been chosen I lay them out intuitively, the pattern is rarely exactly the same. If I am doing a reading online or by phone I am a little less formal with the cards and will often pull them out as I go, whichever the medium the message is the same. The cards are a focus  but what you get is much more than simply an explanation of the meaning of a particular card. The same card can turn up in different people’s readings and even though it has a certain ‘feel’ to it, what I say to each person may be quite different. I don’t ‘think’ about it with my mind, I allow my intuitive self to open and allow the information to come rolling in. It is a capacity that we all have but like anything the more that you practice it the better you get.

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From this point the reading will take shape according to many factors, in a way each reading I do has its own life and shape. I may do most or all of the talking, or my client may have lots of questions about what is coming up. Even if I am doing most of the talking it is very much an interactive process with a deeper exchange occurring  below the surface level of words and the conscious mind. You can ask as many questions as you like, more and more I find strong and clear responses coming through and if there is any uncertainty about which way something might go that is usually clear as well. I always try to be as honest as I can about what I am saying, if it looks tough then I do call a spade a spade!

We are all connected by energy in a quantum universe.

We are all connected by energy in a quantum universe.

I’ve also done quite a few readings for couples, some newly weds and they always seem quite delighted with the process. Luckily I didn’t see any break ups for any of those couples, but if it was there I would find a way to convey the message. Even the challenges in my readings can be seen as opportunities to expand and grow, sometimes letting go can be a part of that. We might indeed need to consider ending a relationship or friendship, sometimes we are letting go of our own limiting beliefs. I am reminded of the chinese character for crisis, there are two symbols, one means danger and the other opportunity.

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Photo by Steve Swayne.

Photo by Steve Swayne.

So if you are a seeker looking for guidance on your path, if you are simply curious, go to the contact page and either send me an email or a text with details of how you would like to connect with me for a reading.

 

My Story As A Reader: I’m Not Psychic She Said!

A younger me in my mid to late thirties when I used to do markets and festivals with my mother, being a hippy is something I haven't given up!

A younger me in my mid to late thirties when I used to do markets and festivals with my mother, being a hippy is something I haven’t given up!

I’d like to tell you a bit about how I got into doing psychic readings, an interesting direction for someone who as a teenager used to say, “Oh no I’m not psychic, that’s mum’s department.” It all began when my mother gave me the Mythic Tarot when I was 17 years old, a year or so after my father killed himself. I was pretty messed up as you can imagine and I spent many all nighters trying to make sense of all the confusion whirling around inside of me. The tarot cards quickly became an important tool for me and I did reading after reading for myself, in this way I came to know the cards.

A couple of cards from the Mythic Tarot: The Lovers and the 3 of Cups.

A couple of cards from the Mythic Tarot: The Lovers and the 3 of Cups.

In my early twenties I began doing readings for friends and over time I began to make more and more sense of what the cards were telling me. All of a sudden a pattern would reveal itself and I could see how the cards in a layout were connecting with each other. Eventually I became confident enough to start charging people for readings and judging by the responses I got the readings were pretty accurate. My mother always used to say that I gave an overview of the current situation in a nutshell, with the possibilities for the future radiating out from that place.

A radiating pattern in nature in one of the beautiful gardens we have looked after.

A radiating pattern in nature in one of the beautiful gardens we have looked after.

Over the years there has been a continuing evolution and expansion of my intuition that is directly related to my obsessive focus on self-healing. As I have healed layer upon layer of trauma I have become a much clearer channel for spirit to flow through. It’s a bit like cleaning a saucepan that you’ve burnt something in, at first it seems like it will never get clean no matter how long you spend scrubbing it. But if you persist and keep coming back to it there is a magical moment when you can see that it will come good, the darkness begins to disappear and the possibility of wholeness is all lit up.

All lit up like this wind chime!

All lit up like this wind chime!

A couple of years ago I got a kick up the bum from spirit in the form of a client who I connected with quite briefly, he encouraged me to get rid of the cards completely! But it wasn’t about me slavishly following his suggestions, his role was to shake me up and to get me thinking about the way I was doing my readings. Over thirty-three years of using the mythic tarot I had become so familiar with the cards that I had fallen into a bit of a rut. So I got a new pack of cards and I completely let go of the particular layout that I had been doing for so long. Now I channel through how many cards we need and the layout follows no set pattern, it’s interesting to see how the way the cards are placed adds extra meaning to it all.

spiritual awakening

At the same time I have been reaching that place where bits of me have become very clear and it’s so much easier for the information to come through, I simply step out of the way! It’s easier for me and generally makes for more accurate readings too. My studies in counselling and my work as a crisis counsellor have also helped enormously in the way that I communicate the information that comes through for my clients. In fact I am enjoying doing readings now more than ever and have decided to make it an even stronger focus in my working life.

