I’ve had a very interesting weekend, on the friday night I sat overnight in a medicine circle and went on the most amazing and wondrous journey in a beautiful sacred space with some very special souls. I saw that I am very much on my spiritual path and the message came through very strongly that I can truly trust my inner knowing. It has always been a strong guide for me in my life but these days I am so much clearer, there really isn’t any doubt of what it is telling me.
I ignored it earlier in the year when I fell in love with someone who ‘appeared’ to be a good match, but that turned out to be a necessary self-delusion so that old relationship patterns could be cleared. It opened my heart to the possibility of love once again, and that in itself would have been enough reason to go on the path that I did. It also gave me some very direct experience with ‘dark forces’ and I had to work very precisely and very consciously to give myself and others protection from some very powerful psychic energies (All The Freaky People: 2/7/13 and Not So Crazy: 3/7/13).
So there can be a case for being counter intuitive, just as long as you do wake up at some stage after the necessary work has been done (Farewell My Love: 12/6/13). I wrote this poem not long after meeting this person so you can see that I did indeed know that it wasn’t really going anywhere, indeed I consider that I had a lucky escape!
I have known thee before,
a long time for evermore,
we have partnered in the dance
and we have loved.
I knew you then, and then, and then,
but for us the dance has changed,
we come together now as friends
and for me you show the way,
to open unto all that I BE,
as the New Age doth unfold,
you open the door and I walk through
my true love to behold.
Copyright Kerry Laizans February 2013.
For the rest of my tale tune into the next post, until then farewell my friends!
There’s been a post brewing in me all day, but until I sit down to write I don’t really know quite what it will be about. There’s a sense of it but it is a knowing that is more in my body and intuitive self, the mind isn’t able to grasp it until the moment that it becomes the wonderful tool that it is, and helps me to form the structure of words that will carry this knowing. To be honest, when I am truly in the flow of creativity the mind is probably more of an observer, it can help with grammar and sentence structure, but even there I tend to feel my way. I remember doing grammar for the first time in early high school, and I always knew the correct answers even though I didn’t know any of the rules. I’d been reading good literature for years, and I just knew when something was correct, it felt right.
I’ve always guided my life by that kind of knowing, but this is something that has become even stronger if that’s possible. When I look at what I have planned for this coming week, I’m tempted to become overwhelmed, but everything I’m doing ‘feels’ absolutely like it will serve my highest good, and it’s therefore necessary to move with ease and grace upon this path. I will do whatever I have to, to make this possible, and that may well mean letting go of anything that doesn’t serve that goal.
I don’t watch television and my shows on dvd have fallen by the wayside, so that’s one distraction that won’t be in the way. I think that the biggest thing that I have to let go of is the notion that it’s all too much, and I don’t have the capacity to achieve my goals. In my last post I talked about beliefs, now I need to put my money where my mouth is, and let go of my own self-limiting beliefs, this release alone will provide enough extra energy to power whatever I need to get done.
I’m also settling in to my new house sit which is out in the bush, there are challenges like a slow combustion stove that I need to learn how to use, but it’s a beautiful energetic space that will support the next stage of my spiritual journey. I’m feeling soooooo excited to be here, as I continue to strip away what isn’t absolutely necessary, what will be left? And what new energies will be coming in, I have my suspicions but am remaining open to whatever spirit chooses to bring to me at this time.
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