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Awakening Into Infinity.

red snake celticHere is the final part of my snake story, as I read over what I wrote at the end of 2012 I can see with hindsight that I was pretty much spot on with the conclusions that I drew from my encounter with the reptilian realm.

With the chrissy whirl still going round and round I’ve had no time to research the significance of the snake, but it is a medicine that has come to me before and so I have some idea of its meaning for me. Snakes have the ability to unhinge their jaws and take in animals much larger than themselves, having taken this huge mouthful they then slowly but surely digest their food. I am learning a lot at the moment with this blog, for me getting started was the big mouthful and now as I am doing it I begin to make sense of what I am doing, understanding and integration slowly unfolding through the digestive juices of my mind and intuition.

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This is also a time of transformation on a personal and global level, and this is probably the best known aspect of snake medicine. Letting go of the old is necessary in order to transform into new shapes just as the snake sheds its skin in order to be reborn. I am shifting from the old Kerry who was insecure, felt unworthy, and could not allow abundance to flow in her life, into a new improved model, like going from a broken down bomb to a sleek red Ferrari!

red ferrari

As I engage the gears of this new bio machine I feel the power within, and the life force flows through my being like sunshine glinting on the sea or a beautiful flower opening to the light. I feel enormous gratitude to the python for the message that it brought, it matters not that we are always this magnificent creature for we do forget how wondrous we are and need to be reminded over and over again, in a world that often tries to cover this burning truth.

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And the reminders keep coming as I enter into the energy of 2015, the shadow will always be getting triggered if you are engaged with life. And there has been so much coming up for me, and I keep meeting it and clearing and my life continues to get better! I am really settling into my beautiful partnership with my gorgeous man, we have been in a love bubble for two but are beginning to expand that into something much larger. And part of that is me growing and evolving as an individual, we are spending a bit more time away from each other and that’s a good thing. It feels a bit strange at first when we have been together so very much, but I know that it will make our relationship even stronger in the long-term. And we are in for the long haul my Beloved and I.

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

And there is exciting new growth for me as a psychic reader which I will share with you next week. Time to put action to inspiration and see how spirit responds to my passion and focus! Sending you all BIG love and lashings of blissings…….

Simply Be: Let Gaia Be Your Guide!

sacred sensual fireFlickering flames caressing the mysterious and ever-changing shape, from a burning ship with the intergalactic council on board, to a mountain with eyes that pop as he receives people’s questions. A circle of fire full of magic and life force, a sacred space for me to fall into on an ever spiraling journey through the ins and the outs of inter-dimensional, trans-galactic travel! When I relax into being my entire organic self in this body now I can experience the most exquisite pleasure in the simplest of things, from vacuuming to making love.

sacred fire dancer

Letting go of the need to be anyone or to do anything, connecting with the part of me that is beyond personality or particular quirks, the essential light that is Who I Be. Knowing that there is a balance that I am seeking in all of this, a way of remembering that I am a part of all things in vivid colour, without blowing my mind. Finding the paths that can help me to navigate these strange future spaces that are beckoning, feeling my way into a new way of being in the world, of being in relationship, of being in life.

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The path can be a little confusing at times, that moment when you let go of control is liberating as you acknowledge that there is intelligence in Gaia that will help you to always know where to put the next step as you walk into a new dawning of life. I need know nothing but that I am safe and warm and my heart is beating strong, the soup is being served and the fire burns away merrily before my upturned feet.

Life is good!

 

 

 

The Path Of The Heart.

Trusting……….that I am always connected to the source of all things, my heart blazing a path that wends its way through all kinds of landscapes. At times the way may be littered with rocks and pot holes, challenging me to be like water and to flow over and through without losing the essence that I am. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death……..I shall not falter, indeed I will embrace each ending as it doth present it’s face to me. And in the letting go of unnecessary things my life force will find new channels, the power of love and creativity making a fire that will burn forever.

Image by George Grie: www.neosurrealismart.com

Image by George Grie: http://www.neosurrealismart.com

Beginning always in stillness……….the vast empty space of creation beckons me unto the void, where there is nothing………. and yet all of the potential for manifestation lies in this emptiness. No need to do anything, being unfolds without direction and while I may open to desire, while I may know what I think I want, always shall I surrender to the higher wisdom that knows truth in a way that my ego can never imagine.