Service with a smile!

Service with a smile! Photo by Steve Swayne.

So if a reading is something that you think might have benefit for you in your current journey please consider getting in touch with me. If you can’t see me in person then I am very happy to connect with you by phone or on Skype, payment is easily arranged by pay-pal or internet transfer.

And stay tuned for my next post where I will go into more depth on what a reading with me might look like and how it might be useful in a practical way in your everyday life.

 

Awakening Into Infinity.

red snake celticHere is the final part of my snake story, as I read over what I wrote at the end of 2012 I can see with hindsight that I was pretty much spot on with the conclusions that I drew from my encounter with the reptilian realm.

With the chrissy whirl still going round and round I’ve had no time to research the significance of the snake, but it is a medicine that has come to me before and so I have some idea of its meaning for me. Snakes have the ability to unhinge their jaws and take in animals much larger than themselves, having taken this huge mouthful they then slowly but surely digest their food. I am learning a lot at the moment with this blog, for me getting started was the big mouthful and now as I am doing it I begin to make sense of what I am doing, understanding and integration slowly unfolding through the digestive juices of my mind and intuition.

snake big jaw

This is also a time of transformation on a personal and global level, and this is probably the best known aspect of snake medicine. Letting go of the old is necessary in order to transform into new shapes just as the snake sheds its skin in order to be reborn. I am shifting from the old Kerry who was insecure, felt unworthy, and could not allow abundance to flow in her life, into a new improved model, like going from a broken down bomb to a sleek red Ferrari!

red ferrari

As I engage the gears of this new bio machine I feel the power within, and the life force flows through my being like sunshine glinting on the sea or a beautiful flower opening to the light. I feel enormous gratitude to the python for the message that it brought, it matters not that we are always this magnificent creature for we do forget how wondrous we are and need to be reminded over and over again, in a world that often tries to cover this burning truth.

red head with snake

And the reminders keep coming as I enter into the energy of 2015, the shadow will always be getting triggered if you are engaged with life. And there has been so much coming up for me, and I keep meeting it and clearing and my life continues to get better! I am really settling into my beautiful partnership with my gorgeous man, we have been in a love bubble for two but are beginning to expand that into something much larger. And part of that is me growing and evolving as an individual, we are spending a bit more time away from each other and that’s a good thing. It feels a bit strange at first when we have been together so very much, but I know that it will make our relationship even stronger in the long-term. And we are in for the long haul my Beloved and I.

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

And there is exciting new growth for me as a psychic reader which I will share with you next week. Time to put action to inspiration and see how spirit responds to my passion and focus! Sending you all BIG love and lashings of blissings…….

Mythic Tales And The Moon: Letting Go.

heart-brainI’m supposed to be preparing you for a four-part re-blog of an epic tale about being buried alive for 12 hours as a shamanic ritual. But you might just have to wait for one post because I have a lot of energies swirling through my being at this moment and I think that putting it into words may be therapeutic  for me. And maybe even for you!

catmoonI’ve been noticing this little bit of anxiety in my belly the last couple of days and I do have a big event coming up in the next few days so you may think that is what it’s all about. But the thing is this feels quite familiar and I associate it with my moon time coming up, but not all the time. When there is a lot of ‘stuff’ coming up for me it can really impact me in the days before I begin to bleed. The menstrual flow is a grand opportunity for all that ‘stuff’ to move and to be released from the body. Not just physically but mentally, emotionally and spiritually, you might think of it as a cosmic clean out.

So it makes me a bit sad to hear young women regarding their moon bleed as a nuisance, it is a time when women can become more intuitive, receptive and powerful. It requires a shift from the perception of power to be all in the physical tangible world that is prescribed by the current paradigm. Instead value is given to understanding the realms of the unconscious, the deep mysteries that we are all a part of whether we are conscious of it or not.

Moon Goddess.

Moon Goddess.

