The journey continues as the weather goes from warm sunny to windy cold and back to the sun again, all in the space of a morning! At least nature is doing almost all of the watering at our latest house sit, and the chooks are easy to look after. Nice eating the eggs too, when my Beloved gets home I’m going to make egg salad for lunch! The simple joys of life, so much easier than wrestling with things like insurance out in the world. I sometimes envy people who enjoy doing that sort of thing but you know it just isn’t me so I get through these necessities as best I can. There is always some sabotage but I find if I am kind to myself and accept it may take longer this way, I get where I want to be and with less stress.
Acceptance is a big part of being able to move forward in life, it doesn’t mean things can’t change and in fact it can sometimes be the driving force that helps us to do the action required. When I really know something I feel it in my whole being, my body mind and spirit. Even a glimpse of that clarity that can come from truly knowing something about oneself, can open up the door to all kinds of possibilities. In that moment of alignment you can feel into the quantum field that surrounds us and focus your dreams into the space of pure manifestation.
I am a day late again with this post, seem to be in the sweet chaos of the feminine at the moment, very much in the moment a lot of the time. I am afraid that my bladder infection hasn’t gone away after all, had some uncomfortable time in the night which felt horribly like this bacteria hasn’t been dealt with as yet. Can’t see the doctor till after the weekend and my naturopath has gone away. So perhaps the message is to sit with it myself for a bit. It’s a busy time with friends visiting but I will endeavour to find the still space within the centre of it all and be with what is going on in my body.
Shanti, shanti, shanti………peace, peace, peace.
So you want to create or manifest something in your life, there are lots of techniques out there but pretty much all of them talk about setting a strong intention in some way, shape or form. You do the meditation and in time you get what you asked for, sounds so simple doesn’t it, all you need is patience and persistence. See the outcome and let spirit take care of the details. Actually I do believe that this is how the universe works, I just think that there is a bit more complexity in the whole process and sometimes very good reasons why things don’t happen exactly as you may have seen it.
Firstly we are human and often limited when it comes to seeing the bigger picture of life, the universe and everything. So what it is you think that you want may not be so important in the larger scheme of things, spirit often has other ideas on what is important and is seeing with a cosmic, timeless perspective that can be challenging to access when occupying a physical body. Secondly there may be inner obstacles that will actively try to stop you achieving certain goals, early conditioning and traumas that are held in the energetic imprint of our beings.
If you’ve been reading my posts you will know that I have been doing meditations where I’ve been using tools of visualisation to create and manifest my future. Ok, so I’ve been a bit distracted by being madly in love, but I have been doing them at least once a week which is supposed to be sufficient. None the less I have let go of part of that vision as I realised that there are more important things to be focusing on. You could say that I failed in my efforts but I don’t think so, there’s been radical change in my life since I began doing this particular work and my priorities have changed dramatically.
Not through these meditations so much although they certainly have their place in a process that has been going on for the last two years and I think they are good value. I never do just one thing when it comes to spiritual development and all the different methods I have used in that time have played their part in bringing me to a place where I was able to finally receive love in the kind of relationship I always dreamed about.
I will continue to do a variety of practices no doubt and the alpha meditations will probably still feature in my spiritual landscape. But my main practice for now is relationship as a spiritual practice and it is the most powerful healing force that I have ever experienced. It’s also a practice that is easy to do often and with great gusto, this is one example where it is absolutely ok and in fact quite necessary to fall in love with your therapist!
Ain’t love grand!
As you can probably tell I’m pretty damn happy at the moment, does that then imply an uninterrupted flow of uncomplicated simple happiness, with no light or shade anywhere, just feelings of luminous joy? For some of the time that’s a big YES, but life continues to move along and unless you’ve achieved full enlightenment then you will probably still get triggered sometimes. Not just by that which you perceive as negative but also by the moments of transcendent joy, nothing like a powerful explosion of light to show up and shake out any lingering darkness upon the soul.
It is somehow a bit more disconcerting to have those old butterflies mingling in my belly when I am so very aware of how truly amazing my life is, I mean why would I be doubtful when it is obvious that I am a very powerful manifestor indeed! Ok so I took ten years to sort my old patterns out so that I could finally attract a very different kind of relationship into my life but hey, some people never get there, and I learned lots of cool things along the way.
So I breathe into the stirrings down below and acknowledge any feelings associated with the movement of energy, seems to be a lot of insecurities that I somehow am not good enough, you would think I might have emptied that particular can of worms by now! Oh well, stay with the feeling and it will move on at some stage, leaving you lighter and more able to respond to life in the moment, the gift of the present that is always with us.
