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Courage And A Feather Bed!

Posted on August 25, 2015 | Leave a comment

psychic abilityI said to my Beloved that I felt we would experience a big shift after our commitment ceremony and that things would begin to flow more easily. Since that special weekend the energy has certainly been flowing, as I write this now it feels a bit like a dam bursting and I can feel a part of me that wants to go into stress mode. The money flow has picked up and I am busy, busy, but it is all in the moment so the climate of shifting sands that many of us seem to be swimming in is still operating as far as I can tell. So in order to be peaceful and not get all stressy I need to keep surrendering to the flow and trust that prosperity will continue to flow wherever it comes from.

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Put yourself out there and follow the wisdom of your heart and spirit will give you whatever you need to make those dreams a reality. I don’t know if it ever becomes easier but I do know that the more that I trust and get good results the more I believe that I am taken care of by something much larger than my small ego self.  As Terence McKenna says:

Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it’s a feather bed.”

― Terence McKenna

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I can feel that soft landing, touch, smell and see the magnificent future that I am creating with my Beloved, let the Magic begin!

Aho!

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Faeries Fly At The Enchanted Gathering.

Posted on July 13, 2014 | Leave a comment

magical_fairyAll of the faeries are gathering once again for the Enchantment, from moving haze (see my last post), to laser lights and rainbows of frequencies that carry love and light to all the corners of the planet. Re-reading this post from March last year I feel enormous excitement about this next adventure, wearyness will turn into delight as joy surges through the cells of my moving body. The music starts at 4pm on the saturday and finishes at 4pm on the Sunday, by the time you read this it will be all over. See you all next week, love and tons of blissings to everybody!

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There is a part of me that doesn’t want to ever come back from the Enchanted Warehouse, the trick is to work out how to bring it with me! All that focused faery, rainbow magic that carries the seeds for healing all the worlds many times over, we need it in this reality and we need it badly. You can find that magic in many forms in all sorts of odd places in the world these days, the love virus is spreading and the evil ones are losing momentum as more of us WAKE UP!

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I can anchor huge energies for the sake of global coherence, through the movement of my bodies, physical, mental, spiritual and emotional. Can I do that for myself as the soul, for a moment, stares into the abyss of abandonment, the cliffs of despair, losing the lift under my wings for the merest moment and then catching an updraft and once again soaring into the great blue. Can I allow the new harmonic to truly unmask me and am I ready to face what lies beneath, will it contain my heart’s deepest desire.

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I am lost, and in that losing am I found, over and over again, its relational, its spiritual, it’s the pain and the joy of being alive, it’s the heightening that comes with uncertainty. How wild is my imagination, not wild enough mutters my medicine woman and she takes me by the scruff and rolls me around in her mortar and pestle until at last my armour is all gone. Then we sit she and I and we tone and we growl, and we bring forth a harmonic that hasn’t been felt in this reality for some time, I don’t understand it even yet but I know that it’s incredibly important and I must remember it, it’s sonically imprinted on the bones of my body.

It’s as if the entire fabric of my being is being held taut with a yearning that comes from so deep within there are no words to express it, I don’t actually know what will satisfy this space inside, no idea. Dear Gaia, you know me better than I know myself, hey girlfriend, can you guide me to the best possible place for opening into this new-found wonder, and I’m not talking bras!

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Simply Be: Let Gaia Be Your Guide!

Posted on May 7, 2014 | 1 comment

sacred sensual fireFlickering flames caressing the mysterious and ever-changing shape, from a burning ship with the intergalactic council on board, to a mountain with eyes that pop as he receives people’s questions. A circle of fire full of magic and life force, a sacred space for me to fall into on an ever spiraling journey through the ins and the outs of inter-dimensional, trans-galactic travel! When I relax into being my entire organic self in this body now I can experience the most exquisite pleasure in the simplest of things, from vacuuming to making love.

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Letting go of the need to be anyone or to do anything, connecting with the part of me that is beyond personality or particular quirks, the essential light that is Who I Be. Knowing that there is a balance that I am seeking in all of this, a way of remembering that I am a part of all things in vivid colour, without blowing my mind. Finding the paths that can help me to navigate these strange future spaces that are beckoning, feeling my way into a new way of being in the world, of being in relationship, of being in life.