Anyway I am trying to harness this power right here and now in my preparation time for going away to the Joining Gathering. It is a good reminder to embrace whatever feelings are moving in me, the good, the bad, and the ugly! As I write this I begin to feel a shift in the anxiety, it feels more like excitement. I know what I have to do, I need to write my story now as a mythic tale so that all the conditions become my path to wisdom and love. Or at least start thinking like that, no time for me to tell you that story so can we make a deal? You go off and give it a go for yourself, tell your life story as if it were a mythic tale. And feel free to share any experiences you may have.

soul artIf you feel like it that is, anyway, in the meantime, FOLLOW YOUR BLISS!

Trust And Surrender Yet Again!

sick_in_bedI have been unwell and a bit tired and so decided to look back at what I wrote a year ago, surprise, surprise to discover that I was sick then too! It’s a good reminder for me as I am not a terribly good patient for all the good advice I sometimes hand out, must trust that the body is doing whatever it feels is necessary for my ultimate health and well-being. And my intuition was working well too, I knew there was a big change coming up and I did hope it might be my Beloved, and it was! What a lucky woman am I!

God Goddess

Okay, so in the end I’ve had to surrender to being sick, managed to get through work and play on the weekend, and then monday morning was spent in bed instead of yoga. That night I started losing my voice which means missing a shift on the crisis phones, guess it’s time to rest and just allow my body to release whatever it needs to. There is a kind of relief in that feeling, trust is often a bit tricky, but one thing I do absolutely trust in is my body’s wisdom.

body-of-light

I did go out last night for what’s known in my local club as a bunya meal, if you are in the community exchange system you can do that, but only on a monday night which is when they have the blackboard with 15 minute spots for musos. Nice not to have to cook and very nurturing to connect with my community, old friends and some newer ones, I even managed a bit of a dance. But before the music was over my voice was failing and that more than anything signalled that it was time to wend my weary way home, luckily only a 2 minute drive.

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The message from my body is clear, rest, rest and more rest! I have also not been so good at following my own advice and intentions, so this evening I will do some meditation and bring my focus to raising my vibration. Probably the Telos Daily Activation of Light Meditation followed by some sitting meditation, with no voice I won’t be doing any toning that’s for sure! In that quiet space I will ask if there is anything I need to know at the moment. I have a sense of something opening up for me but I’m not sure exactly what it may be, I feel that my settling in one place may be soon but not sure about that either.

Not sure about much am I, that’s why I will ask for guidance, and if I don’t need to know then I will do my best to surrender to the uncertainty. Being ok with not knowing is often the hardest thing of all, and yet if you can do it, it’s also a blessed relief.

Found a lovely guided meditation to share with you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrgGouSUUPc

The Journey Into Pleasure In All Things.

Lookout in the rain 2It feels a bit like I am sitting in a poem with each stage like a stanza telling the tale of water moving over the land. Looking out upon the Glasshouse Mountains  in the distance I watch the grey veil approaching as the mood shifts from warm sunlight to a touch of chill, back and forth. The rain which has been foretelling it’s coming in random stray drops finally begins to fall in a steady pattern as the sun shines through the sheets of water. It’s heavy for a time and I turn on the car’s engine and switch on the windscreen wipers, watching the motion back and forth and resting in the vibrating embrace of my metal steed.

Lookout after the rain

The water continues it’s journey over the land and so it passes me, ahead the veil is gone and sunshine and shadow outline the sweeping greens of the landscape, the odd and compelling shapes of those mountains. The wind is whistling and swirling as I watch a tree with a spiky afro that describes a subtle and yet extravagant dance.

Lookout afro tree

Even though my feet do not literally touch the earth I feel her, the feminine energy of this land is strong and many strong women are drawn to this place. But she is there for all so please call on her for the support you need, wherever you may be she will be present, no matter how subtle she is always here. After all, where could she go? Gaia is the universal intelligence that holds together what we know as our existence on this earthly plane. She is wise and if we allow her to do so, she is very good at keeping a balance between all the different realms.

As I sit here the sun has become strong again, shining its glory upon my neck and shoulder, flooding my cells with strength and determination. I’ve got a good feeling about what I am co-creating with my Beloved, Apollo fills me with optimism and hope, and my intuition whispers to me to do this, and do that.

lookout after the rain 2

Challenges will always come along but they can be instruments of diversion, taking us to places we might never have gone otherwise. And also providing more opportunity to feel pleasure as I release more and more of the holdings that couldn’t let me feel it all. And that isn’t just about sex you know, it can be in sitting in nature and connecting with the land you are on. The more deeply you are able to ‘see’ into things, the more pleasure you can feel. Why wouldn’t you want to take that journey!

Oh and by the way, all the photos are by me this time!