Bringing together my desire and the urging of spirit, my inspiration bursts forth and the bars of my prison are melting into joy…….glittering threads of destiny weaving a tapestry that sings a new song, as a fresh day dawns. The need to know is a fetter that shall chain me no more, I trust life, I trust myself, I am whole…………  I will ever be a part of the spirit of God, Goddess, of all that is…….love is an ocean in which I shall swim for evermore, in and out-of-body, ’tis the spirit that goes on eternal, the flame that has no end, and no beginning……….

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My gratitude overflows……….and I am at peace.

Summer Sounding.

There is a stillness and an intensity about summer that sings its siren song through the cells of my body, along with the heat and the shrill sound of the cicadas, a part of me feels itself home. Times when young mind and body moved inside air conditioning to moist heat, to the perfection of the dry, dry warmth, and the cool, cool night. Holidays spent camping when it always seemed to be summer, and the months reached on and on into an endless time of sand and ocean wave, flies and christmas beetles.

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Today I can feel a touch of cooler Spring air, yet the Summer rushes apace, couldn’t even properly wait for Winter to wrap up her icy wind and misty mien, she came she went, she is gone. The climate she be a changing as so we are told, how can we come into coherence with all things, that we may know the right thing to do for the much larger picture, reaching all the way to the black hole beyond the milky way.  Treat everyone with respect is a good place to start, we all have important gifts to contribute to this beautiful space-time reality that we’ve currently agreed to participate in!

Dragonfly

And be present in the moment you are in, mine is a summery flow that stretches out into eternity, it’s a day with no borders from the senses of a child, when summer never ends, or so it seems. And in this moment there is nothing to be stressed about, life is suspended like the dragon-fly in the air, sparkling bright orange in the sunlight before coming to land on the clothes line. Dragon fly brings me messages about transformation and consciously working with the light to create particular reflections, being adaptable and letting the emotions flow and be aligned with the mental body. The orange speaks to me of the sacral chakra and the continuing release and flow of my life force energy, creativity opening up in new pathways, and Aphrodite’s sweet presence warming my core.

Love and harmony to all, ohm shanti, shanti, shanti……….

Here are some summer thoughts from Josh Pyke:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q1ABbLlKTlw

Awareness Is Everything.

It’s time to return to the subject of sexual energy and tantra, and also to the fact that I don’t always keep my promises to myself, or at least not exactly as I intended to. I’m thinking of a post that I wrote on March 22 2013, called “Ride The Orgasmic Wave”, in that I said that I was going to make the time and space to experiment with energy orgasms, and that I would read “Tantric Orgasm for Women” by Diana Richardson and do all the exercises in it.

Well guess what, I haven’t done either of those things, life has been like a wild storm with the occasional lull, and it’s only now in this relatively calm space that I am coming back to this subject matter. I could get into a bit of self-flagellation, or I could recognise that the huge shifts and releases that have happened since I wrote that post have actually followed the intention that I set, just in a different form. Tantra is all about the flow and release of energy and I have been doing that big time!

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I remember having a conversation about sexual energy a while ago and talking about how I was freeing up my sexual energy and how you don’t need a partner to do that. It was immediately apparent that the automatic assumption of my friend was that I was talking about masturbation, now that can certainly be a part of the process, but I was thinking more about my release of old patterns, thereby making room for more of my life force energy to flow through my being.

I’ve had another bug in my system the last few days which was making me feel low in energy, a big boost to my immune system yesterday and a great yoga class this morning has me feeling like a million dollars. I can feel the life force energy surging through me and my enthusiasm is bubbling over, that brings an aliveness to my entire body and especially to my breasts, which is the positive pole in women. If you are having sex without awareness of the more subtle interplay of masculine and feminine energies, then you may actually find that you are less energised afterwards.

At the end of the day it is the awareness that you bring to everything that you do that makes the difference to your enjoyment of life. Don’t be a sleep-walker, pay attention and be awed by the beautiful and precious nature of life on this planet!

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With great reverence and love and a healthy dash of playfulness!

If you are looking for more information on sacred sexuality I can highly recomend Mukee Okan, here’s her web site:

http://www.spiritfireproductions.com/bio.htm

Warming My Soul.

