A quick update as we move through this in between time that takes us from the birth of a religious icon to the birth of the new year. There are many markers of a new chapter emerging as the great masses begin to revolt against the ruling elites and maybe, just maybe those masses are beginning to get fed up. If enough of us are awake we may be able to move into the new era without so much blood shed but the truth is I have no idea what the transition will look like. As is so often the case I look within for the change that I can become in my own right. I stumble on this path at times and while I have shed many of the charged emotional layers inside there are still moments when I notice I am reacting rather than responding to what is going on around me. My inner teenager says “whatever” and is entirely disinterested in changing this behaviour mmmmmmmm…………… might have to have a word with her in journey space perhaps!
Anyway even my inner teenager loves being out in the bush in our shack in the forest, although the lack of internet reception would probably irritate her if I allowed her to take over. But the more time I spend in this peaceful space the less I care about technology, that will get sorted eventually and in the meantime I am getting to enjoy a simple life close to nature. The garden is drawing me out and with the lack of sufficient rain I have started to do some watering, hope the dam can supply this water as well as washing our dishes and our bodies. This may be the time that I finally grow some veggies and herbs, plenty of room and a protected space to do it in so no excuses. The Goddess is calling me to serve her in the simplest of ways, by tending the garden and appreciating her wonders in every season.
Not my garden! (Yet!)
Tomorrow my Beloved and I will be in retreat for a couple of days up to the new year, time to reflect on all that has gone on in the year that is passing. And the harvest that has been emerging in the second half of the year which will create new and wonderful things in 2017 for the Sacred Union that is my Beloved and I. We will draw upon the extra special magic of this in between time for ourselves and for all beings, may we all be happy and may harmony and a new way of being embrace the planet. Aho!
Awareness and deep relaxation doesn’t always lead to bliss, at least not in the short term! I came home from a beautiful silent retreat yesterday feeling still and empty and was greeted by an excited Beloved who was very happy to see me. In his excitement I got triggered and I ended up releasing with tears and feeling quite miserable. And guess what, it was nobody’s fault! He didn’t say or do anything wrong but neither could I keep from expressing the feelings inside of me. I remembered the little card I had received during the retreat day which at the time I thought sounded like something it would be good to do but wasn’t sure what the precise message was. In this moment of tearful letting go I reflected on the message which was very clear at that moment, it was “be vulnerable”.
Letting go of pain in lover’s bliss, my waters flow as the memories release, of ancient hurt done long ago, energy moves, and thus it is so. I am held and I am safe, I am held and I am safe. I rise and fall with my breath, my heart filled to overflowing with tender care as I allow the tensions of life’s lessons to fall away, along with all the stories that I have stored and brought again and again to the classroom.
Through the Vortex 