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The path can be a little confusing at times, that moment when you let go of control is liberating as you acknowledge that there is intelligence in Gaia that will help you to always know where to put the next step as you walk into a new dawning of life. I need know nothing but that I am safe and warm and my heart is beating strong, the soup is being served and the fire burns away merrily before my upturned feet.

Life is good!

 

 

 

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Add Belief To Desire And Be Showered With Blessings!

Posted on January 10, 2014 | Leave a comment

ItstephenkingIt was so hot today I reached a point where my brain pretty much ceased to function, so I found a dvd at my house sit and watched of all things a horror film! An oldie from Stephen King called “It” which I remember scared the pants off me when I read the book, the movie wasn’t quite so bad but there were a few moments when I had goosebumps, which is fairly impressive considering the soaring temperature!

It kept me suitably occupied and one could simply dismiss it as a distraction but I can’t help myself, I’m always looking for meanings in things, and so I wondered what possible lesson there could be in this film for me. It’s the story of a bunch of kids who take on a monster who has been haunting the town of Derry for hundreds of years, it comes to life every 30 years and feeds on children mostly. It’s only the kids who can see the hallucinations created by this creature, the adults have stopped ‘believing’ so they can’t see what is obvious and terrifying to the children.

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There is a moment in the fight against the monster where one of the kids uses his asthma puffer as a weapon and as he sprays it he is saying, “This is battery acid” with total conviction and it works just as if it was acid. The message here is that our belief or strong intention can create anything that we desire, there is also a powerful message in the fact that the friends must band together in order to defeat their opponent, the connection that they have to each other creates a kind of magic.

Nothing is ‘impossible’, not if your intention is strong and steady and you are prepared to accept a little help from your friends. I’m still trying to work out how to apply this to my latest project, the celebration of the new chapter in my life, symbolised by my 50th birthday next month. But apply it I shall, life is currently showering me with abundant blessings so I don’t see why that shouldn’t be the case in every area of my life, time to move into the fullness of prosperity on every level of my being!

So be it, so be it, so be it………….

Here’s a trailer for the movie: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndmNc-rJtbc

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The Pollinators: Beauty And Seduction!

Posted on December 6, 2013 | Leave a comment

I’ve looked at different ways of organising ourselves as a community in quite a few posts over the last year and I am happy and inspired at all of the wonderful ideas that keep bubbling up. The vested interests can’t keep us down forever and the lid is getting looser and looser, will it just pop off one day? Then we can live in our tiny homes or yurts, off the grid, living a healthy and happy life in a gift economy. Or how about a city where the gardens grow up the buildings and it is designed with features such as pollinating corridors, no-one owns a drill you just borrow it when you actually need it, kind of the opposite to consumerism.

Vertical garden of the Musee du Quai Branly in Paris, France, created by Patrick Blanc

Vertical garden of the Musee du Quai Branly in Paris, France, created by Patrick Blanc

I’ve written on all of these subjects and more, and I’m quite sure it represents a mere smidgen of what is actually literally going on out in the world. So there is a positive story going on in a global context that doesn’t get much press, because if you look at what passes for news you might be tempted to think that we have finally arrived at Armageddon, the ends of days.

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Butterfly in flight.

There is such beauty in the world that most people forget about as they grow older, the child whose eyes opened wide in wonder at the arrival of a butterfly on a leaf, is watching reality tv shows and completely missing the luminescent reality that abounds upon every side in the reality that is right here now! It’s films like “Wings Of Life: The Hidden Beauty of Pollination” that can help to remind people that life as we know it is quite magical and we have a responsibility to care for it.

Beauty and seduction is how Louie Schwartzberg describes the relationship of the pollinators to nature, the love story that feeds the earth. His slow motion photography takes us into a surreal world that is always there before us, unacknowledged and unseen for the most part. Perhaps if more of us fall in love with it we will manage to keep it, and ourselves, from the destruction that may still await us………..if we do not wake up SOON!

Enjoy, Ohm shanti……….

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Woe Is Me.

Posted on October 8, 2013 | Leave a comment

Letting go is a theme that crops up in my healing process over and over again, let’s face it, it is a constant in life whether you are particularly focused on your evolution or not. You can go into denial and hold on for dear life but sooner or later there are going to be things going on that you cannot control and so you really do have to surrender, even if you are dragged kicking and screaming all the way!

Kerry Laizans Photo by Antara May.

Kerry Laizans
Photo by Antara May.