Air like ice is clear and precise, as it does it’s best to find a way into the warm nest that is me, layers of cloth, woolen scarf wrapping around throat, and boots taking care of the precious feet that connect me to the earth. Snuggling into warm blankets and hot water bottles, the softness of jumpers and brightly coloured beanies keeping the crown from losing life’s energy, the heat of the force of life. The challenge of getting up for a yoga class in the cold, cold morning, feeling the body’s heat rising as the asana wakes the inner radiator and turns it up to full!

blue-melon.com

blue-melon.com

Demeter is mourning her Persephone as the land loses colour, and everything is moving within, into the dark place of gestation, the place in which we may await the coming of the light. With mid-winter just past, the days begin to grow longer and longer, gradually, slowly moving towards the warmth of spring, but until then I shall follow my instinct to dive into my deepest self. That part of me yearns for connection with community, with other likely souls, there’s no need to go apart in order to dive within, my hermit more and more, a distant memory.

And so I activate my body with movement, finding many different ways to keep the fires burning within, so that the icy wind becomes my partner in the dance, providing me with a delicious contrast to the warmth that is me in my furry nest. This summer girl has learned to love the winter months, especially here in the hills where the cold is dry and the mists are haunting, the warmth of my community as good as the biggest roaring fire. My soul is aflame with the joy of a new life, a new dawn breaking over the remains of the old ways of doing and being, the only luggage that I will take on this journey will be filled with that which serves me.

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Ok, so I may still have some excess baggage, I’m a work in progress………..but the load is so much lighter these days, there are moments when I have to look down to make sure I’m not levitating!

The House Of Mirrors.

The fun fair ride continues but for the moment I’m off the roller coaster, now it’s more like the house of illusion where the mirrors show distorted pictures and the maze confuses you until you think you will never get out. I’ve been going to this place on and off, for some time now, and it’s time to get some clarity into the picture, that means speaking up for myself. Oh Goddess, why is that so hard to do????? I managed to make a little headway. but much, much more needs to be said, not to blame but to inform.

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I can feel the energy running through my body, my teenaged girl inside is terrified and excited all at once, she feels such pain and confusion, she also feels hope and the possibility of delight. Years ago I read a book by John Cleese and Robyn Skynner called “Families and how to survive them”, they talked about how if you missed a particular stage of your development you would be looking for a way to complete it, usually on an unconsious level.  Hence the mid-life crisis when hubby buys a Porsche and runs off with his blonde secretary, the adolescent urge has been repressed while he’s being responsible, then something triggers him and off he goes!

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My adolescent associates sexuality blossoming with death, after all she was trying to flower in her pain and confusion, and then Daddy killed himself. So the life-giving force of sexuality is perceived as dangerous, better not let it flow too freely, and with dad gone I have to look after mum and my brother, because I’m the strong one. All this at the tender age of 15, I felt what it was like for her as if it was happening now on my roller coaster ride, if you missed that post it came out on May 13.

Now I have to rewrite the programming and it feels like one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, luckily I have good support and guidance around me, lots of love and appreciation. So wish me luck as I complete my adolescence at the age of 49!

Humour Me Into Ecstasy!

Bursting with life, those energy levels are right back up even as I sink into my misty moon time, feeling the life force surging even as I fall into soft layers of myself. Like the softest velvety petals of a rose, I receive me with all the love and tenderness that my heart can hold, and my heart is boundless, so there is no end to it. The field of love expands and expands, and connects with other fields until we are all joined in that loving tapestry which is the consciously created life, which is living in the ecstatic state that all flesh is heir to.

There is no lack in this place, all needs are met and communication flows so that we may understand each other, at the deepest levels of the soul. Allowing all to be in the place they have chosen to be, even if that choice is to exist in the small cage like shell of the ego. There is no wrong and there is no right, only that which is as it is, the truth is in each moment like the gleam of sunshine on the waves, shifting as we shift, moving in and out as the tides do, bringing us into alignment with who we be.