And who knows what the future may hold for us, might as well be here for the moment that is NOW, what you do then will determine the shape of what you are moving into anyway. So imagine your highest good and happiness, no holds barred, let your creativity shine a light into the darkest corners of self that you may shed anything that is no longer a part of the balance of things. Grow good intentions and love well, be a food forest for the depths of soul, yours and the whole planet, the entire cosmos, the fullness of creation itself.
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Trusting……….that I am always connected to the source of all things, my heart blazing a path that wends its way through all kinds of landscapes. At times the way may be littered with rocks and pot holes, challenging me to be like water and to flow over and through without losing the essence that I am. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death……..I shall not falter, indeed I will embrace each ending as it doth present it’s face to me. And in the letting go of unnecessary things my life force will find new channels, the power of love and creativity making a fire that will burn forever.
Beginning always in stillness……….the vast empty space of creation beckons me unto the void, where there is nothing………. and yet all of the potential for manifestation lies in this emptiness. No need to do anything, being unfolds without direction and while I may open to desire, while I may know what I think I want, always shall I surrender to the higher wisdom that knows truth in a way that my ego can never imagine.
Bringing together my desire and the urging of spirit, my inspiration bursts forth and the bars of my prison are melting into joy…….glittering threads of destiny weaving a tapestry that sings a new song, as a fresh day dawns. The need to know is a fetter that shall chain me no more, I trust life, I trust myself, I am whole………… I will ever be a part of the spirit of God, Goddess, of all that is…….love is an ocean in which I shall swim for evermore, in and out-of-body, ’tis the spirit that goes on eternal, the flame that has no end, and no beginning……….
My gratitude overflows……….and I am at peace.
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With the realisation that I’m feeling a yearning to be on land that sings to me, I am pondering the process of manifestation and how it operates. Finding perfect places to live that I can afford is something I’ve always been good at, so the prognosis for me achieving my goal is good. The fact that I have a good track record in this department means that I have an ingrained belief that I can do this, and that faith is an integral part of being able to create your own reality.
The first part is being very clear on your vision, whatever it is that you want to draw into your life, its good to have as much detail as possible. My vision for where and how I want to live has almost been pouring out of me since my magical house sit, so I would say that spirit knows what it is that I want. I see myself in the bush but not too far from town, a house or cottage with lots of wood, cleared around the building but with the forest not too far away. It’s a sanctuary, a place that holds me safely while I recharge my batteries and explore new dimensions of the natural world and my own being.
Then there is action, I began that today by telling a friend who will keep her ear to the ground on my behalf. I’ll do that with other people and also send an email to the people with the fairy cottage who I house sat for, at some point I will probably bring in social media but for now I will start by putting feelers out into the community. And then there is the letting go part of the process where you release your vision to spirit and allow it to bring your dream to you, having faith that it will happen in the best possible way for you and all life everywhere. Always good to add that bit, its kind of like insurance to make sure that what you are creating is aligned with the highest good for all life.
So I will move in and out of action and letting go, following my flow as best as I am able to, feeling my heart yearning for that deep connection with the land. Allowing the wisdom of my heart to guide me in moving into that desire, trusting that all will be well………………so be it, so be it, so be it.
Here is some wisdom from Abraham on manifestation:
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A dream within a dream………within a dream……that is within yet another dream……interesting concept, I’ve done it in meditation, its fun to see how far you can go back, the watcher watching the watcher and so on. The film Inception does a nice job of playing with realities as a team go into the subconscious realm of somebody’s mind. They plan to go down into three layers of dream, in the end it is even deeper than they had planned, four realities operating simultaneously all heading for a collision point, the shock providing the kick back into current time reality.
Inception: A film by Christopher Nolan, with Leonardo di Caprio.
So all the people in these worlds are projections of the mind of the person we are inside, some would say that is true of the current moment humanity finds itself in. If everyone around you is a projection of you what is that telling you about yourself, doesn’t mean taking on other people’s stuff however, or stealing energy. It’s an idea, and this film really examines the power of an idea, the seed of a thought and how it can grow, shows the manifestation process in some ways, in the guise of an action film. Not normally my cup of tea so much but the costumes and cinematography are extremely well done, the acting of a very high standard, and the idea of four realities operating simultaneously keeps it interesting.
If you ever want to experiment with meditation then try stepping back from the deep space you have come to and begin to watch yourself do this. As you get more practice you may be able to step back again, and again, and so on……..it can be a lot of fun. And you will find that it does actually take you even deeper, it brings in the visual more strongly for me, and that helps the drop into deeper layers of reality.
Watch Inception for a nice bending of the mind, not that hard to keep it all hanging together but fun to contemplate for the space of a couple of hours.