I am thinking of my experience last week when I came home from a night out feeling light and happy, finished the night off with some dancing to good music which is always a good recipe for me. I decided that I would write my post for the next day while I was in such a good mood, not such a great move after all but I wasn’t to know. My laptop was not behaving itself and what should have been a quick whip through my emails took forever, it was quite late by the time I finally started to write my post.

And then the magic happened, poetic prose came spilling out of me and I had one of those wonderful journeys where I had no idea where I was going until I got there, and felt awed at the result, possibly one of the best things I have ever written. You’re probably wondering which post this was, well you only got to see half of this seminal piece, the computer was still misbehaving but I ignored my intuition which told me to abandon ship and go back to good old pen and paper.  You know where this is leading don’t you, yes I ended up losing half the post and no matter how I tried, I could not find those words again, they were completely in the moment and my left brain had nothing to do with it so it really couldn’t help me out.

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It was soooooo hard to let go of it, I ended up staying up far too late in a fruitless attempt to somehow change what had happened or to find that magic flow again. And as I lay in bed I had to use every breathing and relaxation trick in the book to get myself to relax, in the end it was breathing in and out through my heart that began to allow me to let go of my tight clutching of what I felt I had lost. And to satisfy your brimming curiosity, it was “Beauty Walks Before Me”: Oct 5 2013, when I completed the post the next day I couldn’t get a good sense of whether it was good or not, it could never match what I had lost!

Anyway, there seem to be a few who liked it and in the end I didn’t have much choice but to let go, it was gone and life goes on……….surrender to what is………..and listen to your intuition.

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The Magic Of Gratitude!

Posted on September 26, 2013 | 3 comments

This post just has to be about gratitude, I’m feeling so full of appreciation for so many wonderful things that are in my life. Sunshine and hot weather, a supportive mum, heartful connections within an amazing community, the opportunity to connect on deep levels with the land, and an absolute abundance of good music just down the road at my local club which is a co-operative. I have found a place to be where my heart sings and inspiration comes from every direction!

But my gratitude for the people in my life goes way beyond the community that I live in, in the virtual world there are many I have never met who feel like the dearest of friends. And of course I am particularly grateful for those of you who have chosen to follow my sometimes whimsical and often quite strange meanderings through my own personal healing journey. Your commitment gives meaning to what I’m doing in this space, I love to write and explore in the realm of spirit but to truly be a writer you need people to read your work so THANK YOU EACH AND EVERYONE!!!

I feel as though I have learned a lot by setting out on this adventure, my original goal of improving my writing skills has definitely been achieved, although there is of course always more to be discovered and learned. But I’ve come a long way and it’s time to start thinking about what my bigger goals might be for this blog. The real challenge is going to be thinking about goals for the future while still being in the moment as much as possible, you may recall that part of my message from spirit over the Equinox weekend was not to be thinking too far ahead.

Sounds like a bit of a contradiction doesn’t it, well I will simply have to find a way to do both, in the extraordinary world we live in all things are possible. And after all I am becoming more and more witchy, just need to find the right spell!

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Abracadabra!!

For a little musical magic here is the Steve Miller Band with “Abracadabra”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWPQQbldFjw

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Endings And Beginnings.

Posted on June 9, 2013 | Leave a comment

My time in this house sit is drawing to a close, this has been the happiest and the darkest of times, here in this fairy cottage surrounded by trees and full of magic. This Princess feels very sad to be leaving, but she knows that she will be taking some of that special magic with her now wherever she goes, what I’ve learned while in this place will never leave me.

Not my fairy cottage exactly but you get the idea!

Not my fairy cottage exactly but you get the idea!

It was here that I took back my power and restored my voice to its proper place, speaking my truth took an enormous amount of courage but has given me a stronger sense of who I am, and what I deserve. I recognised the true character of the Knight, who was definitely wearing armour, but let me tell you it certainly wasn’t shining! It’s a King that I seek as I move forward into the next phase of my becoming, one suitable to sit at the side of a Queen as beautiful and powerful as this Princess is becoming.

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Within these wooden walls and peaked roof, I discovered the aspect of me that loves to create food with love, as an act of devotion. Ram Das talks about his guru a lot, and when he asked Neem Karoli Baba how to get enlightened, he was told to serve and to feed people. Offering yourself in service is a very pure form of love, even if you are doing some kind of exchange there is a completely different feeling compared to when you are doing things for money. I went to a Rainbow Festival once where everything was done on the basis of exchange of energy, and it was a wonderful feeling of open heartedness and true connection with other human brothers and sisters.