“O, wonder!
How many goodly creatures are there here!
How beauteous mankind is! O brave new world,
That has such people in’t!”
―    William Shakespeare,    The Tempest

Let’s create this brave new world so that Miranda’s words may become true perception of what we humans can become, the next stage of evolution for these:

” ape-descended life forms” that “are so amazingly primitive that they still think digital watches are a pretty neat idea.”
―    Douglas Adams,    The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

And above all always remember to see the humour in everything, some of the wisest people on the planet are our comedians, the Dalai Lama always seems to be smiling at something, laughter is the best medicine, don’t take yourself too seriously. Do laughter yoga and smile as often as possible, fill your being with dancing motes of hilarity and you will walk lightly upon this planet and through your life.

Shanti, shanti, shanti, peace, peace, peace……………………..

I’ve put this clip up before but it fits so perfectly and some of you may not have seen it, Bill Hicks with “It’s just a ride”:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMUiwTubYu0

Becoming Whole.

Moving from house to house I go on my merry, merry way! One night back at mums and then I’m off to play nanny to 6 dogs, two adults and 4 adorable puppies. They’re little fluffy bundles of curly black surging around me, jumping up and licking my feet. I’ll be there for less than a week but it will be fun to be in that puppy energy for a bit, a reminder of fresh eyes and childlike enthusiasm.

Which reflects back to me the child I am continuing to become, infused with bright energy and feeling a sense of optimism about the future. We are all made up of many different aspects of self, the child at various ages, the victim, the lover, the clown………and on and on it goes, for many it ends up being like a dysfunctional family.

In my huge process of shedding I’ve let go of many of the more negative aspects of self, probably the most important was the part of me that thought I was unworthy, not good enough to be prosperous and do well in life. And as I let go of that which no longer serves me I allow room for more positive forces to be revealed, the new child is one of these and Bad Queen is definitely a force for good!

Whenever I think about Bad Queen I feel strength coming into me, a devil-may-care attitude and a sense that I can have whatever I want and to just go for it. You can spend too much time and energy worrying about other people’s feelings, sometimes you just have to do what’s right for you, and if that doesn’t work for someone else then you  accept the consequences and move on. Easy to say, not so sure about easy to do, I will keep you posted on my progress!

So my internal family is starting to become very functional, they are speaking up and being heard,  the communication lines are wide open as the life force energy continues to surge through my being. Just as well I have all this energy, as I frolic with those gorgeous puppies and dance my way through another super busy and inspirational week!

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Sex Is Everything!

Energy lies coiled in the base of the spine they say, I can feel it curling and caressing my sacrum, waiting for the opening, the opportunity to burst forth with great pleasure and joy. The desire to share this is powerful, but the first step is to bring it fully into myself, to give myself permission to experience pleasure bursting forth in every cell of my divine body!

Oh to have to wait, anticipate……………..there’s a choice to be made, I could be mad that time is not to be had………..mmmmmmmmm not a path that draws me to it. Or I could bring anticipation into every moment, convey the brimming life force into every ordinary activity, into every encounter as I move through the landscape of my existence.

My sexual energy infuses my whole life, I used to keep it in a separate box and only bring it out on special occasions, and my life was the poorer for it. Now as I allow this natural force to flow, so my reality is beginning to reflect a larger possibility for prosperity on all levels of my being. I can see it in my work on the crisis lines where my newfound clarity is cutting through confusion and despair, and helping me to truly HEAR and UNDERSTAND, feels like magic!

I am doing better business at my weekly market and having the most delicious connections with beautiful people, as the flow comes in myriad forms. I am beginning to connect with men who are conscious and aware, and while that may sometimes trigger my stuff it is of course a blessing, because it is clearing the way for more luscious energy to be freed up.

I become more happy with every day, with every shift and release of the baggage that has weighed me down for so long. The times I’m not happy I’m generally moving stuff through, and so it keeps moving until it’s completely gone, and there is a space left inside as my inner realm becomes bigger and bigger. We are so much more than we think we are, I believe indeed that we ARE infinite beings and that love is the fuel which can run everything from the heart space, the place which I call home.

Heartfelt blissings from an expanded and glowing being of infinite potential!

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Realm of Innocence
From your innermost secret garden will flow Rivers of Living Light

In Love’s openness an entrance is granted to your Realm of Innocence, this is your secret garden a place of intimate magic and manifested wonder. You are an extraordinary soul-light in this dancing Cosmos. Your joy, your desire, your pleasure lights the way home. ~Keith Allen Kay