So it’s a new year and its summer and I really have been eating like crazy and the sugar monster is like totally out of the box! Not that previous phases of being naturally good have gone to waste either, I have good habits like starting every day with water and herbal teas. In fact this is an opportunity to let go of more layers of old beliefs and the coping mechanisms that used to support them. All in the grand cause of developing optimum health that doesn’t require me to feel like I’m missing out on something. I used to think herbal tea was boring, now I just adore my cup of dieters tea which contains dandelion leaf, celery leaf and fennel.
So the day starts well but all too often it begins to include stuff like chocolate bars or even chips or twisties! Cakes to go with my coffee and even when it’s raw you can still have too much of a good thing, even when it is made with something other than refined sugar. I find it easy to avoid processed foods when it comes to savoury but when the sugar addict is hungering for her hit it’s the crappy food that comes to mind. It is kind of crunch time too for my Beloved and I so fears are coming up around stepping into the larger picture. These fears have big time associations with junk food as it was a very large part of the way that I coped in earlier times.
So as I begin to feel my way into this year I promise to always be kind to myself even when I seem to be going backwards. There is no such thing as a mistake, only divine re-direction! And out of all this change and newness will come a healthier and more prosperous life for my Beloved and I here in the magic kingdom.
I started my last post talking about food as medicine, it’s been a while since I’ve talked about health from the point of view of what we eat but it is something I am always thinking about. From Junk Food Queen to Miss Organic Raw Chocolate that’s me! Truly though, if I can change my automatic settings to healthy and actually tune into what my body really wants and needs, as opposed to the old taste buds, then anyone can.
The thing is that if you go down this road you will become more sensitive, I can’t get away with munching down on the sort of crap that I used to eat by the bucketful. The reason this is on my mind right now is the experience that I had on my last two overnight shifts, as you can imagine this can be a challenging time to be awake and working. I always have a good dinner before I head off to a 10pm start, but there are times when I want to nibble on something even though I’m not hungry. That’s when I reach for the cheap cream biscuits that are always there, and usually I get away with just that little bit. But last night I did that very thing and it all seemed fine until about 45 minutes before I finished at 4am I started to feel really sick.
I navigated it by taking some time and going to the toilet, and then focused on taking deep slow breaths, slowly it began to pass but I am now quite determined never to eat those biscuits ever again. If necessary I will bring my own crappy commercial chocolate to eat, the question is why does it seem so necessary to have something processed and full of sugar when I’m not an addict anymore? I think there is some association with the state of being tired and wanting to go home so it is probably a remnant of the old comfort food habit that I had in a big way for so much of my earlier life.
Something to ponder on but not to take too seriously, I can safely say that ninety per cent of my current diet is very high quality and largely organic. When I eat at my local club the food is organic where possible and always fresh and good, the vegan cafe down the way does the best raw cakes on the planet! So if my body will allow me the odd bit of crappy food well and good, but cream biscuits are definitely off the menu!
Raw Key Lime Tart.