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More reflections to come as I ponder the experiences I have received here in my little Camelot, like Morgana in that mythical tale I have had travails and challenges upon my path. In my version of that classic story she is not evil and means no harm to Arthur, she is simply trying to keep the pagan magic alive against the onslaught of the Christian religion. My task is to participate in the creation of a new age of magic and wonder, and while it may draw upon the old ways, it is also new forged, and much of it has not been here upon the earth before.

We live in exciting times, I welcome the Golden Age with all my heart and soul, bring it on!

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Mad As A Hatter!

Posted on April 14, 2013 | Leave a comment

I have my beautiful smile back! Not that I really lost it this time, the couple of times before that I have had problems with the bridge and crown the whole thing fell out and I had to go around with three teeth missing in the front of my mouth. Just to prove that I am prepared to bare myself on this blog, here is a picture of me with those missing teeth the first time it fell out in 2009, not a good picture of me either, but it probably reflects how I was feeling at the time.

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On this occasion it actually went pretty smoothly, the bridge was twisted but it was still in place while I went to yoga and shopped and worked a shift on the crisis phone lines. I didn’t look forward to my two hours in the dentist chair, but I felt optimistic about the outcome, especially when the bridge came out as my lovely young dentist poked around upon my arrival in his domain. He and his assistant were light-hearted and fun while conveying competence, I received a pillow for my neck and was as comfortable and relaxed as one could be in the circumstances.

As I lay there I was hearing voices, if that bothers your scientific sensibility then by all means think of it as self-talk, a communication from the higher self, for me I don’t actually care where it comes from or who it might be. What matters is the feeling of confidence and trust that was conveyed to me, the voices said they were guiding my dentist to make sure he did the best possible job, and that he was very open to that kind of guidance. I could see energy around his head in the shape of a hat, a bit like the sort that the Mad Hatter wears in Alice in Wonderland.

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So in the end the outcome is very close to the vision that I created, the price tag is a tad higher than I had hoped for, but in that respect I was probably doing a bit of the old wishful thinking magic, dentists are not quite as bad as lawyers but they still charge like wounded bulls!

So success in my process of manifestation, on, on to the next phase of heartful, loving, passionate life!

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Sex Is Everything!

Posted on March 23, 2013 | 1 comment

Energy lies coiled in the base of the spine they say, I can feel it curling and caressing my sacrum, waiting for the opening, the opportunity to burst forth with great pleasure and joy. The desire to share this is powerful, but the first step is to bring it fully into myself, to give myself permission to experience pleasure bursting forth in every cell of my divine body!

Oh to have to wait, anticipate……………..there’s a choice to be made, I could be mad that time is not to be had………..mmmmmmmmm not a path that draws me to it. Or I could bring anticipation into every moment, convey the brimming life force into every ordinary activity, into every encounter as I move through the landscape of my existence.

My sexual energy infuses my whole life, I used to keep it in a separate box and only bring it out on special occasions, and my life was the poorer for it. Now as I allow this natural force to flow, so my reality is beginning to reflect a larger possibility for prosperity on all levels of my being. I can see it in my work on the crisis lines where my newfound clarity is cutting through confusion and despair, and helping me to truly HEAR and UNDERSTAND, feels like magic!

I am doing better business at my weekly market and having the most delicious connections with beautiful people, as the flow comes in myriad forms. I am beginning to connect with men who are conscious and aware, and while that may sometimes trigger my stuff it is of course a blessing, because it is clearing the way for more luscious energy to be freed up.

I become more happy with every day, with every shift and release of the baggage that has weighed me down for so long. The times I’m not happy I’m generally moving stuff through, and so it keeps moving until it’s completely gone, and there is a space left inside as my inner realm becomes bigger and bigger. We are so much more than we think we are, I believe indeed that we ARE infinite beings and that love is the fuel which can run everything from the heart space, the place which I call home.

Heartfelt blissings from an expanded and glowing being of infinite potential!

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From your innermost secret garden will flow Rivers of Living Light

In Love’s openness an entrance is granted to your Realm of Innocence, this is your secret garden a place of intimate magic and manifested wonder. You are an extraordinary soul-light in this dancing Cosmos. Your joy, your desire, your pleasure lights the way home. ~Keith Allen Kay

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