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Feeling the strength that comes with being in my own power, worrying about the challenges ahead doesn’t really get you anywhere, taking action does! Time to truly get my act together, the final clearing out is almost upon me and I have realised that the letting go that has been such a theme for me, needs to be reflected in my outer world, as well as the inner. I’ve lived with most of my stuff in storage for four and a half years so the idea that I don’t have much is something of an illusion. Granted I don’t have a house full of things to deal with, but it’s still a part of me that is somewhere else, time to consolidate all these disparate parts!
Having to be careful with your budget helps one to be ruthless, why on earth am I hanging on to plates and knives and forks, transporting them thousands of kilometres when they are so incredibly easy to replace! Most of them came from op shops and urban recycling anyway, no precious or valuable china in my collection that’s for sure. I am actually looking forward to sorting and re-packing now, a big shift from the anxiety I’ve been experiencing whenever I thought about what was coming up.
There will be an opportunity with everything being here where I am, to go through copious notes and journals from my years of shamanic studies,what gems of forgotten wisdom will I find? The trick will be to find the time for all this sorting but I rather suspect that you will read many interesting and thought-provoking posts that will emerge out of this process. I saw a psychic not long ago who told me I would be getting my stuff in order and doing a big clearing out, I am very pleased to have her accuracy confirmed as she saw a prosperous and happy life ahead of me. Of course I could have told me that but it’s nice to have it confirmed!
And as always I have the support of a wonderful community here, ask and ye shall receive, love and you will never truly want for anything. And here is a quote from the Bible that pretty much gives us the basic law of manifestation:
Mark 11:24 ESV / 111 helpful votes
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
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‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!
I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.
My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am……………….. I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.
Love and blissings…………
This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.
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This time of challenge with my teeth has helped to bring me into yet another stage of my evolution. Not so much the cracking open and clearing that’s been going on these last few months, but more a process of refinement. In my deep reflections and consultation with my inner voices, I have identified my priorities even more clearly and I am letting go of whatever isn’t completely necessary.
I’m a bit sad that my plan to audition for ‘The Vagina Monologues’ has to fall by the wayside, but it was more about a bit fun and, I have to be honest here, showing off! What I am doing in this moment, writing from my heart and sharing that reflection with the world, is far more important. If I am going to focus on manifestation this is where I need to bring my attention, the cauldron of creativity and joy that being a wordsmith gives to me.
As I write those words my heart trembles and expands in anticipation of the pleasures ahead on the road of living with full purpose! There can be no greater joy than to live in every moment with passion, and the excitement of new discoveries, as life continues to enrapture and surprise the grown up child I have become. Once I have established this part of my vocation more,I may have time to allow the aspect of me that wants to strut her stuff on the stage to have her moment in the spotlight. Perhaps I will even write something just for her, that will display her talents and skills to best effect.
‘The Vagina Monologues’ is a moving feast of work with Eve Ensler, the writer and performer, creating a new monologue every year to highlight current issues affecting women in the world. This one is called ‘My Angry Vagina’, check it out!
I have my beautiful smile back! Not that I really lost it this time, the couple of times before that I have had problems with the bridge and crown the whole thing fell out and I had to go around with three teeth missing in the front of my mouth. Just to prove that I am prepared to bare myself on this blog, here is a picture of me with those missing teeth the first time it fell out in 2009, not a good picture of me either, but it probably reflects how I was feeling at the time.
On this occasion it actually went pretty smoothly, the bridge was twisted but it was still in place while I went to yoga and shopped and worked a shift on the crisis phone lines. I didn’t look forward to my two hours in the dentist chair, but I felt optimistic about the outcome, especially when the bridge came out as my lovely young dentist poked around upon my arrival in his domain. He and his assistant were light-hearted and fun while conveying competence, I received a pillow for my neck and was as comfortable and relaxed as one could be in the circumstances.
As I lay there I was hearing voices, if that bothers your scientific sensibility then by all means think of it as self-talk, a communication from the higher self, for me I don’t actually care where it comes from or who it might be. What matters is the feeling of confidence and trust that was conveyed to me, the voices said they were guiding my dentist to make sure he did the best possible job, and that he was very open to that kind of guidance. I could see energy around his head in the shape of a hat, a bit like the sort that the Mad Hatter wears in Alice in Wonderland.
So in the end the outcome is very close to the vision that I created, the price tag is a tad higher than I had hoped for, but in that respect I was probably doing a bit of the old wishful thinking magic, dentists are not quite as bad as lawyers but they still charge like wounded bulls!
So success in my process of manifestation, on, on to the next phase of heartful, loving, passionate life!