Farewell Dark Energies: Be Transformed!

flames burnAs I sit here I would love to say that my burning issue has passed as I move beyond the big party and public acknowledgement of becoming 50 years old. There is some relief involved but the deep letting go that has been going on for the last three months continues so I am keeping on with the colloidal silver. But I am sure that being present with my feelings is the best way to heal all of this, on my own and with my Beloved. I do try not to ignore the physical but surely any condition present in the body has an energetic source, which if treated, will dissolve the physical symptoms.

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Very soon I will be in a new house sit and there will be time and space for my Beloved and I to bring a strong intention to our loving, for the healing to flow and energy be made available to heal the disharmonious frequency. And perhaps some reiki and massage or toning perhaps, a dance or a breath session even and a bit of random yoga, the possibilities contained within the quantum soup are bottomless. I am determined to heal myself, my intuition says stay away from doctors so if I do feel that professional help would be useful I will be going to see a friend who is alternative and who I trust.

In the meantime I am sitting with this and doing my best to allow the energies to keep moving through me, I’m doing a lot of farting and it isn’t because of lentils this time! Feels like it is a part of what is moving through, very visceral, torture, blood, sweat and tears…………….not surprising that it doesn’t feel very comfortable as it is moving out after a long stay.

sorrow

Farewell dark energies, go back into the field and be transformed as I let go of my fear and step into the light of my own magnificence! Hooray!!!!!

I Laughed So Hard I Wet Myself!

bumpy roadI almost decided to take a holiday on this post but my over conscientious  and obsessive nature won’t let me let you down. So here I am trying to make sense as I am being driven along a sometimes bumpy road by my Beloved, as we embark on day three of some much-needed time off. Ahhhh………..at last the freeway is offering a smoother passage………so what do I have to share with you today?

Well the first thing that comes to mind s that laughter is the best medicine of all, helpless laughter over the silliest things and I feel like a child. A child in the best sense of the word, present and open to whatever life may bring to me and full of wonder and joy at the gifts that I already enjoy in such bountiful helpings. Laughing so hard I actually pee myself, embarrassing but true, you see how much trust I’ve developed in life! Well, would you admit to the world that you wet your pants!!

Joy-and-Happiness

My heart, mind and soul feel incredibly open as I continue to move into this amazing new chapter of my life, my spirit dances and my intuition sings. The mind does its best to keep up with the larger me but this morning its feeling a little overwhelmed and struggling to be coherent, much less entertaining or profound.

AN INTERMISSION WHILE WE WALK THE CITY STREETS SEEKING A GOWN TO ADORN GALADRIEL FOR MY FABULOUS 50TH BIRTHDAY PARTY, FOR THE UNINITIATED THAT’S A LORD OF THE RINGS THING. GALADRIEL IS RATHER SERIOUS IN THE FILM SO I’M GOING TO BE HER TEENAGE WILD CHILD SELF, THE PERIOD IN HER LIFE WHEN THE FIRE IN HER BELLY MATCHED THE HAIR ON HER HEAD!

Here's Galadriel being all serious!

Here’s Galadriel being all serious!

I’m back and writing as we drive along, this is the first time I’ve walked city streets for a whole year and it was a tad overwhelming. Since moving to the country I am much more sensitive, it’s less about all the buildings and cars and traffic lights and more to do with the thronging energies of people and devices milling about in a sea of chaos.

If you want to develop your sensitivity and still live in an urban environment then I suggest you consider carefully what kinds of practices might support you in remaining open without becoming overcome by the sheer  volume of energetic traffic. Meditation is always helpful and there are as many ways of doing it as there are people. Any activity where you are firmly ensconced in your heart will give you protection and help you to perceive the beauty of life in whatever environment you are in.

The analogy for that state of consciousness that the American Indians call “Beauty’s Way”, is being in love. It’s a pretty nice way of going there but luckily it isn’t the only doorway, I’m driving the Love Bug quite blissfully at the moment but it is by no means the first time that I’ve travelled that particular inner landscape. I’ve found it through friendships, dance, yoga and meditation, I always joke about toning being my favourite way of getting ‘bent’, I’m sure there are endorphins that get triggered when we are doing things that we love that bring us into openness and joy.

Can you imagine a world full of open-hearted, joyful folk, all expressing their uniqueness in the world and creating a global community of co-operation and mutual care? I can, and the more of us that hold this vision in our heart space, the more likely we are to get there!

Shanti, shanti, shanti………peace, peace, peace.